"Ugh. Poor you."
"Oh, it"s .. ."
Fine?
She retreated to the little storage room behind the meat counter. If she let Berit get started she would be subject to a long harangue about people"s suffering in general and the evils of today"s society in particular. Virginia sat down on a chair between the scales and the door to the freezer room. It was an area of only a few square meters but it was the most comfortable place in the store. No sunlight. She flipped through the papers and found a small article in the Dagens Nyheter Dagens Nyheter domestic news section. She read: domestic news section. She read: Woman attacked in Blackeberg A fifty-year-old woman unknown. The police are now was attacked and a.s.saulted investigating a possible con-Thursday night in the Stock-nection to other violent inci-holm suburb of Blackeberg. A dents in the western suburbs pa.s.serby intervened and the during the past few weeks. The perpetrator, a young woman, fifty-year-old woman"s injuries immediately fled the scene, were described as minor. The motive of the a.s.sault is Virginia lowered the paper. So strange to read about yourself in that way. "Fifty-year-old woman," "pa.s.serby" "minor injuries." Everything that was concealed by those words.
"Possible connection?" Yes, Lacke was convinced that she had been attacked by the same child who killed Jocke. He had had to bite his tongue not to say this at the hospital, some time on Friday morning, to the female police officer and the doctor who examined her wounds. He was planning to talk to the police, but wanted to inform Gosta first, thought Gosta would see the whole thing from a new perspective now that even Virginia had been involved.
She heard a rustling sound and looked around. It took a few seconds before she realized that it was the newspaper shaking in her own hands that was making the noise. She set the newspapers on the shelf above the white coats and went out to join Berit.
"Anything I can do?"
"Do you really think it"s a good idea, hon?"
"Yes, it"s better for me to be doing something."
"I see. You can portion out the shrimp, in that case. Five hundred gram bags. But shouldn"t you?..."
Virginia shook her head and walked back to the storage room. She put on a white coat and hat, took a case of shrimp out of the freezer, pulled a plastic bag over her hand, and started to weigh them out. Dug around in the carton with the hand that had the plastic bag over it, portioned them out into bags, weighed them on the scales. A boring, mechanical job, and her right hand felt frozen already on her fourth bag. But she was doing something, and it gave her an opportunity to think.
That night at the hospital Lacke had said something really strange: that the child who attacked her had not been a human being. That it had had fangs and claws.
Virginia had dismissed this as a drunken hallucination.
She didn"t remember much from the attack. But she could accept this: the thing that had jumped on top of her had been much too light to be an adult, almost too light to be a child, even. A very small child in that case. Five or six maybe. She recalled that she had stood up with the weight on her back. After that everything was black until she woke up in her apartment with all the guys except Gosta gathered around her. She put a tie around a finished bag, took out the next one, dropped in a few handfuls. Four hundred and thirty grams. Seven more shrimp. Five hundred and ten.
Our treat.
She looked down at her hands, which were working independently of her brain. Hands. With long nails. Sharp teeth. What was that called?
Lacke had said it out loud. A vampire. Virginia had laughed, carefully, so that the st.i.tches in her cheek wouldn"t come out. Lacke had not even smiled.
"You didn"t see it."
"But Lacke . . . they don"t really exist."
"No. But what was it then?"
"A child. Living out a strange twisted fantasy."
"Who grew out her nails? Filed her teeth down? I"d like to see the dentist who ..."
"Lacke, it was dark. You were drunk, it-"
"It was, and I was. But I saw what I saw."
It burned and felt tight under the bandage on her cheek. She removed the plastic bag from her right hand, put her hand over the bandage. It was ice cold and that felt good. But she was weak; it felt as if her legs weren"t going to carry her much longer.
She would finish this carton and then go home. This wasn"t going to work. If she could rest over the weekend she would probably feel better on Monday. She put the plastic bag back on and started in on the work again with a spark of anger. Hated being sick.
A sharp pain in her index finger. d.a.m.n it. That"s what happens if you don"t concentrate. The shrimp were sharp when they were frozen and she had p.r.i.c.ked her finger. She pulled off the plastic bag and looked at the finger. A smallish cut with a little blood welling out of it. She automatically popped it into her mouth to suck the blood away. A warm, healing, delicious spot radiating out from the place where her fingertip met her tongue, started to spread. She sucked harder on the finger. All good tastes concentrated into one filled her mouth. A shiver of well-being went through her body. She sucked and sucked, giving in to the pleasure until she realized what she was doing.
She pulled the finger out of her mouth, stared at it. It was shiny with saliva and the tiny amount of blood that now welled out was immediately thinned out by the wetness, like an overly diluted watercolor. She looked at the shrimp in the carton. Hundreds of pink bodies, covered with frost. And eyes. Black pinheads dispersed in the white and pink, an upside-down starry sky. Patterns, constellations started to dance in front of her eyes.
The world spun on its axis and something hit her in the back of the head. In front of her eyes there was a white surface with cobwebs in the corners. She understood that she was lying on the floor but had no strength to do anything about it.
In the distance she heard Berit"s voice: "Oh my G.o.d .. . Virginia . .."
Jonny liked to hang out with his older brother. At least when none of his sketchy buddies were around. Jimmy knew some guys from Racksta that Jonny was pretty scared of. One evening a few years ago they had come by to talk to Jimmy, hanging around outside but without ringing the buzzer. When Jonny told them Jimmy wasn"t home they asked him to deliver a message.
"Tell your brother that if he doesn"t get us the dough by Monday we"ll put his head in a vice . . . you know what that is?... OK . .. and turn it like this until the dough runs out of his ears. Can you tell him that? OK, great. Jonny"s your name? Good-bye then, Jonny."
Jonny had delivered the message and Jimmy had simply nodded, said he knew. Then some money had disappeared from Mom"s wallet and then there had been an angry scene.
Jimmy was not home as often nowadays. There was sort of no room for him anymore since their youngest little sister was born. Jonny already had two younger siblings and there weren"t supposed to be any more. But then Mom had met some guy and .. . well.. . that"s how it went. At least Jonny and Jimmy had the same dad. He worked on an oil rig off the coast of Norway and not only had he started sending regular child support, he was also sending a little extra just to make up for before. Mom blessed him, and when she was drunk she had even cried over him a few times and said she would never again meet a man like that. So for the first time in as long as Jonny could remember a lack of money was not the constant topic of conversation.
Now they were sitting in the pizzeria on the main square in Blacke-berg. Jimmy had been home in the morning, argued a bit with Mom, and then he and Jonny had gone out. Jimmy heaped condiments on his pizza, folded it up, picked up the large roll with both hands, and started to eat. Jonny ate his pizza in the usual way, thinking that next time he ate pizza without Jimmy he would eat it like that.
Jimmy chewed, nodded his head at the bandage over Jonny"s ear. "Looks like h.e.l.l."
"Yes."
"Does it hurt?"
"It"s OK."
"Mom said it"s damaged for life. That you won"t be able to hear anything."
"They don"t know yet. Maybe it"ll be alright."
"Hm. Let me get this straight. The guy just picked up some big branch and bashed it into your head."
"Mm."
"d.a.m.n. What are you going to do about it?"
"Don"t know."
"Need any help?"
"... No."
"What? Me and a few of my pals can take him out."
Jonny pulled off a big piece with shrimp, his favorite, put it in his mouth and chewed. No. Better not drag Jimmy"s friends into this, then it would get out of hand. Nonetheless Jonny smiled at the thought of how scared s.h.i.tless Oskar would be if he appeared at his house with Jimmy and, say, those guys from Racksta. He shook his head.
Jimmy put his pizza roll down and looked seriously at Jonny.
"OK, but I"m just saying. One One more thing, and then ..." He snapped his fingers hard, then made a fist. more thing, and then ..." He snapped his fingers hard, then made a fist.
"You"re my brother and no little s.h.i.t is going to come and . .. One One more thing, then you can say whatever you like. Then I"m going after him. OK?" more thing, then you can say whatever you like. Then I"m going after him. OK?"
Jimmy held out his fist across the table. Jonny also made a fist and b.u.mped Jimmy"s with it. It felt good. That there was someone who cared. Jimmy nodded.
"Good. I have something for you."
He bent down under the table, took out a plastic bag that he had been carrying all morning. He drew a thin photo alb.u.m out of the bag. "Dad came by last week. He"s grown a beard, almost didn"t recognize him. He had this with him."
Jimmy held the alb.u.m out to Jonny, who wiped his fingers on a napkin and opened it.
Pictures of children. Of Mom. Maybe ten years ago. And a man he recognized as his father. The man was pushing the kids on swings. In one picture he was wearing a much-too-small cowboy hat. Jimmy, maybe nine years old, was standing next to him with a plastic rifle in his hands and a grim expression. A little boy who had to be Jonny sat on the ground nearby and looked wide-eyed at them.
"He loaned me this till next time. He wants it back, said it was ... yeah, what the f.u.c.k was it... "my most valuable possession," I think he said. Thought it might interest you too."
Jonny nodded without looking up from the alb.u.m. He had only met his dad two times since he left when Jonny was four. At home there was one picture of him, a pretty bad one where he was sitting around with some other people. This was something completely different. Here you could kind of construct a real image of him.
"One more thing. Don"t show it to Mom. I think Dad kind of swiped it when he left and if she sees it... well, he wants it back, as I told you. Promise. Don"t show Mom."
Still with his nose buried in the alb.u.m, Jonny made a fist and held it out over the table. Jimmy laughed and then Jonny felt Jimmy"s knuckles against his. Promise.
"Hey, you check it out later. Take the bag too."
Jimmy held out the bag and Jonny reluctantly folded up the alb.u.m, put it in the bag. Jimmy was done with his pizza, leaned back in his chair, and patted his stomach.
"So. How are things on the chick front?"
The village flew by. Snow that was kicked up by the wheels of the moped trailer was sprayed back and peppered Oskar"s cheeks. He gripped the towrope with both hands, shifted his weight to the side, swinging out of the snow cloud. There was a sharp sc.r.a.ping sound as the skis sliced through the loose snow. The outer ski nudged an orange reflector where the road split in two. He wobbled, then regained his balance.
The road down to Lagaro and the summer houses wasn"t plowed. The moped left three deep tracks in the untouched snow cover, and five meters behind it came Oskar on skis, making two additional tracks. He drove zigzag over the moped tracks, stood on one ski like a trick skier, crouched down into a little ball of speed.
When his dad slowed down on the long hill heading down to the old steamship pier, Oskar was going faster than the moped and he was forced to brake a little in order not to let too much slack into the line, which would then result in a strong jerk when the hill leveled off and the moped picked up speed again.
The moped got all the way down to the pier and his dad switched down out of gear and stood on the brake. Oskar was still traveling at full throttle and for a short moment he thought about dropping the rope and dropping the rope and keeping going. . . keeping going. . . Out over the end of the pier, down into the black water. But he angled the mini-skis out, braked a couple of meters from the edge. Out over the end of the pier, down into the black water. But he angled the mini-skis out, braked a couple of meters from the edge.
He stood panting for a while, looked out over the water. Thin sections of ice had started to form, bobbed up and down in the small waves by the sh.o.r.es. Maybe there was a chance of real ice this year. So you could walk across to Vato on the other side. Or did they keep a channel in to Nor-rtalje open? Oskar couldn"t remember. It was several years since there had been ice like that.
When Oskar was out here in the summer he would fish for herring from this pier. Loose hooks on the line, a lure on the end. If he found a school he could end up with a couple of kilos if he had the patience, but mostly he ended up with ten or fifteen fish. That was enough for dinner for him and his dad; the smallest ones went to the cat.
Dad came up and stood behind him.
"That went well, it did."
"Mmm. But I went all the way through the snow a couple of times."
"True, the snow is a little loose. If we could pack it tighter, somehow. If we could . .. maybe take a particleboard and hitch it up, put some weight on it. You know, if you put the board and the weight down, then ..."
"Should we do it?"
"No, it"d have to be tomorrow, at any rate. It"s getting dark now. We"ll have to get home and work on that bird a little if there"s going to be any dinner."
"OK.".
His dad looked out over the water, stood there quietly for a while.
"You know, I"ve been thinking about something."
"Yes?"
It was coming now. Mom had told Oskar that she let Dad know in no in no uncertain terms uncertain terms that he had to talk to him about what happened with Jonny. And actually Oskar wanted to talk about it. Dad was at a secure distance from it all, wouldn"t interfere in any way. His dad cleared his throat, gathered himself. Breathed out. Looked over the water. Then he said: "Yes, I was thinking ... do you have any ice skates?" that he had to talk to him about what happened with Jonny. And actually Oskar wanted to talk about it. Dad was at a secure distance from it all, wouldn"t interfere in any way. His dad cleared his throat, gathered himself. Breathed out. Looked over the water. Then he said: "Yes, I was thinking ... do you have any ice skates?"
"No, none that fit me."
"No, no. No. Well, if we get ice this winter and it looks like . . . then it would be fun to have some, wouldn"t it. I have some."
"They probably won"t fit."
His dad snorted, a kind of chuckle.
"No, but... Osten"s boy has some he"s grown out of. Thirty-nines. What size do you wear?"
"Thirty-eight."
"Yes, but with woolen socks you"d... I"ll ask him if you can have them."
"Great."
"Then it"s settled. Good. Should we get going, then?" Oskar nodded. Maybe it would come later. And the part about the skates was good. If they could manage it tomorrow then he could bring them back with him.
He walked on his mini-skis over to the end of the towrope, backed up until the line was taut, signaled his dad that he was ready. His dad started the moped. They had to go up the hill in first gear. The moped roared so that it frightened some crows out of the top of a pine tree. Oskar glided slowly up the hill like he was going up a rope tow, stood straight with his legs pressed together. He wasn"t thinking about anything except trying to keep his skis in the old tracks in order to avoid cutting through the snow layer to the ground. They made their way home as twilight was falling.
Lacke walked down the stairs from the main square with a box of Aladdin chocolates tucked inside the top of his pants. Didn"t like to steal, but he had no money and he wanted to give Virginia something. Should have brought roses as well, but try swiping anything at a florist. It was already dark and when he reached the bottom of the hill toward the school he hesitated. Looked around, sc.r.a.ped the snow with his foot, and uncovered a rock the size of a fist that he kicked loose and slipped in his pocket, squeezing his hand around it. Not because he thought it would help against what he had seen but the stone"s weight and cold offered a bit of comfort.
His asking around in the various apartment courtyards had not yielded any results other than guarded, suspicious looks from parents who were out building snowmen with their youngsters. Dirty old man.
It was only when he opened his mouth to talk to a woman who was beating rugs that he realized how unnatural his behavior must appear. The woman had paused in her task, turned to him with the stick in her hand like a weapon.
"Excuse me," Lacke said,"... yes, I was wondering ... I"m looking for a child."
"Really?"