Pa.s.sage to you, your sh.o.r.es, ye aged fierce enigmas!
Pa.s.sage to you, to mastership of you, ye strangling problems!
You, strew"d with the wrecks of skeletons, that, living, never reach"d you.
Pa.s.sage to more than India!
O secret of the earth and sky!
Of you O waters of the sea! O winding creeks and rivers!
Of you O woods and fields! of you strong mountains of my land!
Of you O prairies! of you gray rocks!
O morning red! O clouds! O rain and snows!
O day and night, pa.s.sage to you!
O sun and moon and all you stars! Sirius and Jupiter!
Pa.s.sage to you!
Pa.s.sage, immediate pa.s.sage! the blood burns in my veins!
Away O soul! hoist instantly the anchor!
Cut the hawsers-haul out-shake out every sail!
Have we not stood here like trees in the ground long enough?
Have we not grovel"d here long enough, eating and drinking like mere brutes?
Have we not darken"d and dazed ourselves with books long enough?
Sail forth-steer for the deep waters only, Reckless O soul, exploring, I with thee, and thou with me, For we are bound where mariner has not yet dared to go, And we will risk the ship, ourselves and all.
O my brave soul!
O farther farther sail!
O daring joy, but safe! are they not all the seas of G.o.d?
O farther, farther, farther sail!
BOOK XXVII
Prayer of Columbus A batter"d, wreck"d old man, Thrown on this savage sh.o.r.e, far, far from home, Pent by the sea and dark rebellious brows, twelve dreary months, Sore, stiff with many toils, sicken"d and nigh to death, I take my way along the island"s edge, Venting a heavy heart.
I am too full of woe!
Haply I may not live another day; I cannot rest O G.o.d, I cannot eat or drink or sleep, Till I put forth myself, my prayer, once more to Thee, Breathe, bathe myself once more in Thee, commune with Thee, Report myself once more to Thee.
Thou knowest my years entire, my life, My long and crowded life of active work, not adoration merely; Thou knowest the prayers and vigils of my youth, Thou knowest my manhood"s solemn and visionary meditations, Thou knowest how before I commenced I devoted all to come to Thee, Thou knowest I have in age ratified all those vows and strictly kept them, Thou knowest I have not once lost nor faith nor ecstasy in Thee, In shackles, prison"d, in disgrace, repining not, Accepting all from Thee, as duly come from Thee.
All my emprises have been fill"d with Thee, My speculations, plans, begun and carried on in thoughts of Thee, Sailing the deep or journeying the land for Thee; Intentions, purports, aspirations mine, leaving results to Thee.
O I am sure they really came from Thee, The urge, the ardor, the unconquerable will, The potent, felt, interior command, stronger than words, A message from the Heavens whispering to me even in sleep, These sped me on.
By me and these the work so far accomplish"d, By me earth"s elder cloy"d and stifled lands uncloy"d, unloos"d, By me the hemispheres rounded and tied, the unknown to the known.
The end I know not, it is all in Thee, Or small or great I know not-haply what broad fields, what lands, Haply the brutish measureless human undergrowth I know, Transplanted there may rise to stature, knowledge worthy Thee, Haply the swords I know may there indeed be turn"d to reaping-tools, Haply the lifeless cross I know, Europe"s dead cross, may bud and blossom there.
One effort more, my altar this bleak sand; That Thou O G.o.d my life hast lighted, With ray of light, steady, ineffable, vouchsafed of Thee, Light rare untellable, lighting the very light, Beyond all signs, descriptions, languages; For that O G.o.d, be it my latest word, here on my knees, Old, poor, and paralyzed, I thank Thee.
My terminus near, The clouds already closing in upon me, The voyage balk"d, the course disputed, lost, I yield my ships to Thee.
My hands, my limbs grow nerveless, My brain feels rack"d, bewilder"d, Let the old timbers part, I will not part, I will cling fast to Thee, O G.o.d, though the waves buffet me, Thee, Thee at least I know.
Is it the prophet"s thought I speak, or am I raving?
What do I know of life? what of myself?
I know not even my own work past or present, Dim ever-shifting guesses of it spread before me, Of newer better worlds, their mighty parturition, Mocking, perplexing me.
And these things I see suddenly, what mean they?
As if some miracle, some hand divine unseal"d my eyes, Shadowy vast shapes smile through the air and sky, And on the distant waves sail countless ships, And anthems in new tongues I hear saluting me.
BOOK XXVIII
The Sleepers 1 I wander all night in my vision, Stepping with light feet, swiftly and noiselessly stepping and stopping, Bending with open eyes over the shut eyes of sleepers, Wandering and confused, lost to myself, ill-a.s.sorted, contradictory, Pausing, gazing, bending, and stopping.
How solemn they look there, stretch"d and still, How quiet they breathe, the little children in their cradles.
The wretched features of ennuyes, the white features of corpses, the livid faces of drunkards, the sick-gray faces of onanists, The gash"d bodies on battle-fields, the insane in their strong-door"d rooms, the sacred idiots, the new-born emerging from gates, and the dying emerging from gates, The night pervades them and infolds them.
The married couple sleep calmly in their bed, he with his palm on the hip of the wife, and she with her palm on the hip of the husband, The sisters sleep lovingly side by side in their bed, The men sleep lovingly side by side in theirs, And the mother sleeps with her little child carefully wrapt.
The blind sleep, and the deaf and dumb sleep, The prisoner sleeps well in the prison, the runaway son sleeps, The murderer that is to be hung next day, how does he sleep?
And the murder"d person, how does he sleep?
The female that loves unrequited sleeps, And the male that loves unrequited sleeps, The head of the money-maker that plotted all day sleeps, And the enraged and treacherous dispositions, all, all sleep.
I stand in the dark with drooping eyes by the worst-suffering and the most restless, I pa.s.s my hands soothingly to and fro a few inches from them, The restless sink in their beds, they fitfully sleep.
Now I pierce the darkness, new beings appear, The earth recedes from me into the night, I saw that it was beautiful, and I see that what is not the earth is beautiful.
I go from bedside to bedside, I sleep close with the other sleepers each in turn, I dream in my dream all the dreams of the other dreamers, And I become the other dreamers.
I am a dance-play up there! the fit is whirling me fast!
I am the ever-laughing-it is new moon and twilight, I see the hiding of douceurs, I see nimble ghosts whichever way look, Cache and cache again deep in the ground and sea, and where it is neither ground nor sea.
Well do they do their jobs those journeymen divine, Only from me can they hide nothing, and would not if they could, I reckon I am their boss and they make me a pet besides, And surround me and lead me and run ahead when I walk, To lift their cunning covers to signify me with stretch"d arms, and resume the way; Onward we move, a gay gang of blackguards! with mirth-shouting music and wild-flapping pennants of joy!
I am the actor, the actress, the voter, the politician, The emigrant and the exile, the criminal that stood in the box, He who has been famous and he who shall be famous after to-day, The stammerer, the well-form"d person, the wasted or feeble person.
I am she who adorn"d herself and folded her hair expectantly, My truant lover has come, and it is dark.
Double yourself and receive me darkness, Receive me and my lover too, he will not let me go without him.
I roll myself upon you as upon a bed, I resign myself to the dusk.