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Chapter 20

But when, in the parlor that had seen Mr. Schwitter"s strange proposal of the morning, Tillie poured out her story, K."s face grew grave.

"The wicked part is that I want to go with him," she finished. "I keep thinking about being out in the country, and him coming into supper, and everything nice for him and me cleaned up and waiting--O my G.o.d! I"ve always been a good woman until now."

"I--I understand a great deal better than you think I do. You"re not wicked. The only thing is--"

"Go on. Hit me with it."

"You might go on and be very happy. And as for the--for his wife, it won"t do her any harm. It"s only--if there are children."



"I know. I"ve thought of that. But I"m so crazy for children!"

"Exactly. So you should be. But when they come, and you cannot give them a name--don"t you see? I"m not preaching morality. G.o.d forbid that I--But no happiness is built on a foundation of wrong. It"s been tried before, Tillie, and it doesn"t pan out."

He was conscious of a feeling of failure when he left her at last. She had acquiesced in what he said, knew he was right, and even promised to talk to him again before making a decision one way or the other. But against his abstractions of conduct and morality there was pleading in Tillie the hungry mother-heart; law and creed and early training were fighting against the strongest instinct of the race. It was a losing battle.

CHAPTER XI

The hot August days dragged on. Merciless sunlight beat in through the slatted shutters of ward windows. At night, from the roof to which the nurses retired after prayers for a breath of air, lower surrounding roofs were seen to be covered with sleepers. Children dozed precariously on the edge of eternity; men and women sprawled in the grotesque postures of sleep.

There was a sort of feverish irritability in the air. Even the nurses, stoically unmindful of bodily discomfort, spoke curtly or not at all.

Miss Dana, in Sidney"s ward, went down with a low fever, and for a day or so Sidney and Miss Grange got along as best they could. Sidney worked like two or more, performed marvels of bed-making, learned to give alcohol baths for fever with the maximum of result and the minimum of time, even made rounds with a member of the staff and came through creditably.

Dr. Ed Wilson had sent a woman patient into the ward, and his visits were the breath of life to the girl.

"How"re they treating you?" he asked her, one day, abruptly.

"Very well."

"Look at me squarely. You"re pretty and you"re young. Some of them will try to take it out of you. That"s human nature. Has anyone tried it yet?"

Sidney looked distressed.

"Positively, no. It"s been hot, and of course it"s troublesome to tell me everything. I--I think they"re all very kind."

He reached out a square, competent hand, and put it over hers.

"We miss you in the Street," he said. "It"s all sort of dead there since you left. Joe Drummond doesn"t moon up and down any more, for one thing.

What was wrong between you and Joe, Sidney?"

"I didn"t want to marry him; that"s all."

"That"s considerable. The boy"s taking it hard."

Then, seeing her face:--

"But you"re right, of course. Don"t marry anyone unless you can"t live without him. That"s been my motto, and here I am, still single."

He went out and down the corridor. He had known Sidney all his life.

During the lonely times when Max was at college and in Europe, he had watched her grow from a child to a young girl. He did not suspect for a moment that in that secret heart of hers he sat newly enthroned, in a glow of white light, as Max"s brother; that the mere thought that he lived in Max"s house (it was, of course Max"s house to her), sat at Max"s breakfast table, could see him whenever he wished, made the touch of his hand on hers a benediction and a caress.

Sidney finished folding linen and went back to the ward. It was Friday and a visiting day. Almost every bed had its visitor beside it; but Sidney, running an eye over the ward, found the girl of whom she had spoken to Le Moyne quite alone. She was propped up in bed, reading; but at each new step in the corridor hope would spring into her eyes and die again.

"Want anything, Grace?"

"Me? I"m all right. If these people would only get out and let me read in peace--Say, sit down and talk to me, won"t you? It beats the mischief the way your friends forget you when you"re laid up in a place like this."

"People can"t always come at visiting hours. Besides, it"s hot."

"A girl I knew was sick here last year, and it wasn"t too hot for me to trot in twice a week with a bunch of flowers for her. Do you think she"s been here once? She hasn"t."

Then, suddenly:--

"You know that man I told you about the other day?"

Sidney nodded. The girl"s anxious eyes were on her.

"It was a shock to me, that"s all. I didn"t want you to think I"d break my heart over any fellow. All I meant was, I wished he"d let me know."

Her eyes searched Sidney"s. They looked unnaturally large and somber in her face. Her hair had been cut short, and her nightgown, open at the neck, showed her thin throat and prominent clavicles.

"You"re from the city, aren"t you, Miss Page?"

"Yes."

"You told me the street, but I"ve forgotten it."

Sidney repeated the name of the Street, and slipped a fresh pillow under the girl"s head.

"The evening paper says there"s a girl going to be married on your street."

"Really! Oh, I think I know. A friend of mine is going to be married.

Was the name Lorenz?"

"The girl"s name was Lorenz. I--I don"t remember the man"s name."

"She is going to marry a Mr. Howe," said Sidney briskly. "Now, how do you feel? More comfy?"

"Fine! I suppose you"ll be going to that wedding?"

"If I ever get time to have a dress made, I"ll surely go."

Toward six o"clock the next morning, the night nurse was making out her reports. On one record, which said at the top, "Grace Irving, age 19,"

and an address which, to the initiated, told all her story, the night nurse wrote:--

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