"How should I know? I"m a cop, not a priest. It"s Mary. How idolatrous can it be?"
"I took the liberty of making some spaghetti. You hungry?"
"Am I hungry? I could eat the sofa. You"re a doll."
"I"ll get it for you."
While Annie changed clothes Frank broiled garlic bread and tossed a salad. Dinner was waiting on the kitchen table when Annie returned.
"You cook and clean up after yourself," she marveled. "A miracle."
"And your loose change is still around."
Annie laughed, producing two gla.s.ses and a bottle of red wine. Frank watched her put the gla.s.ses on the table and pull the cork. It made a familiar pop and as Annie tipped the bottle Frank laid a hand over her gla.s.s.
"No, thanks."
"You don"t drink?"
Frank shook her head, admiring the carnelian stream Annie poured into the other gla.s.s.
"Only three reasons cops don"t drink. They"re health nuts, they"ve found Jesus or they"re drunks. Which are you?"
"You"re the detective. You figure it out."
Annie grinned, corking the bottle. The wine"s scent tickled every cell in Frank"s body. Each one leaned toward Annie"s gla.s.s like eavesdroppers in the old E.F. Hutton commercials.
"All right, Miss Hotshot LAPD lieutenant. You can"t be a vegan else you wouldn"t a made spaghetti sauce with meat, and it tastes like real b.u.t.ter on this bread. Plus, I saw the dressing came out of a bottle. Too many chemicals for a health nut. So I don"t think it"s that. Still, it"s a better shot than the Jesus freak. A Jesus freak wouldn"t a asked if praying to Mary was idolatrous. And I"ve heard what comes outta your mouth. No Jesus freak talks like that."
Frank grinned.
Wiping spaghetti off her chin, Annie went on. "And the way your hand shot out over that winegla.s.s makes me think you don"t even want to be tempted to drink. How"m I doin"?"
"I think you should get promoted."
"How long you been sober?" Annie asked around a mouthful.
"Couple months."
Annie lifted an eyebrow toward her gla.s.s. "This bother you?"
"No," Frank lied. As the silence unfolded she added, "I appreciate your letting me stay here. You"re right. It"s a lot nicer than a hotel."
"Heck, I"m the one who"s glad. This is delicious."
"Glad you like it."
"Who"s the lucky person you cook for at home?"
"No lucky person right now."
Annie nodded. "It"s hard to keep aem around. Men expect you to be secondary to their careers, but turn the tables and their egos can"t handle it."
Deciding to extend the candor, Frank admitted, "I get around that by dating women. Been lucky so far. Been with cops and an M.E. They know what the job demands so they aren"t p.i.s.sed off- well, too p.i.s.sed off-when they don"t see you for days on end."
"Smart." Annie tapped her temple with a fingertip. "Why didn"t I think a that?"
" aCause your mother would"ve really had a fit."
Annie laughed, choking on her spaghetti. Washing it down with wine she sputtered, "Oh, G.o.d forbid! Bad enough I"m a cop, huh, but a lesbian? She"d come unglued. She would just come unglued. G.o.d bless her, she"d starve to death, she"d be so busy lighting candles for me. I guess you didn"t have to deal with that, huh?"
"Nope. Advantages to dead parents. They"d have probably been all right with it. My mom for sure, and probably my dad, too. They were pretty laid back."
Frank asked if Annie had caught any more bad guys and she answered, "Thought I"d take a break. But I gotta say, you"re my good luck charm. You show up on Sunday and by Tuesday I got three collars. I ain"t lettin" you go home."
"I"ve seen how you work. You make your own luck."
Annie deflected the compliment, asking, "What did you do today besides make a gourmet dinner?"
"Hardly gourmet. Not much. Figured out which subways to Canarsie. Read. Took a little nap."
"Nice." Dabbing the napkin at her mouth, she sat back with her gla.s.s of wine. "You know, my son"s car is sittin" in the garage being a home for rats and spiders. Use that instead a the subway."
"Why isn"t your son using it?"
"Kid thinks he"s from California. He had to have a car when he turned sixteen so I bought an old beat-up Nova from a dealer owed me a favor. He drove it six months and realized what a pain it is to drive in the city. I keep it as backup. It"s a great surveillance car, but for the most part it sits around gettin" rusty. You take it tomorrow."
Frank was uncomfortable with so much generosity. She fidgeted, asking, "You sure?"
"I"m sure. Wait"ll you see it. You might want to take the subway. But if you"re sittin" there doing surveil all day at least it"ll be a little warmer. Supposed to keep snowing through Thursday, maybe Friday."
Frank nodded. "Okay. But I"m not sure how I can repay all your generosity."
"Are you kiddin"? Way I look at it, you"re workin" for me for free. Repay me by helpin" me close your father"s case. That"s my payment."
"Deal." Checking her watch, Frank told Annie she was going to an AA meeting.
"Oh, yeah? I got a cousin goes to AA. He"s a different man since he stopped drinkin". Got a beautiful wife, an adorable three-year-old and a baby on the way. Couple years ago, I was sure I was gonna have to escort his mother to the morgue. But he"s got his act together now."
Frank nodded. "You like ice cream?"
"Doesn"t everybody?"
"I was gonna get some on my way back. What flavor you like?"
"Aw, get whatever you like. I"ll be in bed by the time you get back. I"ll see you in the mornin", huh? We"ll go down and see if Ben"s car starts."
"Okay. Sleep well." Frank stopped before she left the kitchen. "I really appreciate all this, Annie."
"Psh. It"s nothin". Get outta here."
Frank walked north, through the snow. Along the way she pa.s.sed b.u.ms clumped together with bottles, huddled under cardboard tents or curled in tattered sleeping bags. Hunched against the sharp wind, she was glad she wasn"t among them. And well aware she could be.
CHAPTER 21.
No stranger to surveillance, Frank thought it the most physically challenging of all police work. For days, sometimes weeks on end, a surveillance team sat in the front seat of an unmarked sedan. They stayed there hours at a time, unable to stretch protesting muscles. They ate junk food, drank too much coffee and then spent most of the shift wondering when they could take a leak.
If the surveillance went down at night, there were no lights; in winter, no heat; in summer, no air conditioning. The detectives had to stay alert, focusing only on their subject and the street. They couldn"t distract themselves with magazines, books or crossword puzzles. Or at least shouldn"t. Frank rode with an old robbery cop who read the newspaper while she was on the eye. When he was done reading he"d do the daily puzzles. To his credit, he usually spotted their target before she did.
By comparison, setting up on the Canarsie Cemetery was a cakewalk. Frank"s biggest concern was nosy neighbors calling the cops about her daily presence. To avoid a police scene, Annie notified the 69th Precinct of Frank"s surveillance. They clamored for part of the action until Annie explained it was a long-shot setup on a homicide almost four decades old.
Frank found a parking spot on Remsen Avenue. It was a couple cars behind where she"d have liked to be, but by sitting on the pa.s.senger side she had a good view of her parents" plot and its approach. She locked the car and walked to the plot. There were no fresh flowers. No new footprints in the snow.
She returned to the relative warmth of the car. Annie was right about the Nova-it was perfect for surveillance. Dented and rusted, windows cracked, it looked like a small-time hustler"s car. The upholstery was held together with duct tape and the dashboard was split like a busted lip. But it ran and the heater blew hot air. Even the radio worked. Frank turned it on, pouring a mug of coffee from the Thermos Annie had filled for her.
Her briefcase was on the floor of the pa.s.senger seat. She hadn"t looked at it since reading her father"s autopsy protocol. She knew she should plow through it, scrutinize it as closely as she would any other file, but she couldn"t psych herself into thinking this was an ordinary homicide. Maybe it would be best to avoid reading it altogether. As Annie made clear, Frank didn"t have any objectivity on the case. What was there to gain by poring through it?
But she had to try. It was only fear stopping her and she was tired of letting fear have its way with her. Yanking the briefcase up into the pa.s.senger seat she snapped the latch and pulled out the folder. Her statement topped the thin pile of supporting doc.u.ments. Slipping it from the folder, she approved of the detective"s neat typing. Homicide reports were always so coolly removed from the gore of their subject, all black ink and white paper, straight lines and precise edges. Clean, tidy and nicely sanitized.
She remembered Detective h.e.l.ler. He was thin and young, maybe early thirties. He"d been patient with her but not overly kind. Having done it herself so many times, Frank surmised it had probably been hard for him to interview her. He had just kept his distance, trying not to get involved in her grief and pain.
The amount of detail in the report surprised her. She"d forgotten the suspect wore a black sweater with holes in it; the hand holding the gun was sc.r.a.ped; a long cut under his right cheekbone looked infected; he was missing an upper tooth; he was using a piece of yellow rope for a belt and he wore frayed black high tops-all useful at the time, but none of it relevant today.
She"d said the junkie had a little bit of an accent. h.e.l.ler noted he had repeated the suspect"s demands, as stated by the witness, in various accents but that said witness hadn"t recognized any of them. Frank remembered how confused she"d been. h.e.l.ler hadn"t sounded anything like the junkie, but he kept trying and she kept shaking her head, looking to Uncle Al for help.
After h.e.l.ler cut her loose she and her uncle drove through the pre-dawn streets. She was the one person who could identify the junkie. They searched alleys and corners, stoops and shooting galleries. They searched but failed to find. Long after the sun had struggled up, with her mother sedated and snoring, Frank took that failure to bed with her. And had every night since.
"Christ," Frank whispered, fighting back an avalanche of tears.
She remembered a burly, tattooed marine at one of her first AA meetings. His mother had been killed in a car crash when he was only eight years old. Tears cascaded down his face as he told the group his story. When he"d started crying at the funeral his father had taken him aside and told him to stop. That men didn"t cry. So he never had. Started drinking when he was nine. Quit almost thirty years later after his second heart attack. The marine had wiped his tears away, smiling as he said, "Now I cry whenever I want to and I don"t give a f.u.c.k who sees me."
Frank figured if a marine could cry she could too. She let them come. They were embarra.s.sing but no one could see. She cried for her crazy mother, her lost father and the kid who"d tried to make sense of it all when there was no sense to be had.
She let the tears run dry then looked for something to blow her nose on. There wasn"t anything. Opening the door, Frank did the Okie blow onto the street. It was gross and messy but she pulled the door shut with a smile. If anyone was watching it looked perfect. What better cover than an aggrieved woman crying outside the cemetery?
Oddly serene, Frank dried her cheeks with her palms. She got out of the car and stretched. Keeping her father"s grave in view she walked the graveled roads within the cemetery. She read the headstones, their names heavy and familiar-Gosline, Voorhis, Schenk, Van Houten, McCrodden and Knutsen. Dozens of graves held veterans, from the Civil War all the way through Vietnam.
The cemetery"s history was compelling. From old history lessons she knew the city of Canarsie went back to the Canarsie Indians. The natives were routed by the Dutch, who were displaced by English, and then George Washington kicked everyone out so that anyone could come in.
Frank"s tour woke a nostalgia she didn"t know she had. She thought she"d cut her ties to the past but its roots seemed to be thriving beneath her consciousness. Even her body betrayed her, reacting instinctively to familiar sights and smells and sounds. Despite decades in southern California, even the New York winter was welcome. She wanted to make s...o...b..a.l.l.s and pitch them at unsuspecting pedestrians, like she and her cousins used to do. Or fall backward into a drift pile and make snow angels.
Shooing the memories with a shake of her head, Frank ambled back to the car.
She poured the last of the coffee and took The Da Vinci Code from her briefcase. Propping it just below her line of sight, she settled against the door, delighting in the simplicity of her stakeout. Before turning a page she scanned the cemetery. She read like this, indulging in the pure pleasure of it for almost two hours.
After using the cemetery restroom, she leaned against the Nova and called Figueroa. Diego picked up and she said, "Hey, Taquito. Let me talk to the great Pica.s.so."
She heard Diego grunt to Bobby, who answered in a voice softer than rose petals.
"Pica.s.so. How"s it going?"
"Good. We closed out all our old pendings and are just sitting around waiting for the phone to ring."
"d.a.m.n. I shoulda done this a long time ago."
Bobby chuckled. "It"s pretty quiet. We caught a domestic yesterday, but the guy was right there in the apartment when a unit responded. Easy slam dunk."
"Sweet. What else?"
"Remember that guy Irie told us about? Fidelio Ramirez? We traced him to a friend"s house in Phoenix. Phoenix PD are looking for him. He"s got three priors we can hold him on-one possession and two a.s.saults-and if Phoenix finds him I was thinking of sending Lewis and Darcy out to get him. Is that okay?"
"Sounds fine. Do you have the paperwork ready?"
"No, I was going to call you about that."
Frank walked him through an extradition and clarified a few other things. After a little chitchat, she hung up. Despite her nostalgia, she missed her squad and was eager to be home.
The rest of the day pa.s.sed dreamily. It was hard on Frank"s a.s.s but she was grateful for the down time. The cemetery had a fair trickle of visitors. Frank perked up when a few got close to her father"s site but none lingered. When the gates closed, she meandered back to Tribeca by way of Dean and Deluca"s. The prices were vulgar but considering what she"d pay to eat out she indulged. Plus, when she complained to Mary about how many doughnuts she was eating or how much she was spending on lattes, Mary always a.s.sured her that she could do whatever she wanted in the first year of sobriety.
"Worry about diabetes and bankruptcy later," she said. "For now, just focus on stayin" sober. If it takes doughnuts and lattes, so be it. It"s better than drinkin"!"
With that in mind, Frank wheeled past the wine display, dropping two pints of Cherry Garcia and a bag of cookies into the cart. What the h.e.l.l, she thought, adding another bag. A woman had to have something to do during surveillance.
CHAPTER 22.
Thursday-13 Jan 05, Tribeca I still got it.
Made a spectacular dinner. Pork loin roasted in black currant and apple glaze, surrounded by roasted b.u.t.ternut squash and potatoes, accompanied by autumn fruit chutney and sauteed chard with pignoli and red currants. Washed it all down with sparkling pear juice-okay, so pear juice doesn"t have the panache of a Fume or a Chard, but still and all it was d.a.m.n good. Especially for a woman who didn"t think she"d ever cook again.
Bought everything at Dean & Deluca"s. I"ve wanted to shop there since I was a kid. Insanely expensive but worth it to see Annie"s face when I served her dinner. She"s fun to cook for, grateful, and it makes me feel useful. And I"m hungry. Really hungry. Maybe it"s the weather, but I actually enjoyed cooking for the first time since I quit drinking. Maybe because I was in a different kitchen. No memories or empty liquor cabinets to haunt me.
Maybe I should move. Rent the house out and get an apartment closer to work. There"s too many memories at home. Leaving that house would really be leaving Maggie. Maybe it"s time. Leave Maggie, the booze, all the old hurts. Make a fresh start. I feel like Tm starting a whole new life-someone said in a meeting that the only thing that changes when you quit drinking is everything. And Tm starting to see that. How old habits and ideas have to go. Like holding onto my pain. It"s all got to go. It"s stuff I have to look square in the eye and say good-bye to, no matter how difficult or painful.