One night John had a dream. Lucy sat beside a stream and cried because she was afraid of a snake. He killed the snake and carried Lucy across in his arms to where Alf Pearson stood at the cross roads and pointed down a white sh.e.l.l road with his walking cane and said, "Distance is the only cure for certain diseases," and he and Lucy went racing down the dusty white road together. Somehow Lucy got lost from him, but there he was on the road-happy because the dead snake was behind him, but crying in his loneliness for Lucy. His sobbing awoke him and he said, "Maybe it"s meant for me tuh leave Sanford. Whut Ahm hangin" "round heah for, anyhow?"
At breakfast he said to Hambo, "Well, Hambo, Ah been thinkin" and thinkin" and Ah done decided dat Ahm goin" tuh give you dis town. You kin have it."
"You better say Joe, "cause you don"t know. Us been here batchin" tuhgether and gittin "long fine. Ahm liable not tuh let yuh go. Me, Ahm in de "B" cla.s.s, be here when you leave and be here when you git back."
"Oh yeah, Ahm goin". Gointer spread mah jenk in unother town."
"Where you figgerin" on goin"?"
"Don"t know yet. When Ah colleck dem few pennies Ah got owing tuh me, iss good bye Katy, bar de door. Some uh dese mawnin"s, and it won"t be long, you goin" tuh wake up callin" me and Ah"ll be gone."
And that is the way he went. It was equally haphazard that he landed in Plant City and went about looking for work.
Several times he pa.s.sed the big white building that Baptist pride had erected and that he had been invited as Moderator to dedicate, but he pa.s.sed it now with shuttered eyes. He avoided the people who might remember him.
A week and no work. Walking the streets with his tool kit. Hopeful, smiling ingratiatingly into faces like a dog in a meat house. Desperation nettling his rest.
"How yuh do, suh? Ain"t you Rev"und Pearson?"
He looked sidewise quickly into the face of a tall black woman who smiled at him over a gate. Yard chock full of roses in no set pattern.
"Yes ma"am. Well, Ah thank yuh."
"Thought Ah knowed yuh. Heard yuh preach one time at our church."
"Pilgrim Rest Baptis" Church?"
"Dat"s right. Dat wuz uh sermon! Come in."
John was tired. He sat heavily upon the step.
"Don"t set on de do" step. Elder, heah"s uh chear."
"Iss all right, Sister, jus" so Ahm settin" down."
"Naw, it "tain"t. If you set on de steps you"ll git all de pains in de house. Ha, ha! Ah reckon you say n.i.g.g.e.rs got all de signs and white folks got all de money."
He sat in the comfortable chair she placed for him and surrendered his hat.
"You got tuh eat supper wid me, lessen you got somewhere puhticklar tuh go. Mah dead husband said you wuz de best preacher ever borned since befo" dey built de Rocky Mountains."
Rev. Pearson laughed a s.p.a.ce-filling laugh and waited on her lead.
"You goin" tuh be in our midst uh while?"
"Don"t know, Sister-er-"
"Sister Lovelace. Knowed you wouldn"t know me. Maybe you would eben disremember mah husband, but Ah sho is glad tuh have yuh in our midst. "Scuse me uh minute whilst Ah go skeer yuh up suppin" tuh eat."
She bustled inside but popped out a moment later with a palm-leaf fan.
"Cool yo"self off, Rev"und."
She was back in a few minutes with a pitcher clinking with ice.
"Have uh cool drink uh water, Elder-mighty hot. Ain"t aimin" tuh fill yuh up on water, ha! ha! jes" keepin" yuh cool "til it git done."
From the deep porch, smothered in bucket flowers the street looked so different. The world and all seemed so different-it seemed changed in a dream way. "Maybe nothin" ain"t real sho "nuff. Maybe "tain"t no world. No elements, no nothin". Maybe wese jus" somewhere in G.o.d"s mind," but when he wiggled his tired toes the world thudded and throbbed before him.
"Walk right intuh de dinin"-room and take uh chear, Rev"und. Right in dis big chear at de head uh de table. Maybe you kin make uh meal outa dis po" dinner Ah set befo" yuh, but yuh know Ahm uh widder woman and doin" de bes" ah kin."
"Dis po" dinner," consisted of fried chicken, hot biscuits, rice, mashed sweet potatoes, warmed over greens, rice pudding and iced tea.
"You goin" tuh set down and eat wid me, ain"t yuh Sister Lovelace?"
"Naw, you go right uhead and eat. Ahm goin" tuh fan de flies. Dey right bad dese days. Ah been laying off tuh have de place screened, but jes" ain"t got "round tuh it. De wire is easy tuh git but dese carpenters "round heah does sich shabby work "til Ah ruther not be bothered."
"Ahm uh carpenter."
"You ain"t got time tuh fool wid nothin" lak dat. Youse too big uh man."
"Oh, Ah got plenty time."
John felt warm heart-beats that night in his room. He decided to drop a line or two to Sanford. He sent a cheerful line to Hambo first of all.
He wrote to Mamie Lester for news and comfort. She never answered. She felt injured that he should ask such a thing of her. Her indignation burst out of her. She asked many people, "Who do John Pearson think Ah am to be totin" news for him? He ain"t nothin"." She said "nothin"" as if she had spat a stinking morsel out of her mouth.
After a long time, when he didn"t get an answer, John Pearson understood, and laughed in his bed. The virtuous indignation of Mamie Lester! He could see her again as he had first seen her twenty years ago, as she had tramped into Sanford as barefooted as a yard dog with her skimpy, dirty calico dress and uncombed head; and her guitar hanging around her neck by a dirty red ribbon. How she had tried to pick him up and instead had gotten an invitation to his church. Respectability and marriage to a deacon. She, who had had no consciousness of degradation on the chain-gang and in the brothel, had now discovered she had no time for talk with fallen preachers.
Now that he had work to do, he wrote to George Gibson, asking him to return his tools that George had borrowed. George ignored the letter. He was really angry, "The son of a b.u.m! Won"t pay n.o.body and then come astin" me "bout dem tools. Ah wish he would come to my face and ast me for "em."
"Do Pearson owe you too?" another impostor asked.
"Do he? Humph!" he left the feeling that if he only had the money that John Pearson owed him, he need never worry any more.
George was indignant at being asked favors by the weak. His blood boiled.
It became the fashion that whoever was in hard luck, whoever was in debt-John Pearson had betrayed him. Gibson habitually wore a sorrowful look of infinite betrayal. In the meanwhile he used John"s tools and came finally to feel that he deserved them.
The next day after the chance meeting John began his task of screening the house of Sally Lovelace, and when he was thru he hesitated over taking the money agreed upon.
"You done fed me more"n de worth uh de job," he said.
"Aw shucks, man, uh woman dat"s useter havin" uh man tuh do fuh got tuh wait on somebody. Take de money. You goin" tuh be tuh church dis Sunday?"
"Er-er-Ah don"t jus" exactly know, tuh tell yuh truth, Sister Lovelace."
"You jokin", Ah know. Whut you goin" tuh do, if you don"t go?"
"Not tuh turn yuh no short answer, Ah don"t know."
"Oh come uhlong wid me. Deacon Turner and dem wuz overglad tuh know youse in town. Dey wants yuh tuh run our revival meetin" and dey did say suppin" "bout yuh preachin" Communion Service."
John flinched, and Mrs. Lovelace saw it. He had to stay to supper then, and at eleven o"clock that night she knew everything. He had not spared himself, and lay with his head in her lap sobbing like a boy of four.
"Well, youse gointer pastor right here at Pilgrim Rest and none of "em bet" not come "round here tryin" tuh destroy yo" influence!" Sally blazed. "Ain"t doodley squat dey self and goin" "round tromplin" on folks dat"s "way uhbove "em." She ran her fingers soothingly thru John"s curly hair, and he fell asleep at her knee.
John escorted Sally to church on Sunday and preached.
"Man, you preached!" Sally said warmly during dinner-"only thing Ah heahed so many folks wuz shoutin" Ah couldn"t half hear whut you wuz sayin". You got tuh preach dat at home some time. Special fuh me."
"Preach it anytime you say, but sho "nuff Ah felt lak ole times tuhday. Felt lak Samson when his hair begin tuh grow out agin."
"Dat"s de way fuh yuh tuh feel, John. Oh yeah, "fo" Ah fuhgit it, dere"s uh lady got twenty-seben houses. She wants you tuh look over and patch up wherever dey needs fixin". Ain"t been nothin" done on "em in two years. "Bout two weeks steady work and den de Meth"dis" parsonage got tuh have new shingles all over and me and de pastor"s wife stands in. Oh you goin" tuh git "long good in this town."
John had finished the work on the houses before he found out that they belonged to Sally. The Methodist preacher had paid him. He found himself displeased when he heard of Sally"s ownership. What would she with all that property, want with him?
"John, dey"s fixin" tuh loose de pastor uh Pilgrim Rest and Ahm quite sho dey"s "bout tuh call you. So go git yo" things tuhgether and less git married tuhday so n.o.body can"t start no talk."
"Thank yuh, Sally."
"You wuz aimin" tuh ast me anyhow, wuzn"t yuh?"
"Sho wuz, jus" ez soon ez Ah could git tuh de place where Ah could make support fuh yuh."
"Well, den eve"ything is all right between us. We ain"t no chillun no mo", and we don"t need tuh go thru uh whole lot uh form and fashion-uh kee-kee-in" and eatin" up pocket handkerchers. You done got de church and dat calls fuh over uh hund"ed dollars uh month and besides whut you got comin" in from carpenterin", and Ah got three hund"ed dollars eve"y month from de rent uh dem houses. Ahm gointer marry you, "cause Ah love yuh and Ah b"lieve you love me, and "cause you needs marryin"."
"Ah sho do, Sally. Less go git married and den got set on de fish pond and ketch us uh mess uh speckled perches fuh supper. Iss uh heap mo" fun than buyin" "em."
"Less do. Ah always wanted tuh go sich places, but Oscar never would take me. He wuz uh good puhvider tho"."
Sally went to bed as a matter of course that night, but John was as shy as a girl-as Lucy had been. His bride wondered at that. He stayed a long time on his knees and Sally never knew how fervently he prayed that Sally might never look at him out of the eyes of Lucy. How abjectly he begged his G.o.d to keep his path out of the way of snares and to bear him up lest he bruise his feet against a stumbling-stone, and he vowed vows, if G.o.d would only keep his way clean. "Let Lucy see it too, Lawd, so she kin rest. And be so pleased as to cast certain memories in de sea of fuhgitfulness where dey will never rise tuh condemn me in de judgment. Amen and thang G.o.d."
CHAPTER 25.
Sally, you never ought tuh bought me no car. Dat"s too much money tuh take out de bank."
"Who else Ahm goin" tuh spend it on? Ah ain"t got uh chick nor uh chile "ceptin" you. If us ever goin" tuh enjoy ourselves, dis is de world tuh do it in."
"But uh Chevrolet would uh done me. You didn"t hafta go buy no Cadillac."
"Wanted yuh tuh set up in uh Cadillac. Dat"s yo" weddin" present and our first anniversary present all two together."
"Don"t look lak us been married no year, Sally."
"But us is. Dat"s "cause we happy. Tuh think Ah lived tuh git forty-eight "fo" Ah ever knowed whut love is."
"Ah love you de same way, Sally."
"Look here, John, you ain"t been back tuh Sanford since yuh lef" dere."
"Don"t keer if Ah never see it no mo" "twill be too soon."
"Yeah, but honey, yo" buddy Hambo done been down here and paid you uh visit. You oughter go up and spend uh few days wid him, and let dem n.i.g.g.e.rs see how well you gittin" uhlong."
"Awright; when you wanta go?"
"Me? Ah ain"t goin". Ah got mah guava jelly tuh put up. Ah don"t trust ridin" so fur in dese cars, nohow. You go and tell me all uhbout it. You been right up under me ever since us been married. Do yuh good tuh git off uh spell."
"Naw, Sally, Ah don"t want tuh go "thout you."
"Fool, how you goin" tuh git uh rest from me and take me wid yuh? You jes" lak uh li"l" boy and da.s.s whut make Ah love yuh so, but you g"wan."
"Naw, Ah promised mahself never tuh sleep uh night "way from you. Ah don"t wanta break mah vow."
Sally exulted in her power and sipped honey from his lips, but she made him go, seeing the pain in John"s face at the separation. It was worth her own suffering ten times over to see him that way for her.
The next morning he turned the long nose of his car northwards and pulled up at Hambo"s gate. He was affectionately called every vile name in the language and fed on cow peas, but it seemed good to be there.
Three girls in their late teens stood about his gleaming chariot when he emerged towards sundown to visit the new pastor of Zion Hope church. They admired it loudly and crudely hinted for rides, but John coolly drove off without taking any hints. He was used to admiration of his car now and he had his vows.
Sanford was warm. From what he heard now as he sat under the wheel of his car, Sanford had had not a moment of happiness since he left. Zion Hope was desolate. The choir in heaven had struck silence for the s.p.a.ce of half an hour. Wouldn"t he consider a recall?
"Naw, it would be de same ole soup-bone-jus" warmed over-dat"s all. Ah got uh church bigger"n dis one."
"You could give dem two Sundays and us two, couldn"t yuh?" Trustee John Hall pled.
"Ah couldn"t see de way tuh be "way from home dat much. We got too much proppity down dere fuh me tuh look after."
"You got proppity?"
"Yep. Thirty houses tuh rent. Three of "em brand new. Ah jus" finished "em off las" week and dey was rented "fo" de roof got on." He pulled out the huge roll of bills in his pocket, "And Ah jus" got th"ew collectin" de month"s rent "fo" Ah come off."
"G.o.d uhmighty man, youse rich! You got bucks above suspicion! Oh shucks, Ah lak tuh fuhgit. Here"s dat fo" dollars Ah owe you fuh buildin" dat shed-room "fo" you went way from here. Ah could uh been done paid yuh, but Ah let talk keep me from it."
John pocketed the money without thanking him. He was grinning sardonically inside, thinking of the heat of the pavements and empty belly, the cold cruelty of want, how much men hit and beat at need when it pleads its gauntness.
But Hall was looking upon plenty and heard no miserable inside gnawings. He heard not John"s cold lack of courtesy.
"But you got tuh preach for us dis comin" Sunday. Dat"s Communion service. n.o.body in de world kin preach dat lak you. Lemme go put it out right now, so"s de whole church will know."