Could I bring myself to face our future together with all its depoeticising influences, its almost certainty of friction? No.
Something deep down inside me says--has always said--"It would be a mistake; this is not the real thing: we are not suited to each other; the attraction might even turn to repulsion." Imagine the agony of that!
Life goes on here, all dribble, waste and fret--I cannot concentrate, I cannot paint--the Wave-fairies won"t play--Your Bush gobies appeal more to my present humour. I feel a sort of nostalgia for the wild--though my nostalgia is mental, and not from any former a.s.sociation. Do not be surprised if some day you get a telegram saying that I am coming."
Another sheet.
"Will was married yesterday. I have just read the account of the ceremony--I can see it all--the usual semi-smart opulent wedding--palms lining the aisle, Orange blossom galore. The bride "beautiful in cream satin and old lace"--Evelyn Mary is simply a LUMP--Pages in white velvet--The fussy overdressed Bagallay crowd of friends--I hear there are no "in-laws," And the bridegroom"s face--dark, cynical--I know the sort of miserable smile and the queer glitter in his eyes.--"I WILLOUGHBY TAKE THEE EVELYN MARY... FOR BETTER AND FOR WORSE...TILL DEATH US DO PART "... There! I"m a blathering idiot to mind...I ought to be dancing with joy at my escape. Let us end the chapter. The incident is closed, I"m going for a long tramp by the sea and shall post this on my way.
Your BIDDY."
CHAPTER 6
Mrs Gildea was too busy in the next two or three weeks to trouble herself unduly over Lady Bridget O"Hara"s tragic love-affair. She had to report on the small holders of property in Leichardt"s Land and made a trip for that purpose among the free-selectors in her own old district. The TWENTY YEARS AFTER letter she wrote about this expedition for THE IMPERIALIST was one of her best, and for that she was greatly indebted to Colin McKeith"s commentaries.
Old a.s.sociations with him had been vividly reawakened by this visit to the home of her youth. She remembered, as if it had been yesterday, how McKeith, a raw youth of eighteen with a horrible tragedy at the back of his young life, had been picked up by her father and brought to Bungroopim to learn the work of a cattle-station.... hitherto his experience, such as it was, had been with sheep in the, then, unsettled north. Joan was herself a girl in short frocks, three or four years younger than Colin McKeith, and with no apparent prospect of ever crossing the "big fella Water," as the Ubi Blacks called it, or of joining the band of Bohemian scribblers in London.
She remembered how quickly Colin had learned his work--remembered how the shy self-contained lad, with always that grim memory of his boyhood shaping a vengeful purpose in his mind and making him old for his years, had developed the flair of the Bush in his hardy Scotch const.i.tution. She was compelled to own that he had developed, too, some of the worst as well as the best of those Scotch qualities inherited from his parents, expatriated though they had been, and from the staunch clansmen behind them. He had the Scotch loyalty; likewise, the Scotch tenacity of character which never forgot and very seldom forgave; the Scotch obstinacy of purpose and opinion; the Scotch acquisitiveness; a tendency too to "nearness" in matters of small expenditure which combined oddly with a generosity amounting almost to recklessness in large enterprise. It was on the whole not a bad outfit for a pioneer who meant to get on in his world.
The beginnings were small, but indicative of the trend of his career.
He contrived, even when he was earning no salary but working only for his "tucker," to get together a horse or two, a cow or two, a specially good cattle-dog or two, which last he made the nucleus of a profitable breed. The cows and bullocks he left at Bungroopim when the time came for him to push out, reclaiming them after they had increased and multiplied in those pleasant pastures like Jacob"s herds in the fields of Laban.
Not that there was any seven years matrimonial question. There had been no Leah. Or if Joan Gildea had ever played the part of Rachel in Colin McKeith"s sentimental dreams, those boyish dreams had left no serious mark upon him. He had gone north to a newly-formed station and had there out-bushed the bushman in his knowledge of the idiosyncrasies of cattle and sheep and his amazing faculty for spotting country suitable for either. Here no doubt his descent from generations of herdsmen had stood him in good stead.
He sold his knowledge to rich squatters in the settled districts who employed him to take up new country for them and to manage the hundreds of square miles and the thousands of stock from which they derived the best part of their wealth. But he only managed for other men until he had made enough money of his own to take up and stock new country for himself.
In a few years he had acquired a moderate-sized herd and established himself with it on the almost unexplored reaches of the Upper Leura.
Life on that river never lacked dangerous adventure. McKeith"s father had owned a station on the Lower Leura--the bank took it in payment of their mortgage after the catastrophe occurred. That station had been the scene of one of the most horrible native outrages in the history of Australia. The tragedy had set its mark on Colin McKeith. Left a penniless boy after having worked his way to independent manhood he had made it his purpose to pursue the wild black with relentless animosity.
All along the Upper Leura to the fastnesses at the river"s head where his new station stood on the boundaries of civilisation he had gone, mercilessly punishing native depredations.
He had been put on trial by a humanitarian Government for so-called manslaughter of natives, and had been acquitted under an administration immediately succeeding it. Afterwards he had at the peril of his life, made an exploring trip across the base of the northern peninsula of the colony with the intention, as he phrased it, of "shaking round a bit."
He "shook round" to some purpose, penetrated to the Big Bight, and got on the tracks of a famous lost explorer. Colin McKeith solved the mystery of that explorer"s fate and had his revenge on the Government which had impeached him by pocketing the reward which it had offered any adventurous pioneer following on the lost explorer"s steps.
Later, McKeith was given a mission to explore and develop a certain tract of fertile country between the heads of the Leura and the Big Bight--the particular Premier instigating the mission being a far-sighted politician who realised that a j.a.panese invasion of the northern coast might eventually interfere very radically with the plan for a White Australia.
Colin McKeith threw into his own scheme of life a trip to j.a.pan, by way of India and China. He volunteered, too, for the Boer War, and did a short term of service with the Australian Contingent in South Africa.
He dreamed more and more of becoming an Empire-maker--a sort of Australian Cecil Rhodes. But he was wise enough to realise that all Empire-making cannot be on the Rhodesian scale.
He realised that his personal fortune must first be secured. Without money one can do nothing. Cecil Rhodes had had the natural wealth of Rhodesia at his back. McKeith had set himself the task of opening up the fine country out West, which he knew only needed a system of irrigation by Artesian Bores to defy drought, the squatters curse. That object once accomplished--he gave himself with luck and good seasons five or six years--there would be nothing to stop his becoming a patriot and a millionaire.
But Colin went slowly and cannily--and that was why the Leichardt"s Land Government believed in him. He had the reputation of never spending a penny on his private or public ambitions where a halfpenny would serve his purpose, and he was known to be a man of deep counsels and sparing of speech. Thus, no one knew exactly what was his business down south at this time. Only the general remark was that Colin McKeith had his head screwed on the right way and that some day he would come out on top.
But that there was deep down a spring of romance beneath that hard Bushman"s exterior, Joan Gildea, herself a romance writer, guessed easily. And her intuition told her that a little thin bore had been made in the direction of that vital spring of romance by his inadvertent reading of Lady Bridget O"Hara"s letter.
CHAPTER 7
Joan saw that McKeith was extremely anxious to know more about the writer of that letter and the progress of that love-affair, though he had given his word of honour that he would not try to find out her ident.i.ty. But he put subtle questions to Joan about her friends in England and her acquaintance with the higher circles of society in London. Once, he asked her straight out whether she had heard again from her typewriting correspondent, and if the Soldier of Fortune had proved himself a Bounder, as they had suspected?
"Yes," Joan answered unguardedly. "I"m thankful to say that he is married to his heiress."
The eager light which suddenly shone in McKeith"s eyes startled Mrs Gildea.
"You don"t mean to say that you"re thinking of her like that?" she exclaimed. "It"s no use, Colin."
"Probably not," he answered composedly. "Tell me, how does she take it?"
"Deadly seriously. She"s practising Deep-breathing and Concentration to try and drive the man from her thoughts."
"What! Oh, you mean Theosophy and that kind of thing. I went to hear Mrs Annie Besant lecture once, and I couldn"t make head or tail of it."
"No. You wouldn"t. But it was a German Professor who taught B---- No. I will NOT tell you her name."
"Anyway, I know that it begins with a "B." And I know that she"s got one relation called Molly, and another called Chris, and a friend whose name is Rosamond--likewise that Rosamond is the wife of Luke.... By Jove!" He stopped short and looked at Mrs Gildea with sharp enlightenment.
They were in the veranda of her cottage, and he was seated on the steps smoking, his long legs stretched out against one veranda post, his broad back against another. "Seen the paper this morning?" he asked.
"No. If you pa.s.s the CHRONICLE Office, I wish you"d lodge a complaint for me against the vagaries of their distribution department. Twice lately I haven"t had the paper till the afternoon."
He pulled it from his pocket, and, leaning across, handed it to her.
"Read the English Telegrams," he said.
Joan stopped cleaning her typewriter and examined the column of latest intelligence.
"Good gracious! So they"ve appointed Sir Luke Tallant new Governor of Leichardt"s Land!"
"Luke!--A coincidence you"ll say. No good telling me that. SHE wrote that "Luke" was hankering after a colonial governorship."
"Well, he"s got it," replied Mrs Gildea noncommittally.
"And if you read the leading article you"ll see that the CHRONICLE is justly outraged at so important a post as that of Governor of Leichardt"s Land being given to an unknown man who has never served outside the Colonial Office in London and who doesn"t even belong to the n.o.ble army of Peers."
"That"s all nonsense. Luke Tallant"s a friend of Chamberlain"s, a thorough Imperialist and a very good man for the post."
"You know him then?"
"I know OF him."
"From HER?"