Chapter 2.16
Chapter 2 — Coming of age, a ceremony needed for emanc.i.p.ation . Part 16
When everything was finally over, nine days had already pa.s.sed .
Those nine days had been really hectic, which meant that I hadn’t made any progress at all in reading the last third of L’Etranger . I was still stalled after the first witness’ testimony in the main character’s trial .
My step-father was in the living room, painfully sleeping amidst a thicket of beer cans . I wasn’t at all bothered by his appearance though . That was just the way he was and probably how his sorrows were manifesting .
I left him there and headed to school without saying a word .
In only the span of nine days, fall had greatly intensified, and I felt as if the first signs of winter could already be seen in the distance .
The sky was clear, but the sunlight was weak and the wind was cold . I wished I had one more layer on top of my winter uniform .
The black sailor uniform had the appearance of a mourning dress .
But I didn’t have any intention of mourning .
Even though it had been a while since I last went to school, it was still the same boring and overly formal place .
Budworm wasn’t present however, but everyone else was .
I ignored the apprehensive stares as well as the noisy Tsukasa, and instead spoke to the perfectstudent with the arm in a cast .
“Who was it that broke your arm?” I asked straight away without even greeting him .
His face contorted into a mix of shock and fear as he replied:
“I-I just…fell down . ”
“I see, then that’s fine . ” I grinned in an insinuating manner and continued .
“Gas tank . ”
His whole face convulsed at once .
“Would you like to have it back?”
“W-w-what do you m-mean?” His teeth started chattering loudly and his eyes evaded mine when I looked to his .
“You left it on the ground near my house . On the night you made the fire . ”
“You left it on the ground near my house . On the night you made the fire . ”
“I don’t know anything about that! I didn’t have anything to do with it, I swear!” he screamed in horror, his body going weak as the guard around his soul fell to pieces .
And that was all the proof I needed .
If he had been the accomplice, I knew for sure who the leader was .
Since that was all the information I required, I didn’t have anything else to say .
“It wasn’t my fault! It was all her!” he shouted, standing up, then all strength left his body and he fell limply upon his desk .
A little while later, he started sobbing .
I shrugged it off and went to my desk .
There, Tsukasa looked at me with a vague, worried—which was really uncommon for her—smile, and said:
“Sacchan, I think you went too far . ”
“That was just”—I glanced at him for an instant—”reaping what he sowed . ”
“That was just”—I glanced at him for an instant—”reaping what he sowed . ”
“Not everyone, including him, can behave and stay strong in any situation like you . You’re at least aware of that, right?”
It almost sounded like she was lecturing me .
I looked away to the window and what was outside . The weather looked cold, the wind sporadically blowing over the sports ground . I brushed my hair back and replied:
“If you have nothing important to say, please leave me alone . ”
“Do you hold your hair like that out of habit?” Instead, she started talking about something completely unrelated .
“I believe I just told you to leave me alone if you don’t have anything important to say . ”
“And I want to talk with you—I think that’s something very important . ”
“…It’s probably a habit . ”
“I think it fits you a lot . It gives off this cold aura…” Her smile was bright now, she seemed to be enjoying this for some reason .
“I really wanted to have long hair too but it gets too curly so I gave up on growing it . ”
She put her hands on both sides of her head and started grasping at her hair .
“I really wanted to have long hair too but it gets too curly so I gave up on growing it . ”
She put her hands on both sides of her head and started grasping at her hair .
“I see . ”
“It’s hereditary though, so there’s nothing I can do about it . My mom also has really curly hair, and when the rainy season comes, both our hair curls up even more and we look like scientists having gone through a failed experiment . If you come visit, I could show you the pictures of that . ”
Then she splayed out her hands away from her head, gesturing as if it were exploding, and burst out laughing .
“My hair”— I started stroking my own hair, that black hair I had grown for so long—”–is also hereditary, it looks the same as my mother’s . ”
My mother who went into the flames, yelling the name of my dead sister and–––
“So you liked your mom . ”
“No,” I said . “I hated her . ”
“That can’t be true,” she countered immediately .
“Even if I didn’t hate her, there’s no point talking about it now . She’s already dead . ”
I stroked my hair one more time . It felt silky, just like my mother’s felt when I touched it so long ago .
Chapter 2 Coming of age, a ceremony needed for emanc.i.p.ation . Part 16 When everything was finally over, nine days had already pa.s.sed . Those nine days had been really hectic, which meant that I hadn t made any progress at all in reading the last third of L Etranger . I was still stalled after the first witness testimony in the main character s trial . My step father was in the living room, painfully sleeping amidst a thicket of beer cans . I wasn t at all bothered by his appearance though . That was just the way he was and probably how his sorrows were manifesting . I left him there and headed to school without saying a word . In only the span of nine days, fall had greatly intensified, and I felt as if the first signs of winter could already be seen in the distance . The sky was clear, but the sunlight was weak and the wind was cold . I wished I had one more layer on top of my winter uniform . The black sailor uniform had the appearance of a mourning dress . But I didn t have any intention of mourning . Even though it had been a while since I last went to school, it was still the same boring and overly formal place . Budworm wasn t present however, but everyone else was . I ignored the apprehensive stares as well as the noisy Tsukasa, and instead spoke to the perfectstudent with the arm in a cast . Who was it that broke your arm I asked straight away without even greeting him . His face contorted into a mix of shock and fear as he replied I I just fell down . I see, then that s fine . I grinned in an insinuating manner and continued . Gas tank . His whole face convulsed at once . Would you like to have it back W w what do you m mean His teeth started chattering loudly and his eyes evaded mine when I looked to his . You left it on the ground near my house . On the night you made the fire . I don t know anything about that I didn t have anything to do with it, I swear he screamed in horror, his body going weak as the guard around his soul fell to pieces . And that was all the proof I needed . If he had been the accomplice, I knew for sure who the leader was . Since that was all the information I required, I didn t have anything else to say . It wasn t my fault It was all her he shouted, standing up, then all strength left his body and he fell limply upon his desk . A little while later, he started sobbing . I shrugged it off and went to my desk . There, Tsukasa looked at me with a vague, worried which was really uncommon for her smile, and said Sacchan, I think you went too far . That was just I glanced at him for an instant reaping what he sowed . Not everyone, including him, can behave and stay strong in any situation like you . You re at least aware of that, right It almost sounded like she was lecturing me . I looked away to the window and what was outside . The weather looked cold, the wind sporadically blowing over the sports ground . I brushed my hair back and replied If you have nothing important to say, please leave me alone . Do you hold your hair like that out of habit Instead, she started talking about something completely unrelated . I believe I just told you to leave me alone if you don t have anything important to say . And I want to talk with you I think that s something very important . It s probably a habit . I think it fits you a lot . It gives off this cold aura Her smile was bright now, she seemed to be enjoying this for some reason . I really wanted to have long hair too but it gets too curly so I gave up on growing it . She put her hands on both sides of her head and started grasping at her hair . I see . It s hereditary though, so there s nothing I can do about it . My mom also has really curly hair, and when the rainy season comes, both our hair curls up even more and we look like scientists having gone through a failed experiment . If you come visit, I could show you the pictures of that . Then she splayed out her hands away from her head, gesturing as if it were exploding, and burst out laughing . My hair I started stroking my own hair, that black hair I had grown for so long is also hereditary, it looks the same as my mother s . My mother who went into the flames, yelling the name of my dead sister and So you liked your mom . No, I said . I hated her . That can t be true, she countered immediately . Even if I didn t hate her, there s no point talking about it now . She s already dead . I stroked my hair one more time . It felt silky, just like my mother s felt when I touched it so long ago .