"O no! I don"t see how it can. In fact--well--I don"t see why it should--unless you wish it so. Of course, in that case----"
"That"s not a con-tin-gen-cy," said Barbara, and for more than a minute they listened to the clangorous racket of the rails. Then John asked her if it did not have a quality in it almost like music and she brightened up at him as she nodded.
He made a gesture toward the receding land, bent to her in the uproar and cried, "It scarcely seems a moment since those hills were full of spring color, and now they"re blue in the distance!"
She looked at them tenderly and nodded again.
"At any rate," he cried, holding his hat on and bending lower, "we have Dixie for our common mother." His manner was patriotic.
She glanced up to him--the distance was trivial--beaming with sisterly confidence, and just then the train lurched, and--he caught her.
"H-I conscience! wa"n"t it lucky I happened to have my arm back there just at that moment?"
Barbara did not say. She stood with her back against the car, gazing at the track, her small feet braced forward with new caution, but she saw March lapse into reverie and heave another sigh.
However, she observed his mind return and rightly divined he was thinking her silence a trifle ungracious; so she lifted her hand toward a white cloud that rose above the vanished hills and river, saying:
"Our common mother waves us farewell."
"Yes," he cried with grateful pleasure. Seeing her draw her wrap closer he added, "You"re cold?" And it was true, although she shook her head.
He bent again to explain. "It"ll be warmer when we leave this valley.
You see, here----"
"Yes," she nodded so intelligently that he did not finish. Miss Garnet, however, was thinking of her chaperone and dubiously glanced back at the door. Then she braced her feet afresh. They were extremely pretty.
He smiled at them. "You needn"t plant yourself so firmly," he said, "I"m not going to let you fall off."
O dear! That reversed everything. She had decided to stay; now she couldn"t.
Once more the Northern pair received them with placid interest. Mr. Fair presently asked a question which John had waited for all day, and it was dark night without and lamplight within, and they were drawing near a large city, before the young man, in reply, had more than half told the stout plans and hopes of this expedition of his after capital and colonists.
Mrs. Fair showed a most lively approval. "And must you leave us here?"
Barbara had not noticed till now how handsome she was. Neither had John.
"Yes, ma"am. But I shan"t waste a day here if things don"t show up right. I shall push right on to New York."
Barbara hoped Mr. Fair"s pleasantness of face meant an approbation as complete as his wife"s, and, to hide her own, meditatively observed that this journey would be known in history as March"s Raid.
John laughed and thanked her for not showing the fears of Captains Champion and Shotwell that he would "go in like a lion and come out like a lamb."
They hurried to the next section and peered out into the night with suppressed but eager exclamations. Long lines of suburban street-lamps were swinging by. Banks of c.o.ke-furnaces were blazing like necklaces of fire. Foundries and machine-shops glowed and were gone; and, far away, close by, and far away again, beautifully colored flames waved from the unseen chimneys of chemical works.
"We"ve neither of us ever seen a great city," Miss Garnet explained when she rejoined her protectors. John had been intercepted by the porter with his brush, and Barbara, though still conversing, could hear what the negro was saying.
"I lef" you to de las", Cap. Seem like you "ten"in" so close to business an" same time enjoyin" yo"seff so well, I hated to "sturb--thank you, seh!" The train came slowly to a stand. "O no, seh, dis ain"t de depot.
Depot three miles fu"theh yit, seh. We"ll go on ag"in in a minute.
Obacoat, seh? Dis yo" ambreel?"
John bade his friends good-by. "And now, Miss Garnet"--he retained her hand a moment--"don"t you go off and forget--Dixie."
She said no, and as he let go her hand she let him see deeper into her eyes than ever before.
A step or two away he looked back with a fraternal smile, but she was talking to Mrs. Fair as eagerly as if he had been gone three days. The train stood so long that he went forward to ask what the delay signified and saw the four commercial travelers walking away with their hand-bags.
The porter was busy about the door.
"Big smash-up of freight-cyars in de yard; ya.s.s, seh. No seh, cayn"t "zac"ly tell jis how long we be kep" here, but "f you dislikes to wait, Cap, you needn". You kin teck a street-cyar here what"ll lan" you right down "mongs" de hotels an" things; ya.s.s, seh. See what; de wreck? No, seh, it"s up in de yard whah dey don"t "llow you to pa-a.s.s."
Out in the darkness beside the train March stood a moment. He could see Miss Garnet very plainly at her bright window and was wondering how she and her friends, but especially she, would take it if he should go back and help them while away this tiresome detention. If she had answered that last smile of his, or if she were showing, now, any tendency at all to look out the window, he might have returned; but no, howdy after farewell lacked dignity. The street-car came along just then and Barbara saw him get into it.
LVIII.
TOGETHER AGAIN
March did not put up at the most famous and palatial hotel; it was full.
He went to another much smaller and quieter, and equally expensive. When he had taken supper he walked the dazzling streets till midnight, filled with the strangeness of the place and the greater strangeness of his being there, and with numberless fugitive reflections upon the day just gone, the life behind it, and the life before, but totally without those shaped and ordered trains of thought which no one has except in books.
Sometimes tenderly, sometimes bitterly, Fannie came to mind, in emotions rather than memories, and as if she were someone whom he should never see again. Once it occurred to him that these ghost walkings of thought and feelings about her must be very much like one"s thoughts of a limb shattered in some disaster and lately cut off by a surgeon. The simile was not pleasant, but he did not see why he should want a pleasant one.
Only by an effort could he realize she was still of this world, and that by and by they would be back in Suez again, meeting casually, habitually, and in a much more commonplace and uninteresting way than ever they had done in the past. He shuddered, then he sighed, and then he said ahem! and gave himself the look of a man of affairs. On men who stared at him he retorted with a frown of austere inquiry, not aware that they were merely noticing how handsome he was.
For a time he silently went through minute recapitulations of his recent colloquies with Miss Garnet, who seemed already surprisingly far away; much farther than any railroad speed could at all account for. He wished she were "further!"--for he could quote five different remarks of his own uttered to her that very day, which he saw plainly enough, _now_, n.o.body but a perfect fool could have made.
"Oh! Great Scott! What did possess me to drag her into my confidence?"
He "wondered if mesmerism had anything"--but rejected that explanation with disdain and dismissed the subject. And then this strange thing happened: He was standing looking into a show-window made gorgeous with hot-house flowers, when a very low voice close at hand moaned, "O Lord, no! I simply made an a.s.s of myself," and when he turned sharply around no one was anywhere near.
He returned to his room and went to bed and to sleep wishing "to gracious" he might see her once more and once only, simply to show her that he had nothing more to confide--to her or any similar soft-smiling she!--The s"s are his.
He did not rise early next morning. And in this he was wise. Rejoice, oh, young man, in your project, but know that old men, without projects, hearing will not hear--until they have seen their mail and their cashier; the early worm rarely catches the bird. John had just learned this in Pulaski City.
At breakfast he was again startled by a low voice very close to him. It was Mr. Fair.
"Mr. March, why not come over and sit with us?"
The ladies bowed from a table on the far side of the room. Mrs. Fair seemed as handsome as ever; while Miss Garnet!--well! If she was winsome and beautiful yesterday, with that silly, facing-both-ways traveling cap she had worn, what could a reverent young man do here and now but gasp his admiration under his breath as he followed his senior toward them?
Even in the lively conversation which followed he found time to think it strange that she had never seemed to him half so lovely in Suez; was it his over-sight? Maybe not, for in Suez she had never in life been half so happy. Mrs. Fair could see this with her eyes shut, and poor Barbara could see that she saw it by the way she shut her eyes. But John, of course, was blind enough, and presently concluded that the wonder of this crescent loveliness was the old, old wonder of the opening rose.
Meanwhile the talk flowed on.
"And by that time," said John, "you"d missed your connection. I might have guessed it. Now you"ll take--but you"ve hardly got time----"
No, Mrs. Fair was feeling rather travel weary; this was Sat.u.r.day; they would pa.s.s Sunday here and start refreshed on Monday.
In the crowded elevator, when March was gone, Barbara heard Mrs. Fair say to her husband,