"No."
She glanced up at him from her drooping lashes. She had pardoned him long ago.
"No," she repeated, "I cannot forgive."
"Lorraine--"
"There is the dog-cart," she whispered, almost breathlessly. So he said good-night and went away.
She stood on the dim lawn, her arms full of blossoms, listening to the sound of the wheels until they died away beyond the park gate.
She had turned whiter than the lilies at her breast. This was because she was still very young and not quite as wise as some maidens.
For the same reason she left her warm bed that night to creep through the garden and slip into the stable and lay her tear-stained cheeks on the neck of Jack"s horse.
XII
FROM THE FRONTIER
During the next three days, for the first time since he had known her, he did not go to see Lorraine. How he stood it--how he ever dragged through those miserable hours--he himself never could understand.
The wide sculptured eyes of Our Lady of Morteyn above the shrine seemed to soften when he went there to sit at her feet and stare at nothing. It was not tears, but dew, that gathered under the stone lids, for the night had grown suddenly hot, and everything lay moist in the starlight. Night changed to midnight, and midnight to dawn, and dawn to another day, cloudless, pitiless; and Jack awoke again, and his waking thought was of Lorraine.
All day long he sat with the old vicomte, reading to him when he wished, playing interminable games of chess, sick at heart with a longing that almost amounted to anger. He could not tell his aunt. As far as that went, the wise old lady had divined that their first trouble had come to them in all the appalling and exaggerated proportions that such troubles a.s.sume, but she smiled gently to herself, for she, too, had been young, and the ways of lovers had been her ways, and the paths of love she had trodden, and she had drained love"s cup at bitter springs.
That night she came to his bedside and kissed him, saying: "To-morrow you shall carry my love and my thanks to Lorraine for her care of the horse."
"I can"t," muttered Jack.
"Pooh!" said Madame de Morteyn, and closed the bedroom door; and Jack slept better that night.
It was ten o"clock the next morning before he appeared at breakfast, and it was plain, even to the thrush on the lawn outside, that he had bestowed an elaboration upon his toilet that suggested either a duel or a wedding.
Madame de Morteyn hid her face, for she could not repress the smile that tormented her sweet mouth. Even the vicomte said: "Oh!
You"re not off for Paris, Jack, are you?"
After breakfast he wandered moodily out to the terrace, where his aunt found him half an hour later, mooning and contemplating his spotless gloves.
"Then you are not going to ride over to the Chateau de Nesville?"
she asked, trying not to laugh.
"Oh!" he said, with affected surprise, "did you wish me to go to the Chateau?"
"Yes, Jack dear, if you are not too much occupied." She could not repress the mischievous accent on the "too." "Are you going to drive?"
"No; I shall walk--unless you are in a hurry."
"No more than you are, dear," she said, gravely.
He looked at her with sudden suspicion, but she was not smiling.
"Very well," he said, gloomily.
About eleven o"clock he had sauntered half the distance down the forest road that leads to the Chateau de Nesville. His heart seemed to tug and tug and urge him forward; his legs refused obedience; he sulked. But there was the fresh smell of loam and moss and aromatic leaves, the music of the Lisse on the pebbles, the joyous chorus of feathered creatures from every thicket, and there were the antics of the giddy young rabbits that scuttled through the warrens, leaping, tumbling, sitting up, lop-eared and impudent, or diving head-first into their burrows.
Under the stems of a thorn thicket two c.o.c.k-pheasants were having a difference, and were enthusiastically settling that difference in the approved method of game-c.o.c.ks. He lingered to see which might win, but a misstep and a sudden crack of a dry twig startled them, and they withdrew like two stately but indignant old gentlemen who had been subjected to uncalled-for importunities.
Presently he felt cheerful enough to smoke, and he searched in every pocket for his pipe. Then he remembered that he had dropped it when he dropped his silver flask, there in the road where he had first been startled by the Uhlans.
This train of thought depressed him again, but he resolutely put it from his mind, lighted a cigarette, and moved on.
Just ahead, around the bend in the path, lay the gra.s.s-grown carrefour where he had first seen Lorraine. He thought of her as he remembered her then, flushed, indignant, blocking the path while the map-making spy sneered in her face and crowded past her, still sneering. He thought, too, of her scarlet skirt, and the little velvet bodice and the silver chains. He thought of her heavy hair, dishevelled, glimmering in her eyes. At the same moment he turned the corner; the carrefour lay before him, overgrown, silent, deserted. A sudden tenderness filled his heart--ah, how we love those whom we have protected!--and he stood for a moment in the sunshine with bowed head, living over the episode that he could never forget. Every word, every gesture, the shape of the very folds in her skirt, he remembered; yes, and the little triangular tear, the broken silver chain, the ripped bodice!
And she, in her innocence, had promised to see him there at the river-bank below. He had never gone, because that very night she had come to Morteyn, and since then he had seen her every day at her own home.
As he stood he could hear the river Lisse whispering, calling him. He would go--just to see the hidden rendezvous--for old love"s sake; it was a step from the path, no more.
Then that strange instinct, that sudden certainty that comes at times to all, seized him, and he knew that Lorraine was there by the river; he knew it as surely as though he saw her before him.
And she was there, standing by the still water, silver chains drooping over the velvet bodice, scarlet skirt hanging brilliant and heavy as a drooping poppy in the sun.
"Dear me," she said, very calmly, "I thought you had quite forgotten me. Why have you not been to the Chateau, Monsieur Marche?"
And this, after she had told him to go away and not to return!
Wise in the little busy ways of the world of men, he was uneducated in the ways of a maid.
Therefore he was speechless.
"And now," she said, with the air of an early Christian tete-a-tete with Nero--"and now you do not speak to me? Why?"
"Because," he blurted out, "I thought you did not care to have me!"
Surprise, sorrow, grief gave place to pity in her eyes.
"What a silly man!" she observed. "I am going to sit down on the moss. Are you intending to call upon my father? He is still in the turret. If you can spare a moment I will tell you what he is doing."
Yes, he had a moment to spare--not many moments--he hoped she would understand that!--but he had one or two little ones at her disposal.
She read this in his affected hesitation. She would make him pay dearly for it. Vengeance should be hers!
He stood a moment, eying the water as though it had done him personal injury. Then he sat down.
"The balloon is almost ready, steering-gear and all," she said.
"I saw papa yesterday for a moment; I tried to get him to stay with me, but he could not."