Reluctantly she shook her head.
"It would be wrong for me to tell you there was. You know what happens at this stage of typhoid----" And she went on to describe the condition now prevailing.
"It"s the suddenness I can"t get over," Roger said for the fourth time.
"Nor I."
In fact, she felt still dazed. Her eyes dwelt with compa.s.sion on Roger"s face until she saw him pa.s.s his hand heavily over his forehead with a suggestion of pain. Then she spoke impulsively:
"Roger--do you mind? I"d like to take your temperature."
"Mine? What for?"
"Don"t be cross, I really think I"d better."
"Oh, all right, go ahead."
A moment later, when she was in the act of counting his pulse and while the thermometer was sticking out of his mouth, Lady Clifford entered, followed by her sister-in-law, the latter looking tired and much older.
Both women looked on with interest and concern.
"Miss Rowe--you don"t think----?"
"It is up a little," Esther admitted, holding the thermometer to the light. "Just a hundred. I thought so last night. It isn"t much, of course."
"So did I. You see, Roger! You wouldn"t believe me."
"Well, what if it is? It"s nothing worth mentioning."
Miss Clifford glanced helplessly at the others, and Therese gave a pathetic shrug. She looked fragile and wan, all life gone out of her.
"My dear," she said gently to Roger, going up to him and putting her hand on his shoulder, "I had the same symptoms that you have--the same that poor Charles had. This is a dreadful epidemic; no one is safe.
But look at me--I escaped it, I am perfectly well. Why? Because I took the anti-toxin."
"Of course, Roger," his aunt urged eagerly. "You must let the doctor see you at once; you mustn"t waste a minute!"
"You think I ought to have typhoid anti-toxin, do you?"
Therese shrugged her shoulders again very slightly before replying, "I think so, naturally. But I should leave it to the doctor. He"ll advise you."
Roger turned to Esther.
"What do you think about it, Miss Rowe?" he asked. "Would you have it if you were I?"
"The anti-toxin? Oh--that is something you must decide."
Why on earth did she make such an inane reply? She saw Lady Clifford smile a little and raise her eyebrows, as if amused by what she considered a stupid conversation. The old lady merely looked troubled.
"Well," remarked Roger, rising, "you women may think what you like, but there"s one thing I never have been able to stand the thought of, and that is having a needle stuck into me."
"My dear, that"s simply childish," his aunt chid him mildly. "It"s only a tiny p.r.i.c.k."
"Yes and it"s just that tiny p.r.i.c.k that is worse for me than going over the top ever was. You"ll think me no end of a fool, but I mean it."
He left the room to avoid argument. Miss Clifford turned to Esther for sympathy.
"Miss Rowe, did you ever know anyone so stupid?"
"Yes, Miss Clifford. He"s not the first man I"ve met who felt like that."
"You don"t mean it! What cowards men are! I wonder what we ought to do? Of course I"ll manage to persuade him."
"Of course you will," Lady Clifford a.s.sured her. "When such a small, small thing can prevent a bad illness, one must try to find a way of removing a silly prejudice."
"Oh, leave him to me, I"ll talk him round."
"Only, don"t let him wait too long--stupid boy! It might be too late to do any good. Persuade him to let the doctor examine him now."
"I will. I"ll go after him this minute. He mustn"t be allowed to trifle with his health in this way," and the elder woman left the room, glad of the relief of action.
As Esther rose to go back into the bedroom. Lady Clifford inquired wearily:
"Is there any change, nurse?"
"I"m afraid not, Lady Clifford. He"s barely conscious, that"s all."
The Frenchwoman sighed slightly as she turned away.
"It only there were something one could do," she murmured. "If one didn"t feel so helpless!"
The afternoon dragged by, the invalid drifting surely towards the other world in spite of all the efforts made to anchor him to this one.
Esther stayed close beside the bed, even though there was little she could do, mildly saddened because of sympathy for at least two members of the old man"s family who would mourn his loss. The "case," now so nearly finished, appeared, as she reviewed it, quite an ordinary one, all the tiny things that had struck her as odd or arresting seemed trivial in retrospect, unworthy of the attention she had bestowed on them. No doubt everything had grown out of the rather peculiar personality of Sartorius from whom she would soon be dissociated--without regret. She would certainly not continue to work for him, even if he wanted her, and of course he would not want her.
No, if nothing prevented her, she would probably spend a few free weeks in Cannes, then take pa.s.sage back to America.
_If nothing prevented_: would Roger try to stop her going? Or had his feeling for her not risen above the plane of mild flirtation? He had said nothing, there was nothing for her to go on beyond the look in his eyes. She was ashamed to confess to herself how much she hoped that he really cared. Thank goodness she had not committed herself in any way; that was one good thing.
That evening there was a dreadful feeling of low ebb about everything.
In addition to Sir Charles, who was steadily sinking, there was now Roger to worry about. He had apparently allowed the doctor to examine him, but continued to hold firm against the anti-toxin, out of sheer obstinacy, it seemed. His aunt could not understand his stubbornness, and began to be filled with anxiety, particularly as he had gone off to bed with the headache unabated and a temperature still upon him.
"As if one didn"t have enough to make one unhappy," the old lady sighed to Esther. "Now if Roger is going to be ill, it will be too utterly dreadful!"
Esther comforted her as well as she could, but she herself felt a load of apprehension upon her. Of course Roger was a young, vigorous man, there was no special reason to fear for him, and yet until two days ago they had felt such confidence in Sir Charles"s recovery. What if the same sudden thing should happen again? It was perhaps stupid to entertain such fancies, but she was shaken, unnerved.
Ten o"clock found her alone in the drawing-room, tired, but not ready for bed, so restless she was unable to pin her attention to a book.
How could she occupy her mind for a little? She looked vaguely about, and was about to pick up some cards for a game of patience when her eye fell on a large portfolio of colour-prints, reproductions of the work of modern Russian painters. The cover, reminiscent of the Chauve-Souris, attracted her, she recalled having noticed it upstairs in the boudoir several days ago. She had meant then to look at the book, but it had disappeared and she had forgotten it till now. She lifted it to her lap and opened it--or rather, to be exact, it fell open, by reason of some obstruction wedged in the crutch. A pencil, perhaps....
It was the hypodermic needle!
Dumbfounded, she stared at it. How on earth did it get there? Then all at once the whole thing flashed on her. The book had lain open on the table in the boudoir; she had put the needle down upon it when she first began to minister to Roger. His aunt had cleared the table to make room for the basin of water and bandages, closed the book hastily, no doubt, and pushed it aside. Then at some time later one of the servants had removed it, with others in the same pile, to this room.