"REAL" FANCIES
"Mine be a cot beside the hill."
SAMUEL ROGERS.
JUST then came the usual summons to her lessons. Mamma was waiting for her little girl in the corner of the drawing-room, where she always sat when she was teaching Peggy. It was a very nice corner, near the fire, for though it was not winter it was rather chilly, and mamma often felt cold. Thor used to tell her that she should take a good run or have a game of cricket to warm her; it would be much better than sitting near the fire. Peggy thought it was rather unkind of Thor to say so, but mamma only laughed at him, so perhaps it was just his boy way of speaking.
Peggy said her lessons quite well, but she looked rather grave; no smiles lighted up her face, and when lessons were over she sat still without speaking, and seemed as if she scarcely knew what she wanted to do with herself.
"Is there anything the matter, dear?" mamma asked.
"I"m rather tired, I think, mamma," Peggy replied.
"Tired!" mamma repeated, in some surprise. It wasn"t often that Peggy talked of being tired. "What is that with? You"ve not been worrying yourself about the children who live over Mrs. Whelan"s, I hope? You mustn"t do that, you know, dear; it would do you harm and them no good."
For mamma knew that Peggy sometimes did "worry" about things--"Once she takes a thing in her head she"ll work herself up so, for all she seems so quiet," nurse would say.
"No, mamma dear," Peggy replied; "I"m not tired because of that. I like thinking about the children at the back. I wish----"
"What?" said mamma.
"I wish I"d sisters like them. I"m rather lonely, mamma. I do think G.o.d might have gaved _one_ sister to Peggy, and not such a great lot to the children at the back."
"But you have your brothers, my dear little girl. You might have been an only child."
"The big ones is always neely at school, and Hal"s too little to understand. It"s Hal that"s tired me, mamma dear. He was so d"edfully cross afore nurse put him to bed."
"Cross, was he?" said mamma. "I"m afraid he must be getting those last teeth. He may be cross for some time; if so, it would not do to leave him." She seemed to be speaking to herself, but when she caught sight of Peggy"s puzzled face she stopped. "Tell me about Hal, dear," she went on. "What was it that tired you so?"
"I was trying to amuse him and tell him stories about my white cottage up on the hill, and he was so cross. He couldn"t understand, and he said they was "nonsense" stories."
"He is too little, perhaps, to care for fancies," said her mother, consolingly. "You must wait till he is a little older, Peggy dear."
"But when he"s older he"ll be a _boy_, mamma," said Peggy; "he"ll be like Thor and Terry, who don"t care for things like that, or Baldwin, who thinks stories stupid. Oh, mamma, I wish I had a sister. _That"s_ what I want," she added, with conviction.
Mamma smiled.
"Poor Peggy," she said. "I"m afraid it can"t be helped. You can never have a sister near your own age, and I"m afraid a baby sister, even if you had one, would be no good."
"Oh no, we"ve had enough babies," said Peggy, decidedly. "But, mamma, mightn"t there be some little girl who"d play with me like a sister? If there _is_ a fairy living in that cottage, mamma, how I do wish she would find a little girl for me!"
Mamma looked a very little bit troubled.
"Peggy dear," she said, "you mustn"t let your fancies run away with you too far. I told you they would do you no harm if you kept plain in your head that they _were_ fancies, but you mustn"t forget that. You know there couldn"t really be a fairy living in that little white cottage."
"No," Peggy agreed, "I know that, mamma, because fairies _really_ live in fairyland."
She looked up gravely into her mother"s face as she said so. Mamma could not help laughing.
"Fairies _really_," she said, "live in Peggy"s funny little head, and in many other funny little heads, I have no doubt. But nowhere----"
[Ill.u.s.tration: "Mama dear," she began, "will you tell me what the little white house is reely like, then? If you will, I"ll promise not to think there"s fairies there--only----"
"Only what, dear?"
"If you don"t mind," said Peggy, very anxious not to hurt her mother"s feelings, "I"d _rather_ not have pigs. I don"t think I like pigs very much."
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"Mamma, mamma," Peggy interrupted, putting her fingers in her ears as she spoke, "I _won"t_ listen. You mustn"t, mustn"t say that. I must have my fairies, mamma. I"ve no sisters."
"Well, keep them in fairyland then, or at least only let them out for visits now and then. But don"t mix them up with real things too much, or you will get quite a confusion, and never be sure if you"re awake or dreaming."
Peggy seemed to consider this over very seriously. After a minute or too she lifted her face again, and looked straight into her mother"s with her earnest gray eyes.
"Mamma dear," she began, "will you tell me what the little white house is _reely_ like, then? If you will, I"ll promise not to think there"s fairies there--only----"
"Only what, dear?"
"If you don"t mind," said Peggy, very anxious not to hurt her mother"s feelings, "I"d _rather_ not have pigs. I don"t think I like pigs very much."
"Well, we needn"t have pigs then. But remember I can only "fancy" it.
I"ve never seen that particular cottage, you see, Peggy. But I have seen other cottages in Brackenshire, and so I can fancy what it _most likely_ is. You see there are different kinds of fancying--there"s fancying that is all fancy, like fairy stories, and there"s fancying that might be true and real, and that very likely is true and real. Do you understand?"
"Yes," said Peggy, drawing a deep breath. "Well, mamma, go on real-fancying, please. What"s that place you"ve been at--Brat--what is it?"
"Brackenshire," mamma replied. "That"s the name of that part of the country that we see far off, from the windows upstairs."
"And is all the cottages white there, and is they _very_ pretty?" asked Peggy, with deep interest. "Oh, mamma, do tell me, quick."
"I don"t know if they"re all white, but I think they are mostly. And there are some pretty and some ugly. Of course it depends a good deal upon the people that live in them. If they"re nice, clean, busy people, who like their house to be neat and pretty, and work hard to keep it so, of course it"s much more likely to be so than if they were careless and lazy."
"Oh," said Peggy, clasping her hands. "I do so hope my cottage has nice people living in it. I _think_ it has, don"t you, mamma? It looks _so_ white."
"My dear Peggy," said mamma, smiling, "we can"t tell, when it"s so far away. But we may hope so."
"Yes," said Peggy, "we"ll hope so, and we"ll think so." But then a rather puzzled look came over her face again, though she smiled too.
"Mamma," she went on, "there"s such a funny thing come into my head, only I don"t know quite how to say it. I think that the far-away helps to make it pretty--why is far-away so pretty, mamma?"
Mamma smiled again.
"I"m afraid I can"t tell you why. Wouldn"t it spoil some things if we knew the why of them, little Peggy?"
Peggy did not answer. This was another new thought for her, and rather a difficult one. She put it away in her mind, in one of the rather far back cupboards there, and locked it up, to think about it afterwards.
"Mamma," she said, coaxingly, "I want you to tell me a real fancy about the cottage. It will be so nice when I look at it to think it"s most likely _reely_ like that."
"Well, then, let us see," mamma began.