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John and Mary are each given 20p. John gives Ip to Mary. How much more does Mary have than John? Problem set in the 11+ examination THE URGE TO gamble is so universal, so deeply embedded in unregenerate human nature that from the earliest days the philosophers and moralists have a.s.sumed it to be evil.
Cupiditas, the Romans called it -the longing for the things of this world, the naked, shameless greed for gain. It is the cause, perhaps, of all our troubles. Yet how easy it remains to understand the burning envy, felt by those possessing little, for those endowed with goods aplenty. And gambling? Why, gambling offers to the poor the shining chance of something got for nothing.
Crude a.n.a.lysis! For to some it is gambling itself, the very process and the very practice of gambling dial is so immensely pleasurable. So pleasurable indeed dial gambling needs, for them, no spurious raison d"etre whatsoever, no necessary prospect of the jackpots and the windfalls and the weekends in Bermuda; just the heady, heavy opiate of the gambling game itself with the promise of its thousand exhilarating griefs and dangerous joys. Win a million on the wicked spinning-188 wheel tonight, and where are you tomorrow night but back around the wicked spinning-wheel?
Every society has its games, and the games are just as revealing of the society as are its customs - for in a sense they are its customs: heads or tails, and rouge ou noir, and double or quits and clunk, clunk, clunk, in the pay-off tray as the triple oranges align themsellves along the fruit machine; and odds of 10 to 1 as the rank outsider gallops past the post at Kempton Park; and then came the first, saying, Lord, thy pound hath gained ten pounds. And he said unto him, Well done, thou good servant: because thou hast been faithful in a very little, have thou authority over ten cities. And once a week, a hope a light-year distant, of half a million pounds for half a penny stake, where happiness is a line of Xs and a kiss from a buxom beauty queen. For some are lucky at the gambling game. And some are not, and lose more thanthey can properly afford and try to recoup their losses and succeed only in losing the little that is left; and finally, alas, all hope abandoned, sit them down alone in darkened garages and by the gas rings in the kitchens, or simply slit their throats - and the. And some smoke fifty cigarettes a day, and some drink gin or whisky; and some walk in and out of betdng shops, and the wealdiier reach for the phone.
But what wife can endure a gambling husband, unless he be a steady winner? And what husband will ever believe his wife has turned compulsive gambler, unless she be a poorer liar than Mrs Taylor is. And Mrs Taylor dreams she dwells in Bingo halls.
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It had started some years back in the church hall at Kidlington. A dozen of them, no more, seated in rickety chairs with a clickety subfusc vicar calling the numbers with a dignified Anglican clarity.
And then she had graduated to the Ritz in Oxford, where the acolytes sit comfortably in the curving tiers of the cinema seats and listen to the harsh metallic tones relayed by microphones across the giant auditorium. There is no show here of human compa.s.sion, little even of human intercourse. Only "eyes down" in a mean-minded race to the first row, the first column, the first diagonal completed. Many of the players can cope with several cards simultaneously, a cold, pitiless purpose in their play, their mental antennae attuned only to the vagaries of the numerical combinations.
The game itself demands only an elementary level of numeracy, and not only does not require but cannot possibly tolerate the slightest degree of initiative or originality. Almost all the players almost win; the line is almost complete, and the card is almost full. Ye G.o.ds! Look down and smile once more! Come on, my little number, come! I"m there, if only, if only, if only ... And there the women sit and hope and pray and bemoan the narrow miss and curse their desperate luck, and talk and think "if only"...
Tonight Mrs Taylor caught the No 2 bus outside the Ritz and reached Kidlington at 9.35 p.m.; she decided she would call in at the pub.
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It was 9.35 p.m., too, when Ac.u.m rang, a little earlier than expected. He had been fortunate with the traffic (he said); on to the A5 at Towcester and a good clear run for a further five uncomplicated hours. He had left Oxford at 3.15, just before the conference had officially broken up. Jolly good conference, yes. The Monday night? Just a minute; let"s think. In hall for dinner, and then there had been a fairly informal question-and-answer session afterwards. Very interesting. Bed about 10.30; a bit tired. No, as far as he remembered - no, he did remember; he hadn"t gone out at all. Baines dead? What? Could Morse repeat that? Oh dear; very sorry to hear it. Yes, of course he"d known Baines - known him well. When did he the? Oh, Monday. Monday evening? Oh, yesterday evening, the one they"d just been speaking about. Oh, he saw now. Well, he"d told Morse what he could - sorry it was so little. Not been much help at all, had he?
Morse rang off. He decided that trying to interview by telephone was about as satisfactory as trying to sprint in divers" boots. There was no option; he would have to go up to Caernarfon himself, if... if what? Was it really likely that Ac.u.m had anything to do with Baines"s death? If he had, he"d picked a pretty strange way of drawing almost inevitable attention to himself. And yet ... And yet Ac.u.m"s name had been floating un.o.btrusively along the mainstream of the case from the very beginning, and yesterday he had seen Ac.u.m"s telephone number in the index file on Baines"s desk. Mm. He would have to go and see him. He ought to have seen him before now, for whatever else he was or wasn"t Ac.u.m had been a central figure during that school summer when she"d disappeared. But... but you don"t just come down to Oxford for a meeting and decide that while you"re there you"ll murder one of your ex-colleagues. Or do you?
Who would suspect" After all, it was quite by accident that he himself had learned of Ac.u.m"s visit to Oxford. Had Ac.u.m presumed...? Augrrh! It was suddenly cold in the office and Morse felt tired. Forget it! He looked at his watch. 10 p.m. Just time for a couple of pints if he hurried.
He walked over to the pub and pushed his way into the overcrowded public bar. The cigarette smoke hung in blue wreaths, head-high like undispersing morning mist, and the chatter along the bar and at the tables was raucous and interminable, the subdeties of conversational silence quite unknown. Cribbage, dominoes and darts and every available surface cluttered with gla.s.ses: gla.s.ses with handles and gla.s.ses without, gla.s.ses empty, gla.s.ses being emptied and gla.s.ses about to be emptied, and then refilled with the glorious, amber fluid. Morse found a momentary gap at the bar and pushed his way diffidently forward. As he waited his turn, he heard the fruit machine (to the right of the bar) clunking out an occasional desultory dividend, and he leaned across the bar to look more carefully. A woman was playing the machine, her back towards him.
But he knew her well enough.
The landlord interrupted a new and improbable line of thought. "Yes, mate?"
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little further along the bar, and found himself standing only a few feet behind the woman playing the machine. She pushed her gla.s.s over the bar.
"Stick another double in there, Bert."
She opened an inordinately large leather handbag and Morse saw the heavy roll of notes inside.
Fifty pounds? More? Had she had a lucky night at Bingo?
She had not seen Morse - he was sure of dial - and he observed her as closely as he could. She was drinking whisky and swopping mildly ribald comments with several of the pub"s habitues.
And then she laughed - a coa.r.s.e, common cackle of a laugh, and curiously and quite unexpectedly Morse knew that he found her attractive, dammit! He looked at her again. Her figure was still good, and her clodies hung well upon her. Yes, all right, she was no longer a beauty, he knew dial. He noticed the fingernails bitten down and broken; noticed the index finger of her right hand stained dark-brown with nicotine. But what the h.e.l.l did it matter! Morse drained his gla.s.s and bought another pint. The germ of the new idea that had taken root in his mind would never grow this night. He knew why, of course. It was simple. He needed a woman.
But he had no woman and he moved to the back of the room and found a seat. He thought, as he often thought, of the attractiveness of women. There had been women, of course; too many women, perhaps. And one or two who still could haunt his dreams and call to him across the years of a time when the day was fair. But now the leaves were falling round him: mid-forties; unmarried; alone. And here he sat in a cheap public bar where life was beer and f.a.gs 193 I.
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and crisps and nuts and fruit machines and ... The ashtray on the table in front of him was revoltingly full of stubs and ash. He pushed it away from him, gulped down the last of his beer and walked out into the night.
He was sitting in the bar of the Randolph Hotel with an architect, an older man, who talked of s.p.a.ce and light and beauty, who always wore a bowler hat, who studied Greek and Latin verses, and who slept beneath a railway viaduct. They talked together of life and living, and as they talked a girl walked by with a graceful, gliding movement, and ordered her drink at the bar. And the architect nudged his young companion and gently shook his head in wistful admiration.
"My boy, how lovely, is she not? .Extraordinarily, quite extraordinarily lovely."
And Morse, too, had felt her beautiful and necessary, and yet had not a word to say.
Turning in profile as she left the bar the young girl flaunted the tantalizing, tip-tilted outline of her b.r.e.a.s.t.s beneath her black sweater, and the faded architect, the lover of the cla.s.sical poets, the sleeper beneath the viaduct, stood up and addressed her with grave politeness as she pa.s.sed.
"My dear young lady. Please don"t feel offended with me, or indeed with my dear, young friend here, but I wish you to know that we find you very beautiful."
For a moment a look of incredulous pleasure glazed the painted eyes; and then she laughed - a coa.r.s.e and common cackle of a laugh.
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"Gee, boys, you ought to see me when I"m washed!" And she placed her right hand on the shoulder of the architect, the nails pared down to the quick and the index finger stained dark brown with nicotine. And Morse woke up with a start in the early light of a cold and friendless dawn, as if some ghostly hand had touched him in his sleep.
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CHAPTER TWENTY-TWO.
Life can only be understood backwards, but it must be lived forwards.
Soren Kierkegaard MORSE WAS IN his office by 7.30 a.m.
When he was a child, the zenith of terrestrial bliss had been a long, luxuriating lie in bed. But he was no longer a child, and the fitful bouts of sleep the night before had left him tired and edgy.
His thoughts as he sat at his desk were becoming obsessive and his ability to concentrate had temporarily deserted him. The drive to the office had been mildly therapeutic, and at least he had The Times to read. The leaders of the superpowers had agreed to meet at Vladivostok, and the economy continued its downhill slide towards inevitable disaster. But Morse read neither article. He was becoming increasingly less well-informed about the state of the nation and the comings and goings of the mighty. It was a cowardly frame of mind, he knew tiiat, but not entirely reprehensible. Certainly it wasn"t very sensible to know too much about some things, and he seemed to be becoming peculiarly susceptible to auto-suggestion. Even a casual reminder that a nervous breakdown was no rarity in our society was enough to convince him that he would likely as not be wheeled off into a 196.
psychiatric ward tomorrow, and the last time he had braced himself to read an article on the causes of coronary thrombosis he had discovered that he exhibited every one of the major symptoms and had worked himself into a state of advanced panic. He could never understand why doctors could be anything but hyper-hypochondriacs, and supposed perhaps they were. He turned to the back page of The Times and took out his pen. He hoped it would be a real stinker this morning. But it wasn"t. Nine and a half minutes.
He took a pad of paper and began writing, and was still writing when the phone rang an hour later. It was Mrs Lewis. Her husband was in bed with a soaring temperature. Flu, she thought.
He"d been determined to go in to work, but her own wise counsels had prevailed and, much it appeared to her husband"s displeasure, she had called the doctor. Morse, all sympathy, praised the good lady"s course of action and warned her that the stubborn old so-and-so had better do as she told him. He would try to call round a bit later.
Morse smiled weakly to himself as he looked through the hurriedly written notes. It had all been for Lewis"s benefit, and Lewis would have revelled in the routine. Phillipson: ticket office at the Playhouse; check row and number; occupants of seats on either side; check, trace, interview. The same with the Taylors and with Ac.u.m. The Ritz, the Jericho Arms and Lonsdale College. Ask people, talk to people, check and re-check, slowly and methodically probe and reconstruct. Yes, how Lewis would have enjoyed it. And, who knows? Something 197 COLIN DEXTER.
might have come of it. It would be irresponsible to neglect such obvious avenues of inquiry.
Morse tore the sheets across the middle and consigned them to the waste-paper basket.
Perhaps he ought to concentrate his attention on the knife. Ah yes, the knife! But what the d.i.c.kens was he supposed to do with the knife? If Sherlock were around he would doubtless deduce that the murderer was about five feet six inches tall, had tennis elbow and probably enjoyed roast beef every other Sunday. But what was he supposed to say about it? He walked to the cabinet and took it out; and summoning all his powers of logical a.n.a.lysis he stared at it with concentrated intensity, and discovered that into his open and receptive mind came nothing whatsoever. He saw a knife -no more. A household knife; and somewhere in the country, most probably somewhere in the Oxford area, there was a kitchen drawer without its carving knife.
That didn"t move forward the case one millimetre, did it? And could anyone really be sure whether a knife had been sharpened by a left- or a right-handed carver? Was it worth trying to find out? How fatuous the whole thing was becoming. But haw the knife had been carried - now that was a much more interesting problem. Yes. Morse put the knife away. He sat back in the black leather chair, and once again he pondered many things.
The phone rang again at half-past ten, and Morse started abruptly and guiltily in his chair, and looked at the time in disbelief.
It was Mrs Lewis again. The doctor had called.
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Pharyngitis. At least three or four days in bed. But could Morse come round? The invalid was anxious to see him.
He certainly looked ill. The unshaven face was pale and the voice little more than a batrachian croak.
"I"m letting you down, chief."
"Nonsense. You get better that"s all. And be a good boy and do as the quack tells you."
"Not much option with a missus like mine." He smiled wanly, and supporting himself on one arm reached for his gla.s.s of weakly pale orange juice. "But I"m glad you"ve come, sir. You see, last night I had this terrible headache, and my eyes went all funny - sort of wiggly lines all the time. I couldn"t recognize things very well."
"You"ve got to expect summat to go wrong with you if you"re ill," said Morse.
"But I got to thinking about things. You remember the old boy on the Belisha crossing? Well, I didn"t mention it at the time but it came back to me last night."
"Go on," said Morse quietly.
"It"s just that I don"t think he could see very well, sir. I reckon that"s why he got knocked over and I just wondered if..."
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garden below, the beds trimmed and weeded, where a few late roses lingered languidly on.
Joe was still in the old people"s home at Cowley, and lay in the same bed, half propped up on his pillows, his head lolling to the side, his thin mouth toothless and gaping. The sister who had accompanied Morse along the ward touched him gently.
"I"ve brought you a visitor."
Joe blinked himself slowly awake and stared vaguely at them with unseeing eyes.
"It"s a policeman, Mr G.o.dberry. I think they must have caught up with you at last." The sister turned to Morse and smiled attractively.
Joe grinned and his mouth moved in a senile chuckle. His hand groped feebly along the locker for his spectacle case, and finally he managed to hook an ancient pair of National Health spectacles behind his ears.
"Ah, I remember you, sergeant. Nice to see you again. What can I do fo" you this time?"
Morse stayed with him for fifteen minutes, and realized how very sad it was to grow so old.
"You"ve been very helpful, Joe, and I"m very grateful to you."
"Don"t forget, sergeant, to put the clock back. It"s this month, you know. There"s lots o" people forgits to put the clocks back. Huh. I remember once ..."
Morse heard him out and finally got away. At the end of the ward he spoke again briefly to the sister.
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"He"s losing his memory a bit."
"Most of them do, I"m afraid. Nice old boy, though. Did he tell you to put the clock back?"
Morse nodded. "Does he tell everybody?"
"A lot of them seem to get a fixation about some little thing like that. Mind you, he"s right, isn"t he?" She laughed sweetly and Morse noticed she wore no wedding ring. / hope you won"t be offended, Sister, if I tell you that I find you very attractive.
But the words wouldn"t come, for he wasn"t an architect who slept beneath the railway viaduct, and he could never say such things. Just as she couldn"t. Morse wondered what she was thinking, and realized he would never know. He took out his wallet and gave her a pound note.
"Put it in the Christmas fund, Sister."
Her eyes held his for a brief moment and he thought they were gentle and loving; and she thanked him nicely and walked briskly away. Fortunately the Cape of Good Hope was conveniently near.
Clocks! It reminded him. There was a good tale told in Oxford about the putting back of clocks.
The church of St Benedict had a clock which ran by electricity, and for many years the complexities of putting back this clock had exercised the wit and wisdom of clergy and laity alike.
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a narrow spiral staircase leading to the tower roof. The problem had been this. No one manipulating the lever immediately behind the clock-face could observe the effects of his manipulations, and so thick were the walls of the church tower that not even with a megaphone could an accomplice, standing outside the church, communicate to the manipulator the aforementioned effects. Each year, dierefore, one of the churchwardens had taken upon himself to mount the spiral staircase, to manipulate the lever in roughly the right direction, to descend the staircase, to walk out of the church, to look upwards at the clock, to ascend the staircase once more, to give the lever a few more turns before descending again and repeating the process, undl at last the clock was cajoled into a reluctant synchronization. Such a lengthy and physically daunting procedure had been in operation for several years, until a mild-looking thurifer, rumoured to be one of the best incense-swingers in the business, had with becoming diffidence suggested to the minister dial to remove the fuse from the fuse-box and to replace it after exacdy sixty minutes might not only prove more accurate but also spare the rather elderly churchwarden the prospect of a coronary thrombosis. This idea, discussed at considerable lengdi and finally accepted by the church committee, had proved wonderfully effective, and was now a firmly established practice.
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for several days. It was up to Morse himself now to take the fuse away and set the clock aright But not just for an hour - for much, much longer than that. In fact for two years, three months and more, to the day when Valerie Taylor had disappeared.
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