"Pipe down then, or I invoke rule K. Well, Alec?"
"We"re going to Kansas."
"Coo! We"re not going that far; we turn north at Chambers. That"s just a short piece down the road, About ninety miles. But you"re welcome to that much. What are you going to do in Kansas?"
(What was I going to do in Kansas? Open an ice cream parlor... bring my dear wife back to the fold. Prepare for Judgment Day -) "I"m going to wash dishes."
"My husband is too modest," Margrethe said quietly. "We"re going to open a small restaurant and soda fountain in a college town. But on our way to that goal we are likely to wash dishes. Or almost any work."
So I explained what had happened to us, with variations and omissions to avoid what they wouldn"t believe. "The restaurant was wiped out, our Mexican partner were dead, and we lost everything we had. I said "dishwashing" because that is the one job I can almost always find. But I"ll take a swing at "most anything."
Clyde said, "Alec, with that att.i.tude you"ll be back on, your feet before you know it."
"We lost some money, that"s all. We"re not too old to start over again." (Dear Lord, will You hold off Judgment Day long enough for me to do it? Thy will be done. Amen.)
Margrethe reached over and squeezed my hand. Llyde noticed it. He had turned around in his seat so that he faced us as well as his wife. "You"ll make it," he said. "With your wife backing you, you"re bound to make it."
I think so. Thank you. "I knew why he was turned to face us: to stare at Margrethe. I wanted to tell him to keep his eyes to himself but, under the circ.u.mstances, I could not. Besides that, it was clear that Mr and Mrs Bulkey saw nothing wrong with the way my beloved was dressed; Mrs Bulkey was dressed the same way, only more so. Or less so. Less costume, more bare skin. I must admit, too, that," while she was not the immortal beauty Margrethe is, she was quite comely.
At Painted Desert we stopped, got out, and stared at the truly unbelievable natural beauty. I had seen it once before; Margrethe had never seen it and was breathless. Clyde told me that they always stopped, even though they had seen it hundreds of times.
Correction: I had seen it once before in another world. Painted Desert tended to prove what I had strongly suspected: It was not Mother Earth that changed in these wild changes; it was man and his works - and even those only, in part. But the only obvious explanation seemed to lead straight to paranoia. If so, I must not surrender to it; I must take care of Margrethe.
Clyde bought us hot dogs and cold drinks and brushed aside my offer to pay. When we got back into their car, Clyde took the wheel and invited Margrethe to ride up front with him. I was not pleased but could not show it, as Bessie promptly said, "Poor Alec! Has to put up with the old bag. Don"t sulk, dear; it"s only twenty-three miles to the turn-off for Chambers . . . or less than twenty-three minutes the way Clyde drives."
This time Clyde took thirty minutes. But he waited and made sure that we had a ride to Gallup.
We reached Gallup long before dark. Despite $8.80 in our pockets, it seemed time to look for dirty dishes. Gallup has almost as many motels and cabin courts as it "has Indians and almost half of these hostelries have restaurants. I checked a baker"s dozen before I found one that needed a dishwasher.
Fourteen days later we were in Oklahoma City. If you think that is slow time, you are correct; it is less than fifty miles a day. But plenty had happened and I was feeling decidedly paranoid - world change after world change and always timed to cause me maximum trouble.
Ever seen a cat play with a mouse? The mouse never has a chance. If he has even the brains the good Lord gives a mouse, he knows that. Nevertheless the mouse keeps on trying... and is hauled back every time.
I was the mouse.
Or we were the mice, for Margrethe was with me... and she was all that kept me going. She didn"t complain and she didn"t quit. So I couldn"t quit.
Example: I had figured out that, while paper money was never any good after a world change, hard money, gold and silver, would somehow be negotiable, as bullion if not coin. So, when I got a chance to lay hands on hard money, I was stingy with it and refused to take paper money in change for hard money.
Smart boy. Alec, you"re a real brain.
So on our third day in Gallup Marga and I took a nap in a room paid for by dishwashing (me) and by cleaning rooms (Margrethe). We didn"t intend to go to sleep; we simply wanted to rest a bit before eating; it had been a long, hard day. We lay down on top of the bedspread.
I was just getting relaxed when I realized that something hard was pressing against my spine. I roused enough to figure out that our h.o.a.rded silver dollars had slipped out of my side pocket when I had turned over. So I eased my arm out from under Marga"s head, retrieved the dollars, counted them, added the, loose change, and placed it all on the bedside table a foot from my head, then got horizontal again, slid my arm under Marga"s head and fell right to sleep.
When I woke up it was pitch dark.
I came wide awake. Margrethe was still snoring softly on my arm. I shook her a little. "Honey. Wake up."
"Mrrf?"
"It"s late. We may have missed dinner
She came quickly awake. "Can you switch on the bed lamp?" "
I fumbled at the bedside table, nearly fell out of bed. "Can"t find the pesky thing. It"s dark as the inside of a pile of coal." Wait a sec, I"ll get the overhead light."
I got cautiously off the bed, headed for the door, stumbled over a chair, could not find the door - groped for it, did find it, groped some more and found a light. switch by it. The overhead light came on.
For a long, dismal moment neither of us said anything. Then I said, inanely and unnecessarily, "They did it again."
The room had the characterless anonymity of any cheap motel room anywhere. Nevertheless it was different in details from the room in which we had gone to sleep.
And our h.o.a.rded silver dollars were gone.
Everything but the clothes we were wearing was gone knapsack, clean socks, spare underwear, comb, safety razor, everything. I inspected, made certain.
"Well, Marga, what now?"
"Whatever you say, sir."
"Mmm. I don"t think they"ll know me in the kitchen. But they still might let me wash dishes."
"Or they may need a waitress."
The door had a spring lock and I had no key, so I left it an inch ajar. The door led directly outdoors and looked across a parking court at the office - a corner room with a lighted sign reading OFFICE - all commonplace except that it did not match the appearance of the motel in which we had been working. In that establishment the manager"s office had been in the front end of a central, building, the rest of that central building being the coffee shop.
Yes, we had missed dinner.
And breakfast. This motel did not have a coffee shop.
"Well, Marga?"
"Which way is Kansas?"
"That way... I think. But we have two choices. We can go back into the room, go to bed properly, and sleep until daylight. Or we can get out there on the highway and try to thumb a ride. In the dark."
"Alec, I see only one choice. If we go back inside and go to bed, we"ll get up at daylight, some hours hungrier and no better off. Maybe worse off, if they catch us sleeping in a room we didn"t pay for
"I washed an awful lot of dishes!"
"Not here, you didn"t. Here they might send for the police."
We started walking.
That was typical of the persecution we suffered in trying to get to Kansas. Yes, I said "persecution". If paranoia consists in believing that the world around you is a conspiracy against you, I had become paranoid. But it was either a "sane paranoia (if you will pardon the Irishism), or I was suffering from delusions so monumental that I should be locked up and treated.
Maybe so. If so, Margrethe was part of my delusions an answer I could not accept. It could not be folie a deux; Margrethe was sane in any world.