"Well, I"m not, am I?"
"No, but why did you say so?"
"Why, you know, Barb, most girls are distressed with doubts of their own love. I"m not. It"s about his that I"m afraid. What do you reckon"s the reason I"ve held him off for years?"
"Just because you could, Fannie."
"No, my dear little goosie, I did it because he never was so he couldn"t be held off. I knew, and know yet, that after the wedding I"ve got to do all the courting. I don"t doubt he loves me, but Barb, love isn"t his master. That"s what keeps me scared." They went in.
The service began. In this hour for the putting away of vanities the choir was dispensed with and the singing was led by a locally noted precentor, a large, pert, lazy Yankee, who had failed in the raising of small fruits. His zeal was beautiful.
"Trouble! "Tain"t never no trouble for me to do nawthin", an" even if "twas I"d do it!" He sang each word in an argumentative staccato, and in high pa.s.sages you could see his wisdom teeth. Between stanzas he spoke stimulating exhortations: "Louder, brethren and sisters, louder; the fate of immortal souls may be a-hangin" on the amount of noise you make."
As hymn followed hymn the church filled. All sorts--black or yellow being no sort--all sorts came; the town"s best and worst, the country"s proudest and forlornest; the sipper of wine, the dipper of snuff; acrid pietist, flagrant reprobate, and many a true Christian whose G.o.d-forgiven sins, if known to men, neither church nor world could have pardoned; many a soul that under the disguise of flippant smiles or superior frowns staggered in its darkness or shivered in its cold, trembling under visions of death and judgment or yearning for one right word of guidance or extrication; and many a heart that openly or secretly bled for some other heart"s reclaim. And so the numbers grew and the waves of song swelled. The adagios and largos of ancient psalmody were engulfed and the modern "hyme toons," as the mountain people called them, were so "peert an" devilish" that the most heedless grew attentive, and lovers of raw peanuts, and even devotees of tobacco, emptied their mouths of these and filled them with praise.
Garnet had never preached more effectively. For the first time in Barbara"s experience he seemed to her to feel, himself, genuinely and deeply the things he said. His text was, "Be sure your sin will find you out." Men marvelled at the life-likeness with which he pictured the torments of a soul torn by hidden and cherished sin. So wonderful, they murmured, are the pure intuitions of oratorical genius! Yet Barbara was longing for a widely different word.
Not for herself. It was not possible that she should ever tremble at any pulpit reasoning of temperance and judgment from the lips of her father.
Three things in every soul, he cried, must either be subdued in this life or be forever ground to powder in a fiery hereafter; and these three, if she knew them at all, were the three most utterly unsubdued things that he embodied--will, pride, appet.i.te. The word she vainly longed for was coveted for one whose tardy footfall her waiting ear caught the moment it sounded at the door, and before the turning of a hundred eyes told her John March had come and was sitting in the third seat behind her.
In the course of her father"s sermon there was no lack of resonant Amens and soft groanings and moanings of ecstasy. But Suez was neither Wildcat Ridge nor Chalybeate Springs, and the tempering chill of plastered ceiling and social inequalities stayed the wild unrestraint of those who would have held free rule in the log church or under the camp-meeting bower. The academic elegance of the speaker"s periods sobered the ardor which his warmth inspired, and as he closed there rested on the a.s.semblage a silence and an awe as though Sinai smoked but could not thunder.
Barbara hoped against hope. At every enumeration of will, pride, and appet.i.te she saw the Pastor"s gaze rest pleadingly on her, and in the stillness of her inmost heart she confessed the evil presence of that unregenerate trinity. Yet when he rose to bid all mourners for sin come forward while the next hymn was being sung, she only mourned that she could not go, and tried in vain not to feel, as in every drop of her blood she still felt, there behind her, that human presence so different from all others on earth. "This call," she secretly cried, "this hour, are not for me. Father in Heaven! if only they might be for him."
Before the rising precentor could give out his hymn Uncle Jimmie Rankin had sprung to his feet and started "Rock of Ages" in one of the wildest minors of the early pioneers. At once the strain was taken up on every side, the notes swelled, Uncle Jimmie clapped hands in time, and at the third line a mountain woman in the gallery, sitting with her sun-bonnet pulled down over her sore eyes, changed a snuff-stick from her mouth to her pocket, burst into a heart-freezing scream, and began to thrash about in her seat. The hymn rolled on in stronger volume. The Yankee precentor caught the tune and tried to lead, but Uncle Jimmie"s voice soared over him with the rapture of a lark and the shriek of an eagle, two or three more pair of hands clapped time, the other Suez pastor took a trochee, and the four preachers filed down from the high pulpit, singing as they came. Garnet began to pace to and fro in front of it and to exhort in the midst of the singing.
"Who is on the Lord"s side?" he loudly demanded.
"Should my tears forever flow," sang the standing throng.
But no one advanced.
"Should my zeal no respite know," they sang on, and Garnet"s "Whosoever will, let him come," and other calls swept across their chant like the crash of falling trees across the roar of a torrent.
"Oh, my brother, two men shall be in the field; the one shall be taken and the other left; which one will you be? Come, my weary sister; come, my sin-laden brother. O, come unto the marriage! Now is the accepted time! The clock of G.o.d"s patience has run down and is standing at Now!
Sing the last verse again, Uncle Jimmie! This night thy soul may be required of thee! Two women shall be grinding together; the one shall be taken, the other left. O, my sweet sister, come! be the taken one!--flee as a bird! The angel is troubling the pool; who will first come to the waters? O, my unknown, yet beloved brother, whoever you are, don"t you know that whosoever comes first to-night will lead a hundred others and will win a crown with that many stars? Come, brethren, sisters, we"re losing priceless moments!"
Why does no one move? Because just in the middle of the house, three seats behind that fair girl whose face has sunk into her hands, sits, with every eye on them, the wan missionary from China, pleading with John March.
Parson Tombs saw the chance for a better turn of affairs. "Brethren," he cried, kneeling as he spoke, "let us pray! And as our prayers ascend if any sinner feels the dew o" grace fall into his soul, let him come forward and kneel with the Lord"s ministers. Brother Samuel Messenger, lead us in prayer!"
The missionary prayed. But the footfall for which all waited did not sound; the young man who knelt beside the supplicant, with temples clutched in his hands, moved not. While the missionary"s amen was yet unspoken, Parson Tombs, still kneeling, began to ask aloud,
"Will Brother Garnet----"
But Garnet was wiser. "Father Tombs," he cried "the Lord be with you, lead us in prayer yourself!"
"Amen!" cried the other pastor. He was echoed by a dozen of his flock, and the old man lifted his voice in tremulous invocation. The prayer was long. But before there were signs of it ending, the step for which so many an ear was strained had been heard. Men were groaning, "G.o.d be praised!" and "Hallelujah!" Fannie"s eyes were wet, tears were welling through Barbara"s fingers, mourners were coming up both aisles, and John March was kneeling in the anxious seat.
XLIII.
ST. VALENTINE"S DAY
One morning some six weeks after New Year"s eve Garnet"s carriage wheels dripped water and mud as his good horses dragged them slowly into the borders of Suez. The soft, moist winds of February were ruffling the turbid waters of Turkey Creek and the swollen flood of the Swanee. A hint of new green brightened every road-side, willows were full of yellow light, and a pink and purple flush answered from woods to fence-row, from fence-row to woods, across and across the three counties.
"This pike"s hardly a pike at all since the railroad"s started," said the Major, more to himself than to Barbara and Johanna; for these were the two rear occupants of the carriage.
"Barb, I got a letter from Fair last night. You did too, didn"t you?"
"Yes, sir."
"He"ll be here next week. He says he can"t stop with us this time."
Barbara was silent, and felt the shy, care-taking glance of her maid.
Garnet spoke again, in the guarded tone she knew so well.
"I reckon you understand he"s only coming to see if he"ll take stock in this land company we"re getting up, don"t you?"
"Yes, sir."
"Doe he know you"re going to spend these two weeks at Halliday"s before you go North?"
"I think he does."
The questioner turned enough to make a show of frowning solicitude.
"What"s the matter with you this morning? sad at the thought of leaving home?"
"No, sir"--the speaker smiled meditatively--"we only don"t hit on a subject of interest to both."
The father faced to front again and urged the horses. He even raised the whip, but let it droop. Then he turned sharply and drew his daughter"s glance. "Is Fair going to stay with John March?"
They sat gaze to gaze while their common blood surged up to his brows and more gradually suffused her face. Without the stir of an eyelash she let her lips part enough to murmur, "Yes."
Before her word was finished Garnet"s retort was bursting from him, "Thanks to you, you intermeddling----" He was cut short by the lurch of the carriage into a hole. It flounced him into the seat from which he had half started and faced him to the horses. With a smothered imprecation he rose and laid on the whip. They plunged, the carriage sprang from the hole and ploughed the mire, and Garnet sat down and drove into the town"s main avenue, bespattered with mud from head to waist.
Near the gate of the Academy grounds stood Parson Tombs talking to a youth in Rosemont uniform. The student pa.s.sed on, and the pastor, with an elated face, waved a hand to Garnet. Garnet stopped and the Parson came close.
"Brother Tombs, howdy?"
"Why, howdy-do, Brother Garnet?--Miss Barb!--Johanna." He pointed covertly at the departing youth and murmured to Garnet, "He"ll make ow fo"teenth convert since New Year"s. And still there is room!--Well, brother, I"ve been a-hearin" about John March"s an" yo"-all"s lan" boom, but"--the good man giggled--"I never see a case o" measles break out finer than the lan" business is broke out on you!--And you don"t seem to mind it no mo"n--Look here! air you a miracle o" grace, aw what air you?"
"Why, nothing, Brother Tombs, nothing! Nothing but an old soldier who"s learned that serenity"s always best."
The Parson turned to Barbara and cast a doting smile sidewise upon the old soldier. But Garnet set his face against flattery and changed the subject.