Ch-lm-ley;" _says the other, sternly, just lifting his eyes a moment from his book, and returning to it again, with renewed avidity."_
This surely conveys a notion of Johnson, as if he had been grossly rude to Mr. Cholmondeley[1069], a gentleman whom he always loved and esteemed. If, therefore, there was an absolute necessity for mentioning the story at all, it might have been thought that her tenderness for Dr.
Johnson"s character would have disposed her to state any thing that could soften it. Why then is there a total silence as to what Mr.
Cholmondeley told her?--that Johnson, who had known him from his earliest years, having been made sensible of what had doubtless a strange appearance, took occasion, when he afterwards met him, to make a very courteous and kind apology. There is another little circ.u.mstance which I cannot but remark. Her book was published in 1785, she had then in her possession a letter from Dr. Johnson, dated in 1777[1070], which begins thus:--"Cholmondeley"s story shocks me, if it be true, which I can hardly think, for I am utterly unconscious of it: I am very sorry, and very much ashamed[1071]." Why then publish the anecdote? Or if she did, why not add the circ.u.mstances, with which she was well acquainted!
In his social intercourse she thus describes him[1072]:--
"_Ever musing till he was called out to converse, and conversing till the fatigue of his friends, or the prompt.i.tude of his own temper to take offence, consigned him back again to silent meditation_."
Yet, in the same book[1073], she tells us,--
"_He was, however, seldom inclined to be silent, when any moral or literary question was started; and it was on such occasions that, like the Sage in _"Ra.s.selas[1074]," _he spoke, and attention watched his lips; he reasoned, and conviction closed his periods_."
His conversation, indeed, was so far from ever _fatiguing_ his friends, that they regretted when it was interrupted, or ceased, and could exclaim in Milton"s language,--
"With thee conversing, I forget all time[1075]."
I certainly, then, do not claim too much in behalf of my ill.u.s.trious friend in saying, that however smart and entertaining Mrs. Thrale"s _Anecdotes_ are, they must not be held as good evidence against him; for wherever an instance of harshness and severity is told, I beg leave to doubt its perfect authenticity; for though there may have been _some_ foundation for it, yet, like that of his reproof to the "very celebrated lady," it may be so exhibited in the narration as to be very unlike the real fact.
The evident tendency of the following anecdote[1076] is to represent Dr.
Johnson as extremely deficient in affection, tenderness, or even common civility:--
_"When I one day lamented the loss of a first cousin killed in_ America,--"_Prithee, my dear, (said he,) have done with canting; how would the world be the worse for it, I may ask, if all your relations were at once spitted like larks, and roasted for_ Presto"s _supper?"_--Presto[1077] _was the dog that lay under the table while we talked._"
I suspect this too of exaggeration and distortion. I allow that he made her an angry speech; but let the circ.u.mstances fairly appear, as told by Mr. Baretti, who was present:--
"Mrs. Thrale, while supping very heartily upon larks, laid down her knife and fork, and abruptly exclaimed, "O, my dear Mr. Johnson, do you know what has happened? The last letters from abroad have brought us an account that our poor cousin"s head was taken off by a cannon-ball."
Johnson, who was shocked both at the fact, and her light unfeeling manner of mentioning it, replied, "Madam, it would give _you_ very little concern if all your relations were spitted like those larks, and drest for Presto"s supper[1078].""
It is with concern that I find myself obliged to animadvert on the inaccuracies of Mrs. Piozzi"s _Anecdotes_, and perhaps I may be thought to have dwelt too long upon her little collection. But as from Johnson"s long residence under Mr. Thrale"s roof, and his intimacy with her, the account which she has given of him may have made an unfavourable and unjust impression, my duty, as a faithful biographer, has obliged me reluctantly to perform this unpleasing task.
Having left the _pious negotiation_, as I called it, in the best hands, I shall here insert what relates to it. Johnson wrote to Sir Joshua Reynolds on July 6, as follows:--
"I am going, I hope, in a few days, to try the air of Derbyshire, but hope to see you before I go. Let me, however, mention to you what I have much at heart. If the Chancellor should continue his attention to Mr.
Boswell"s request, and confer with you on the means of relieving my languid state, I am very desirous to avoid the appearance of asking money upon false pretences. I desire you to represent to his Lordship, what, as soon as it is suggested, he will perceive to be reasonable,--That, if I grow much worse, I shall be afraid to leave my physicians, to suffer the inconveniences of travel, and pine in the solitude of a foreign country; That, if I grow much better, of which indeed there is now little appearance, I shall not wish to leave my friends and my domestick comforts; for I do not travel for pleasure or curiosity; yet if I should recover, curiosity would revive. In my present state, I am desirous to make a struggle for a little longer life, and hope to obtain some help from a softer climate. Do for me what you can."
He wrote to me July 26:--
"I wish your affairs could have permitted a longer and continued exertion of your zeal and kindness. They that have your kindness may want your ardour. In the mean time I am very feeble and very dejected."
By a letter from Sir Joshua Reynolds I was informed, that the Lord Chancellor had called on him, and acquainted him that the application had not been successful; but that his Lordship, after speaking highly in praise of Johnson, as a man who was an honour to his country, desired Sir Joshua to let him know, that on granting a mortgage of his pension, he should draw on his Lordship to the amount of five or six hundred pounds; and that his Lordship explained the meaning of the mortgage to be, that he wished the business to be conducted in such a manner, that Dr. Johnson should appear to be under the least possible obligation. Sir Joshua mentioned, that he had by the same post communicated all this to Dr. Johnson.
How Johnson was affected upon the occasion will appear from what he wrote to Sir Joshua Reynolds:--
"Ashbourne, Sept. 9. Many words I hope are not necessary between you and me, to convince you what grat.i.tude is excited in my heart by the Chancellor"s liberality, and your kind offices....[1079] I have enclosed a letter to the Chancellor, which, when you have read it, you will be pleased to seal with a head, or any other general seal, and convey it to him: had I sent it directly to him, I should have seemed to overlook the favour of your intervention."
"To THE LORD HIGH CHANCELLOR[1080].
MY LORD, After a long and not inattentive observation of mankind, the generosity of your Lordship"s offer raises in me not less wonder than grat.i.tude[1081]. Bounty, so liberally bestowed, I should gladly receive, if my condition made it necessary; for, to such a mind, who would not be proud to own his obligations? But it has pleased G.o.d to restore me to so great a measure of health, that if I should now appropriate so much of a fortune destined to do good, I could not escape from myself the charge of advancing a false claim. My journey to the continent, though I once thought it necessary, was never much encouraged by my physicians; and I was very desirous that your Lordship should be told of it by Sir Joshua Reynolds, as an event very uncertain; for if I grew much better, I should not be willing, if much worse, not able, to migrate. Your Lordship was first solicited without my knowledge; but, when I was told that you were pleased to honour me with your patronage, I did not expect to hear of a refusal; yet, as I have had no long time to brood hope, and have not rioted in imaginary opulence, this cold reception has been scarce a disappointment; and, from your Lordship"s kindness, I have received a benefit, which only men like you are able to bestow. I shall now live _mihi carior_, with a higher opinion of my own merit.
"I am, my Lord, Your Lordship"s most obliged, Most grateful, and Most humble servant, SAM. JOHNSON."
"September, 1784."
Upon this unexpected failure I abstain from presuming to make any remarks, or to offer any conjectures.[1082]
Having after repeated reasonings[1083], brought Dr. Johnson to agree to my removing to London, and even to furnish me with arguments in favour of what he had opposed; I wrote to him requesting he would write them for me; he was so good as to comply, and I shall extract that part of his letter to me of June 11[1084], as a proof how well he could exhibit a cautious yet encouraging view of it:--
"I remember, and intreat you to remember, that _virtus est vitium fugere_[1085]; the first approach to riches is security from poverty.
The condition on which you have my consent to settle in London is, that your expence never exceeds your annual income. Fixing this basis of security, you cannot be hurt, and you may be very much advanced. The loss of your Scottish business, which is all that you can lose, is not to be reckoned as any equivalent to the hopes and possibilities that open here upon you. If you succeed, the question of prudence is at an end; every body will think that done right which ends happily; and though your expectations, of which I would not advise you to talk too much, should not be totally answered, you can hardly fail to get friends who will do for you all that your present situation allows you to hope; and if, after a few years, you should return to Scotland, you will return with a mind supplied by various conversation, and many opportunities of enquiry, with much knowledge, and materials for reflection and instruction."
Let us now contemplate Johnson thirty years after the death of his wife, still retaining for her all the tenderness of affection.
"TO THE REVEREND MR. BAGSHAW, AT BROMLEY[1086].
"SIR,
"Perhaps you may remember, that in the year 1753[1087], you committed to the ground my dear wife. I now entreat your permission to lay a stone upon her; and have sent the inscription, that, if you find it proper, you may signify your allowance.
"You will do me a great favour by showing the place where she lies, that the stone may protect her remains.
"Mr. Ryland[1088] will wait on you for the inscription[1089], and procure it to be engraved. You will easily believe that I shrink from this mournful office. When it is done, if I have strength remaining, I will visit Bromley once again, and pay you part of the respect to which you have a right from, Reverend Sir,
"Your most humble servant,
"SAM. JOHNSON[1090]."
"July 12, 1784."
On the same day he wrote to Mr. Langton:--
"I cannot but think that in my languid and anxious state, I have some reason to complain that I receive from you neither enquiry nor consolation. You know how much I value your friendship, and with what confidence I expect your kindness, if I wanted any act of tenderness that you could perform; at least, if you do not know it, I think your ignorance is your own fault. Yet how long is it that I have lived almost in your neighbourhood without the least notice. I do not, however, consider this neglect as particularly shown to me; I hear two of your most valuable friends make the same complaint. But why are all thus overlooked? You are not oppressed by sickness, you are not distracted by business; if you are sick, you are sick of leisure:--And allow yourself to be told, that no disease is more to be dreaded or avoided. Rather to do nothing than to do good, is the lowest state of a degraded mind.
Boileau says to his pupil,
"_Que les vers ne soient pas votre eternel emploi, Cultivez vos amis_[1091]."--
That voluntary debility, which modern language is content to term indolence, will, if it is not counteracted by resolution, render in time the strongest faculties lifeless, and turn the flame to the smoke of virtue. I do not expect nor desire to see you, because I am much pleased to find that your mother stays so long with you, and I should think you neither elegant nor grateful, if you did not study her gratification.
You will pay my respects to both the ladies, and to all the young people. I am going Northward for a while, to try what help the country can give me; but, if you will write, the letter will come after me."
Next day he set out on a jaunt to Staffordshire and Derbyshire, flattering himself that he might be in some degree relieved.
During his absence from London he kept up a correspondence with several of his friends, from which I shall select what appears to me proper for publication, without attending nicely to chronological order.
To Dr. BROCKLESBY, he writes, Ashbourne, July 20:--
"The kind attention which you have so long shewn to my health and happiness, makes it as much a debt of grat.i.tude as a call of interest, to give you an account of what befals me, when accident recovers[1092]
me from your immediate care. The journey of the first day was performed with very little sense of fatigue; the second day brought me to Lichfield, without much la.s.situde; but I am afraid that I could not have borne such violent agitation for many days together. Tell Dr. Heberden, that in the coach I read _Ciceronia.n.u.s_ which I concluded as I entered Lichfield. My affection and understanding went along with Erasmus, except that once or twice he somewhat unskilfully entangles Cicero"s civil or moral, with his rhetorical, character. I staid five days at Lichfield, but, being unable to walk, had no great pleasure, and yesterday (19th) I came hither, where I am to try what air and attention can perform. Of any improvement in my health I cannot yet please myself with the perception.--The asthma has no abatement. Opiates stop the fit, so as that I can sit and sometimes lie easy, but they do not now procure me the power of motion; and I am afraid that my general strength of body does not encrease. The weather indeed is not benign; but how low is he sunk whose strength depends upon the weather[1093]! I am now looking into Floyer[1094] who lived with his asthma to almost his ninetieth year. His book by want of order is obscure, and his asthma, I think, not of the same kind with mine. Something however I may perhaps learn. My appet.i.te still continues keen enough; and what I consider as a symptom of radical health, I have a voracious delight in raw summer fruit, of which I was less eager a few years ago[1095]. You will be pleased to communicate this account to Dr. Heberden, and if any thing is to be done, let me have your joint opinion. Now--_abite curoe_;--let me enquire after the Club[1096]."
July 31. "Not recollecting that Dr. Heberden might be at Windsor, I thought your letter long in coming. But, you know, _nocitura petuntur_[1097], the letter which I so much desired, tells me that I have lost one of my best and tenderest friends[1098]. My comfort is, that he appeared to live like a man that had always before his eyes the fragility of our present existence, and was therefore, I hope, not unprepared to meet his judge. Your attention, dear Sir, and that of Dr.