Six months" absence is oblivion, and I shall take to a new line of work, and one which will greatly meet your approval.
As to X-- I am not a-going to--not being given to hopeless enterprises. That rough customer at Dublin is the only man who occurs to me. I can"t think of his name, but that is part of my general unfitness.
...I suppose I shall chaff somebody on my death-bed. But I am out of heart to think of the end of the lunches in the sacred corner.
Ever yours,
T.H. Huxley.
[On the 21st he writes home about the steps he had begun to take with respect to giving up part of his official work.]
I have had a long letter from Donnelly. He had told Lord Carlingford of my plans, and encloses a letter from Lord Carlingford to him, trusting I will not hastily decide, and with some pretty phrases about "support and honour" I give to the School. Donnelly is very anxious I should hold on to the School, if only as Dean, and wants me in any case to take two months" holiday at Christmas. Of course he looks on the Royal Society as the root of all evil. Foster per contra looks on the School as the deuce, but would have me stick by the Royal Society like grim death.
The only moral obligation that weighs with me is that which I feel under, to deal fairly by Donnelly and the School. You must not argue against this, as rightly or wrongly I am certain that if I deserted the School hastily, or if I did not do all that I can to requite Donnelly for the plucky way in which he has stood by it and me for the last dozen years, I should never shake off the feeling that I had behaved badly. And as I am much given to brooding over my misdeeds, I don"t want you to increase the number of my h.e.l.l-hounds. You must help me in this...and if I am Quixotic, play Sancho for the nonce.
CHAPTER 2.16.
1884-1885.
[Towards the end of September he went to the West country to try to improve his health before the session began again in London. Thus he writes, on September 26, to Mr. W.F. Collier, who had invited him to Horrabridge, and on the 27th to Sir M. Foster:--]
Fowey, September 26, 1884.
Many thanks for the kind offer in your letter, which has followed me here. But I have not been on the track you might naturally have supposed I had followed. I have been trying to combine hygiene with business, and betook myself, in the first place, to Dartmouth, afterwards to Totnes, and then came on here. From this base of operations I could easily reach all my places of meeting. To-morrow I have to go to Bodmin, but I shall return here, and if the weather is fine (raining cats and dogs at present), I may remain a day or two to take in stock of fresh air before commencing the London campaign.
I am very glad to hear that your health has improved so much. You must feel quite proud to be such an interesting "case." If I set a good example myself I would venture to warn you against spending five shillings worth of strength on the ground of improvement to the extent of half-a-crown.
I am not quite clear as to the extent to which my children have colonised Woodtown at present. But it seems to me that there must be three or four Huxleys (free or in combination, as the chemists say) about the premises. Please give them the paternal benediction; and with very kind remembrances to Mrs. Collier, believe me,
Yours very faithfully,
T.H. Huxley.
Fowey Hotel, Fowey, Cornwall, September 27, 1884.
My dear Foster,
I return your proof, with a few trifling suggestions here and there...
I fancy we may regard the award as practically settled, and a very good award it will be.
The address is beginning to loom in the distance. I have half a mind to devote some part of it to a sketch of the recent novelties in histology touching the nucleus question and molecular physiology.
My wife sent me your letter. By all means let us have a confabulation as soon as I get back and settle what is to be done with the "aged P."
I am not sure that I shall be at home before the end of the week. My lectures do not begin till next week, and the faithful Howes can start the practical work without me, so that if I find myself picking up any good in these parts, I shall probably linger here or hereabouts. But a good deal will depend on the weather--inside as well as outside. I am convinced that the prophet Jeremiah (whose works I have been studying) must have been a flatulent dyspeptic--there is so much agreement between his views and mine.
Ever yours,
T.H. Huxley.
[But the net result of this holiday is summed up in a note, of October 5, to Sir M. Foster:--]
I got better while I was in Cornwall and Wales, and, at present, I don"t think there is anything the matter with me except a profound disinclination to work. I never before knew the proper sense of the term "vis inertiae."
[And writing in the same strain to Sir J. Evans, he adds:]
But I have a notion that if I do not take a long spell of absolute rest before long I shall come to grief. However, getting into harness again may prove a tonic--it often does, e.g. in the case of cab-horses.
[Three days later he found himself ordered to leave England immediately, under pain of a hopeless breakdown.]
4 Marlborough Place, October 8, 1884.
My dear Foster,
We shall be very glad to see you on Friday. I came to the conclusion that I had better put myself in Clark"s hands again, and he has been here this evening overhauling me for an hour.
He says there is nothing wrong except a slight affection of the liver and general nervous depression, but that if I go on the latter will get steadily worse and become troublesome. He insists on my going away to the South and doing nothing but amuse myself for three or four months.
This is the devil to pay, but I cannot honestly say that I think he is wrong. Moreover, I promised the wife to abide by his decision.
We will talk over what is to be done.
Ever yours,
T.H. Huxley.
Athenaeum Club, October 13, 1884.
My dear Morley,
I heartily wish I could be with you on the 25th, but it is aliter visum to somebody, whether Dis or Diabolis, I can"t say.
The fact is, the day after I saw you I had to put myself in Clark"s hands, and he ordered me to knock off work and go and amuse myself for three or four months, under penalties of an unpleasant kind.
So I am off to Venice next Wednesday. It is the only tolerably warm place accessible to any one whose wife will not let him go within reach of cholera just at present.
If I am a good boy I am to come back all sound, as there is nothing organic the matter; but I have had enough of the world, the flesh, and the devil, and shall extricate myself from that Trinity as soon as may be. Perhaps I may get within measurable distance of Berkeley ("English Men of Letters" edited by J.M.) before I die!
Ever yours very faithfully,
T.H. Huxley.
Athenaeum Club, October 18, 1884.
My dear Foster,