Silk cut him off. "Out! You"ve never seen me." It had been (as he decided as soon as he had said it) the worst thing he could possibly have said, since Musk had certainly seen him only a few hours earlier. For an instant he felt certain that Musk would pounce upon it
Musk did not. Silencing the sputtering guard with a shove, Musk said, "The outside door should"ve been locked. Take your time." He turned on his heel, and the guard shut the boudoir door quietly behind them.
Trembling, Silk waited until he heard die corridor door close as well before he kicked away the luxurious coverings and got out of the bed. His mouth was parched, and his knees without strength.
"What about me?" the woman asked. As she spoke, she pushed aside the oversheet and the red silk sheet, revealing remarkably rounded b.r.e.a.s.t.s and a small waist.
Silk caught his breath and looked away. "All right, what about you? Do you want me to shoot you?"
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She smiled and threw her arms wide. "If it"s the only thing you can do, why, yes." When Silk did not reply, she added, "I"ll keep my eyes open, if that"s all right with you. I like to see it coming." The smile became a grin. "Make it fast, but make it last. And make it good."
Both had spoken softly, and the lights were no longer glaring; Silk kicked the bed to re-energize them. "You have been given a philtre of some sort, I think. You"ll feel very differently in the morning." Pushing up the safety catch, he dropped her needier back into his pocket.
"I was given nothing." The woman in the bed licked her lips, watching for his reaction. "I took what you"re calling a philtre before the first ones got here."
"Rust?" Silk was on his knees beside the bed, groping for the clothing he had kicked beneath it. Fear was draining from him, and he felt immensely grateful for it. Lion-hearted Sphigx still favored him-nothing could be more certain.
"No." She was scornful. "Rust doesn"t do this. Don"t you know anything? On rust I"d have itched to kill them all, and I might"ve done it, too. Beggar"s root"s what they call it, and it turns a terrible bore into a real pleasure."
"I see." Wincing, Silk pulled out his ruined tunic and his second-best robe.
"Want me to give you some? I"ve got a lot more, and it only takes a pinch." She swung amazingly long legs over the side of the bed. "It"s a lot more expensive than rust, and a lot harder to find, but I"m in a generous mood. I usually am-you"ll see." She favored Silk with a sidelong smile that made his heart leap.
He stood up and backed away.
"They call it beggar"s root because it makes you beg. I"m begging now, just listen to me. Come on. You"ll like it."
Silk shook his head.
"Come sit next to me." She patted the rumpled sheet.
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"That"s all I"m asking for-right now, anyway. You were here in bed with me a minute ago."
He tried to puli his tunic over his head and failed, discovering in the process that even the slightest movement of his right arm was painful.
"You"re the one that they were looking for, aren"t you? Aren"t you glad that I didn"t teli them anything? You really ought to be, Musk can be awfully mean. Don"t you want me to help you with that?"
"Don"t try." He retreated another step.
Sliding off the bed, she picked up his robe. She was completely naked; he closed his eyes and turned away.
She giggled, and he was suddenly reminded of Mucor, the mad girl. "You really are an augur. He called you Patera-I"d forgotten. Do you want your little hat back? I stuck it under my pillow."
The uses to which Patera Pike"s calotte might be put if it remained with her flashed through Silk"s mind. "Yes," he said. "Please, may I have it back?"
"Sure, I"ll trade you."
He shook his head.
"Didn"t you come here to see me? You don"t act like it, but you knew my name."
"No. I came to find Blood."
"You won"t like him, Patera." Hyacinth grinned again. "Even Musk doesn"t like him, not really. n.o.body does."
"He has my sympathy." Silk tried to raise the tunic again, and was deterred by a flash of pain. "I"ve come to show him how he can be better liked, and even loved."
"Well, Patera, I"m Hyacinth, just like you said. And I"m famous. Everybody likes me, except you."
"I do like you," Silk told her. "That is one of the reasons I won"t do what you want. It"s a rather minor one, actually, but a real reason nonetheless."
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"You stole my azoth, though, didn"t you, Patera? I can see the end of it poking out of that rope."
Silk nodded. "I intend to return it. But you"re quite right, I took it without your permission, and that"s theft. I"m sorry, but I felt I"d better have it. What I"m doing is extremely important." He paused and waited for remonstrances that did not come. "I"ll see that it"s returned to you, and your needier as well, if I get home safely."
"You were afraid of the guards, weren"t you? There in my bed. You were afraid of that one with Musk. Afraid that he"d kill you."
"Yes," Silk admitted. "I was terrified, if you want the truth; and now I"m just as terrified of you, afraid that I"ll give in to you, disgrace my calling, and lose the favor of the immortal G.o.ds."
She laughed.
"You"re right." Silk tried to put on his tunic again, but his right forearm burned and throbbed. "I"m certainly not brave. But at least I"m brave enough to admit it."
"Wait just a minute," she said. "Wait right here. I"m going to get you something."
He glimpsed the balneum through the door she opened. As she closed it behind her, it occurred to him that Patera Pike"s calotte was still in the bed, under her pillow; moved by that weak impulse which turns back travelers to retrieve trifles, he rescued it and put it on.
She emerged from the balneum, naked still, holding out a gold cup scarcely larger than a thimble, half filled with brick-colored powder. "Here, Patera. You put it into your lip."
"No. I realize that you mean well, but I"d rather be afraid."
She shrugged and pulled forward her own lower lip. For a moment it made her ugly, and Silk felt a surge of relief. After emptying the little cup into the hollow between Up
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and gum, she grinned at him. "This is the best money can buy, and it works fast. Sure you don"t want some? I"ve got a lot"
"No," he repeated. "I should go. I should have gone before now, in fact"