Against her will she was drawn to the young man, and her consciousness of it plucked her back to caution with occasional jerks--quaint alternations of the familiar and the harshly formal, in the stranger"s experience.
"If I have your permission, Lady Charlotte," said he, "the reason why I mount red a little--if I do it--is, you mention Lord Ormont, and I have followed his career since I was the youngest of boys."
"Good to begin with the worship of a hero. He can"t sham, can"t deceive--not even a woman; and you"re old enough to understand the temptation: they"re so silly. All the more, it"s a point of honour with a man of honour to shield her from herself. When it"s a girl--"
The young man"s eyebrows bent.
"Chapters of stories, if you want to hear them," she resumed; "and I can vouch some of them true. Lord Ormont was never one of the wolves in a hood. Whatever you hear of him; you may be sure he laid no trap. He"s just the opposite to the hypocrite; so hypocrites date him. I"ve heard them called high-priests of decency. Then we choose to be indecent and honest, if there"s a G.o.d to worship. Fear, they"re in the habit of saying--we are to fear G.o.d. A man here, a Rev. Hampton-Evey, you"ll hear him harp on "fear G.o.d." Hypocrites may: honest sinners have no fear. And see the cause: they don"t deceive themselves--that is why. Do you think we call love what we fear? They love G.o.d, or they disbelieve. And if they believe in Him, they know they can"t conceal anything from Him.
Honesty means piety: we can"t be one without the other. And here are people--parsons--who talk of dying as going into the presence of our Maker, as if He had been all the while outside the world He created.
Those parsons, I told the Rev. Hampton-Evey here, make infidels--they make a puzzle of their G.o.d. I"m for a rational Deity. They preach up a supernatural eccentric. I don"t say all: I"ve heard good sermons, and met sound-headed clergymen--not like that gaping Hampton-Evey, when a woman tells him she thinks for herself. We have him sitting on our pariah. A free-thinker startles him as a kind of demon; but a female free-thinker is one of Satan"s concubines. He took it upon himself to reproach me--flung his glove at my feet, because I sent a cheque to a poor man punished for blasphemy. The man had the right to his opinions, and he had the courage of his opinions. I doubt whether the Rev.
Hampton-Evey would go with a willing heart to prison for his. All the better for him if he comes head-up out of a trial. But now see: all these parsons and judges and mobcaps insist upon conformity. A man with common manly courage comes before them, and he"s cast in penalties.
Yet we know from history, in England, France, Germany, that the time of nonconformity brought out the manhood of the nation. Now, I say, a nation, to be a nation, must have men--I mean brave men. That"s what those hosts of female men combine to try to stifle. They won"t succeed, but we shall want a war to teach the country the value of courage. You catch what I am driving at? They accuse my brother of immorality because he makes no pretence to be better than the men of his cla.s.s."
Weyburn"s eyelids fluttered. Her kite-like ascent into the general, with the sudden drop on her choice morsel, switched his humour at the moment when he was respectfully considering that her dartings and gyrations had motive as mach as the flight of the swallow for food. They had meaning; and here was one of the great ladies of the land who thought for herself, and was thoughtful for the country. If she came down like a bird winged, it was her love of her brother that did it. His look at Lady Charlotte glistened.
She raised her defences against the basilisk fascinating Philippa; and with a vow to keep them apart and deprive him of his chance, she relapsed upon the stiff frigidity which was not natural to her. It lasted long enough to put him on his guard under the seductions of a n.o.ble dame"s condescension to a familiar tone. But, as he was too well bred to show the change in his mind for her change of manner, and as she was the sister of his boyhood"s hero, and could be full of flavour, his eyes retained something of their sparkle. They were ready to lighten again, in the way peculiar to him, when she, quite forgetting her defence of Philippa, disburdened herself of her antagonisms and enthusiasms, her hates and her loves all round the neighbourhood and over the world, won to confidential communication by this young man"s face. She confessed as much, had he been guided to perceive it. She said, "Arthur Abner"s a reader of men: I can trust his word about them."
Presently, it is true, she added: "No man"s to be relied upon where there"s a woman." She refused her implicit trust to saints--"if ever a man really was a saint before he was canonized!"
Her penetrative instinct of s.e.x kindled the scepticism. s.e.x she saw at play everywhere, d.o.g.g.i.ng the conduct of affairs, directing them at times; she saw it as the animation of nature, senselessly stigmatized, hypocritically concealed, active in our thoughts where not in our deeds; and the declining of the decorous to see it, or admit the sight, got them abhorred bad names from her, after a touch at the deadly poison coming of that blindness, or blindfoldedness, and a grimly melancholy shrug over the cruelties resulting--cruelties chiefly affecting women.
"You"re too young to have thought upon such matters," she said, for a finish to them.
That was hardly true.
"I have thought," said Weyburn, and his head fell to reckoning of the small sum of his thoughts upon them.
He was pulled up instantly for close inspection by the judge. "What is your age?"
"I am in my twenty-sixth year."
"You have been among men: have you studied women?"
"Not largely, Lady Charlotte. Opportunity has been wanting at French and German colleges."
"It"s only a large and a close and a pretty long study of them that can teach you anything; and you must get rid of the poetry about them, and be sure you haven"t lost it altogether. That"s what is called the golden mean. I"m not for the golden mean in every instance; it"s a way of exhorting to brutal selfishness. I grant it"s the right way in those questions. You"ll learn in time." Her scanning gaze at the young man"s face drove him along an avenue of his very possible chances of learning.
"Certain to. But don"t tell me that at your age you have thought about women. You may say you have felt. A young man"s feelings about women are better reading for him six or a dozen chapters farther on. Then he can sift and strain. It won"t be perfectly clear, but it will do."
Mr. Eglett hereupon threw the door open, and ushered in Master Leo.
Lady Charlotte noticed that the tutor shook the boy"s hand offhandedly, with not a whit of the usual obtrusive geniality, and merely dropped him a word. Soon after, he was talking to Mr. Eglett of games at home and games abroad. Poor fun over there! We head the world in field games, at all events. He drew a picture of a foreigner of his acquaintance looking on at football. On the other hand, French boys and German, having pa.s.sed a year or two at an English school, get the liking for our games, and do a lot of good when they go home. The things we learn from them are to dance, to sing, and to study:--they are more in earnest than we about study. They teach us at fencing too. The tutor praised fencing as an exercise and an accomplishment. He had large reserves of eulogy for boxing. He knew the qualities of the famous bruisers of the time, cited fisty names, whose owners were then to be seen all over an admiring land in prints; in the glorious defensive-offensive att.i.tude, England"s own--Touch me, if you dare! with bullish, or bull-dog, or oak-bole fronts for the blow, handsome to pugilistic eyes.
The young tutor had lighted on a pet theme of Mr. Eglett"s--the excelling virtues of the practice of pugilism in Old England, and the school of honour that it is to our lower population. "Fifty times better for them than c.o.c.k-fighting," he exclaimed, admitting that he could be an interested spectator at a ring or the pit c.o.c.k-fighting or ratting.
"Ratting seems to have more excuse," the tutor said, and made no sign of a liking for either of those popular pastimes. As he disapproved without squeamishness, the impulsive but sharply critical woman close by nodded; and she gave him his dues for being no courtier.
Leo had to be off to bed. The tutor spared him any struggle over the shaking of hands, and saying, "Goodnight, Leo," continued the conversation. The boy went away, visibly relieved of the cramp that seizes on a youngster at the formalities pertaining to these chilly and fateful introductions.
"What do you think of the look of him?" Mr. Eglett asked.
The tutor had not appeared to inspect the boy. "Big head," he remarked.
"Yes, Leo won"t want pushing at books when he"s once in harness. He will have six weeks of me. It"s more than the yeomanry get for drill per annum, and they"re expected to know something of a soldier"s duties.
There"s a chance of putting him on the right road in certain matters.
We"ll walk, or ride, or skate, if the frost holds to-morrow: no lessons the first day."
"Do as you think fit," said lady Charlotte.
The one defect she saw in the tutor did not concern his pupil. And a girl, if hit, would be unable to see that this tutor, judged as a man, was to some extent despicable for accepting tutorships, and, one might say, dishonouring the family of a soldier of rank and distinction, by coming into houses at the back way, with footing enough to air his graces when once established there. He ought to have knocked at every door in the kingdom for help, rather than accept tutorships, and disturb households (or providently-minded mistresses of them) with all sorts of probably groundless apprehensions, founded naturally enough on the good looks he intrudes.
This tutor committed the offence next day of showing he had a firm and easy seat in the saddle, which increased Lady Charlotte"s liking for him and irritated her watchful forecasts. She rode with the young man after lunch, "to show him the country," and gave him a taste of what he took for her variable moods. He misjudged her. Like a swimmer going through warm and cold springs of certain lake waters, he thought her a capricious ladyship, dangerous for intimacy, alluring to the deeps and gripping with cramps.
She pushed him to defend his choice of the tutor"s profession.
"Think you understand boys?" she caught up his words; "you can"t. You can humour them, as you humour women. They"re just as hard to read. And don"t tell me a young man can read women. Boys and women go on their instincts. Egyptologists can spell you hieroglyphs; they"d be stumped, as Leo would say, to read a spider out of an ink-pot over a sheet of paper."
"One gets to interpret by degrees, by observing their habits," the tutor said, and vexed her with a towering complacency under provocation that went some way further to melt the woman she was, while her knowledge of the softness warned her still more of the duty of playing dragon round such a young man in her house. The despot is alert at every issue, to every chance; and she was one, the wakefuller for being benevolent; her mind had no sleep by day.
For a month she subjected Mr. Matthew Weyburn to the microscope of her observation and the probe of her instinct. He proved that he could manage without cajoling a boy. The practical fact established, by agreement between herself and the un.o.bservant gentleman who was her husband, Lady Charlotte allowed her meditations to drop an indifferent glance at the speculative views upon education entertained by this young tutor. To her mind they were flighty; but she liked him, and as her feelings dictated to her mind when she had not to think for others, she spoke of his views toleratingly, almost with an implied approval, after pa.s.sing them through the form of burlesque to which she customarily treated things failing to waft her enthusiasm. In regard to Philippa, he behaved well: he bestowed more of his attention on Beatrice, nearer Leo"s age, in talk about games and story-books and battles; nothing that he did when the girls were present betrayed the strutting plumed c.o.c.k, bent to attract, or the sickly reptile, thirsty for a prize above him and meaning to have it, like Satan in Eden. Still, of course, he could not help his being a handsome fellow, having a vivid face and eyes transparent, whether blue or green, to flame of the brain exciting them; and that becomes a picture in the dream of girls--a picture creating the dream often. And Philippa had asked her grandmother, very ingenuously indeed, with a most natural candour, why "they saw so little of Leo"s hero." Simple female child!
However, there was no harm done, and Lady Charlotte liked him. She liked few. Forthwith, in the manner of her particular head, a restless head, she fell to work at combinations.
Thus:--he is a nice young fellow, well bred, no cringing courtier, accomplished, good at cla.s.sics, fairish at mathematics, a scholar in French, German, Italian, with a shrewd knowledge of the different races, and with sound English sentiment too, and the capacity for writing good English, although in those views of his the ideas are unusual, therefore un-English, profoundly so. But his intentions are patriotic; they would not displease Lord Ormont. He has a worship of Lord Ormont. All we can say on behalf of an untried inferior is in that,--only the valiant admire devotedly. Well, he can write grammatical, readable English. What if Lord Ormont were to take him as a secretary while the Memoirs are in hand? He might help to chasten the sentences laughed at by those newspapers. Or he might, being a terrible critic of writing, and funny about styles, put it in an absurd light, that would cause the Memoirs to be tossed into the fire. He was made for the post of secretary! The young man"s good looks would be out of harm"s way then. If any sprig of womankind come across him there, it will, at any rate, not be a girl.
Women must take care of themselves. Only the fools among them run to mischief in the case of a handsome young fellow.
Supposing a certain woman to be one of the fools? Lady Charlotte merely suggested it in the dashing current of her meditations--did not strike it out interrogatively. The woman would be a fine specimen among her cla.s.s; that was all. For the favourite of Lord Ormont to stoop from her place beside him--ay, but women do; heroes have had the woeful experience of that fact. First we see them aiming themselves at their hero; next they are shooting an eye at the handsome man. The thirst of nature comes after that of their fancy, in conventional women. Sick of the hero tried, tired of their place in the market, no longer ashamed to acknowledge it, they begin to consult their own taste for beauty--they have it quite as much as the men have it; and when their worshipped figure of manliness, in a romantic sombrero, is a threadbare giant, showing bruises, they sink on their inherent desire for a dance with the handsome man. And the really handsome man is the most extraordinary of the rarities. No wonder that when he appears he slays them, walks over them like a pestilence!
This young Weyburn would touch the fancy of a woman of a romantic turn.
Supposing her enthusiastic in her worship of the hero, after a number of years--for anything may be imagined where a woman is concerned--why, another enthusiasm for the same object, and on the part of a stranger, a stranger with effective eyes, rapidly leads to sympathy. Suppose the reverse--the enthusiasm gone to dust, or become a wheezy old bellows, as it does where there"s disparity of age, or it frequently does--then the sympathy with a good-looking stranger comes more rapidly still.
These were Lady Charlotte"s glances right and left--idle flights of the eye of a mounted Amazon across hedges at the canter along the main road of her scheme; which was to do a service to the young man she liked and to the brother she loved, for the marked advantage of both equally; perhaps for the chance of a little gossip to follow about that tenacious woman by whom her brother was held hard and fast, kept away from friends and relatives, isolated, insomuch as to have given up living on his estate--the old home!--because he would not disgrace it or incur odium by taking her there.
In consequence of Lord Ormont"s resistance to pressure from her on two or three occasions, she chose to nurse and be governed by the maxim for herself: Never propose a plan to him, if you want it adopted. That was her way of harmlessly solacing love"s vindictiveness for an injury.
She sent Arthur Abner a letter, thanking him for his recommendation of young Mr. Weyburn, stating her benevolent wishes as regarded the young man and "those hateful Memoirs," requesting that her name should not be mentioned in the affair, because she was anxious on all grounds to have the proposal accepted by her brother. She could have vowed to herself that she wrote sincerely.
"He must want a secretary. He would be shy at an offer of one from me.
Do you hint it, if you get a chance. You gave us Mr. Weyburn, and Mr.
Eglett and I like him. Ormont would too, I am certain. You have obliged him before; this will be better than anything you have done for us. It will stop the Memoirs, or else give them a polish. Your young friend has made me laugh over stuff taken for literature until we put on our spectacles. Leo jogs along in harness now, and may do some work at school yet."
Having posted her letter, she left the issue to chance, as we may when conscience is easy. An answer came the day before Weyburn"s departure.
Arthur Abner had met Lord Ormont in the street, had spoken of the rumour of Memoirs promised to the world, hinted at the possible need for a secretary; "Lord Ormont would appoint a day to see Mr. Weyburn."
Lady Charlotte considered that to be as good as the engagement.
"So we keep you in the family," she said. "And now look here: you ought to know my brother"s ways, if you"re going to serve him. You"ll have to guess at half of everything he tells you; he"ll expect you to know the whole. There"s no man so secret. Why? He fears nothing; I can"t tell why. And what his mouth shuts on, he exposes as if in his hand. Of course he"s proud, and good reason. You"ll see when you mustn"t offend.
A lady"s in the house--I hear of it. She takes his name, they say. She may be a respectable woman--I"ve heard no scandal. We have to hear of a Lady Ormont out of Society! We have to suppose it means there"s not to be a real one. He can"t marry if he has allowed her to go about bearing his name. She has a fool of an aunt, I"m told; as often in the house as not. Good proof of his fondness for the woman, if he swallows half a year of the aunt! Well, you won"t, unless you"ve mere man"s eyes, be able to help seeing him trying to hide what he suffers from that aunt.
He bears it, like the man he is; but woe to another betraying it! She has a tongue that goes like the reel of a rod, with a pike bolting out of the shallows to the snag he knows--to wind round it and defy you to pull. Often my brother Rowsley and I have fished the day long, and in hard weather, and brought home a basket; and he boasted of it more than of anything he has ever done since. That woman holds him away from me now. I say no harm of her. She may be right enough from her point of view; or it mayn"t be owing to her. I wouldn"t blame a woman. Well, but my point with you is, you swallow the woman"s aunt--the lady"s aunt--without betraying you suffer at all. Lord Ormont has eyes of an eagle for a speck above the surface. All the more because the aunt is a gabbling idiot does he--I say it seeing it--fire up to defend her from the sneer of the lip or half a sign of it! No, you would be an your guard; I can trust you. Of course you"d behave like the gentleman you are where any kind of woman"s concerned; but you mustn"t let a shadow be seen, think what you may. The woman--lady--calling herself Lady Ormont,--poor woman, I should do the same in her place,--she has a hard game to play; I have to be for my family: she has manners, I"m told; holds herself properly. She fancies she brings him up to the altar, in the end, by decent behaviour. That"s a delusion. It"s creditable to her, only she can"t understand the claims of the family upon a man like my brother. When you have spare time--"kick-ups," he need to call it, writing to me from school--come here; you"re welcome, after three days"
notice. I shall be glad to see you again. You"ve gone some way to make a man of Leo."