"Grab the boy," Raiden orders his Stormer as he shoves me toward the pathway that brought me here.
"Wait-we had a deal!" my mother shouts behind us.
She shakes the chains in her cage and I almost want to laugh.
Doesn"t she realize? Trusting Raiden is like trusting her. It always ends the same.
Raiden hisses something in his wicked language, and the winds in the Maelstrom double their speed.
Then all I hear are her screams.
"I wouldn"t get any ideas," Raiden tells me when the exit comes into sight. "Even if you can fight through the pain of your bonds, they"ll drag you back to me. And then I"ll make you watch as I break your friend apart piece by piece."
He"s going to do that anyway.
Just like he did to Aston.
And I . . .
I have to be strong.
I have to endure anything.
I accepted this responsibility when I let Vane into my heart.
I have no choice but to protect it.
There"s always a choice, I can"t help thinking, and the weakness makes me sick.
But what makes me far, far sicker is that I"m not nearly as sick as I should be.
Vane could barely function when he thought about sharing his language with Os-yet here I am, feeling only slightly queasy at the thought of giving it to Raiden?
Clearly my Westerly instincts aren"t as strong as I"m going to need them to be-and if I can"t count on them to fuel me, how will I find the strength to resist Raiden"s interrogation?
If I"d been holding out any hope that Vane would sense my danger and save us, it"s crushed when I set foot on the sand. The desert is empty, save for the vultures, and even the Westerlies have all been frightened away.
We"re on our own.
There will be no escape.
But I guess it"s better this way.
Better that Vane stays safe.
If there were a way to spare Gus, I would give it, but I can at least spare my loyal shield. I whisper the command to release it, begging it to flee far away.
The draft ignores me, clinging like a second skin. And in that simple act of loyalty, I find a hint of strength.
"Feels like your army has done better against my Storms than they should have," Raiden mumbles as he stretches out his palms to test the air.
"Good."
"That"s a brave word coming from a hostage."
"Well, I"m braver than you think. You can take me and you can torture me. But I will never let you change me."
He barks a laugh, and the sharp sound stirs the vultures. "That"s what they all say. Until I find their weakness."
He glances at Gus, then back at me, the threat impossible to miss.
He turns to give orders to his Stormer, and I realize this is it- the last few seconds I"ll have before he drags me away to his fortress.
Thousands of regrets race through my mind, but I focus on the breeze that"s suddenly tickling my skin.
It"s a strong wind.
An Easterly.
And as it braves the treacherous skies of the Maelstrom just to bring comfort to me, I close my eyes and let myself believe it"s my father. Come to say goodbye. Come to give me peace.
But when I listen to his song I realize he"s brought me a message. The same advice over and over, turning more urgent with each repet.i.tion.
Time to let go.
I have no idea what he means, but the next time I inhale, the breeze slips inside with my breath, pressing into the darkest places in my mind.
The melody swirls around my head, and as I focus on the simple verse, something starts to stir.
A pressure.
A gathering.
It"s not my essence.
It"s not any part of me.
And as the mounting rush shocks me with warm tingles, I realize what my father is telling me to let go of.
Who to let go of.
The Easterly"s song turns mournful, echoing my grief as it whispers the command I"ll need to give.
It"s a familiar word. A word that"s defined the last ten years of my life.
But I can"t make myself say it.
It"s too much.
The wind is asking too much.
I"ve given everything-suffered anything.
Why must I lose the one thing I"ve taken for myself?
Protection, the Easterly whispers, and the word is like fog, thick and numbing as it clouds my resistance and cools my rage.
This will break my heart-and likely break me.
But I know it has to be done.
I give myself one final second to cling to the only thing that"s ever brought any joy or hope to my life. Then I close my eyes and whisper the command to rip it all away.
"Sacrifice."
The draft inside me splits into a million blades-slicing and slashing and shredding every part of me until there"s nothing but splinters.
The warm, calm shards slip with my ragged breath and vanish like wisps of smoke. The cold, angry pieces cling, hardening into a wall that holds in all the emptiness inside me.
"Stop!" Raiden shouts, snarling something in his wicked language and drowning me in a flood of arctic winds.
They shove and beat and batter my body, trying to force back together what"s already lost.
But it"s gone.
It"s all gone.
Everything that matters is gone.
CHAPTER 43.VANE.
P.
ain crashes into my heart, so sharp and sudden I clutch my chest expecting to find a windslicer sticking out of it. Nothing"s there.
No wound.
No weapon.
It"s like the pain is coming from inside me instead of . . . Oh G.o.d.
Audra.
I have to-I never should"ve-I- The crack of a whip way too close to my head yanks me back to reality, and I barely manage to fly out of the way as the Living Storm tries to swat me out of the sky.
I steer east, gathering any winds that are willing to listen to me and tangling them around me to fuel my speed.
But Solana"s scream stops me cold.
I turn back just in time to see one of the Storms toss her to the other. Playing with her like some sick toy.
If I leave, she dies.
But Audra needs me.
The pain in my heart cuts deeper, and I know it means she"s in serious danger.
But I can"t leave.
I can"t fly away and let Solana die.
I can"t have another death on my head.
Audra has Gus and the power of four and years of training to make her strong enough to hold her own for a few more minutes.
I"ll be there as fast as I can.
"Come!" I shout, calling one of the broken wind spikes Os made.
The Westerly shielding me changes its tune, singing about traitors as it whisks away.
"What else do you want me to do?"I shout, flailing to strengthen my hold on the other drafts. "Do you want them to die?"
The Westerly doesn"t respond, disappearing into the clouds.
I feel like I"m turning my back on my heritage-but I"ve tried fighting with my own wind spike and it did nothing. And the Westerlies told me themselves that they couldn"t stop the Storms.
So, seriously, what am I supposed to do?
I order the winds still holding me to hover, and I test my swing, aiming for the Storm that"s carrying Solana. I check my swing twice to steady my nerves, and on the third sweep I let it fly.
The freaking Storm ducks.
I shout commands to adjust the spike"s trajectory as it pa.s.ses, but the angle"s too sharp and the spike swishes across the Storm"s shoulder, making such a small slice, the wound doesn"t even leak any fog.
But it does still p.i.s.s the Storm off, and I turn to flee as it tosses Solana back to the other Storm and takes off after me.
"Hang on," I shout as I duck the crack of a whip and call the broken wind spike back to my hand.
I race straight toward Solana, knowing this is probably the stupidest strategy I"ve ever come up with. But I don"t have time to play Keep Away with the evil Storms anymore.
"Take my hand," I shout, stretching out my wounded arm as I duck another blow from the whip. I know it"s going to hurt like h.e.l.l when she grabs on, but I need my good arm for other, even crazier things.
Before she can reach me, the Storm yanks her away, tossing her back to the other Storm and swatting its ma.s.sive hand at me.
"Get down, Vane!" Os shouts from somewhere behind me, and I decide not to question him, dropping toward the ground as fast as I can.
I glance up just in time to see a spike streak above me, nailing the Storm in the head and making the monster explode.