Break from Pampering“I took many lives.”
do you regret it?
As if making a confession, she spoke quietly.
was it necessary?
“As a servant, I cut them down to protect my master. But that was a battle started by Vilmott Arkahn. When I killed them I made excuses. That I must protect him, that it was an order, I escaped to my standing of a servant. It’s after that, that my heart has become clouded.”
just be honest
We stood with our backs to each other with the tree between us, and I listened to her talk while she stared at the empty sky. Those are the emotions she felt after experiencing the battle with the Six Great n.o.bles. Following the pride of Vilmott Arkahn, she killed by the will of others. It seems that has become a thorn in her side.
recognise your own feelings~
“Wanting to become an imperial knight without the resolve to kill…..what have I been doing until now.”
you going to let that all go to waste?
It’s not that I’m angry. It’s not that I lament it either. When I was living as the Lightning Empress in the capital, this is a scene I’ve seen multiple times. Worthless, I can reject it like that. Nanaki does not like such frail spirits. But, Nanaki is her friend. Even if I she is greatly distorted, I will not interrupt.
humanity has warped nature
Since the start, it has been the strong survives and the weak perish. Yet, many people are distorted.
morals are for the sake of others
I looked up at the sky that has already become scarlet in some parts. Nanaki finds the thin violet horizon that straddles the sky beautiful. Comparatively, that distortion is ugly. A debilitating concept, seeking reason for killing, the unsightliness of seeking an excuse. To Nanaki, that is ugly. I have no intention of accepting that it is necessary for survival.
not for self
“——Grasp your sword, Akiha Shinohara.”
if you want to live
She has good luck.
prioritise your self
“……Nana-san?”
“You want to be forgiven.”
“——”
If you don’t
Yes, for some reason, she wants to be forgiven. That is something unnecessary for Nanaki, but Nanaki has seen many that require it. Everyone begged for forgiveness the same way. Limited to her, as a friend, Nanaki cannot forgive the same act as that messed up sight. I will not let her speak words of apology.
then there is no point
If you are going to apologise, then be killed. That is not lacking the resolve to kill, it is just lacking the resolve to live. If you are going to live in such a messed up way, then die. Nanaki thinks that. But it seems she cannot think that way. Thus as a friend, Nanaki will show you just a small handful of what Nanaki has received from Mother.
in living
Because at this rate, she will eventually be killed.
if you don’t want todie
“I will kill you. Akiha Shinohara.”
“Wh, what are…..”
“Your master too, your family too, I will destroy all that you hold dear.”
“Nana-san!?”
then decide now
A flash, she dodged.
will you
“What are you suddenly——”
“Come at me with your full strength, if not you will die.”
“………Wha!?”
keep regretting
Closing in on the shaken her, I reached out a hand. Even the ancient art that she specialises in, the lost sword technique that slices the opponent with the fastest speed from the initial movement will not work on Nanaki. After blocking her sword handle, move into close quarters combat, don’t think that a sword draw will work against Nanaki.
looking into the past
Without allowing even an instant for a sword draw, maintain the same distance and crush her. After anger lodged in her eyes, she is no longer holding back and has become slightly better. Despite that, the gap between heaven and earth is overwhelming, there is no way for her to win Nanaki. Bare hands are sufficient for Nanaki. That is fine, it is easy to understand.
wanting to change past actions
“Agu!?”
“——you are weak.”
“……”
but that is not doable
Force her down with a kick after she was flung away. That’s right, Friend. But this is for her sake. In order for her to survive, Nanaki is fine with being hated. Because I think that is the proper way to be a friend. Mother surely endured many times this pain to give it to Nanaki.
not when you can’t even survive
“So you will be killed by me.”
“Hii——”
so first live
After confirming that fear was reflected in those eyes, I gently got off her. Like this, is Akiha Shinohara’s distortion corrected? The one that is deviated is surely Nanaki. Despite that, the one that is distorted is her. This is proof to make her understand that.
once you can survive
“You can be forgiven.”
“……Eh?”
never regret living
Released from the fear of death, Akiha-san asked back fearfully. Quite slow for the usually calm and intellectual her. Did I cause her that much fear? In that case, can we no longer get along? It’s a little lonely.
but it’s for her sake
“——you can be forgiven if you are strong.”
the strong do not need forgiveness
No matter for what, no matter what happens.
no need to regret
“Could you resist that injustice just now? It cannot be stopped by words, it cannot be stopped by morals, it cannot be stopped by feelings. There is only one that that can stop it, Akiha-san. Only strength can. Whether it be right or it be wrong, the strong can be forgiven for everything.”
regret is for when you did wrong
Even if Nanaki kills children, kills the elderly, commits and is blamed for all the evils in the world, Nanaki can be forgiven. Even if you blame, even if you hate, that cannot stop Nanaki. If you want to stop Nanaki, there is no choice but to fight, if you do not want to be killed, then kill Nanaki. This is the way of the world.
but what is wrong
“Something like that……”
“I am right, I am rightness.”
who decides it?
Yes, Nanaki is rightness, Nanaki is right.
Nanaki?
I have continued proving it. There has been an uncountable number of people who objected. Brushing aside all of that, Nanaki is here. They could not prove it to Nanaki. So Nanaki is right. If you want to deny it, if you want to correct it. Then you are welcome to stand before Nanaki.
everyone else?
With that life, show me your denial, of this Nanaki.
decide yourself
“Why do you……not doubt, about now…..! About the future……!”
like Nanaki has decided
Foolish question. As Nanaki’s friend, a pointless, foolish question.
do not doubt your life
“I have not lived in a way I cannot be proud of.”
be proud of it
Thus, I have never felt uneasy about the future. As long as Nanaki stays as the self Nanaki can be proud of, Nanaki will not lose. To the curses gathered from around the world, to that worthless prophecy, even to the obsolete G.o.ds. As long as Nanaki does not forget the strength inherited from beloved Mother, the strength to live, Nanaki will not die.
and live
Being unable to be proud of yourself, unable to affirm yourself, is because you are weak.
don’t just be not dead
“Become strong, Akiha Shinohara. To be able to be proud of yourself.”
so what is the decision?
That is the answer Nanaki gives.
here is Nanaki’s advice
The veil of night has once again descended. Completely sinking into the night, darkness came. In that darkness, I waited. What will she do, what does she want to do. In the darkness where there was only silence, I heard it.
answer?
“……thanks.”
…..good one
In the end, I don’t know if it really got through. Nanaki does not have the strength to prove the truth of these words. It cannot be helped if they are ignored. Because I think of her as precious, I will bear this wound for her sake. Because that should be a prideful act.
one that will not be regretted
“……I really thought I was going to be killed.”
“I will apologise. Any number of times.”
“No, it is fine.”
but at least
While saying that and slowly standing up, Akiha-san smiled. Because that smile is the smile that Nanaki knows, my heart became warmer. Hey, seems the wound will heal faster than expected, Friend.
somethings go well
“I will even things out once I become strong, so please remember.”
“It’s scary so no.”
“There are things Nana-san is scared of?”
“Of course, there is.”
O.o
Nanaki is strong, Nanaki is special, even such a Nanaki has fears.
water? no
“Which is?”
“The forbidden number.”
ah yes terrifying.
I’m scared. That it won’t change.
end
Nanaki gives great life advice.
And I need help with the chapter t.i.tle, 甘ったれブレイク anyone? .-.