"Of course she is."
Though he spoke reverently, I was almost angry with him for thinking it necessary to say it at all.
"Yes; but you do not know how good she is. None but G.o.d knows how good some women are."
One or two other pieces of news he told me. The old Drummer and his wife had gone off, too; but only on a visit to Elsa. Elsa and Otto had been married, and were living in another State. I saw that he still had something else to tell, and finally it came out. As soon as I was able, I must go away for a while. I needed change and rest, and he knew the very place for me, away off in the country.
"You appear to be anxious to depopulate the city," I said. He only smiled contentedly.
"I am going to send you to the country," he said with calm decision.
"I have to work----"
"When you come back. I have made all the arrangements."
"I am going to find Eleanor Leigh. I will find her if the world holds her."
"Yes, to be sure," he smiled indulgently. He was so strong that I yielded.
I learned that a good offer was waiting for me to go into the law office of one of the large firms when I should be well enough to work, in a capacity which Jeams would have termed that of a "minor connectee"; but it was coupled with the condition that I should get well first. My speech at the meeting when I denounced Wringman, and my part in the riots, had become known, and friends had interested themselves in my behalf. So John Marvel reported; and as he appeared to be managing things, I a.s.sumed that he had done this, too.
I never fully knew until after his death how truly Wolffert was one of the Prophets. I often think of him with his high aim to better the whole human race, inspired by a pa.s.sion for his own people to extend his ministration to all mankind, cast out by those he labored for; denying that he was a Christian, and yet dying a Christian death in the act of supplicating for those who slew him. I owe him a great debt for teaching me many things, but chiefly for the knowledge that the future of the race rests on the whole people and its process depends on each one, however he may love his own, working to the death for all. He opened my eyes to the fact that every man who contributes to the common good of mankind is one of the chosen people and that the fundamental law is to do good to mankind.
I discovered that John Marvel knew he was in love with Eleanor Leigh, though how he knew it I never learned. "He never told her," he said, "but died with it locked in his heart--as was best," he added after a pause, and then he looked out of the window, and as he did not say anything from which I could judge whether he knew why Wolffert never told his love, I did not tell what I knew. It may have been the slowly fading light which made his face so sad. I remember that a long silence fell between us, and it came over me with a new force how much more unselfishly both these men had loved than I and how much n.o.bler both had always been--the living and the dead. And I began battling with myself to say something which I felt I ought to say, but had not courage enough.
Presently, John said very slowly, almost as if he were speaking to himself, "I believe if you keep on, she will marry you, and I believe you will help each other--I know she will help you." His arm was resting on the table.
I leant over and laid my hand on his arm.
"I once thought it certain I should win her. I am far from sure that I shall now. I am not worthy of her--but I shall try to be. You alone, John, of all the men I know, are. I cannot give her up--but it is only honest to tell you that I have less hope than I had."
He turned to me with a sad little smile on his face and shook his head.
"I would not give her up if I were you. You are not good enough for her, but no one is, and you will grow better."
For the first time, I almost thought him handsome.
"You are, old man."
"Me! Oh! no, I am not--I have my work to do--it is useless to talk to me--you keep on."
He picked up a paper and began to read, and I observed for the first time that he had taken off his gla.s.ses. I made some remark on it.
"Yes, my sight is getting better--I can see the stars now," he said smiling.
"Ah! John, you have long seen the stars," I said.
So, as soon as I could travel, John Marvel sent me off--sent me to a farmhouse where he had lived in his first parish--a place far from the railroads; a country of woods and rolling fields and running streams; the real country where blossoms whiten and birds sing and waters murmur.
"They are the best people in the world," he said; and they were. They accepted me on his word. "Mr. Marvel had sent me, and that was enough."
His word was a talisman in all that region. They did not know who the Queen of England was, and were scarcely sure as to the President of the United States; but they knew John Marvel. And because I had come from him they treated me like a prince. And this was the man I had had the folly to look down on!
In that quiet place I seemed to have reached content. In that land of peace the strife of the city, the noise and turmoil and horror of the strike, seemed but as the rumble of waves breaking on some far-off sh.o.r.e. I began to quaff new life with the first breath of the balmy air.
The day after I arrived I borrowed the skiff that belonged to my host and paddled down the little river that skirted his place, with the idea of fishing in a pool he had told me of.
The afternoon was so soft and balmy that I forgot my sport and simply drifted with the current under the overhanging branches of willows and sycamores, when, turning a bend in the stream, I came on a boat floating in a placid pool. In it were a young lady and a little girl, and who but Dix, his brindled head held high, his twisted ears pointed straight up-stream, and his whole body writhing and quivering with excitement. It was a moment before I could quite take it in, and I felt for a second as if I were dreaming.
Yet there was Eleanor Leigh under the willows, her small white hand resting on the side of the boat, her face lovelier than ever, and her voice making music in my ears with those low, sincere tones that I had never forgotten, and which made it the most beautiful in the world. I must have carried my soul in my eyes that moment; for the color sprang to her cheeks and I saw a look in hers I had never seen there before.
"Well, this is Fate," I said, as the current bore my boat against hers and it lay locked against it in that limpid pool.
"Would Mr. Marvel have called it so?" she asked, her eyes resting upon me with a softer look in them than they had ever given me.
"No, he would have said Providence."
I am sure it was on that stream that Halcyone found retreat. In that sweet air, freed from any anxieties except to please her whose pleasure had become the sun of my life, I drank in health day by day and hour by hour. My farmhouse was only a half-mile or so across the fields to the home of Eleanor Leigh"s old cousins with whom she was staying, and only the sidereal travellers followed that path so regularly as I. It was the same place where she had first met John Marvel--and Wolffert. She was even interested in my law, and actually listened with intelligence to the succulent details of Livery of Seisin, and other ancient conveyancing. Not that she yet consented to marry me. This was a theme she had a genius for evading. However, I knew I should win her. Only one thing troubled me. As often as I touched on my future plans and spoke of the happiness I should have in relieving her of the drudgery of a teacher"s life, she used to smile and contest it. It was one of the happinesses of her life, she said, to teach that school. But for it, I would never have "put out her fire for her that morning." Was ever such ingrat.i.tude! Of course, I would not admit this. "Fate--no, Providence was on my side." And I took out my violets and showed them to her, telling her their history. They still retained a faint fragrance. And the smile she gave was enough to make them fresh again. But I, too, was friendly to the school. How could I be otherwise? For she told me one day that the first time she liked me was when I was sitting by the cab-driver holding the little dirty child in my arms, with Dix between my feet. And I had been ashamed to be seen by her! I only feared that she might take it into her head still to keep the school. And I now knew that what she took into her little head to be her duty she would perform. "By the way, you might take lessons in making up the fire," she suggested.
[Ill.u.s.tration: I am sure it was on that stream that Halcyone found retreat.]
I received quite a shock a few days later when I found in my mail a letter from the Miss Tippses, telling me of their delight on learning of my recovery, and mentioning incidentally the fact, which they felt sure I would be glad to know, that they had settled all of their affairs in a manner entirely satisfactory to them, as Mr. McSheen had very generously come forward at a time when it was supposed that I was fatally injured and had offered to make reparation to them and pay out of his own pocket, not only all of the expenses which they had incurred about the matter, but had actually paid them three thousand dollars over and above these expenses, a munificent sum which had enabled them to pay dear Mrs.
Kale all they owed her. They felt sure that I would approve of the settlement, because Mr. McSheen"s intermediary had been "a life-long friend of mine and in some sort," he said, "my former law partner, as we had lived for years in adjoining offices." They had signed all the papers he had presented and were glad to know that he was entirely satisfied, and now they hoped that I would let them know what they owed me, in order that they might settle at least that part of their debt; but for the rest, they would always owe me a debt of undying grat.i.tude, and they prayed G.o.d for my speedy recovery and unending happiness, and they felt sure Mr. Peck would rejoice also to know that I was doing so well.
Peck! And he had charged them a fee for his services!
It was now approaching the autumn and I was chafing to get back to work.
I knew now that success was before me. It might be a long road; but I was on it.
John Marvel, in reply to an inquiry, wrote that the place was still waiting for me in the office he had mentioned, though he did not state what it was.
"How stupid he is!" I complained. Eleanor Leigh only laughed.
She "did not think him stupid at all, and certainly she did not think I should do so. In fact, she considered him one of the most sensible men she ever knew."
"Why, he could not have done more to keep me in ignorance, if he had tried," I fumed. And she only laughed the more.
"I believe you are jealous of him." Her eyes were dancing in an exasperating way they had. I was consumed with jealousy of everybody; but I would never admit it.
"Jealous of John Marvel! Nonsense! But I believe you were in--you liked him very much?"
"I did," she nodded cheerily. "I do--more than any one I ever knew--almost." And she launched out in a eulogy of John which quite set me on fire.
"Then why did you not marry him?" I was conscious that my head went up and my wrath was rising.
"He never asked me." Her dancing eyes still playing hide and seek with mine.
"I supposed there was some good reason," I said loftily. She vouchsafed no answer--only went on making a chain of daisies, while her dimples came and went, and I went on to make a further fool of myself. I was soon haled up and found myself in that outer darkness, where the cheerful occupation is gnashing of teeth. Like the foolish gla.s.s-merchant, I had smashed all my hopes. I walked home through the Vale of Bitterness.
That evening, after spending some hours in trying to devise a plan by which I could evade the humiliation of an absolute surrender, and get back without crawling too basely, I went over to say what I called--good-by. I was alone; for Dix had abandoned me for her, and I did not blame him even now. It was just dusk; but it seemed to me midnight. I had never known the fields so dark. As I turned into a path through the orchard where I had had so many happy hours, I discovered her sitting on the ground beneath a tree with Dix beside her; but as I approached she rose and leant against the tree, her dryad eyes resting on me placidly. I walked up slowly.