IV
For a brief moment Joan sat agape, meeting incredulously the keen, contemptuous gaze of her father. Then she pulled herself together with determination to be neither browbeaten nor overborne.
"Where"d you hear that about me?" she demanded ominously.
Thursby shook his ponderous head: "It makes no difference--"
"It makes a lot of difference to me!" she cut in, sharply contentious.
"You might"s well tell me, because I won"t talk to you if you don"t."
Butch brushed the brim of his hat an inch above his eyes and threw her a glance of approbation. Thursby hesitated, his large, mottled face sullen and dark in the bluish illumination provided by the single gas-jet wheezing above the table. Then reluctantly he gave in.
"Old Inness was in the store this evening. He said--"
"Never mind what _he_ said! I guess I know. Gussie"s been shooting off her face about me at home. And of course old Inness hadn"t nothing better to do than to run off and tell you everything he knew!"
"Then you don"t deny it?" Thursby insisted.
"I don"t have to. It"s true. No, I don"t deny it," she returned, aping his manner to exasperation.
"How"d you come to lose your job?"
"Mr. Winter insulted me--one of the floor-walkers--if you"ve got to know."
Thursby"s head wagged heavily while he weighed this information, and he regarded his daughter with a baleful, morose glare, his fat hands trembling.
"What did you say to this man, Winter?" he asked presently.
"Told him I"d slap his face if he tried anything like that on me again.
So he reported me up to the management--lied about me--and I got fired."
There was a long silence, through which Thursby pondered the matter, his thick lips moving inaudibly, while Joan sat upright, maintaining her att.i.tude of independence and defiance, and Butch, grinning lazily, as if at some private jest, manufactured ring after ring of smoke in the still, close air.
Before her father spoke again, Joan became cognizant of Edna and her mother, like twin ghosts in their night-dresses, stealing silently, barefooted, to listen just within the door of the adjoining bedroom.
"And what do you propose to do now?" asked Thursby at length, lifting his weary, haunted gaze to his daughter"s face. "What"s this about your going on the stage?"
Joan set her jaw firmly. "That"s what I"m going to do."
Thursby shook his head with decision. "I won"t have it," he said.
"Oh, you won"t? Well, I"d like to know how you"re going to stop me. I"m tired slaving behind a counter for a dog"s wages--and that eaten up by fines because I won"t go out with the floor-walkers. I"m going to do the best I can for myself. I"m going to be an actress, so"s I can make a decent living for Edna and ma and myself."
"A decent living!" Thursby mocked without mirth. "You"re old enough to know better than that."
"I"m old enough to know which side my bread"s b.u.t.tered on," the girl flashed back angrily. "I"m through living in this dirty flat and giving up every dollar I make to keep us all from starving. G.o.d knows what we"d do if it wasn"t for me with a steady job, and Edna working during the season. You don"t do anything to help us out: all _you_ get goes on the ponies. I don"t see any reason why I got to consult you if I choose to better myself."
She rose the better to end her tirade with a stamp of her foot. Thursby likewise got up, if more sluggishly, and moved round the table to confront her.
"You don"t go on the stage--no!" he said. "That"s settled. Understand?"
"Oh, I get you," she replied, with a flirt of her head, "but I don"t agree with you. I"m going down town first thing tomorrow to try for a job with--with," she hesitated, "Ziegfield"s Follies!"
"You will do nothing of the sort," he insisted fiercely, congested veins starting out upon his forehead. "You"re my daughter, and those are my orders to you, and you"ll obey "em or I"ll know the reason why. You...."
He faltered as if choking. Then he flung out an arm, with a violent gesture indicating the shrinking woman in the doorway. "You--your mother was an actress when I married her and took her off the stage.
She--she--"
"Don"t you dare say a word against my mother!" Joan screamed pa.s.sionately into his louring face. "Don"t you dare! You hear me: don"t you dare!"
Her infuriated accents were echoed by a smothered gasp and a spasm of sobbing from the other room.
Momentarily abashed by the sheer force of this defiance, the father fell back a pace. An expression of almost ludicrous disconcertion shadowed his discoloured features. Then slowly, as if thoughtfully, he lifted one hand and deliberately tore his collar from its fastening and cast it from him.
At this, hastily jerking his cigarette into the air-shaft, Butch got up, removed his hat and carefully placed it on the mantel, out of harm"s way.
"You," said Thursby with apparent difficulty, breathing heavily between his words--"you shan"t use that tone to me, young woman, and live in this house. More than that, you"ll leave it this very night--now!--unless you promise to give up this fool"s notion of the stage."
"Tonight!"
Joan paled; her lips tightened; but the glint in her eyes wasn"t one of fright.
"Tonight!" her father reiterated with malicious pleasure in what he thought to be evidences of consternation. "And what"s more, you"re going to apologize to me now."
"Apologize to you!" Joan caught her breath sharply, and her next words came without premeditation; she was barely conscious, in her rage, that she employed them: "I"ll be d.a.m.ned if I do!"
With an inarticulate cry, maddened beyond reason, Thursby lifted a heavy hand and stepped toward her.
Simultaneously Butch sprang forward, seized the menacing fist and dragged it down and back, with a movement so swift and deft that its purpose was accomplished and the hand pinned to the small of Thursby"s back actually before he appreciated what was happening.
Even Joan was slow to comprehend the fact of this amazing intervention....
Nodding emphatically, "Beat it, kid," Butch counselled in a pleasant, unstrained tone--"beat it while the going"s good.... Easy, now, guvner!"
Speechless, Joan slipped out into the hall and slammed the door.
Stumbling blindly in the murk, she was none the less quick to find the head of the stairway.
On the ground floor, panting and sobbing, she paused to listen. There came from above no sound of pursuit to speed her on; yet on she went, out of the house, to scurry away through the midnight hush of the squalid street like a hunted thing.
There was no sort of coherence in her thoughts, nothing but shreds and tatters of rage, fear, and despair, all clouded with a faint and vain regret. She gave no heed to the way she went: impulse controlled and blind instinct guided her. But at the corner of Park Avenue she was obliged to pause for breath, and took advantage of that pause to review her plight and plan her future.
Her first concern must be to find a lodging for the night. Tomorrow could take care of itself....
Uttering a low cry of dismay, the girl clutched at the handbag swinging by its strap from her wrist: its latch was broken, its wide jaws yawned.
In a breath she had grasped the empty substance of her most dire apprehensions: the slender fold of bills, handed her when she left the store for the last time that evening, was gone. Whether some sneak-thief had robbed her on a surface-car or in the Broadway rabble, or whether the lock had been broken, releasing its poor treasure, during her struggle with Austin on the stairs--or afterwards or before--she could not guess. But she was swift to recognize in its bitter fulness the heart-rending futility of retracing her steps to search for the vanished money--even though it was all that had stood between her and the world, between a common room with food for a week or two and starvation and--the streets.
It was a fact, established and irrefutable in her understanding, that she could never go back....