Besides--besides, Spicer was a very different man then to what he is now. He"s got so moody and gloomy at home, he hardly ever speaks."
Mary sat silent for a minute thinking. Then Mrs Spicer roused herself--
"Oh, I don"t know what I"m talkin" about! You mustn"t take any notice of me, Mrs Wilson,--I don"t often go on like this. I do believe I"m gittin"
a bit ratty at times. It must be the heat and the dulness."
But once or twice afterwards she referred to a time "when Spicer was a different man to what he was now."
I walked home with her a piece along the creek. She said nothing for a long time, and seemed to be thinking in a puzzled way. Then she said suddenly--
"What-did-you-bring-her-here-for? She"s only a girl."
"I beg pardon, Mrs Spicer."
"Oh, I don"t know what I"m talkin" about! I b"lieve I"m gittin" ratty.
You mustn"t take any notice of me, Mr Wilson."
She wasn"t much company for Mary; and often, when she had a child with her, she"d start taking notice of the baby while Mary was talking, which used to exasperate Mary. But poor Mrs Spicer couldn"t help it, and she seemed to hear all the same.
Her great trouble was that she "couldn"t git no reg"lar schoolin" for the children."
"I learns "em at home as much as I can. But I don"t git a minute to call me own; an" I"m ginerally that dead-beat at night that I"m fit for nothink."
Mary had some of the children up now and then later on, and taught them a little. When she first offered to do so, Mrs Spicer laid hold of the handiest youngster and said--
"There--do you hear that? Mrs Wilson is goin" to teach yer, an"
it"s more than yer deserve!" (the youngster had been "cryin" over something). "Now, go up an" say "Thenk yer, Mrs Wilson." And if yer ain"t good, and don"t do as she tells yer, I"ll break every bone in yer young body!"
The poor little devil stammered something, and escaped.
The children were sent by turns over to Wall"s to Sunday-school. When Tommy was at home he had a new pair of elastic-side boots, and there was no end of rows about them in the family--for the mother made him lend them to his sister Annie, to go to Sunday-school in, in her turn. There were only about three pairs of anyway decent boots in the family, and these were saved for great occasions. The children were always as clean and tidy as possible when they came to our place.
And I think the saddest and most pathetic sight on the face of G.o.d"s earth is the children of very poor people made to appear well: the broken worn-out boots polished or greased, the blackened (inked) pieces of string for laces; the clean patched pinafores over the wretched threadbare frocks. Behind the little row of children hand-in-hand--and no matter where they are--I always see the worn face of the mother.
Towards the end of the first year on the selection our little girl came.
I"d sent Mary to Gulgong for four months that time, and when she came back with the baby Mrs Spicer used to come up pretty often. She came up several times when Mary was ill, to lend a hand. She wouldn"t sit down and condole with Mary, or waste her time asking questions, or talking about the time when she was ill herself. She"d take off her hat--a shapeless little lump of black straw she wore for visiting--give her hair a quick brush back with the palms of her hands, roll up her sleeves, and set to work to "tidy up". She seemed to take most pleasure in sorting out our children"s clothes, and dressing them. Perhaps she used to dress her own like that in the days when Spicer was a different man from what he was now. She seemed interested in the fashion-plates of some women"s journals we had, and used to study them with an interest that puzzled me, for she was not likely to go in for fashion. She never talked of her early girlhood; but Mary, from some things she noticed, was inclined to think that Mrs Spicer had been fairly well brought up.
For instance, Dr Balanfantie, from Cudgeegong, came out to see Wall"s wife, and drove up the creek to our place on his way back to see how Mary and the baby were getting on. Mary got out some crockery and some table-napkins that she had packed away for occasions like this; and she said that the way Mrs Spicer handled the things, and helped set the table (though she did it in a mechanical sort of way), convinced her that she had been used to table-napkins at one time in her life.
Sometimes, after a long pause in the conversation, Mrs Spicer would say suddenly--
"Oh, I don"t think I"ll come up next week, Mrs Wilson."
"Why, Mrs Spicer?"
"Because the visits doesn"t do me any good. I git the dismals afterwards."
"Why, Mrs Spicer? What on earth do you mean?"
"Oh,-I-don"t-know-what-I"m-talkin"-about. You mustn"t take any notice of me." And she"d put on her hat, kiss the children--and Mary too, sometimes, as if she mistook her for a child--and go.
Mary thought her a little mad at times. But I seemed to understand.
Once, when Mrs Spicer was sick, Mary went down to her, and down again next day. As she was coming away the second time, Mrs Spicer said--
"I wish you wouldn"t come down any more till I"m on me feet, Mrs Wilson.
The children can do for me."
"Why, Mrs Spicer?"
"Well, the place is in such a muck, and it hurts me."
We were the aristocrats of Lahey"s Creek. Whenever we drove down on Sunday afternoon to see Mrs Spicer, and as soon as we got near enough for them to hear the rattle of the cart, we"d see the children running to the house as fast as they could split, and hear them screaming--
"Oh, marther! Here comes Mr and Mrs Wilson in their spring-cart."
And we"d see her bustle round, and two or three fowls fly out the front door, and she"d lay hold of a broom (made of a bound bunch of "broom-stuff"--coa.r.s.e reedy gra.s.s or bush from the ridges--with a stick stuck in it) and flick out the floor, with a flick or two round in front of the door perhaps. The floor nearly always needed at least one flick of the broom on account of the fowls. Or she"d catch a youngster and scrub his face with a wet end of a cloudy towel, or twist the towel round her finger and dig out his ears--as if she was anxious to have him hear every word that was going to be said.
No matter what state the house would be in she"d always say, "I was jist expectin" yer, Mrs Wilson." And she was original in that, anyway.
She had an old patched and darned white table-cloth that she used to spread on the table when we were there, as a matter of course ("The others is in the wash, so you must excuse this, Mrs Wilson"), but I saw by the eyes of the children that the cloth was rather a wonderful thing to them. "I must really git some more knives an" forks next time I"m in Cobborah," she"d say. "The children break an" lose "em till I"m ashamed to ask Christians ter sit down ter the table."
She had many Bush yarns, some of them very funny, some of them rather ghastly, but all interesting, and with a grim sort of humour about them.
But the effect was often spoilt by her screaming at the children to "Drive out them fowls, karnt yer," or "Take yer maulies [hands] outer the sugar," or "Don"t touch Mrs Wilson"s baby with them dirty maulies,"
or "Don"t stand starin" at Mrs Wilson with yer mouth an" ears in that vulgar way."
Poor woman! she seemed everlastingly nagging at the children. It was a habit, but they didn"t seem to mind. Most Bushwomen get the nagging habit. I remember one, who had the prettiest, dearest, sweetest, most willing, and affectionate little girl I think I ever saw, and she nagged that child from daylight till dark--and after it. Taking it all round, I think that the nagging habit in a mother is often worse on ordinary children, and more deadly on sensitive youngsters, than the drinking habit in a father.
One of the yarns Mrs Spicer told us was about a squatter she knew who used to go wrong in his head every now and again, and try to commit suicide. Once, when the station-hand, who was watching him, had his eye off him for a minute, he hanged himself to a beam in the stable. The men ran in and found him hanging and kicking. "They let him hang for a while," said Mrs Spicer, "till he went black in the face and stopped kicking. Then they cut him down and threw a bucket of water over him."
"Why! what on earth did they let the man hang for?" asked Mary.
"To give him a good bellyful of it: they thought it would cure him of tryin" to hang himself again."
"Well, that"s the coolest thing I ever heard of," said Mary.
"That"s jist what the magistrate said, Mrs Wilson," said Mrs Spicer.
"One morning," said Mrs Spicer, "Spicer had gone off on his horse somewhere, and I was alone with the children, when a man came to the door and said--
""For G.o.d"s sake, woman, give me a drink!"
"Lord only knows where he came from! He was dressed like a new chum--his clothes was good, but he looked as if he"d been sleepin" in them in the Bush for a month. He was very shaky. I had some coffee that mornin", so I gave him some in a pint pot; he drank it, and then he stood on his head till he tumbled over, and then he stood up on his feet and said, "Thenk yer, mum."
"I was so surprised that I didn"t know what to say, so I jist said, "Would you like some more coffee?"
""Yes, thenk yer," he said--"about two quarts."
"I nearly filled the pint pot, and he drank it and stood on his head as long as he could, and when he got right end up he said, "Thenk yer, mum--it"s a fine day," and then he walked off. He had two saddle-straps in his hands."