I"m sure I don"t know where it can have got to."
And there we were: at a standstill for a bit of string. Looking at one another like so many helpless noodles, and the flaring candles coming to an end! Tod said, tear a strip off the tail of b.u.mford"s gown; he"d never miss it: for which Miss Abigail gave it him as sharply as if he had proposed to tear it off the parson"s.
"I might get a bit of string at old b.u.mford"s," I said. "In a few minutes I"ll be back with it."
It was one of the lightest nights ever seen: the air clear, the moon bright, the ground white with snow. Rushing round the north and unfrequented side of the church, where the gra.s.s on the graves was long and no one ever walked, excepting old b.u.mford when he wanted to cut across the near way to his cottage, I saw something stirring against the church wall. Something dark: that seemed to have been looking in at the window, and now crouched down with a sudden movement behind the b.u.t.tress, as if afraid of being seen.
"Is that you, Leek?" I called out.
There was no answer: no movement: nothing but a dark heap lying low. I thought it might be a fox; and crossed over to look.
Well--I had had surprises in my life, but never one that so struck upon me as this. Foxes don"t wear women"s clothes: this thing did. I pulled aside the dark cloak, and a face stood out white and cold in the moonlight--the face of Jessy Page.
You may fancy it is a slice of romance this; made up for effect out of my imagination: but it is the real truth, as every one about the place can testify to, and its strangeness is talked of still. Yet there are stranger coincidences in life than this. On Christmas-Eve, a year before, Jessy Page had been helping to dress the church, in her fine blue mantle, in her beauty, in her light-hearted happiness: on this Christmas-Eve when we were dressing it again, she re-appeared. But how changed! Wan, white, faint, wasted! I am not sure that I should have known her but for her voice. Shrinking, as it struck me, with shame and fear, she put up her trembling hands in supplication.
"Don"t betray me!--don"t call!" she implored in weak, feverish, anxious tones. "Go away and leave me. Let me lie here unsuspected until they have all gone away."
What ought I to do? I was just as bewildered as it"s possible for a fellow to be. It"s no exaggeration to say that I thought her dying: and it would never do to leave her there to die.
The stillness was broken by a commotion. While she lay with her thin hands raised, and I was gazing down on her poor face, wondering what to say, and how to act, Miss Susan came flying round the corner after me.
"Johnny Ludlow! Master Johnny! Don"t go. We have found the string under the unused holly. Why!--what"s that?"
No chance of concealment for Jessy now. Susan Page made for the b.u.t.tress, and saw the white face in the moonlight.
"It"s Jessy," I whispered.
With a shriek that might have scared away all the ghosts in the churchyard, Susan Page called for Abigail. They heard it through the window, and came rushing out, thinking Susan must have fallen at least into the clutches of a winter wolf. Miss Susan"s voice trembled as she spoke in a whisper.
"Here"s Jessy--come back at last!"
Unbelieving Abigail Page went down on her knees in the snow to trace the features, and convince herself. Yes, it was Jessy. She had fainted now, and lay motionless. Leek came up then, and stood staring.
Where had she come from?--how had she got there? It was just as though she had dropped from the skies with the snow. And what was to be done with her?
"She must--come home," said Abigail.
But she spoke hesitatingly, as though some impediment might lie in the way: and she looked round in a dreamy manner on the open country, all so white and dreary in the moonlight.
"Yes, there"s no other place--of course it must be the farm," she added.
"Perhaps you can bring her between you. But I"ll go on and speak to my father first."
It was easy for one to carry her, she was so thin and light. John Drench lifted her and they all went off: leaving me and Leek to finish up in the church, and put out the candles.
William Page was sitting in his favourite place, the wide chimney-corner of the kitchen, quietly smoking his pipe, when his daughter broke in upon him with the strange news. Just in the same way that, a year before, she had broken in upon him with that other news--that a gentleman had arrived, uninvited, on a visit to the farm. This news was more startling than that.
"Are they bringing her home?--how long will they be?" cried the old man with feverish eagerness, as he let fall his long churchwarden pipe, and broke it. "Abigail, will they be long?"
"Father, I want to say something: I came on to say it," returned Miss Page, and she was trembling too. "I don"t like her face: it is wan, and thin, and full of suffering: but there"s a look in it that--that seems to tell of shame."
"To tell of what?" he asked, not catching the word.
"May Heaven forgive me if I misjudge her! The fear crossed me, as I saw her lying there, that her life may not have been innocent since she left us: why else should she come back in this most strange way? Must we take her in all the same, father?"
"Take her in!" he repeated in amazement. "YES. What are you thinking of, child, to ask it?"
"It"s the home of myself and Susan, father: it has been always an honest one in the sight of the neighbours. Maybe, they"ll be hard upon us for receiving her into it."
He stared as one who does not understand, and then made a movement with his hands, as if warding off her words and the neighbours" hardness together.
"Let her come, Abigail! Let her come, poor stray lamb. Christ wouldn"t turn away a little one that had strayed from the fold: should her own father do it?"
And when they brought her in, and put her in an easy-chair by the sitting-room fire, stirring it into a blaze, and gave her hot tea and brandy in it, William Page sat down by her side, and shed fast tears over her, as he fondly stroked her hand.
Gay and green looked the church on Christmas morning, the sun shining in upon us as brightly as it shone a year before. The news of Jessy Page"s return and the curious manner of it, had spread; causing the congregation to turn their eyes instinctively on the Pages" pew. Perhaps not one but recalled the last Christmas--and the gallant stranger who had sat in it, and found the places in the Prayer-book for Jessy. Only Mr. Page was there to-day. He came slowly in with his thick stick--for he walked badly since his illness, and dragged one leg behind the other.
Before the thanksgiving prayer the parson opened a paper and read out a notice. Such things were uncommon in our church, and it caused a stir.
"William Page desires to return thanks to Almighty G.o.d for a great mercy vouchsafed to him."
We walked to the Copse Farm with him after service. Considering that he had been returning thanks, he seemed dreadfully subdued. He didn"t know how it was yet; where she had been, or why she had come home in the manner she did, he told the Squire; but, anyway, she had come. Come to die, it might be; but _come home_, and that was enough.
Mrs. Todhetley went upstairs to see her. They had given her the best bed, the one they had given to Marcus Allen. She lay in it like a lily.
It was what Mrs. Todhetley said when she came down: "like a lily, so white and delicate." There was no talking. Jessy for the most part kept her eyes shut and her face turned away. Miss Page whispered that they had not questioned her yet; she seemed too weak to bear it. "But what do you _think_?" asked Mrs. Todhetley in return. "I am afraid to think,"
was all the answer. In coming away, Mrs. Todhetley stooped over the bed to kiss her.
"Oh don"t, don"t!" said Jessy faintly: "you might not if you knew all. I am not worth it."
"Perhaps I should kiss you all the more, my poor child," answered Mrs.
Todhetley. And she came downstairs with red eyes.
But Miss Susan Page was burning with impatience to know the ins and outs of the strange affair. Naturally so. It had brought more scandal and gossip on the Copse Farm than even the running away of the year before.
That was bad enough: this was worse. Altogether Jessy was the home"s heartsore. Mr. Page spoke of her as a lamb, a wanderer returned to the fold, and Susan heard it with compressed lips: in her private opinion, she had more justly been called an ungrateful girl.
"Now, then, Jessy; you must let us know a little about yourself," began Susan on this same afternoon when she was with her alone, and Jessy lay apparently stronger, refreshed with the dinner and the long rest.
Abigail had gone to church with Mr. Page. Susan could not remember that any of them had gone to church before on Christmas-Day after the morning service: but there was no festive gathering to keep them at home to-day.
Unconsciously, perhaps, Susan resented the fact. Even John Drench was dining at his father"s. "Where have you been all this while in London?"
Jessy suddenly lifted her arm to shade her eyes; and remained silent.
"It _is_ in London, I conclude, that you have been? Come: answer me."
"Yes," said Jessy faintly.
"And _where_ have you been? In what part of it?--who with?"
"Don"t ask me," was the low reply, given with a suppressed sob.