Lois had come out to pick some flowers for the numerous vases and bowls which it was her delight to keep filled all summer long. She was bareheaded, and the wind had rumpled the curls around her forehead; the front of her light blue dress--she wore light blue in a manner which might have been called daring had it implied the slightest thought--was caught up to hold her lapful of flowers; a sheaf of roses rested on her shoulder, and some feathery vines trailed almost to the ground, while in her left hand, their stems taller than her own head, were two stately sunflowers, which were to brighten the hall.
Mr. Forsythe caught sight of her as he closed the gate, and hurried down the path to help her carry her fragrant load. He had, as usual, a message to deliver. "Mother sends her love, Miss Lois, and says she isn"t well enough to go and drive this afternoon; but she"ll be glad to go to-morrow, if you"ll take her?"
"Oh, yes, indeed!" Lois cried, in her impetuous voice. "But I"m sorry she"s ill to-day."
d.i.c.k gave the slightest possible shrug of his square shoulders. "Oh, I guess she"s all right," he said. "It amuses her. But won"t you give me some flowers to take home to her?"
Of course Lois was delighted to do it, but d.i.c.k insisted that she should first put those she had already gathered in water, and then get some fresh ones for his mother. "You see I"m very particular that she should have the best;" then they both laughed. Now mutual laughter at small jokes brings about a very friendly feeling.
They went up to the side porch, where it was shady, and Lois and Sally brought out all the vases and dishes which could be made to hold flowers, and put them in a row on the top step. Then d.i.c.k brought a big pitcher of fresh, cold water from the spring, and Lois went for the garden scissors to clip off the long stems; and at last they were ready to go to work, the sweet confusion of flowers on the steps between them, and Max sitting gravely at Lois"s elbow as chaperon.
The rector heard their voices and the frequent shouts of laughter, and began to think he must bestir himself; Mr. Forsythe should see that Ashurst young women were under the constant over-sight of their parents; but he yawned once or twice, and thought how comfortable the cool leather of the lounge was, and had another little doze before he went out to the porch with the open letter in his hand.
d.i.c.k had his hat full of white, and pink, and wine-colored hollyhocks, which he had stripped from their stems, and was about to put in a shallow dish, so he did not rise, but said "h.e.l.lo!" in answer to the rector"s "Good-morning," and smiled brightly up at him. It was the charm of this smile which made the older people in Ashurst forget that he treated them with very little reverence.
"Lois," her father said, "I have a letter from Helen; do you want to send any message when I answer it? Mr. Forsythe will excuse you if you read it."
"Why, of course," d.i.c.k replied. "I feel almost as though I knew Mrs.
Ward, Miss Lois has talked so much about her."
"How funny to hear her called "Mrs. Ward!"" Lois said, taking the letter from her father"s hand.
"I should think she"d hate Lockhaven," d.i.c.k went on. "I was there once for a day or two. It is a poor little place; lots of poverty among the hands. And it is awfully unpleasant to see that sort of thing. I"ve heard fellows say they enjoyed a good dinner more if they saw some poor beggar going without. Now, I don"t feel that way. I don"t like to see such things; they distress me, and I don"t forget them."
Lois, reading Helen"s letter, which was full of grief for the helpless trouble she saw in Lockhaven, thought that Mr. Forsythe had a very tender heart. Helen was questioning the meaning of the suffering about her; already the problem as old as life itself confronted her, and she asked, Why?
Dr. Howe had noticed this tendency in some of her later letters, and scarcely knew whether to be annoyed or amused by it. "Now what in the world," he said, as Lois handed back the letter,--"what in the world does the child mean by asking me if I don"t think--stay, where is that sentence?" The rector fumbled for his gla.s.ses, and, with his lower lip thrust out, and his gray eyebrows gathered into a frown, glanced up and down the pages. "Ah, yes, here: "Do you not think," she says, "that the presence in the world of suffering which cannot produce character, irresponsible suffering, so to speak, makes it hard to believe in the personal care of G.o.d?" It"s perfect nonsense for Helen to talk in that way! What does she know about "character" and "irresponsible suffering"?
I shall tell her to mend her husband"s stockings, and not bother her little head with theological questions that are too big for her."
"Yes, sir," Lois answered, carefully snipping off the thorns on the stem of a rose before she plunged it down into the water in the big punch-bowl; "but people cannot help just wondering sometimes."
"Now, Lois, don"t you begin to talk that way," the rector cried impatiently; "one in a family is enough!"
"Well," said d.i.c.k Forsythe gayly, "what"s the good of bothering about things you can"t understand?"
"Exactly," the rector answered. "Be good! if we occupy our minds with conduct, we won"t have room for speculation, which never made a soul better or happier, anyhow. Yes, it"s all nonsense, and I shall tell Helen so; there is too much tendency among young people to talk about things they don"t understand, and it results in a superficial, skin-deep sort of skepticism that I despise! Besides," he added, laughing and knocking his gla.s.ses off, "what is the good of having a minister for a husband? She ought to ask him her theological questions."
"Well, now, you know, father," Lois said, "Helen isn"t the sort of woman to be content just to step into the print her husband"s foot has made.
She"ll choose what she thinks is solid ground for herself. And she isn"t superficial."
"Oh, no, of course not," the rector began, relenting. "I didn"t mean to be hard on the child. But she mustn"t be foolish. I don"t want her to make herself unhappy by getting unsettled in her belief, and that is what this sort of questioning results in. But I didn"t come out to scold Helen; it just occurred to me that it might be a good thing to send her that twenty-five dollars I meant to give to domestic missions, and let her use it for some of her poor people. What?"
"Oh, yes, do!" Lois replied.
"Let me send twenty-five dollars, too!" d.i.c.k cried, whipping out a check-book.
Dr. Howe protested, but Mr. Forsythe insisted that it was a great pleasure. "Don"t you see," he explained, smiling, "if Mrs. Ward will spend some money for me, it will make my conscience easy for a month; for, to tell you the truth, doctor, I don"t think about poor people any more than I can help; it"s too unpleasant. I"m afraid I"m very selfish."
This was said with such a good-natured look, Dr. Howe could only smile indulgently. "Ah, well, you"re young, and I"m sure your twenty-five dollars for Helen"s poor people will cover a mult.i.tude of sins. I fancy you are not quite so bad as you would have us believe."
Lois watched him draw his check, and was divided between admiration and an undefined dissatisfaction with herself for feeling admiration for what really meant so little.
"Thank you very much," the rector said heartily.
"Oh, you"re welcome, I"m sure," answered the other.
Dr. Howe folded the check away in a battered leather pocket-book, shiny on the sides and ragged about the corners, and overflowing with odds and ends of memoranda and newspaper clippings; a row of fish-hooks was fastened into the flap, and he stopped to adjust these before he went into the house to answer Helen"s letter.
He snubbed her good-naturedly, telling her not to worry about things too great for her, but beneath his consciousness there lurked a little discomfort, or even irritation. Duties which seem dead and buried, and forgotten, are avenged by the sting of memory. In the rector"s days at the theological school, he had himself known those doubts which may lead to despair, or to a wider and unflinching gaze into the mysteries of light. But Archibald Howe reached neither one condition nor the other.
He questioned many things; he even knew the heartache which the very fear of losing faith gives. But the way was too hard, and the toil and anguish of the soul too great; he turned back into the familiar paths of the religion he knew and loved; and doubt grew vague, not in a.s.sured belief, but in the plain duties of life. After a little while, he almost forgot that he ever had doubted. Only now and then, when some questioning soul came to him, would he realize that he could not help it by his own experience, only by a formula,--a text-book spirituality; then he would remember, and promise himself that the day should come when he would face uncertainty and know what he believed. But it was continually eluding him, and being put off; he could not bear to run the risk of disturbing the faith of others; life was too full; he had not the time for study and research,--and perhaps it would all end in deeper darkness. Better be content with what light he had. So duty was neglected, and his easy, tranquil life flowed on.
Writing his careless rebuke to Helen brought this past unpleasantly before his mind; he was glad when he had sanded his paper and thrust the folded letter into its envelope, and could forget once more.
d.i.c.k Forsythe had prolonged his call by being very careful what flowers were picked for his mother, and he and Lois wandered over the whole garden, searching for the most perfect roses, before he acknowledged that he was content. When they parted at the iron gate, he was more in love than ever, and Lois walked back to the rectory, thinking with a vague dissatisfaction how much she would miss the Forsythes when they left Ashurst.
But Mr. Forsythe"s was not the sort of love which demanded solitude or silence, so that when he saw Mr. Dale coming from Mr. Denner"s little law office, he made haste to join him. Conversation of any sort, and with any person, was a necessity to this young man, and Mr. Dale was better than no one.
"I"ve just been to the rectory," he said, as he reached the older man"s side.
"I suppose so," Mr. Dale answered shortly. Perhaps he was the only person in Ashurst who was not blinded by the glamour of that World which Mr.
Forsythe represented, and who realized the nature of the young man himself. d.i.c.k"s superficiality was a constant irritation to Mr. Dale, who missed in him that deference for the opinions of older people which has its roots in the past, in the training of fathers and mothers in courtesy and gentleness, and which blossoms in perfection in the third or fourth generation.
There was nothing in his voice to encourage d.i.c.k to talk about Lois Howe, so he wisely turned the conversation, but wished he had a more congenial companion. Mr. Dale walked with hands behind him and shoulders bent forward; his wide-brimmed felt hat was pulled down over his long soft locks of white hair, and hid the expression of his face.
So d.i.c.k rattled on in his light, happy voice, talking of everything or nothing, as his hearer might happen to consider it, until suddenly Mr.
Dale"s attention was caught: d.i.c.k began to speak of John Ward. "I thought I"d seen him," he was saying. "The name was familiar, and then when Miss Lois described his looks, and told me where he studied for the ministry, I felt sure of it. If it is the same man, he must be a queer fellow."
"Why?" asked Mr. Dale. He did not know John Ward very well, and had no particular feeling about him one way or the other; but people interested Mr. Dale, and he had meant some time to study this man with the same impersonal and kindly curiosity with which he would have examined a new bug in his collection.
"Because, if he"s the man I think he is,--and I guess there is no doubt about it--thin, dark, and abstracted-looking, named Ward, and studying at the Western Theological Seminary that year,--I saw him do a thing--well, I never knew any other man who would have done it!"
"What was it, sir?" said Mr. Dale, turning his mild blue eyes upon the young man, and regarding him with an unusual amount of interest.
d.i.c.k laughed. "Why," he answered, "I saw that man,--there were a lot of us fellows standing on the steps of one of the hotels; it was the busiest street and the busiest time of the day, and there was a woman coming along, drunk as a lord. Jove! you ought to have seen her walk! She couldn"t walk,--that was about the truth of it; and she had a miserable yelling brat in her arms. It seemed as though she"d fall half a dozen times. Well, while we were standing there, I saw that man coming down the street. I didn"t know him then,--somebody told me his name, afterwards. I give you my word, sir, when he saw that woman, he stood still one minute, as though he was thunderstruck by the sight of her,--not hesitating, you know, but just amazed to see a woman looking like that,--and then he went right up to her, and took that dirty, screeching child out of her arms; and then, I"m d.a.m.ned if he didn"t give her his arm and walk down the street with her!"
Mr. Dale felt the shock of it. "Ah!" he said, with a quick indrawn breath.
"Yes," continued d.i.c.k, who enjoyed telling a good story, "he walked down that crowded street with that drunken, painted creature on his arm. I suppose he thought she"d fall, and hurt herself and the child. Naturally everybody looked at him, but I don"t believe he even saw them. We stood there and watched them out of sight--and--but of course you know how fellows talk! Though so long as he was a _minister_"--d.i.c.k grinned significantly, and looked at Mr. Dale for an answer; but there was none.
Suddenly the old man stood still and gravely lifted his hat: "He"s a good man," he said, and then trudged on again, with his head bent and his hands clasped behind him.
Mr. Forsythe looked at him, and whistled. "Jove!" he exclaimed, "it doesn"t strike you as it did Dr. Howe. I told him, and he said, "Bless my soul, hadn"t the man sense enough to call a policeman?""
But Mr. Dale had nothing more to say. The picture of John Ward, walking through the crowded street with the woman who was a sinner upheld by his strong and tender arm, was not forgotten; and when d.i.c.k had left him, and he had lighted his slender silver pipe in the quiet of his bas.e.m.e.nt study, he said again, "He"s a good man."
CHAPTER VIII.