She scanned the photograph, and said in an undertone: "Taken last year in New York, and for him; yet you have it away out here in the middle of this enormous desert. He surely would not give it away to you. I do not understand." And she questioned him sharply as she returned the card.
"Who is this Sak-a-war-te?"
"He is G.o.d," said the scout.
"Oh!" she started up. The little miss had never heard G.o.d connected with affairs of this sort. An active fear of the fire which burned this extraordinary man"s head began to oppress her.
"It is very strange. What has your G.o.d got to do with me,--with my--oh, you are joking, Mr. Ermine," she again appealed, a shadow of her old smile appearing.
"No, no; I am not joking. I have found you. I must believe what the spirits say to me when they take my mind from me and give it to you,"
returned the excited man.
"But really--I did not mean to take your mind. I haven"t it anywhere about me. You have dreamed all this."
"Yes; it may be only a dream, Miss Searles, but make it come true; please make it all come true. I should like to live such a dream."
"Oh, my good man, I cannot make the dreams of casual people come true, not such serious dreams as yours."
"You say you would have to live in the corral with mules. Is that because I have so little money?"
"No, it is not money. I do not know how much you have."
"I have often taken enough gold out of the ground in a few days to last me a year."
"Yes, yes, but that is not the only thing necessary."
"What is necessary, then? Tell me what you want."
"There would have to be a great deal of love, you know. That is why any one marries. I have been flattered by the attentions of many cavaliers like yourself, Mr. Ermine, but I could not marry any one of them unless I loved him."
"And then you do not love me," this in a low, far-away voice, lopping each word off as though with an axe.
"No, I do not. I have given you no reason to think I did. I like you, and I am sorry for you, now that I know in what way you regard me. Sit down again and let me tell you." She crouched herself on the edge of her chair, and he sat in his, revolving his big hat in both hands between his knees. He was composed, and she vaguely felt that she owed him a return for his generous acts of the past. She had the light touch of mature civilization and did not desire her darts to be deadly. Now that one had laid this simple nature low, she felt a womanly impulse to nurse the wound.
"Some terrible mistake has been made. Believe me, I am truly sorry that our relationship has not been rightly understood." Here she paused a moment to take a long breath and observe the effect of her words on the one who had so easily lost his head. "No, I simply admired you, Mr.
Ermine, as I do many of the brave men about here. I was not thinking of marrying any one. As for living in the mule corral, I was only joking about that. There might be worse places. I should dearly love a gold mine, but don"t you understand there would have to be something else--I should have to give you something before we thought of marrying."
"I see it; it all comes to me now," he labored. "You would have to give me something, and you won"t give me yourself. Then give me back my mind--give me the peace which I always had until I saw you. Can you do that, Miss Searles? Can you make John Ermine what he was before the steamboat came here, and let him mount his pony and go away?"
It was all so strange, this quiet appeal, that she pa.s.sed her hand across her forehead in despair.
"If you will not make my dreams come true; if you will not say the things which the photograph does; if you will not do what G.o.d intends,--then I must take my body away from here and leave my shadow, my mind, and my heart to be kicked about among the wagons and the dogs.
And I know now that you will soon forget me. Then I will be John Ermine, riding among the hills, empty as an old buffalo carca.s.s, moving without life, giving no thought to the sunshine, not feeling the wind nor caring how the birds fly or the animals run. If you will not marry me--"
"Stop, please stop. I cannot stand this sort of thing, my dear Mr.
Ermine. There are other young women besides myself. Go about the world, back in the States; you will find whole oceans of them, and without flattery, I feel you will soon find your mind again."
"You have my mind. You have all the mind I ever had." And his voice dropped until she could distinguish only wild gutturals. He was talking to himself in the Indian language.
Springing up quickly, she flew into the house, out through it to the rear steps, where she fell upon the neck of Mary, the cook, to the utter consternation of a soldier, who, to all appearances, was there with a similar ambition so to do. This latter worthy flung himself out into the darkness. The cook held Katherine, expecting the entire Sioux tribe to come pouring through the front door on the instant, and at this belated interval Mrs. Searles entered her own porch.
"Why, Mr. Ermine, where is Katherine, and where is the Major? Why, you are all alone!" And she came up standing.
"Yes, I am all alone," said the scout, quietly, rising from the chair and putting on his sombrero. Before she could comprehend, he was gone.
CHAPTER XVIII
MAN TO MAN
[Ill.u.s.tration]
The Major sauntered in shortly and found Mrs. Searles standing over Katherine"s chair, trying to dry her tears and gather the reasons for her grief. Mary"s Indians not having appeared, she stood in the doorway, with her ap.r.o.n raised to a sort of feminine "charge bayonets."
"What in the devil is the circus?" demanded the father.
"It"s nothing, father; I am nervous, that is all."
"Now, Major Searles, I want you to sit down and keep quiet. You will drive me frantic. Why did you run away when I clearly told you to stay here?" Her tones were dry with formality.
Against all manner of people and happenings the Major joyfully pitted his force and cunning. His only thought in a great crisis was his six-shooter; but he always hesitated before anything which concerned Mrs. Searles and a military order. These impelled obedience from the very nature of things. "But what has happened? What must I do?"
"You must sit down," said his wife; and he sat down. Affairs of this kind could be cleared only by women; he was conscious that he could not hurry matters.
"Now what has happened, Katherine? Will you tell me? Who did it?"
pleaded the mother.
"Why, it is nothing, only that horrible scout wanted to marry me. Did you ever hear anything so ridiculous?" said the girl, sitting up and made defiant by the idea.
"Did he do anything?" and the Major again forgot his orders and rose truculently.
"Benjamin!" said Mrs. Searles, with asperity; and he again subsided.
Like most soldiers and sailors, he was imperfectly domesticated.
"He wanted to marry you?" she continued with questioning insistence.
"Yes, he said I must marry him; that G.o.d wanted me to, and he also said he had lost his mind--"
"Well, I think he has," observed the mother, catching this idea, which was at least tangible to her. "Is that all, Katherine?"
"Is that all, mother? Why, isn"t that enough?"
"I mean, he simply asked you to marry him--properly--he wasn"t insulting--insistent beyond--"
"No, he did nothing else, though he went about it in a most alarming way."