I could have divorced him easy enough, there was reasons plenty, but I wouldn"t do that. Then word came that he was dead, drowned off in the East Indies somewheres. I come back here to keep house for Sol, my brother, and I kept house for him till he died and they offered me this place here at the parsonage. There! that"s my story, part of it, more"n I ever told a livin" soul afore, except Sol."
She ceased speaking. The minister, who had sat silent by the window, apathetically listening or trying to listen, turned his head.
"I apologize, Mrs. Coffin," he said dully, "you have had trials, hard ones. But--"
"But they ain"t as hard as yours, you think? Well, I haven"t quite finished yet. After word come of my husband"s death, the other man come and wanted me to marry him. And I wanted to--oh, how I wanted to! I cared as much for him as I ever did; more, I guess. But I wouldn"t--I wouldn"t, though it wrung my heart out to say no. I give him up--why?
"cause I thought I had a duty laid on me."
Ellery sighed. "I can see but one duty," he said. "That is the duty given us by G.o.d, to marry the one we love."
Keziah"s agitation, which had grown as she told her story, suddenly flashed into flame.
"Is that as fur as you can see?" she asked fiercely. "It"s an easy duty, then--or looks easy now. I"ve got a harder one; it"s to stand by the promise I gave and the man I married."
He looked at her as if he thought she had lost her wits.
"The man you married?" he replied. "Why, the man you married is dead."
"No, he ain"t. You remember the letter you saw me readin" that night when you come back from Come-Outers" meetin"? Well, that letter was from him. He"s alive."
For the first time during the interview the minister rose to his feet, shocked out of his despair and apathy by this astounding revelation.
"Alive?" he repeated. "Your husband ALIVE? Why, Mrs. Coffin, this is--"
She waved him to silence. "Don"t stop me now," she said. "I"ve told so much; let me tell the rest. Yes, he"s alive. Alive and knockin" round the world somewheres. Every little while he writes me for money and, if I have any, I send it to him. Why? Why "cause I"m a coward, after all, I guess, and I"m scared he"ll do what he says he will and come back.
Perhaps you think I"m a fool to put up with it; that"s what most folks would say if they knew it. They"d tell me I ought to divorce him. Well, I can"t, I CAN"T. I walked into the mess blindfold; I married him in spite of warnin"s and everything. I took him for better or for worse, and now that he"s turned out worse, I must take my medicine. I can"t live with him--that I can"t do--but while HE lives I"ll stay his wife and give him what money I can spare. That"s the duty I told you was laid on me, and it"s a hard one, but I don"t run away from it."
John Ellery was silent. What could he say? Keziah went on.
"I don"t run away from it," she exclaimed, "and you mustn"t run away from yours. Your church depends on you, they trust you. Are you goin"
to show "em their trust was misplaced? The girl you wanted is to marry another man, that"s true, and it"s mighty hard. But she"ll marry a good man, and, by and by, she"ll be happy."
"Happy!" he said scornfully.
"Yes, happy. I know she"ll be happy because I know she"s doin" what"ll be best for her and because I know him that"s to be her husband. I"ve known him all my life; he"s that other one that--that--and I give him up to her; yes, I give him up to her, and try to do it cheerful, because I know it"s best for him. Hard for YOU? Great Lord A"mighty! do you think it ain"t hard for ME? I--I--"
She stopped short; then covering her face with her ap.r.o.n, she ran from the room. John Ellery heard her descending the stairs, sobbing as she went.
All that afternoon he remained in his chair by the window. It was six o"clock, supper time, when he entered the kitchen. Keziah, looking up from the ironing board, saw him. He was white and worn and grim, but he held out his hand to her.
"Mrs. Coffin," he said, "I"m not going away. You"ve shown me what devotion to duty really means. I shall stay here and go on with my work."
Her face lit up. "Will you?" she said. "I thought you would. I was sure you was that kind."
CHAPTER XIV
IN WHICH THE SEA MIST SAILS
They buried Captain Eben in the little Come-Outer cemetery at the rear of the chapel. A bleak, wind-swept spot was that cemetery, bare of trees and with only a few graves and fewer headstones, for the Come-Outers were a comparatively new sect and their graveyard was new in consequence. The grave was dug in the yellow sand beside that of Mrs.
Hammond, Nat"s mother, and around it gathered the fifty or sixty friends who had come to pay their last tribute to the old sailor and tavern keeper.
The Come-Outers were there, all of them, and some members of the Regular society, Captain Zeb Mayo, Dr. Parker, Keziah Coffin, Mrs. Higgins, and Ike. Mrs. Didama Rogers was there also, not as a mourner, but because, in her capacity as gatherer of gossip, she made it a point never to miss a funeral. The Rev. Absalom Gott, Come-Outer exhorter at Wellmouth, preached the short sermon, and Ezekiel Ba.s.sett added a few remarks. Then a hymn was sung and it was over. The little company filed out of the cemetery, and Captain Eben Hammond was but a memory in Trumet.
Keziah lingered to speak a word with Grace. The girl, looking very white and worn, leaned on the arm of Captain Nat, whose big body acted as a buffer between her and over-sympathetic Come-Outers. Mrs. Coffin silently held out both hands and Grace took them eagerly.
"Thank you for coming, Aunt Keziah," she said. "I was sure you would."
"Least I could do, deary," was the older woman"s answer. "Your uncle and I was good friends once; we haven"t seen each other so often of late years, but that ain"t changed my feelin"s. Now you must go home and rest. Don"t let any of these"--with a rather scornful glance at Josiah Badger and Ezekiel and the Reverend Absalom--"these Job"s comforters bother you. Nat, you see that they let her alone, won"t you?"
Captain Nat nodded. He, too, looked very grave and worn. "I"ll tend to them," he said shortly. "Come, Grace," he added; "let"s go."
But the girl hung back. "Just a minute, Nat," she said. "I--I--would you mind if I spoke to Aunt Keziah--alone? I only want to say a word."
Nat strode off to the cemetery gate, where Josiah Badger stood, brandishing a red cotton handkerchief as a not too-clean emblem of mourning. Mr. Badger eagerly sprang forward, but ran into an impossible barrier in the form of the captain"s outstretched arm. Josiah protested and the captain replied. Grace leaned forward.
"Auntie," she whispered, "tell me: Did a letter--Did he--"
"Yes, it came. I gave it to him."
"Did--did he tell you? Do you know?"
"Yes, I know, deary."
"Did he--is he--"
"He"s well, deary. He"ll be all right. I"ll look out for him."
"You will, won"t you? You won"t let him do anything--"
"Not a thing. Don"t worry. We"ve had a long talk and he"s going to stay right here and go on with his work. And n.o.body else"ll ever know, Gracie."
"How--O Aunt Keziah! how he must despise me."
"Despise you! For doin" what was your duty? Nonsense! He"ll respect you for it and come to understand "twas best for both of you, by and by.
Don"t worry about him, Gracie. I tell you I"ll look out for him."
"I guess it will be better if he does despise me. And hate me, too. He can"t despise and hate me more than I do myself. But it IS right--what I"m doing; and the other was wrong and wicked. Auntie, you"ll come and see me, won"t you? I shall be so lonesome."
"Yes, yes; I"ll come. Perhaps not right away. There"s reasons why I"d better not come right away. But, by and by, after it"s all settled and you and Nat"--she hesitated for an instant in spite of herself--"after you and Nat are married I"ll come."
"Don"t talk about that NOW. Please don"t."
"All right, I won"t. You be a good, brave girl and look out for Nat; that"s your duty and I"m sure you"ll do it. And I"ll do my best for John."
"Do you call him John?"
"Yup. We had a sort of--of adoptin" ceremony the other mornin" and I--Well, you see, I"ve got to have somebody to call by their front name and he"s about all I"ve got left."