"If you had enough character, I"d think you did it. How do I know you didn"t follow us, and shoot him as he left the room?"
It must have been reality, after all; for Sidney"s numbed mind grasped the essential fact here, and held on to it. He had been out with Carlotta. He had promised--sworn that this should not happen. It had happened. It surprised her. It seemed as if nothing more could hurt her.
In the movement to and from the operating room, the door stood open for a moment. A tall figure--how much it looked like K.!--straightened and held out something in its hand.
"The bullet!" said Carlotta in a whisper.
Then more waiting, a stir of movement in the room beyond the closed door. Carlotta was standing, her face buried in her hands, against the door. Sidney suddenly felt sorry for her. She cared a great deal. It must be tragic to care like that! She herself was not caring much; she was too numb.
Beyond, across the courtyard, was the stable. Before the day of the motor ambulances, horses had waited there for their summons, eager as fire horses, heads lifted to the gong. When Sidney saw the outline of the stable roof, she knew that it was dawn. The city still slept, but the torturing night was over. And in the gray dawn the staff, looking gray too, and elderly and weary, came out through the closed door and took their hushed way toward the elevator. They were talking among themselves. Sidney, straining her ears, gathered that they had seen a miracle, and that the wonder was still on them.
Carlotta followed them out.
Almost on their heels came K. He was in the white coat, and more and more he looked like the man who had raised up from his work and held out something in his hand. Sidney"s head was aching and confused.
She sat there in her chair, looking small and childish. The dawn was morning now--horizontal rays of sunlight on the stable roof and across the windowsill of the anaesthetizing-room, where a row of bottles sat on a clean towel.
The tall man--or was it K.?--looked at her, and then reached up and turned off the electric light. Why, it was K., of course; and he was putting out the hall light before he went upstairs. When the light was out everything was gray. She could not see. She slid very quietly out of her chair, and lay at his feet in a dead faint.
K. carried her to the elevator. He held her as he had held her that day at the park when she fell in the river, very carefully, tenderly, as one holds something infinitely precious. Not until he had placed her on her bed did she open her eyes. But she was conscious before that. She was so tired, and to be carried like that, in strong arms, not knowing where one was going, or caring--
The nurse he had summoned hustled out for aromatic ammonia. Sidney, lying among her pillows, looked up at K.
"How is he?"
"A little better. There"s a chance, dear."
"I have been so mixed up. All the time I was sitting waiting, I kept thinking that it was you who were operating! Will he really get well?"
"It looks promising."
"I should like to thank Dr. Edwardes."
The nurse was a long time getting the ammonia. There was so much to talk about: that Dr. Max had been out with Carlotta Harrison, and had been shot by a jealous woman; the inexplicable return to life of the great Edwardes; and--a fact the nurse herself was willing to vouch for, and that thrilled the training-school to the core--that this very Edwardes, newly risen, as it were, and being a miracle himself as well as performing one, this very Edwardes, carrying Sidney to her bed and putting her down, had kissed her on her white forehead.
The training-school doubted this. How could he know Sidney Page? And, after all, the nurse had only seen it in the mirror, being occupied at the time in seeing if her cap was straight. The school, therefore, accepted the miracle, but refused the kiss.
The miracle was no miracle, of course. But something had happened to K.
that savored of the marvelous. His faith in himself was coming back--not strongly, with a rush, but with all humility. He had been loath to take up the burden; but, now that he had it, he breathed a sort of inarticulate prayer to be able to carry it.
And, since men have looked for signs since the beginning of time, he too asked for a sign. Not, of course, that he put it that way, or that he was making terms with Providence. It was like this: if Wilson got well, he"d keep on working. He"d feel that, perhaps, after all, this was meant. If Wilson died--Sidney held out her hand to him.
"What should I do without you, K.?" she asked wistfully.
"All you have to do is to want me."
His voice was not too steady, and he took her pulse in a most businesslike way to distract her attention from it.
"How very many things you know! You are quite professional about pulses."
Even then he did not tell her. He was not sure, to be frank, that she"d be interested. Now, with Wilson as he was, was no time to obtrude his own story. There was time enough for that.
"Will you drink some beef tea if I send it to you?"
"I"m not hungry. I will, of course."
"And--will you try to sleep?"
"Sleep, while he--"
"I promise to tell you if there is any change. I shall stay with him."
"I"ll try to sleep."
But, as he rose from the chair beside her low bed, she put out her hand to him.
"K."
"Yes, dear."
"He was out with Carlotta. He promised, and he broke his promise."
"There may have been reasons. Suppose we wait until he can explain."
"How can he explain?" And, when he hesitated: "I bring all my troubles to you, as if you had none. Somehow, I can"t go to Aunt Harriet, and of course mother--Carlotta cares a great deal for him. She said that I shot him. Does anyone really think that?"
"Of course not. Please stop thinking."
"But who did, K.? He had so many friends, and no enemies that I knew of."
Her mind seemed to stagger about in a circle, making little excursions, but always coming back to the one thing.
"Some drunken visitor to the road-house."
He could have killed himself for the words the moment they were spoken.
"They were at a road-house?"
"It is not just to judge anyone before you hear the story."
She stirred restlessly.
"What time is it?"
"Half-past six."
"I must get up and go on duty."