"Po" thing," John wept. "She don"t have tuh hear no mo" hurtin" things." He hurried out to the wood pile and sat there between two feelings until Sam Mosely led him away.
"She"s gone!" rang out thru the crowded room and they heard it on the porch and Mattie Mosely ran shouting down the street, "She"s gone, she"s gone at last!"
And the work of the shrouding began. Little Lucy, somewhat smaller in death than she had been even in life, lay washed and dressed in white beneath a sheet upon the cooling board when her oldest son arrived that evening to break his heart in grief.
That night a wind arose about the house and blew from the kitchen wall to the clump of oleanders that screened the chicken house, from the oleanders to the fence palings and back again to the house wall, and the pack of dogs followed it, rearing against the wall, leaping and pawing the fence, howling, barking and whining until the break of day, and John huddled beneath his bed-covers shaking and afraid.
CHAPTER 17.
They put Lucy in a little coffin next day, the shiny coffin that held the beginning and the ending of so much. And the September woods were ravished by the village to provide tight little bouquets for the funeral. Sam Mosely, tall, black and silent, hitched his bays to his light wagon and he bore Lucy from her house and children and husband and worries to the church, while John, surrounded by his weeping family, walked after the wagon, shaking and crying. The village came behind and filled the little church with weeping and wild-flowers. People were stirred. The vital Lucy was gone. The wife of Moderator Pearson was dead.
"There is rest for the weary" rose and fell like an organ. Harmony soaked in tears.
"She don"t need me no mo" nohow," John thought defensively.
"On the other side of Jordan, in the sweet fields of Eden-where the tree of life is blooming-"
And the hot blood in John"s veins made him deny kinship with any rider of the pale white horse of death.
"Man born of woman has but a few days."
Clods of damp clay falling hollowly on the box. Out of sight of the world, and dead men heard her secrets.
That night they sat in the little parlor about the organ and the older children sang songs while the smaller ones cried and whimpered on. John sat a little apart and thought. He was free. He was sad, but underneath his sorrow was an exultation like a live coal under gray ashes. There was no longer guilt. But a few days before he had shuddered at the dread of discovery and of Lucy"s accusing eye. There was no more sin. Just a free man having his will of women. He was glad in his sadness.
The next day John Pearson and Sam Mosely met on Clarke"s porch. Sam remarked, "Funny thing, ain"t it John-Lucy come tuh town twelve years uhgo in mah wagon and mah wagon took her uhway."
"Yeah, but she b"longed tuh me, though, all de time," John said and exulted over his friend.
CHAPTER 18.
Deacons Hambo, Watson, Hoffman and Harris waited on Rev. Pearson in his study at the parsonage.
"No mealy-moufin", Harris. No whippin" de Devil "round de stump. He got tuh be told." Hambo urged.
"Ahm goin" tuh tell "im how we feel. You too hot tuh talk. You ain"t in yo" right mind."
"Oh yes, Ah is too, Ahm hot, though. Ahm hot ez July jam. Jee-esus Christ!"
John entered the room radiating cheer.
"h.e.l.lo, boys. How yuh do?"
"Don"t do all dey say, but Ah do mah share," said Hambo quickly, "and d.a.m.ned if you don"t do yourn."
Pearson didn"t know whether it was one of the bluff Hambo"s jokes or not. He started to laugh, then looked at the men"s faces and quit.
"Oh."
"Now lemme handle dis, Hambo, lak we said," begged Harris.
"Naw, lemme open mah mouf "fo" Ah bust mah gall. John, is you married tuh dat Hattie Tyson?"
"Yeah."
"DeG-D-h.e.l.l you is, man! Yo" wife ain"t been dead but three months, and you done jumped up and married befo" she got col" in her grave!"
"Ah got dese li"l" chillun and somebody got tuh see after "em."
"Well de somebody you got sho ain"t seein" after "em. They"s "round de streets heah jes" ez raggedy ez jay-birds in whistlin" time. Dey sho ain"t gittin" uh d.a.m.n bit uh "tention."
"Course Ah didn"t marry her jus" tuh wait on de chillun. She got tuh have some pleasure."
"Course she is! Dat strumpet ain"t never done nothin" but run up and down de road from one sawmill camp tuh de other and from de looks of her, times was hard. She ain"t never had nothin"-not eben doodly-squat, and when she gits uh chance tuh git holt uh sumpin de ole buzzard is gone on uh rampage. She ain"t got dis parsonage and dem po" li"l" motherless chillun tuh study "bout."
"Hold on dere, Hambo, y"all. Dat"s mah wife."
"Sh-h-ucks! Who don"t know dat Hattie Tyson! Ah ain"t gonna bite mah tongue uh d.a.m.n bit and if you don"t lak it, you kin jus" try me wid yo" fist. Ahm three times seben and uh b.u.t.ton! And whut makes me mad "nough tuh fight uh circle-saw is, you don"t want uh yo"self. You done got trapped and you ain"t got de guts tuh take uh rascal-beater and run her "way from here. She done moved you "way from Eatonville "cause "tain"t "nough mens and likker dere tuh suit her."
"Wait uh minute, Hambo."
"Ain"t gonna wait nothin" uh de kind. Wait broke de wagon down. Ah jes" feel lak takin" uh green club and waitin" on dat wench"s head until she acknowledge Ahm G.o.d and besides me there"s no other! Gimme lief, John, and Ah"ll make haste and do it. Ah feels lak stayin" wid yo" head uh week. Dey tell me you eben drawed uh knife on yo" son John, "cause he tried tuh keep dah strumpet out his mama"s feather bed dat she give tuh li"l" Isis on her death-bed, and n.o.body but uh lowdown woman would want you scornin" yo" name all up lak dat."
Pearson hung his head.
"If y"all come heah tuh "buke me, g"wan do it."
Hoffman spoke up.
"We ain"t come to "buke you, Reverend, but de church sho is talkin" and gittin" onrestless "bout yo" marriage."
"Yeah, dat"s jus" whut Ah come fuh-tuh "buke yuh. Ah ain"t come tuh make yuh no play-party. Stoopin" down from where you stand, fuh whut?" Hambo broke out again, "Jus "cause you never seen no talc.u.m powder and silk kimonos back dere in Alabama."
Harris and Hoffman took him by the arms and led him forth, and John went back upstairs and wept.
Hattie had heard it all, but she stayed out of sight until the rough tongued Hambo was gone. She went to John, but first she combed her hair and under-braided the piece of John-de-conquer root in her stiff back hair. "Dey can"t move me-not wid de help Ah got," she gloated and went in to John where he lay weeping.
"Thought you tole me dat Hambo wuz yo" bosom friend?"
"He is, Hattie. Ah don"t pay his rough talk no mind."
"Ah don"t call dat no friend-comin" right in yo" house and talkin" "bout yo" wife lak she wuz uh dog. If you wuz any kind of uh man you wouldn"t "low it."
"Uh preacher can"t be fightin" and keerin" on. Mo" special uh Moderator. Hambo don"t mean no harm. He jus" "fraid de talk might hurt me."
"Him and them sho treats me lak uh show man treats uh ape. Come right in mah house and run de hawg over me and tryin" tuh put you "ginst me. Youse over dem and you ought not tuh "low "em tuh cheap, but "stid uh dat they comes right to yo" face and calls yo" wife uh barrel uh dem things. Lawd knows Ah ain"t got no puhtection uh tall! If Miss Lucy had tuh swaller all Ah does, Ah know she glad she dead."
"Lucy ain"t never had n.o.body to call her out her name. Dey better not. Whut make you call her name? Hambo is de backbone uh mah church. Ah don"t aim to tear de place tuh pieces fuh n.o.body. Put dat in yo" pipe and smoke it."
Hattie heard and trembled. The moment that John left town to conduct a revival meeting, she gathered what money she could and hurried to the hut of An" Dangie Dewoe.
CHAPTER 19.
The Lord of the wheel that turns on itself slept, but the world kept spinning, and the troubled years sped on. Tales of weakness, tales of vice hung about John Pearson"s graying head. Tales of wifely incontinence which Zion Hope swallowed hard. The old ones especially. Sitting coolly in the shade of after-life, they looked with an utter lack of tolerance upon the brawls of Hattie and John. They heard her complaints often and believed her and only refused action because they knew the complainant to be equally guilty, but less popular than the man against whom she cried. Besides, the younger generation winked at what their elders cried over. Lucy had counselled well, but there were those who exulted in John"s ignominious fall from the Moderatorship after nine years tenure, and milled about him like a wolf pack about a tired old bull-looking for a throat-hold, but he had still enough of the former John to be formidable as an animal and enough of his Pagan poesy to thrill. The pack waited. John knew it and was tired unto death of fighting off the struggle which must surely come. The devouring force of the future leered at him at unexpected moments. Then too his daily self seemed to be wearing thin, and the past seeped thru and mastered him for increasingly longer periods. He whose present had always been so bubbling that it crowded out past and future now found himself with a memory.
He began to remember friends who had lain back on the shelf of his mind for years. Now and then he surprised them by casual visits, but the pitying look would send him away and it would be a long time before he made such a call again.
He began to see a good deal of Zeke who had moved with his family to Florida, a year or two before Lucy died. He loved seeing Zeke because he was just as great a hero in his brother"s eyes as he had been when he was the biggest Negro Baptist in the State and when Zion Hope had nine hundred members instead of the six hundred now on its roll. Zeke talked but always spared him.
Yes, John Pearson found himself possessed of a memory at a time when he least needed one.
"Funny thing," he said sitting in Zeke"s kitchen with his wife, "things dat happened long time uhgo used to seem way off, but now it all seems lak it wuz yistiddy. You think it"s dead but de past ain"t stopped breathin" yet."
"Eat supper wid us, John Buddy, and stay de night."
"Thankee, Zeke. B"lieve Ah will fuh uh change." He went to bed at Zeke"s after supper. Slept a long time. He awoke with a peculiar feeling and crept out of the house and went home.
"Hattie, whut am Ah doin" married tuh you?" John was standing in his wife"s bedroom beside her bed and looking down on her, a few minutes later.
Hattie sat up abruptly, pulling up the shoulder straps of her nightgown.
"Is dat any way fuh you tuh do? Proagin" "round half de night lak uh d.a.m.n tom cat and den come heah, wakin" me up tuh ast uh d.a.m.n fool question?"
"Well, you answer me den. Whut is us doin" married?"
"If you been married tuh uh person seben years and den come ast sich uh question, you mus" be crazy uh drunk one. You is drunk! You oughta know whut us doin" married jus" ez well ez Ah do."
"But Ah don"t. G.o.d knows Ah sho don"t. Look lak Ah been sleep. Ah ain"t never meant tuh marry you. Ain"t got no recollection uh even tryin" tuh marry yuh, but here us is married, Hattie, how come dat?"
"Is you crazy sho "nuff?"
"Naw, Ah ain"t crazy. Look lak de first time Ah been clothed in mah right mind fuh uh long time. Look lak uh whole heap uh things been goin" on in mah sleep. You got tuh tell me how come me and you is married."
"Us married "cause you said you wanted me. Dat"s how come."
"Ah don"t have no "membrance uh sayin" no sich uh thing. Don"t b"lieve Ah said it neither."
"Well you sho said so-more"n once too. Ah married yuh jes" tuh git rid of yuh."
"Aw naw. Ah ain"t begged you tuh marry me, nothin" uh de kind. Ah ain"t said nothing" "bout lovin" yuh tuh my knowin", but even if Ah did, youse uh experienced woman-had plenty experience "fo" Ah ever seen yuh. You know better"n tuh b"lieve anything uh man tell yuh after ten o"clock at night. You know so well Ah ain"t wanted tuh marry you. Dat"s how come Ah know it"s uh bug under dis chip."
"Well-if you didn"t want me you made lak yuh did," Hattie said doggedly.
"Dat sho is funny, "cause Ah know Ah wanted Miss Lucy and Ah kin call tuh memory eve"y li"l" thing "bout our courtin" and "bout us gittin" married. Couldn"t fuhgit it if Ah wuz tuh try. Mo" special and particular, Ah remember jus" how Ah felt when she looked at me and when Ah looked at her and when we touched each other. Ah recollect how de moon looked de night us married, and her li"l" bare feets over de floor, but Ah don"t remember nothin" "bout you. Ah don"t know how de moon looked and even if it rained uh no. Ah don"t "call to mind making no "rangements tuh marry yuh. So you mus" know mo" "bout it than Ah do."
Hattie pulled her long top lip down over the two large chalky-white false teeth in front and thought a while. She sank back upon her pillow with an air of dismissal. "Youse drunk and anybody"d be uh fool tuh talk after yuh. You know durned well how come you married me."
"Naw, Ah don"t neither. Heap uh things done went on Ah ain"t meant tuh be. Lucy lef" seben chillun in mah keer. Dey ain"t here now. Where is mah chillun, Hattie? Whut mah church doin" all tore up? Look at de whiskey bottles settin" "round dis house. Dat didn"t useter be."
"Yeah, and you sho drinks it too."
"But Ah didn"t useter. Not in Lucy"s time. She never drunk none herself lak you do, and she never brought none in de house tuh tempt me."
"Aw g"wan out heah! Don"t keer if Ah do take uh swaller uh two. You de pastor uh Zion Hope, not me. You don"t hav" to do lak me. Youse older"n me. Hoe yo" own row. De n.i.g.g.e.rs fixin" tuh put yuh out dat pulpit "bout yo" women and yo" likker and you tryin" tuh blame it all on me."
"Naw it"s jus" uh hidden mystery tuh me-what you doin" in Miss Lucy"s shoes."
And like a man arisen, but with sleep still in his eyes, he went out of the door and to his own bedroom.
Hattie lay tossing, wondering how she could get to An" Dangie Dewoe without arousing suspicion.
"Wonder is Ah done let things go too long, or is de roots jus" done wore out and done turn"d back on me?"
There was no sleep in either bedroom that night.
Hattie crept into John"s bed at dawn and tried her blandishments but he thrust her rudely away.
"Don"t you want me tuh love yuh no mo"?"
"Naw."
"How come?"
"It don"t seem lak iss clean uh sumpin."