"Blandois, you shall turn the tables on society, my little child. Haha!
Holy blue, you have begun well, Blandois! At a pinch, an excellent master in English or French; a man for the bosom of families! You have a quick perception, you have humour, you have ease, you have insinuating manners, you have a good appearance; in effect, you are a gentleman! A gentleman you shall live, my small boy, and a gentleman you shall die.
You shall win, however the game goes. They shall all confess your merit, Blandois. You shall subdue the society which has grievously wronged you, to your own high spirit. Death of my soul! You are high spirited by right and by nature, my Blandois!"
To such soothing murmurs did this gentleman smoke out his cigar and drink out his bottle of wine. Both being finished, he shook himself into a sitting att.i.tude; and with the concluding serious apostrophe, "Hold, then! Blandois, you ingenious one, have all your wits about you!" arose and went back to the house of Clennam and Co.
He was received at the door by Mistress Affery, who, under instructions from her lord, had lighted up two candles in the hall and a third on the staircase, and who conducted him to Mrs Clennam"s room. Tea was prepared there, and such little company arrangements had been made as usually attended the reception of expected visitors. They were slight on the greatest occasion, never extending beyond the production of the China tea-service, and the covering of the bed with a sober and sad drapery.
For the rest, there was the bier-like sofa with the block upon it, and the figure in the widow"s dress, as if attired for execution; the fire topped by the mound of damped ashes; the grate with its second little mound of ashes; the kettle and the smell of black dye; all as they had been for fifteen years.
Mr Flintwinch presented the gentleman commended to the consideration of Clennam and Co. Mrs Clennam, who had the letter lying before her, bent her head and requested him to sit. They looked very closely at one another. That was but natural curiosity. "I thank you, sir, for thinking of a disabled woman like me. Few who come here on business have any remembrance to bestow on one so removed from observation. It would be idle to expect that they should have. Out of sight, out of mind. While I am grateful for the exception, I don"t complain of the rule."
Mr Blandois, in his most gentlemanly manner, was afraid he had disturbed her by unhappily presenting himself at such an unconscionable time. For which he had already offered his best apologies to Mr--he begged pardon--but by name had not the distinguished honour--"Mr Flintwinch has been connected with the House many years."
Mr Blandois was Mr Flintwinch"s most obedient humble servant. He entreated Mr Flintwinch to receive the a.s.surance of his profoundest consideration.
"My husband being dead," said Mrs Clennam, "and my son preferring another pursuit, our old House has no other representative in these days than Mr Flintwinch."
"What do you call yourself?" was the surly demand of that gentleman.
"You have the head of two men."
"My s.e.x disqualifies me," she proceeded with merely a slight turn of her eyes in jeremiah"s direction, "from taking a responsible part in the business, even if I had the ability; and therefore Mr Flintwinch combines my interest with his own, and conducts it. It is not what it used to be; but some of our old friends (princ.i.p.ally the writers of this letter) have the kindness not to forget us, and we retain the power of doing what they entrust to us as efficiently as we ever did. This however is not interesting to you. You are English, sir?"
"Faith, madam, no; I am neither born nor bred in England. In effect, I am of no country," said Mr Blandois, stretching out his leg and smiting it: "I descend from half-a-dozen countries."
"You have been much about the world?"
"It is true. By Heaven, madam, I have been here and there and everywhere!"
"You have no ties, probably. Are not married?"
"Madam," said Mr Blandois, with an ugly fall of his eyebrows, "I adore your s.e.x, but I am not married--never was."
Mistress Affery, who stood at the table near him, pouring out the tea, happened in her dreamy state to look at him as he said these words, and to fancy that she caught an expression in his eyes which attracted her own eyes so that she could not get them away. The effect of this fancy was to keep her staring at him with the tea-pot in her hand, not only to her own great uneasiness, but manifestly to his, too; and, through them both, to Mrs Clennam"s and Mr Flintwinch"s. Thus a few ghostly moments supervened, when they were all confusedly staring without knowing why.
"Affery," her mistress was the first to say, "what is the matter with you?"
"I don"t know," said Mistress Affery, with her disengaged left hand extended towards the visitor. "It ain"t me. It"s him!"
"What does this good woman mean?" cried Mr Blandois, turning white, hot, and slowly rising with a look of such deadly wrath that it contrasted surprisingly with the slight force of his words. "How is it possible to understand this good creature?"
"It"s NOT possible," said Mr Flintwinch, s.c.r.e.w.i.n.g himself rapidly in that direction. "She don"t know what she means. She"s an idiot, a wanderer in her mind. She shall have a dose, she shall have such a dose!
Get along with you, my woman," he added in her ear, "get along with you, while you know you"re Affery, and before you"re shaken to yeast."
Mistress Affery, sensible of the danger in which her ident.i.ty stood, relinquished the tea-pot as her husband seized it, put her ap.r.o.n over her head, and in a twinkling vanished. The visitor gradually broke into a smile, and sat down again.
"You"ll excuse her, Mr Blandois," said Jeremiah, pouring out the tea himself, "she"s failing and breaking up; that"s what she"s about. Do you take sugar, sir?"
"Thank you, no tea for me.--Pardon my observing it, but that"s a very remarkable watch!"
The tea-table was drawn up near the sofa, with a small interval between it and Mrs Clennam"s own particular table. Mr Blandois in his gallantry had risen to hand that lady her tea (her dish of toast was already there), and it was in placing the cup conveniently within her reach that the watch, lying before her as it always did, attracted his attention.
Mrs Clennam looked suddenly up at him.
"May I be permitted? Thank you. A fine old-fashioned watch," he said, taking it in his hand. "Heavy for use, but ma.s.sive and genuine. I have a partiality for everything genuine. Such as I am, I am genuine myself.
Hah! A gentleman"s watch with two cases in the old fashion. May I remove it from the outer case? Thank you. Aye? An old silk watch-lining, worked with beads! I have often seen these among old Dutch people and Belgians.
Quaint things!"
"They are old-fashioned, too," said Mrs Clennam. "Very. But this is not so old as the watch, I think?"
"I think not."
"Extraordinary how they used to complicate these cyphers!" remarked Mr Blandois, glancing up with his own smile again. "Now is this D. N. F.?
It might be almost anything."
"Those are the letters."
Mr Flintwinch, who had been observantly pausing all this time with a cup of tea in his hand, and his mouth open ready to swallow the contents, began to do so: always entirely filling his mouth before he emptied it at a gulp; and always deliberating again before he refilled it.
"D. N. F. was some tender, lovely, fascinating fair-creature, I make no doubt," observed Mr Blandois, as he snapped on the case again. "I adore her memory on the a.s.sumption. Unfortunately for my peace of mind, I adore but too readily. It may be a vice, it may be a virtue, but adoration of female beauty and merit const.i.tutes three parts of my character, madam."
Mr Flintwinch had by this time poured himself out another cup of tea, which he was swallowing in gulps as before, with his eyes directed to the invalid.
"You may be heart-free here, sir," she returned to Mr Blandois. "Those letters are not intended, I believe, for the initials of any name."
"Of a motto, perhaps," said Mr Blandois, casually.
"Of a sentence. They have always stood, I believe, for Do Not Forget!"
"And naturally," said Mr Blandois, replacing the watch and stepping backward to his former chair, "you do not forget."
Mr Flintwinch, finishing his tea, not only took a longer gulp than he had taken yet, but made his succeeding pause under new circ.u.mstances: that is to say, with his head thrown back and his cup held still at his lips, while his eyes were still directed at the invalid. She had that force of face, and that concentrated air of collecting her firmness or obstinacy, which represented in her case what would have been gesture and action in another, as she replied with her deliberate strength of speech: "No, sir, I do not forget. To lead a life as monotonous as mine has been during many years, is not the way to forget. To lead a life of self-correction is not the way to forget. To be sensible of having (as we all have, every one of us, all the children of Adam!) offences to expiate and peace to make, does not justify the desire to forget.
Therefore I have long dismissed it, and I neither forget nor wish to forget."
Mr Flintwinch, who had latterly been shaking the sediment at the bottom of his tea-cup, round and round, here gulped it down, and putting the cup in the tea-tray, as done with, turned his eyes upon Mr Blandois as if to ask him what he thought of that?
"All expressed, madam," said Mr Blandois, with his smoothest bow and his white hand on his breast, "by the word "naturally," which I am proud to have had sufficient apprehension and appreciation (but without appreciation I could not be Blandois) to employ."
"Pardon me, sir," she returned, "if I doubt the likelihood of a gentleman of pleasure, and change, and politeness, accustomed to court and to be courted--"
"Oh madam! By Heaven!"
"--If I doubt the likelihood of such a character quite comprehending what belongs to mine in my circ.u.mstances. Not to obtrude doctrine upon you," she looked at the rigid pile of hard pale books before her, "(for you go your own way, and the consequences are on your own head), I will say this much: that I shape my course by pilots, strictly by proved and tried pilots, under whom I cannot be shipwrecked--can not be--and that if I were unmindful of the admonition conveyed in those three letters, I should not be half as chastened as I am."
It was curious how she seized the occasion to argue with some invisible opponent. Perhaps with her own better sense, always turning upon herself and her own deception.
"If I forgot my ignorances in my life of health and freedom, I might complain of the life to which I am now condemned. I never do; I never have done. If I forgot that this scene, the Earth, is expressly meant to be a scene of gloom, and hardship, and dark trial, for the creatures who are made out of its dust, I might have some tenderness for its vanities.
But I have no such tenderness. If I did not know that we are, every one, the subject (most justly the subject) of a wrath that must be satisfied, and against which mere actions are nothing, I might repine at the difference between me, imprisoned here, and the people who pa.s.s that gateway yonder. But I take it as a grace and favour to be elected to make the satisfaction I am making here, to know what I know for certain here, and to work out what I have worked out here. My affliction might otherwise have had no meaning to me. Hence I would forget, and I do forget, nothing. Hence I am contented, and say it is better with me than with millions." As she spoke these words, she put her hand upon the watch, and restored it to the precise spot on her little table which it always occupied. With her touch lingering upon it, she sat for some moments afterwards, looking at it steadily and half-defiantly.
Mr Blandois, during this exposition, had been strictly attentive, keeping his eyes fastened on the lady, and thoughtfully stroking his moustache with his two hands. Mr Flintwinch had been a little fidgety, and now struck in.