Excrement.
He dropped it and wiped his fingers on the floor. Some animal was penned in this room and might be present now, as frightened of him as he was of it-if it was not already stalking him. Not one of the horned cats, surely, they were apparendy freed to roam the grounds at night. Something worse, then. Something more dangerous.
Or nothing. If there was an animal in the room, it was a silent one indeed. Even a serpent would have hissed by now, surely.
Silk got to his feet as quietly as he could and inched along the wall, his right hand grasping his hatchet, the fingers of his left groping what might have been splintered paneling.
A corner, as empty as the whole room seemed to be. He took a step, then another. If there were pictures, or even furniture, he had thus far failed to encounter them.
Another step; pull up the right foot to the left now. Pausing to listen, he could detect only his own whistling breath and the faint tinklings of the distant orchestra.
His mouth felt dry, and his knees seemed ready to give way beneath him; twice he was forced to halt, bracing his trembling hands against the wall. He reminded himself that he was actually in Blood"s villa, and that it had not been as difficult as he had feared. The task to follow would be much harder he would have to locate Blood without
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being discovered himself, and speak with him for some time in a place where they could talk without interruption. Only now was he willing to admit that it might prove impossible.
A second corner.
This vertical molding was surely the frame of a door; the pale rectangle of the window he had opened was on the opposite side of the room. His hand sought and found the latch. He pushed it down; it moved freely, with a slight rattle; but the door would not open.
"Have you been bad?"
He jerked the hatchet up, about to strike with deadly force at whatever might come from the darkness-about to kill, he told himself a moment later, some innocent sleeper whose bedchamber he had entered by force.
"Have you?" The question had a spectral quality; he could not have said whether it proceeded from a point within arm"s reach or wafted through the open cas.e.m.e.nt.
"Yes." To his own ears, the lone syllable sounded high and frightened, almost tremulous. He forced himself to pause and clear his throat "Tve been bad many times, I"m afraid. I regret them all."
"You"re a boy. I can tell."
Silk nodded solemnly. "I used to be a boy, not so long ago. No doubt Maytera R-No doubt some of my friends would tell you that I"m a boy still in many respects, and they may well be right."
His eyes were adjusting to the darker darkness of the room, so that the skylight that played across the roof of the conservatory and the grounds in the distance, mottled though it was by the diffused shadows of broken clouds, made them appear almost sunlit. The light spilling through the open window showed clearly now the precise rectangle of flooring on which he had knelt, and dimly the
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empty, unclean room to either side. Yet he could not locate the speaker.
"Are you going to hurt me with that?"
It was a young woman"s voice, almost beyond question. Again Silk wondered whether she was actually present. "No," he said, as firmly as he could. He lowered the hatchet. "I will do you no violence, I swear." Blood dealt in women, so Auk had said; now Silk felt that he had a clearer idea of what such dealings might entail. "Are you being kept here against your will?"
"I go whenever I want. I travel. Usually I"m not here at all."
"I see," Silk said, though he did not, in either sense. He pushed down the latchbar again; it moved as readily as it had before, and the door remained as stubborn.
"I go very far, sometimes. I fly out the window, and no one sees me."
Silk nodded again. "I don"t see you now."
"I know."
"Sometimes you must go out through this door, though. Don"t you?"
"No."
Her flat negative bore in its train the illusion that she was standing beside him, her lips almost brushing his ear. He groped for her, but his hand found only empty air. "Where are you now? You can see me, you say. I"d like to see you."
"I"ll have to get back in."
"Get back in through the window?"
There was no reply. He crossed the room to the window and looked out, leaning on the sill; there was no one on the roof of the conservatory, no one but the talus in sight on the grounds beyond. His rope and limb lay where he had left them. Devils (according to legends no one at the schola had really credited) could pa.s.s unseen, for devils were spirits of the lower air, presumably personifications of de-
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structive winds. "Where are you now?" he asked again. "Please come out. I"d like to see you."
Nothing. Thelxiepeia provided the best protection from devils, according to the Writings, but this was Phaea"s day, not hers. Silk pet.i.tioned Phaea, Thelxiepeia, and for good measure Scylla, in quick succession before saying, "I take it you don"t want to talk to me, but I need to talk to you. I need your help, whoever you are."
In Blood"s ballroom, the orchestra had struck up "Brave Guards of the Third Brigade." Silk had the feeling that no one was dancing, that few if any of Blood"s guests were even listening. Outside, the talus waited at the gate, its steel arms unnaturally lengthened, both its hands upon the
ring-Turning his back on the window, Silk scanned the room. A shapeless ma.s.s in a corner (one that he had not traversed when he had felt his way along the walls to the door) might conceivably have been a huddled woman. With no very great confidence he said, "I see you."
"To fourteen more my sword I pledged," sang die violins with desperate gaiety. Beardless lieutenants in brilliant green dress uniforms, twirling smiling beauties with plumes in their hair-but they were not there, Silk felt certain, no more than the mysterious young woman whom he himself was trying to address was here.
He crossed to the dark shape in the corner and nudged it with the toe of his shoe, then crouched, put aside his hatchet, and explored it with both hands-a ragged blanket and a thin, foul-smelling mattress. Picking up his hatchet again, he rose and faced the empty room. "I"d like to see you," he repeated. "But if you won"t let me-if you won"t even talk to me any more-I"m going to leave." As Soon as he had spoken, he reflected that he had probably told her precisely what she wanted to hear.
He stepped to the window. "If you require my help, you
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must say so now." He waited, silently reciting a formula of blessing, then traced the sign of addition in the darkness before him. "Good-bye, then."
Before he could turn to go, she rose before him like smoke, naked and thinner than the most miserable beggar. Although she was a head shorter, he would have backed away from her if he could; his right heel thumped the wall below the window.
"Here I am. Can you see me now?" In the dim skylight from the window her starved and bloodless face seemed almost a skull. "My name"s Mucor."
Silk nodded and swallowed, half afraid to give his own, not liking to lie. "Mine"s Silk." Whether he succeeded or was apprehended, Blood would leam his ident.i.ty. "Patera Silk. I"m an augur, you see." He might die, perhaps; but if he did his ident.i.ty would no longer matter.