"While I"ll admit you"re more than tempting, and distracting, I"m not in shape to feel very s.e.xy, Rio." It was a blatant lie. Rachael had never felt s.e.xier in her life. She sighed heavily. "It scares me when you go off like that. I"m really afraid something might happen to you. It"s not like I"m in any shape to go charging to the rescue."
Rio could only stare in silence. Her admission made him feel helpless and vulnerable. No one worried about him. No one cared that much if he made it back to his house at night. He fully expected to die in a fight someday and he doubted if more than a handful of men would mourn his pa.s.sing, and that would be a brief salute to his marksman abilities. Rachael looked at him with the world shining in her eyes. A gift. A treasure. And he was certain she was completely unaware of it.
"I"m sorry I frightened you, Rachael," he murmuredsoftly and shut the door on the night-closed the door on his freedom. "I had some things to think about. I went for a run."
"Yes, well, while you were gone, we had a little visit from your friendly neighborhood leopard. Fortunately it was on its best behavior so I didn"t shoot it. You may notice I"m choosing humor and bravado rather than cla.s.sic hysteria.
Although I thought long and hard about the hysteria."
He could feel the grin forming. It started in his gut and spread warmth through his body. "I appreciate the sacrifice. I"m not certain what I"d do with hysteria. It may be beyond my coping abilities."
"I seriously doubt anything is beyond your coping abilities. Did I upset you earlier? Is that why you couldn"t sleep?"
Rio crossed to the basin as he always did after his nightly disappearances, his muscles flowing like water as he moved through the house without a whisper of sound. He remembered to light a candle, knowing she liked the scent of it. The flame flickered and set shadows dancing on the wall. "I thought a lot about what you said, that I wasn"t willing to tell you about myself. Maybe you were right.
I love the way you look at me. I haven"t ever had anyone look at me the way that you do. It"s hard to think of giving that up, or taking a chance of never seeing it again because you won"t look at me the same way after I talk to you about who and what I really am."
She always did the unexpected. Rachael laughed softly. "And you must have forgotten who you"re talking to, Rio. The woman with the million-dollar price on her head. Has it occurred to you, I"m a pariah in society?"
"I know exactly whom I"m talking to," he said.
Rachael stretched her leg out in front of her, careful not to jar it. She had to use both hands, even the broken one, in order to ease her leg fully off the bed.
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immediately drew his attention. Rio half turned, a small frown on his face. "Are you going somewhere?"
"Just stretching. I thought you could make me one of those drinks. I"m getting addicted to them. What do you put in them, anyway? Just for future reference, you understand." She straightened her shirt, pulled at the tails to try to cover her bare thighs. The edges were gaping open over her b.r.e.a.s.t.s and she awkwardly tried to b.u.t.ton it with one hand.
Rio dragged on a pair of jeans before crossing over to the bed. "The drink is made from fruit nectar and whatever fruit I happen to harvest that morning." He hunkered down beside her and reached for the edges of the shirt-his shirt. It looked completely different on her. His knuckles brushed her full b.r.e.a.s.t.s. He could feel warmth and velvet-soft flesh. His knuckles lingered, deliberately rubbed gently. He hadn"t planned to take advantage, it just happened. He couldn"t resist the temptation. He looked up at her face, his fingers curled around the edges of his shirt.
Rachael was instantly trapped in the vivid intensity of his gaze. She fell, tumbled, dropped into his gazevLeaned into him in invitation. His mouth took possession of hers, a fusing together, wild and tumultuous, neither quite in control. His fingers moved between her b.r.e.a.s.t.s, sliding the b.u.t.ton aside to allow his hands to cup the soft weight. She gasped, arched into his palm, pushed closer, her body every bit as sensitive as in her catlike dream. She needed his touch, ached for it, dreamed of it. Was familiar with it. His mouth was pure male, driving every thought from her head so that she simply wound her arms around his neck and held him to her.
His lips blazed a trail of fire from her mouth to her chin. His teeth nibbled, moved lower to her throat, his tongue swirling along her skin just to taste her.
Rachael cried out when his mouth settled over her breast, when his fingers tangled in her hair, when he spread a blazing fire through her body.
"Why did you have to put your jeans on this one time?"
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Rachael complained, her voice breathless. "Just this once, wouldn"t it be all right to forget everything and just be together?" The ache and the need were raw. She heard it and knew he did too.
"d.a.m.n it, Rachael." His tongue swirled over her taut nipple. He rested his forehead against her sternum, his breath warm on her b.r.e.a.s.t.s. "Did you have to make me think? If I take advantage of you while you"re injured and you can"t walk away, how are you going to feel tomorrow when you have to hear everything I have to say?"
His hands cupped her b.r.e.a.s.t.s, thumbs stroking, his mouth hot and moist and filled with pa.s.sion as he suckled, just one more time. His body was so full and painful he moaned, an involuntary protest against the tight material covering his erection.
Rachael tugged at his zipper, thankful he wasn"t wearing his b.u.t.ton-fly jeans.
"Take them off, Rio."
He reluctantly left the haven of her b.r.e.a.s.t.s to stand so he could drag off the jeans and kick them aside. He was standing between her legs, and Rachael simply leaned into him, her hands cupping his t.e.s.t.i.c.l.es and her mouth sliding over his erection. Hot silk surrounded him, gripped him, her tongue dancing and teasing.
The rush hit him like a fireball, nearly blew out the top of his head. She was doing something with her fingertips, stroking and caressing until he thought he"d go out of his mind. He heard a sound escaping his throat, something between a growl and a groan, but he couldn"t stop it.
"Rachael, sestrilla, you"re killing me." He didn"t want her to stop, but if she didn"t he was going to disgrace himself. There would be no chance to satisfy her. He put his hands on her shoulders to press her back. "If we"re going to do this, we"re going to do it right." Even as he said it, even as he meant it, her tongue was doing a dancing foray over the head of his p.e.n.i.s, teasing and driving him out of his skull. The breath slammed out of his lungs and he fisted his hands in her hair, his hips thrusting helplessly.
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That was Rachael. Teasing and laughing, her breath hot with pa.s.sion as she drove him out of his mind. She loved their s.e.x life, was every bit as adventurous as he. Just looking at her could make him crazy and when she was like this ... Rio groaned again and shook his head to clear it of memories. He wanted this to be here and now. This Rachael, this Rio-not the ones from another time and place.
He tugged at her hair and she lifted her head, her dark chocolate eyes laughing joyfully. His heart performed a series of somersaults. He pushed her back on the bed, lifted her leg carefully, dragging blankets, shuts and everything else he could find to prop it up for her. The shirt fell open to allow him to see her luscious body. Her skin was a miracle, soft and inviting.
"You"re sure, Rachael. Be sure, sestrilla, there is no going back once we do this." His heated gaze drifted possessively over her body, drinking her in, even when he wanted her to be certain of what she was doing. Whatever past life they had together was urging a pa.s.sionate and heated union. "I want this to be us.
You and me and no one else. Not past or future, but the two of us in the present."
She reached her arms up for him, locked her hands behind his neck as he carefully lowered himself into the cradle of her hips. Her body was as welcoming as the look on her face. As the wonder and joy in her eyes. Rio buried bis face hi the warmth of her throat, closing his eyes to absorb the feel and texture of her skin. Of her heat.
"I know what sestrilla means, Rio. You are calling me beloved one. I have no idea of the language. But I know the word." She held his head to her, feeling the trembling in his body. He was enormously strong, with roped muscles, yet he trembled hi her arms. It amazed and humbled her. She swept her hands over his back, careful to keep the makeshift splint from rubbing against his skin. She knew the exact line of his back, but the scars were unfamiliar. She traced each one, committing them to memory.
His full erection was heavy and thick, pressing againsther moist entrance, but he simply lay hi her arms, holding her to him while she explored his body. She felt his mouth move against her throat and her heart began to pound in antic.i.p.ation. She couldn"t stop moving as flames licked at her body in the wake of his tongue. He worshipped her, taking his time when they both were already on the edge of insanity. His hands and mouth touching and tasting until she had tears in her eyes and lifted her hips in urgent need. He was incredibly gentle, tender even, so careful of her injured leg, yet there wasn"t a spot he missed on her body, leisurely feasting on her as if they had all the time in the world. His breath was warm on her stomach as he gave a series of little nips down to the tangle of dark curls. "Rio, it"s too much."
"It"s never too much." He breathed the words against her, his finger pushing deep into her so that her muscles clenched around him and she cried out with pleasure: "This is the two of us, Rachael. The way we"re meant to be." He bent bis head and replaced his finger with his tongue.
She clutched the sheets for an anchor. Her body exploded, rippling with life, with pleasure, nearly sending her off the bed. Then his mouth was fastened to hers and he was lifting her hips, surging into her. He was thick and full and thrust through her o.r.g.a.s.m, sending shock waves of fire through her body.
"More, Rachael, take me deeper, take all of me." His voice was hoa.r.s.e and he tilted her hips as he thrust deeper, wanting to bury himself inside her body, inside her sanctuary. He wanted to share her skin, her heart, her very soul.
"That"s right, sestrilla, more, take all of me." He could have wept tears of joy. Everything in him remembered, knew he had come home. He felt her shift, just that tiny bit, felt her take him deeper into her tight sheath. Her muscles gripped and clung and performed an amazing tango of heat and fire on his body.
He found a perfect rhythm, surging deep, thrusting hard, immersing, losing himself in a paradise he thought lost to him.
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He knew instinctively, or maybe it was a past life together, exactly how to please her. He knew what she wanted, what made her gasp and moan and cling to him. He wanted their first time together to be a memory for both of them. He forced his body under a semblance of control to give her complete satisfaction, driving her up and over the edge again and again until she cried out for mercy.
He wanted to give her the perfect joy she gave to him.
Rachael dug her fingernails into Rio"s back, desperate to hold on, to take him with her when she was flying so high. Lights burst behind her eyes. Her body shuddered with pleasure. She felt him swelling even more, growing larger, harder, exploding with life and joy, his growl of sheer pleasure mingling with her own cry.
They lay hi the heat of the night, their scents mingling, their hearts racing.
Rachael traced one long scar just over his left shoulder with her fingertip while wave after wave rocked her. "How did you get this one?"
He couldn"t move, sweat beading bis body. He settled into her, shifting slightly to take some of his weight off of her. "That one was a knife. I was pulling a sixteen-year-old boy out of Tomas"s camp and the kid panicked and ran from me before I could stop him. A guard nabbed him and swung a machete at him." He nestled his face closer to the warmth of her breast. "That"s where this scar came from." He showed her his arm and the deep scar running along his forearm.
"I was able to save the kid, but a second guard knifed me from behind during the fight. That wasn"t my most shining moment."
Rachael lifted her head enough to press her mouth to his forearm, her tongue swirling over the long scar. He tasted as if they"d just made love. "And this one?" She reached lower, deliberately sliding her fingertips over bis firm b.u.t.tocks to rest in the small white concave over his left hip. "How did you get this one?"
"A bullet." He grinned, his breath teasing her nipple into a hard peak.
"Obviously I was running."
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"Well at least you were showing good sense." "There were more of them then there was of me. I walked into a hornet"s nest that time. I was only scouting, looking for signs, and walked right into them. It seemed the right thing to do was to leave since I didn"t have an invitation." He leaned into her breast and suckled, just for a moment because she wasn"t opposed to the idea. His laughter was m.u.f.fled. "I"ve improved my running times since then."
Just the pull of his mouth on her sensitized breast sent her body into another o.r.g.a.s.m. He was still locked deep inside her and velvet-soft muscles gripped and clenched tightly, adding to his own pleasure.
Her fingertips avoided the raw wound on his hip and went to the myriad of deep slashes on bis back. "And these?"
Rio went absolutely still. Even his breath caught in his lungs. He waited a heartbeat, listened to the air moving in and out of her lungs. Slowly he lifted his head to look down at her. "Those scars came from a few fights I had with a big cat."
Her dark eyes moved over his face. He could see her taking it in, accepting it.
"A cat like the other night. A big leopard. Not Fritz or Franz."
"Not Fritz or Franz," he confirmed. Very gently he separated from her, easing his body from hers, rolling over to take his weight completely from her. He lay staring up at the ceiling. "A very large, fully grown male leopard."
Rachael could feel the stillness in him. The waiting. There was something he needed to tell her, but he was extremely reluctant. She reached for his hand, laced their fingers together. "Have you ever noticed how much easier it is to say things you need to say, but don"t want to say, in the dark?" Her fingers tightened around his. "You know you"re going to tell me, so just say it." She waited, her heart accelerating. She had a flashback of his face changing, of fur and teeth and eerie glowing eyes. The longer she lay in the dark waiting, the more she was afraid.
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"I murdered a man." Rio said it softly, his voice so low it was barely audible.
She heard pain, stark and raw in the ugly confession.
For a moment she couldn"t breathe. It was the last thing she expected him to say. The last thing she expected of a man like Rio. It didn"t fit with the man who cared for his leopards first. It didn"t fit with the way he always put her first. "Rio, defending yourself or having to defend others by taking them back from a man like Tomas is not murder."
"It wasn"t self-defense. He didn"t have a chance against my skills. I hunted him down and I executed him. It was not government sanctioned and the laws of my people didn"t sanction such an act. I wish I could tell you I was sorry he"s dead, but I"m not." He turned his head to look at her. "Maybe that"s why I can"t forgive myself. And it"s why I live apart from the others of my kind."
A weight seemed to be crushing her chest. "Were you arrested and charged?"