"O!" she groaned, as she threw down the pen. "Anna--poor good little fool--hasn"t intelligence enough to appreciate him! How should she?
While I--don"t bear his child!"
It was now February. The correspondence had continued altogether for four months; and the next letter from Raye contained incidentally a statement of his position and prospects. He said that in offering to wed her he had, at first, contemplated the step of retiring from a profession which hitherto had brought him very slight emolument, and which, to speak plainly, he had thought might be difficult of practice after his union with her. But the unexpected mines of brightness and warmth that her letters had disclosed to be lurking in her sweet nature had led him to abandon that somewhat sad prospect. He felt sure that, with her powers of development, after a little private training in the social forms of London under his supervision, and a little help from a governess if necessary, she would make as good a professional man"s wife as could be desired, even if he should rise to the woolsack. Many a Lord Chancellor"s wife had been less intuitively a lady than she had shown herself to be in her lines to him.
"O--poor fellow, poor fellow!" mourned Edith Harnham.
Her distress now raged as high as her infatuation. It was she who had wrought him to this pitch--to a marriage which meant his ruin; yet she could not, in mercy to her maid, do anything to hinder his plan. Anna was coming to Melchester that week, but she could hardly show the girl this last reply from the young man; it told too much of the second individuality that had usurped the place of the first.
Anna came, and her mistress took her into her own room for privacy. Anna began by saying with some anxiety that she was glad the wedding was so near.
"O Anna!" replied Mrs. Harnham. "I think we must tell him all--that I have been doing your writing for you?--lest he should not know it till after you become his wife, and it might lead to dissension and recriminations--"
"O mis"ess, dear mis"ess--please don"t tell him now!" cried Anna in distress. "If you were to do it, perhaps he would not marry me; and what should I do then? It would be terrible what would come to me! And I am getting on with my writing, too. I have brought with me the copybook you were so good as to give me, and I practise every day, and though it is so, so hard, I shall do it well at last, I believe, if I keep on trying."
Edith looked at the copybook. The copies had been set by herself, and such progress as the girl had made was in the way of grotesque facsimile of her mistress"s hand. But even if Edith"s flowing caligraphy were reproduced the inspiration would be another thing.
"You do it so beautifully," continued Anna, "and say all that I want to say so much better than I could say it, that I do hope you won"t leave me in the lurch just now!"
"Very well," replied the other. "But I--but I thought I ought not to go on!"
"Why?"
Her strong desire to confide her sentiments led Edith to answer truly:
"Because of its effect upon me."
"But it _can"t_ have any!"
"Why, child?"
"Because you are married already!" said Anna with lucid simplicity.
"Of course it can"t," said her mistress hastily; yet glad, despite her conscience, that two or three outpourings still remained to her. "But you must concentrate your attention on writing your name as I write it here."
CHAPTER VI
Soon Raye wrote about the wedding. Having decided to make the best of what he feared was a piece of romantic folly, he had acquired more zest for the grand experiment. He wished the ceremony to be in London, for greater privacy. Edith Harnham would have preferred it at Melchester; Anna was pa.s.sive. His reasoning prevailed, and Mrs. Harnham threw herself with mournful zeal into the preparations for Anna"s departure. In a last desperate feeling that she must at every hazard be in at the death of her dream, and see once again the man who by a species of telepathy had exercised such an influence on her, she offered to go up with Anna and be with her through the ceremony--"to see the end of her," as her mistress put it with forced gaiety; an offer which the girl gratefully accepted; for she had no other friend capable of playing the part of companion and witness, in the presence of a gentlemanly bridegroom, in such a way as not to hasten an opinion that he had made an irremediable social blunder.
It was a muddy morning in March when Raye alighted from a four-wheel cab at the door of a registry-office in the S.W. district of London, and carefully handed down Anna and her companion Mrs. Harnham. Anna looked attractive in the somewhat fashionable clothes which Mrs. Harnham had helped her to buy, though not quite so attractive as, an innocent child, she had appeared in her country gown on the back of the wooden horse at Melchester Fair.
Mrs. Harnham had come up this morning by an early train, and a young man--a friend of Raye"s--having met them at the door, all four entered the registry-office together. Till an hour before this time Raye had never known the wine-merchant"s wife, except at that first casual encounter, and in the flutter of the performance before them he had little opportunity for more than a brief acquaintance. The contract of marriage at a registry is soon got through; but somehow, during its progress, Raye discovered a strange and secret gravitation between himself and Anna"s friend.
The formalities of the wedding--or rather ratification of a previous union--being concluded, the four went in one cab to Raye"s lodgings, newly taken in a new suburb in preference to a house, the rent of which he could ill afford just then. Here Anna cut the little cake which Raye had bought at a pastrycook"s on his way home from Lincoln"s Inn the night before. But she did not do much besides. Raye"s friend was obliged to depart almost immediately, and when he had left the only ones virtually present were Edith and Raye who exchanged ideas with much animation. The conversation was indeed theirs only, Anna being as a domestic animal who humbly heard but understood not. Raye seemed startled in awakening to this fact, and began to feel dissatisfied with her inadequacy.
At last, more disappointed than he cared to own, he said, "Mrs. Harnham, my darling is so flurried that she doesn"t know what she is doing or saying. I see that after this event a little quietude will be necessary before she gives tongue to that tender philosophy which she used to treat me to in her letters."
They had planned to start early that afternoon for Knollsea, to spend the few opening days of their married life there, and as the hour for departure was drawing near Raye asked his wife if she would go to the writing-desk in the next room and scribble a little note to his sister, who had been unable to attend through indisposition, informing her that the ceremony was over, thanking her for her little present, and hoping to know her well now that she was the writer"s sister as well as Charles"s.
"Say it in the pretty poetical way you know so well how to adopt," he added, "for I want you particularly to win her, and both of you to be dear friends."
Anna looked uneasy, but departed to her task, Raye remaining to talk to their guest. Anna was a long while absent, and her husband suddenly rose and went to her.
He found her still bending over the writing-table, with tears br.i.m.m.i.n.g up in her eyes; and he looked down upon the sheet of note-paper with some interest, to discover with what tact she had expressed her good-will in the delicate circ.u.mstances. To his surprise she had progressed but a few lines, in the characters and spelling of a child of eight, and with the ideas of a goose.
"Anna," he said, staring; "what"s this?"
"It only means--that I can"t do it any better!" she answered, through her tears.
"Eh? Nonsense!"
"I can"t!" she insisted, with miserable, sobbing hardihood. "I--I--didn"t write those letters, Charles! I only told _her_ what to write! And not always that! But I am learning, O so fast, my dear, dear husband! And you"ll forgive me, won"t you, for not telling you before?" She slid to her knees, abjectly clasped his waist and laid her face against him.
He stood a few moments, raised her, abruptly turned, and shut the door upon her, rejoining Edith in the drawing-room. She saw that something untoward had been discovered, and their eyes remained fixed on each other.
"Do I guess rightly?" he asked, with wan quietude. "_You_ were her scribe through all this?"
"It was necessary," said Edith.
"Did she dictate every word you ever wrote to me?"
"Not every word."
"In fact, very little?"
"Very little."
"You wrote a great part of those pages every week from your own conceptions, though in her name!"
"Yes."
"Perhaps you wrote many of the letters when you were alone, without communication with her?"
"I did."
He turned to the bookcase, and leant with his hand over his face; and Edith, seeing his distress, became white as a sheet.
"You have deceived me--ruined me!" he murmured.
"O, don"t say it!" she cried in her anguish, jumping up and putting her hand on his shoulder. "I can"t bear that!"
"Delighting me deceptively! Why did you do it--_why_ did you!"
"I began doing it in kindness to her! How could I do otherwise than try to save such a simple girl from misery? But I admit that I continued it for pleasure to myself."
Raye looked up. "Why did it give you pleasure?" he asked.