"I am Kate Carnegie, whom you were so kind to at Tochty. Will you let me be your nurse? I learned in India, and know what to do." It was only wounded soldiers who knew how--soft her voice could be, and hands.
"It is I that . . . should be serving you . . . the first time you have come to the manse . . . no woman has ever done me . . . such kindness before. . . ." He followed her as she tried to bring some order out of chads, and knew not that he spoke aloud. "A gracious maid . . . above rubies."
His breathing was growing worse, in spite of many wise things she did for him--Doctor Manley, who paid no compliments, but was a strength unto every country doctor in Perthshire, praises Kate unto this day--and the Rabbi did not care to speak. So she sat down by his side and read to him from the _Pilgrim"s Progress_--holding his hand all the time--and the pa.s.sage he desired was the story of Mr. Fearing.
"This I took very great notice of, that the valley of the shadow of Death was as quiet while he went through it as ever I knew it before or since. I suppose these enemies here had now a special check from our Lord and a command not to meddle until Mr. Fearing was pa.s.sed over it. . . . Here also I took notice of what was very remarkable: the water of that river was lower at this time than ever I saw it in all my life. So he went over at last, not much above wet-shod. When he was going up to the gate. . . ."
The Rabbi listened for an instant.
"It is John"s step . . . he hath a sound of his own . . . my only earthly desire is fulfilled."
"Rabbi," cried Carmichael, and half kneeling, he threw one arm round the old man, "say that you forgive me. I looked for you everywhere on Monday, but you could not be found."
"Did you think, John, that I . . . my will was to do you an injury or . . . vex your soul? Many trials in my life . . . all G.o.d"s will . . . but this hardest . . . when I lost you . . . nothing left here . . . but you . . .--my breath is bad, a little chill--. . .
understand. . . ."
"I always did, and I never respected you more; it was my foolish pride that made me call you Doctor Saunderson in the study; but my love was the same, and now you will let me stay and wait on you."
The old man smiled sadly, and laid his hand on his boy"s head.
"I cannot let you. . . . Go, John, my son."
"Go and leave you, Rabbi!" Carmichael tried to laugh. "Not till you are ready to appear at the Presbytery again. We "ll send Barbara away for a holiday, and Sarah will take her place,--you remember that cream,--and we shall have a royal time, a meal every four hours, Rabbi, and the Fathers in between," and Carmichael, springing to his feet and turning round to hide his tears, came face to face with Miss Carnegie, who had been unable to escape from the room.
"I happened to call"--Kate was quite calm--"and found Doctor Saunderson in bed; so I stayed till some friend should come; you must have met the messenger I sent for you."
"Yes, a mile from the manse; I was on my way . . . Janet said . . .
but I . . . did not remember anything when I saw the Rabbi."
"Will you take a little milk again . . . Rabbi?" and at her bidding and the name he made a brave effort to swallow, but he was plainly sinking.
"No more," he whispered; "thank you . . . for service . . . to a lonely man; may G.o.d bless you . . . both. . . ." He signed for her hand, which he kept to the end.
"Satisfied . . . read, John . . . the woman from coasts of--of--"
"I know, Rabbi," and kneeling on the other side of the bed, he read the story slowly of a Tyrian woman"s faith.
"It is not meet to take the children"s meat and cast it to dogs."
"Dogs"--they heard the Rabbi appropriate his name--"outside . . . the covenant."
"And she said, Truth, Lord, yet the dogs eat of the crumbs which fall from their master"s table."
"Lord, I believe . . . help Thou mine . . . unbelief."
He then fell into an agony of soul, during which Carmichael could hear: "Though . . . He slay . . . me . . . yet will I trust . . . trust . . .
in Him." He drew two or three long breaths and was still. After a little he was heard again with a new note--"He that believeth . . . in Him . . . shall not be confounded," and again "A bruised reed . . .
shall He not . . ." Then he opened his eyes and raised his head--but he saw neither Kate nor Carmichael, for the Rabbi had done with earthly friends and earthly trials--and he, who had walked in darkness and seen no light, said in a clear voice full of joy, "My Lord, and my G.o.d."
It was Kate that closed his eyes and laid the old scholar"s head on the pillow, and then she left the room, casting one swift glance of pity at Carmichael, who was weeping bitterly and crying between the sobs, "Rabbi, Rabbi."
CHAPTER XXII.
WITHOUT FEAR AND WITHOUT REPROACH.
Doctor Davidson allowed himself, in later years, the pleasant luxury of an after luncheon nap, and then it was his habit--weather permitting--to go out and meet Posty, who adhered so closely to his time-table--notwithstanding certain wayside rests--that the Doctor"s dog knew his hour of arrival, and saw that his master was on the road in time. It was a fine April morning when the news of the great disaster came, and the Doctor felt the stirring of spring in his blood.
On the first hint from Skye he sprang from his chair, declaring it was a sin to be in the house on such a day, and went out in such haste that he had to return for his hat. As he went up the walk, the Doctor plucked some early lilies and placed them in his coat; he threw so many stones that Skye forgot his habit of body and ecclesiastical position; and he was altogether so youthful and frolicsome that John was seriously alarmed, and afterwards remarked to Rebecca that he was not unprepared for calamity.
"The best o"s tempts Providence at a time, and when a man like the Doctor tries tae rin aifter his dog jidgment canna be far off. A "m no sayin"," John concluded, with characteristic modesty, "that onybody cud tell what was coming, but a" jaloused there wud be tribble."
The Doctor met Posty in the avenue, the finest bit on our main road, where the road has wide margins of gra.s.s on either side, and the two rows of tall ancient trees arch their branches overhead. Some day in the past it had been part of the approach to the house of Tochty, and under this long green arch the Jacobite cavaliers rode away after black John Carnegie"s burial. No one could stand beneath those stately trees without thinking of the former days, when men fought not for money and an easy life, but for loyalty and love, and in this place the minister of Drumtochty received his evil tidings like a brave gentleman who does not lose heart while honour is left. During his years in the Glen he had carried himself well, with dignity and charity, in peace and kindliness, so that now when he is dead and gone--the last of his family--he still remains to many of us a type of the country clergyman that is no longer found in Scotland, but is greatly missed. It seemed, however, to many of us--I have heard both Drumsheugh and Burnbrae say this, each in his own way--that it needed adversity to bring out the greatness of the Doctor, just as frost gives the last touch of ripeness to certain fruits.
"Fower letters the day, Doctor, ane frae Dunleith, ane frae Glasgie, another frae Edinburgh, and the fourth no clean stampit, so a" can say naethin" aboot it. Twa circulars an" the _Caledonian_ maks up the hale hypothic."
Posty buckled and adjusted his bag, and made as though he was going, but he loitered to give opportunity fur any questions the Doctor might wish to ask on foreign affairs. For Posty was not merely the carrier of letters to the Glen, but a scout who was sent down to collect information regarding the affairs of the outer world. He was an introduction to and running commentary on the weekly paper. By-and-by, when the labour of the day was done, and the Glen was full of sweet, soft light from the sides of Ben Urtach, a farmer would make for his favourite seat beside the white rose-tree in the garden, and take his first dip into the _Muirtown Advertiser_. It was a full and satisfying paper, with its agricultural advertis.e.m.e.nts, its roups, reported with an accuracy of detail that condescended on a solitary stirk, its local intelligence, its facetious anecdotes. Through this familiar country the good man found his own way at a rate which allowed him to complete the survey in six days. Foreign telegrams, however, and political intelligence, as well as the turmoil of the great cities, were strange to him, and here he greatly valued Posty"s laconic hints, who, visiting the frontier, was supposed to be in communication with those centres.
"Posty says that the Afghans are no makin" muckle o" the war," and Hillocks would sally forth to enjoy Sir Frederick Roberts" great march, line by line, afterwards enlarging thereon with much unction, and laying up a store of allusion that would last for many days.
Persons raised to the height of a daily newspaper like the minister might be supposed independent of Posty"s precis, but even Doctor Davidson, with that day"s _Caledonian_ in his hand, still availed himself of the spoken word.
"Well, Posty, any news this morning?"
"Naethin", Doctor, worth mentionin", except the failure o" a company Glasgie wy; it"s been rotten, a" wes hearin", for a while, an" noo it"s fair stramash. They say it "ll no be lichtsome for weedows an" mony decent fouk in Scotland."
"That"s bad news, Posty. There "s too many of those swindling concerns in the country. People ought to take care where they place their savings, and keep to old-established inst.i.tutions. We "re pretty hard-headed up here, and I "ll wager that n.o.body in the Glen has lost a penny in any of those new-fangled companies."
"The auld fouk in Drumtochty pit their siller in a pock and hode it ablow their beds, an", ma certes, that bank didna break;" and Posty went along the avenue, his very back suggestive of a past, cautious, unenterprising, safe and honest.
The Doctor glanced at the envelopes and thrust the letters into his pocket. His good nature was touched at the thought of another financial disaster, by which many hard-working people would lose their little savings, and all the more that he had some of his private means invested in a Glasgow bank--one of those tried and powerful inst.i.tutions which was indifferent to every crisis in trade. Already he antic.i.p.ated an appeal, and considered what he would give, for it did not matter whether it was a coalpit explosion in Lanarkshire or a loss of fishing-boats in the Moray Firth, if widows needed help the Doctor"s guinea was on its way within four-and-twenty hours. Some forms of religious philanthropy had very little hold on the Doctor"s sympathy--one of the religious prints mentioned him freely as a Unitarian, because he had spoken unkindly of the Jewish mission--but in the matter of widows and orphans he was a specialist.
"Widows, Posty said; poor things! and very likely bairns. Well, well, we "ll see what can be done out of Daisy"s fund."
Very unlikely people have their whims, and it was his humour to a.s.sign one fourth of his income to his little sister, who was to have kept house for him, and "never to leave you, Sandie," and out of this fund the Doctor did his public charities. "In memory of a little maid,"
appeared in various subscription lists; but the reference thereof was only known after the Doctor"s death.
"The Western Counties Bank did not open its doors yesterday, and it was officially announced at the head-office, Glasgow, that the bank had stopped. It is impossible as yet to forecast the debts, but they are known to be enormous, and as the bank is not limited, it is feared that the consequences to the shareholders will be very serious. This failure was quite unexpected, the Western Counties Bank having been looked on as a prosperous and stable concern."
He read the paragraph twice word by word--it did not take long--he folded the paper carefully and put it in his pocket, and he stood in the spot for five minutes to take in the meaning in its length and breadth. A pleasant spring sun was shining upon him through a break in the leafy arch, a handful of primroses were blooming at his feet, a lark was singing in the neighbouring field. Sometimes the Doctor used to speculate how he would have liked being a poor man, and he concluded that he would have disliked it very much. He had never been rich, and he was not given to extravagance, but he was accustomed to easy circ.u.mstances, and he pitied some of his old friends who had seen it their duty to secede at the Disruption, and had to practise many little economies, who travelled third cla.s.s and had to walk from the station, and could not offer their friends a gla.s.s of wine. This was the way he must live now, and Daisy"s fund would have to be closed, which seemed to him the sweetest pleasure of his life.
"And Jack! Would to G.o.d I had never mentioned this wretched bank to him. Poor Jack, with the few hundreds he had saved for Kit!"
For some five minutes more the Doctor stood in the place; then he straightened himself as one who, come what may, would play the man, and when he pa.s.sed Janet"s cottage, on his way to the Lodge, that honest admirer of able-bodied, good-looking men came out and followed him with her eyes for the sight of his firm unbroken carriage.
"Miss Kate will be grieving very much about Doctor Saunderson"s death,"
Donald explained at the Lodge, "and she went down this forenoon with the General to put flowers on his grave; but they will be coming back every minute," and the Doctor met them at the Beeches.
[Ill.u.s.tration: "To put flowers on his grave."]