"Please don"t be theatrical. Come in and sit down. I can"t talk to you if you explode like a rocket all the time."
Her matter-of-fact tone had its effect. He advanced into the room, but he still scorned a chair.
"I guess you"ve been wondering why you haven"t heard from me," he said.
"I"ve seen you more than you"ve seen me."
Sidney looked uneasy. The idea of espionage is always repugnant, and to have a rejected lover always in the offing, as it were, was disconcerting.
"I wish you would be just a little bit sensible, Joe. It"s so silly of you, really. It"s not because you care for me; it"s really because you care for yourself."
"You can"t look at me and say that, Sid."
He ran his finger around his collar--an old gesture; but the collar was very loose. He was thin; his neck showed it.
"I"m just eating my heart out for you, and that"s the truth. And it isn"t only that. Everywhere I go, people say, "There"s the fellow Sidney Page turned down when she went to the hospital." I"ve got so I keep off the Street as much as I can."
Sidney was half alarmed, half irritated. This wild, excited boy was not the doggedly faithful youth she had always known. It seemed to her that he was hardly sane--that underneath his quiet manner and carefully repressed voice there lurked something irrational, something she could not cope with. She looked up at him helplessly.
"But what do you want me to do? You--you almost frighten me. If you"d only sit down--"
"I want you to come home. I"m not asking anything else now. I just want you to come back, so that things will be the way they used to be. Now that they have turned you out--"
"They"ve done nothing of the sort. I"ve told you that."
"You"re going back?"
"Absolutely."
"Because you love the hospital, or because you love somebody connected with the hospital?"
Sidney was thoroughly angry by this time, angry and reckless. She had come through so much that every nerve was crying in pa.s.sionate protest.
"If it will make you understand things any better," she cried, "I am going back for both reasons!"
She was sorry the next moment. But her words seemed, surprisingly enough, to steady him. For the first time, he sat down.
"Then, as far as I am concerned, it"s all over, is it?"
"Yes, Joe. I told you that long ago."
He seemed hardly to be listening. His thoughts had ranged far ahead.
Suddenly:--
"You think Christine has her hands full with Palmer, don"t you? Well, if you take Max Wilson, you"re going to have more trouble than Christine ever dreamed of. I can tell you some things about him now that will make you think twice."
But Sidney had reached her limit. She went over and flung open the door.
"Every word that you say shows me how right I am in not marrying you, Joe," she said. "Real men do not say those things about each other under any circ.u.mstances. You"re behaving like a bad boy. I don"t want you to come back until you have grown up."
He was very white, but he picked up his hat and went to the door.
"I guess I AM crazy," he said. "I"ve been wanting to go away, but mother raises such a fuss--I"ll not annoy you any more."
He reached in his pocket and, pulling out a small box, held it toward her. The lid was punched full of holes.
"Reginald," he said solemnly. "I"ve had him all winter. Some boys caught him in the park, and I brought him home."
He left her standing there speechless with surprise, with the box in her hand, and ran down the stairs and out into the Street. At the foot of the steps he almost collided with Dr. Ed.
"Back to see Sidney?" said Dr. Ed genially. "That"s fine, Joe. I"m glad you"ve made it up."
The boy went blindly down the Street.
CHAPTER XX
Winter relaxed its clutch slowly that year. March was bitterly cold; even April found the roads still frozen and the hedgerows cl.u.s.tered with ice. But at mid-day there was spring in the air. In the courtyard of the hospital, convalescents sat on the benches and watched for robins. The fountain, which had frozen out, was being repaired. Here and there on ward window-sills tulips opened their gaudy petals to the sun.
Harriet had gone abroad for a flying trip in March and came back laden with new ideas, model gowns, and fresh enthusiasm. She carried out and planted flowers on her sister"s grave, and went back to her work with a feeling of duty done. A combination of crocuses and snow on the ground had given her an inspiration for a gown. She drew it in pencil on an envelope on her way back in the street car.
Grace Irving, having made good during the white sales, had been sent to the spring cottons. She began to walk with her head higher. The day she sold Sidney material for a simple white gown, she was very happy. Once a customer brought her a bunch of primroses. All day she kept them under the counter in a gla.s.s of water, and at evening she took them to Johnny Rosenfeld, still lying p.r.o.ne in the hospital.
On Sidney, on K., and on Christine the winter had left its mark heavily.
Christine, readjusting her life to new conditions, was graver, more thoughtful. She was alone most of the time now. Under K."s guidance, she had given up the "d.u.c.h.ess" and was reading real books. She was thinking real thoughts, too, for the first time in her life.
Sidney, as tender as ever, had lost a little of the radiance from her eyes; her voice had deepened. Where she had been a pretty girl, she was now lovely. She was back in the hospital again, this time in the children"s ward. K., going in one day to take Johnny Rosenfeld a basket of fruit, saw her there with a child in her arms, and a light in her eyes that he had never seen before. It hurt him, rather--things being as they were with him. When he came out he looked straight ahead.
With the opening of spring the little house at Hillfoot took on fresh activities. Tillie was house-cleaning with great thoroughness. She scrubbed carpets, took down the clean curtains, and put them up again freshly starched. It was as if she found in sheer activity and fatigue a remedy for her uneasiness.
Business had not been very good. The impeccable character of the little house had been against it. True, Mr. Schwitter had a little bar and served the best liquors he could buy; but he discouraged rowdiness--had been known to refuse to sell to boys under twenty-one and to men who had already overindulged. The word went about that Schwitter"s was no place for a good time. Even Tillie"s chicken and waffles failed against this handicap.
By the middle of April the house-cleaning was done. One or two motor parties had come out, dined sedately and wined moderately, and had gone back to the city again. The next two weeks saw the weather clear. The roads dried up, robins filled the trees with their noisy spring songs, and still business continued dull.
By the first day of May, Tillie"s uneasiness had become certainty. On that morning Mr. Schwitter, coming in from the early milking, found her sitting in the kitchen, her face buried in her ap.r.o.n. He put down the milk-pails and, going over to her, put a hand on her head.
"I guess there"s no mistake, then?"
"There"s no mistake," said poor Tillie into her ap.r.o.n.
He bent down and kissed the back of her neck. Then, when she failed to brighten, he tiptoed around the kitchen, poured the milk into pans, and rinsed the buckets, working methodically in his heavy way. The tea-kettle had boiled dry. He filled that, too. Then:--
"Do you want to see a doctor?"
"I"d better see somebody," she said, without looking up. "And--don"t think I"m blaming you. I guess I don"t really blame anybody. As far as that goes, I"ve wanted a child right along. It isn"t the trouble I am thinking of either."