This chapter is dedicated to Zaid-sama for his donation.
20th Meal: My current self vs my past self
h.e.l.lo everyone, I am a Saint.
I will cure all your pain.
It is now 4.30 am, and the battle has begun.
The largest number of injuries that I had seen thus far. There is no doubt about it.
A long queue had already been formed within 10 minutes from the start of the war. Even those veteran healers who had been through many things, are frowning.
This, could we manage all of it… I do not know ahhh!!
Ahahaha!!
And now, the number of injuries exceed the capacity that the healer a.s.sociation could accommodate. The treatment were even done outdoor now.
Although we were as prepared as we could for the coming battle, the reality was far worse than we expected.
There were even some that came back repeatedly even after being healed.
I could even remember their appearance.
[It~you~again~!!]
One of the young soldier who was covered in mud and blood, seemed extremely apologetic as he scratched his head and laughed bitterly.
Just before this, both his arms were broken. And even further before this, he suffered from multiple bone fractures.
[Can"t you be just a little more careful?]
I used [heal] to regenerate both of his legs angrily.
[There is no other choice], the soldier replied.
Presently, the hero is fighting the demon king alone.
They are literally acting as meat wall.
[This is the only thing we could do. Although we are not strong, we will definitely guard hero-sama"s back properly]
Dammit… there is nothing else I could say after this!
I sent him off after patting his shoulder. In actual fact, I am just voicing my complain.
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10 am
Someone finally collapsed. The two that collapsed were Vivito and Tiffany-oneechan.
That"s fast! The level of fatigue we acc.u.mulate was higher than expected.
[Desmond-ojisan! The subst.i.tute!?]
[James, its your turn! I am depending on you!]
[Oh!]
With a shout for acknowledgement, a grandpa with huge muscles all over his body took over Tiffany-oneechan"s place.
It would take an hour for them to recover. No, would one hour even be sufficient for them to recover from their fatigue?
I had already been casting [Wide heal].
I focused my healing on those with heavy injuries.
[Rayen! Don"t force youself! Your face is pale!]
[… I, I am fine! I know when I should stop!]
Guild master Rayen seemed extremely exhausted.
An illness affecting mana consumption. This congenital disease increases the use of mana consumption.
However, he is still dissatisfied of himself.
After all, his original occupation is a healer.
[Dammit… how much longer must we hold on!?]
Someone unconsciously muttered.
All the healers currently in this place must also be thinking of the same question.
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1 pm
Vivito and Tiffany-oneechan returned to the scene.
Furthermore, Hilda-obaasan also retired.
The number of personal retiring is more than the number returning!?
R, rather than being concern about this, what is more important is to thinking of a solution now…!
[C, cover person…!?]
W…!? What!?
I must not…fall…here…
My…consciousness…was cut off right here.
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*POV Changed*
Just when I was informing Saint-sama that Hilda had retired.
Saint-sama, who had never even once collapse, lost her consciousness and collapsed here.
Tiffany let out a shriek.
The order from the sub-guild master knocked Vivito back to his sense and he carried saint-sama into the canteen.
[How, how did this happen… Saint-sama collapsed!?]
The unforeseen event stir a commotion in the healer a.s.sociation.
[Do not panic! Saint-sama will be alright!! It is important for us to hold the line before Saint-sama returns!! This is the most critical part!!]
Saint-sama had considered various contingency plan, and told me to take over if there were any unforeseen circ.u.mstances.
I will properly lead the remaining healers. This is the most critical period of time.
[I will even wager my life in order to maintain this…]
Looking around, I could see healers from my generation gathering near me.
I… no, our final battle is about the start.
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*POV changed*
[As, as expected, she is forcing herself!!]
[Hah…Hah…] I could hear myself panting heavily.
My name is Vivito McFord.
It had been 5 years since I became a healer.
From that moment, I had been setting up booth on the street and worked as a healer for 5 years.
However, the war between human and demon then commences soon after.
My life as a healer changed drastically.
I am also recruited into the healer a.s.sociation to increase the number of healers.
It is also here… that someone died because of me.
I did not make it. Because the speed of my [Heal] was too slow.
Hence, my proficiency in healing did not grow…
Even till now, I could still remember what the comrade of the adventurer that pa.s.sed away told me.
[Why…did you not save him!? Why… is he the only one that die!]
I could not say anything. She must be the lover of the dead adventurer, as she stared at me full of hatred.
From then on, I regretted my days of fooling around in the street stall. I could never forget those words and her stare.
I felt that [This is a punishment towards me for making light of life], and continued living life of self-blame.
And at this moment, the small and tiny Saint-sama appeared. Her healing attribute is S, and she is also a white elf!
In a blink of an eye, she mastered intermediate healing magic. And within the next few days, she even mastered advance healing magic.
[The reason must be talent…]
Looking at such a small child being better than me, I felt even more embarra.s.sed.
It is not only for one day, but for every day…every single day!
Possessing such high affinity, having such large mana pool, Saint-sama still put in all her effort into practicing.
What am I doing now, even when such a small child is working so hard on her own.
From that moment, I continue training my hardest.
My rank rose from D to B. I experienced h.e.l.l during this period of time and fainted multiple times.
However, Saint-sama did not fall even once.
And now, Saint-sama collapsed. Although I felt that Saint-sama was forcing herself many times before, she just laughed and said [I am alright].
Everyone… got encouraged by her smile.
[Hah, hah, such a thing…!!]
Despite having such a small body, she was still forcing herself! Using her smile to hide the pain she was suffering…!!
I felt my eye tearing up. It was shameful comparing to her, especially when I am an adult…!!
I finally arrived at the canteen. Miranda-san also fell into a state of panic.
This is the first time I saw Miranda-san becoming so panicky.
[Miranda-san! Please tell me where I could put Saint-sama down!!]
Miranda-san returned to normal after hearing my shouting, and created a makeshift area for her to rest.
I slowly place down the important Saint-sama.
[I shall leave Saint-sama to you!]
After handing things over to Miranda-san, I ran out.
Until Saint-sama comes back, I… we will definitely succeed!
After reconfirming my resolution, I ran towards the place where everyone is waiting for me.
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*POV changed*
…Dark…Cold…Feel horrible.
What, is this? This is the first time. I had never experience such a sensation before.
What, happened to me? I could not feel anything. I could not hear anything. I could not see anything.
There are still injuries waiting for me to heal! I could not rest at such a place!
Move! My body, move!! Why are you not moving!?
Dark, cold, feel horrible.
Dammit! It is not the time for this…!!
I never experience such fatigue before. I could hear voices, telling me to [give up] in the corner of my mind.
Dark! Cold! Feel Horrible!
Ah! No! Stop confusing me! I would never give up!!
However, this voice is all but a delusion.
Deep in my heart, I had already given up.
That"s right, ever since back there, I always led an easy life and gave up when things got tough.
I would not bother with things that were unrelated to me.
As long as I am satisfied, I am fine with giving up. This is the sort of fellow I am.
…But is this it? Do I really want to be such person?
No! I do not want to give up!! Who, who will give up…!!
Its no use, n.o.body need you. It had always been this way, now and in the future…
You should understand such things when you were back on earth right?
Noisy! Shut up!
In the end… it does not matter what happen to others, as long as you are satisfied…
Is it because you care how others view you?
No! Stop it!!
Even if you think of them as comrades, they were most probably just making use of "me"?
They might feel disgusted, right? Possessing such monstrous power…
Please stop.
n.o.body will need you, and n.o.body will think of you as someone important.
All the people here, be it the king, Delkett, Rayen, the healers, the citizens, Takaki, Futta, Alphonse, Eleanor, all of them think of it this way!
Stop…
I felt exhausted. I had no energy to argue and resist.
I knew that a corner of my heart grew colder.
Should I…give up? I…already did my best, right?
[If you give up now, everything you work for will end]
Eh…? The owner of such a gentle voice is!?
The world of darkness slowly began to shine pink.
Possessing strength that I did not experience before. Illuminating the darkness, thawing the coldness, and healing my heart.
Then, the world of darkness got illuminated.
[Now, wake up. There are still people waiting for you]
I know.
This light, this warmth and this kindness.
I got enveloped by the light and slowly regain consciousness.
I looked back once more, and saw the past me, the me when I was still a man, waving and giving words of encouragement [Good luck].
In the past [my body are full of damage…]? Dammit, I can"t remember why.
Then, on my hand… is peachy sensei! This gentle voice must belong to peachy-sensei!
[Alright, go on, everyone is waiting for you]
Such a deep voice, this used to be my voice.
My past self smiled gently and kindly, urging me to go.
[Ah! I am going!!]
I bid farewell to my [past self]
And headed toward the side where people of my [current self] were waiting.
Please wait for me! I am going now!
For the first time, I felt as though I had been reborn into this world for real.
I would not give up halfway through anymore! I will do my best till the end!!
The rare creature than overcame her fate, begin her battle…!!