Louisa Pallant

"If you"re so bent on gaining time," I said, "why did you let her go out in the boat with him?"

"Let her? how could I prevent it?"

"But she asked your permission."

"Ah that," she cried, "is all a part of all the comedy!"

It fairly hushed me to silence, and for a moment more she said nothing.

"Then she doesn"t know you hate her?" I resumed.

"I don"t know what she knows. She has depths and depths, and all of them bad. Besides, I don"t hate her in the least; I just pity her for what I"ve made of her. But I pity still more the man who may find himself married to her."

"There"s not much danger of there being any such person," I wailed, "at the rate you go on."

"I beg your pardon--there"s a perfect possibility," said my companion.

"She"ll marry--she"ll marry "well." She"ll marry a t.i.tle as well as a fortune.

"It"s a pity my nephew hasn"t a t.i.tle," I attempted the grimace of suggesting.

She seemed to wonder. "I see you think I want that, and that I"m acting a part. G.o.d forgive you! Your suspicion"s perfectly natural. How can any one TELL," asked Louisa Pallant--"with people like us?"

Her utterance of these words brought tears to my eyes. I laid my hand on her arm, holding her a while, and we looked at each other through the dusk. "You couldn"t do more if he were my son."

"Oh if he had been your son he"d have kept out of it! I like him for himself. He"s simple and sane and honest--he needs affection."

"He would have quite the most remarkable of mothers-in-law!" I commented.

Mrs. Pallant gave a small dry laugh--she wasn"t joking. We lingered by the lake while I thought over what she had said to me and while she herself apparently thought. I confess that even close at her side and under the strong impression of her sincerity, her indifference to the conventional graces, my imagination, my const.i.tutional scepticism began to range. Queer ideas came into my head. Was the comedy on HER side and not on the girl"s, and was she posturing as a magnanimous woman at poor Linda"s expense? Was she determined, in spite of the young lady"s preference, to keep her daughter for a grander personage than a young American whose dollars were not numerous enough--numerous as they were--to make up for his want of high relationships, and had she invented at once the boldest and the subtlest of games in order to keep the case in her hands? If she was prepared really to address herself to Archie she would have to go very far to overcome the mistrust he would be sure to feel at a proceeding superficially so sinister? Was she prepared to go far enough? The answer to these doubts was simply the way I had been touched--it came back to me the next moment--when she used the words "people like us." Their effect was to wring my heart. She seemed to kneel in the dust, and I felt in a manner ashamed that I had let her sink to it. She said to me at last that I must wait no longer, I must go away before the young people came back. They were staying long, too long; all the more reason then she should deal with my nephew that night. I must drive back to Stresa, or if I liked I could go on foot: it wasn"t far--for an active man. She disposed of me freely, she was so full of her purpose; and after we had quitted the garden and returned to the terrace above she seemed almost to push me to leave her--I felt her fine consecrated hands fairly quiver on my shoulders. I was ready to do as she prescribed; she affected me painfully, she had given me a "turn,"

and I wanted to get away from her. But before I went I asked her why Linda should regard my young man as such a parti; it didn"t square after all with her account of the girl"s fierce ambitions. By that account these favours to one so graceless were a woeful waste of time.

"Oh she has worked it all out; she has regarded the question in every light," said Mrs. Pallant. "If she has made up her mind it"s because she sees what she can do."

"Do you mean that she has talked it over with you?"

My friend"s wonderful face pitied my simplicity. "Lord! for what do you take us? We don"t talk things over to-day. We know each other"s point of view and only have to act. We observe the highest proprieties of speech.

We never for a moment name anything ugly--we only just go at it. We can take definitions, which are awkward things, for granted."

"But in this case," I nevertheless urged, "the poor thing can"t possibly be aware of your point of view."

"No," she conceded--"that"s because I haven"t played fair. Of course she couldn"t expect I"d cheat. There ought to be honour among thieves. But it was open to her to do the same."

"What do you mean by the same?"

"She might have fallen in love with a poor man. Then I should have been "done.""

"A rich one"s better; he can do more," I replied with conviction.

At this she appeared to have, in the oddest way, a momentary revulsion.

"So you"d have reason to know if you had led the life that we have!

Never to have had really enough--I mean to do just the few simple things we"ve wanted; never to have had the sinews of war, I suppose you"d call them, the funds for a campaign; to have felt every day and every hour the hard eternal pinch and found the question of dollars and cents--and so horridly few of them--mixed up with every experience, with every impulse: that DOES make one mercenary, does make money seem a good beyond all others; which it"s quite natural it should! And it"s why Linda"s of the opinion that a fortune"s always a fortune. She knows all about that of your nephew, how it"s invested, how it may be expected to increase, exactly on what sort of footing it would enable her to live.

She has decided that it"s enough, and enough is as good as a feast. She thinks she could lead him by the nose, and I dare say she could. She"ll of course make him live in these countries; she hasn"t the slightest intention of casting her pearls--but basta!" said my friend. "I think she has views upon London, because in England he can hunt and shoot, and that will make him leave her more or less to herself."

"I don"t know about his leaving her to herself, but it strikes me that he would like the rest of that matter very much," I returned. "That"s not at all a bad programme even from Archie"s point of view."

"It"s no use thinking of princes," she pursued as if she hadn"t heard me. "They"re most of them more in want of money even than we. Therefore "greatness" is out of the question--we really recognised that at an early stage. Your nephew"s exactly the sort of young man we"ve always built upon--if he wasn"t, so impossibly, your nephew. From head to foot he was made on purpose. Dear Linda was her mother"s own daughter when she recognised him on the spot! One"s enough of a prince to-day when one"s the right American: such a wonderful price is set on one"s not being the wrong! It does as well as anything and it"s a great simplification. If you don"t believe me go to London and see." She had come with me out to the road. I had said I would walk back to Stresa and we stood there in the sweet dark warmth. As I took her hand, bidding her good-night, I couldn"t but exhale a compa.s.sion. "Poor Linda, poor Linda!"

"Oh she"ll live to do better," said Mrs. Pallant.

"How can she do better--since you"ve described all she finds Archie as perfection?"

She knew quite what she meant. "Ah better for HIM!"

I still had her hand--I still sought her eyes. "How came it you could throw me over--such a woman as you?"

"Well, my friend, if I hadn"t thrown you over how could I do this for you?" On which, disengaging herself, she turned quickly away.

VI

I don"t know how deeply she flushed as she made, in the form of her question, this avowal, which was a retraction of a former denial and the real truth, as I permitted myself to believe; but was aware of the colour of my own cheeks while I took my way to Stresa--a walk of half an hour--in the attenuating night. The new and singular character in which she had appeared to me produced in me an emotion that would have made sitting still in a carriage impossible. This same stress kept me up after I had reached my hotel; as I knew I shouldn"t sleep it was useless to go to bed. Long, however, as I deferred this ceremony, Archie had not reappeared when the inn-lights began here and there to be dispensed with. I felt even slightly anxious for him, wondering at possible mischances. Then I reflected that in case of an accident on the lake, that is of his continued absence from Baveno--Mrs. Pallant would already have dispatched me a messenger. It was foolish moreover to suppose anything could have happened to him after putting off from Baveno by water to rejoin me, for the evening was absolutely windless and more than sufficiently clear and the lake as calm as gla.s.s. Besides I had unlimited confidence in his power to take care of himself in a much tighter place. I went to my room at last; his own was at some distance, the people of the hotel not having been able--it was the height of the autumn season--to make us contiguous. Before I went to bed I had occasion to ring for a servant, and I then learned by a chance enquiry that my nephew had returned an hour before and had gone straight to his own quarters. I hadn"t supposed he could come in without my seeing him--I was wandering about the saloons and terraces--and it had not occurred to me to knock at his door. I had half a mind to do so now--I was so anxious as to how I should find him; but I checked myself, for evidently he had wanted to dodge me. This didn"t diminish my curiosity, and I slept even less than I had expected. His so markedly shirking our encounter--for if he hadn"t perceived me downstairs he might have looked for me in my room--was a sign that Mrs. Pallant"s interview with him would really have come off. What had she said to him? What strong measures had she taken? That almost morbid resolution I still seemed to hear the ring of pointed to conceivable extremities that I shrank from considering. She had spoken of these things while we parted there as something she would do for me; but I had made the mental comment in walking away from her that she hadn"t done it yet. It wouldn"t truly be done till Archie had truly backed out. Perhaps it was done by this time; his avoiding me seemed almost a proof. That was what I thought of most of the night. I spent a considerable part of it at my window, looking out to the couchant Alps. HAD he thought better of it?--was he making up his mind to think better of it? There was a strange contradiction in the matter; there were in fact more contradictions than ever. I had taken from Louisa what she told me of Linda, and yet that other idea made me ashamed of my nephew. I was sorry for the girl; I regretted her loss of a great chance, if loss it was to be; and yet I hoped her mother"s grand treachery--I didn"t know what to call it--had been at least, to her lover, thoroughgoing. It would need strong action in that lady to justify his retreat. For him too I was sorry--if she had made on him the impression she desired. Once or twice I was on the point of getting into my dressing-gown and going forth to condole with him. I was sure he too had jumped up from his bed and was looking out of his window at the everlasting hills.

But I am bound to say that when we met in the morning for breakfast he showed few traces of ravage. Youth is strange; it has resources that later experience seems only to undermine. One of these is the masterly resource of beautiful blankness. As we grow older and cleverer we think that too simple, too crude; we dissimulate more elaborately, but with an effect much less baffling. My young man looked not in the least as if he had lain awake or had something on his mind; and when I asked him what he had done after my premature departure--I explained this by saying I had been tired of waiting for him; f.a.gged with my journey I had wanted to go to bed--he replied: "Oh nothing in particular. I hung about the place; I like it better than this one. We had an awfully jolly time on the water. _I_ wasn"t in the least f.a.gged." I didn"t worry him with questions; it struck me as gross to try to probe his secret. The only indication he gave was on my saying after breakfast that I should go over again to see our friends and my appearing to take for granted he would be glad to come too. Then he let fall that he"d stop at Stresa--he had paid them such a tremendous visit; also that he had arrears of letters. There was a freshness in his scruples about the length of his visits, and I knew something about his correspondence, which consisted entirely of twenty pages every week from his mother. But he soothed my anxiety so little that it was really this yearning that carried me back to Baveno. This time I ordered a conveyance, and as I got into it he stood watching me from the porch of the hotel with his hands in his pockets. Then it was for the first time that I saw in the poor youth"s face the expression of a person slightly dazed, slightly foolish even, to whom something disagreeable has happened. Our eyes met as I observed him, and I was on the point of saying "You had really better come with me" when he turned away. He went into the house as to escape my call. I said to myself that he had been indeed warned off, but that it wouldn"t take much to bring him back.

The servant to whom I spoke at Baveno described my friends as in a summer-house in the garden, to which he led the way. The place at large had an empty air; most of the inmates of the hotel were dispersed on the lake, on the hills, in picnics, excursions, visits to the Borromean Islands. My guide was so far right as that Linda was in the summer-house, but she was there alone. On finding this the case I stopped short, rather awkwardly--I might have been, from the way I suddenly felt, an unmasked hypocrite, a proved conspirator against her security and honour. But there was no embarra.s.sment in lovely Linda; she looked up with a cry of pleasure from the book she was reading and held out her hand with engaging frankness. I felt again as if I had no right to that favour, which I pretended not to have noticed. This gave no chill, however, to her pretty manner; she moved a roll of tapestry off the bench so that I might sit down; she praised the place as a delightful shady corner. She had never been fresher, fairer, kinder; she made her mother"s awful talk about her a hideous dream. She told me her mother was coming to join her; she had remained indoors to write a letter. One couldn"t write out there, though it was so nice in other respects: the table refused to stand firm. They too then had pretexts of letters between them--I judged this a token that the situation was tense. It was the only one nevertheless that Linda gave: like Archie she was young enough to carry it off. She had been used to seeing us always together, yet she made no comment on my having come over without him. I waited in vain for her to speak of this--it would only be natural; her omission couldn"t but have a sense. At last I remarked that my nephew was very unsociable that morning; I had expected him to join me, but he hadn"t seemed to see the attraction.

"I"m very glad. You can tell him that if you like," said Linda Pallant.

I wondered at her. "If I tell him he"ll come at once."

"Then don"t tell him; I don"t want him to come. He stayed too long last night," she went on, "and kept me out on the water till I don"t know what o"clock. That sort of thing isn"t done here, you know, and every one was shocked when we came back--or rather, you see, when we didn"t! I begged him to bring me in, but he wouldn"t. When we did return--I almost had to take the oars myself--I felt as if every one had been sitting up to time us, to stare at us. It was awfully awkward."

These words much impressed me; and as I have treated the reader to most of the reflexions--some of them perhaps rather morbid--in which I indulged on the subject of this young lady and her mother, I may as well complete the record and let him know that I now wondered whether Linda--candid and accomplished maiden--entertained the graceful thought of strengthening her hold of Archie by attempting to prove he had "compromised" her. "Ah no doubt that was the reason he had a bad conscience last evening!" I made answer. "When he came back to Stresa he sneaked off to his room; he wouldn"t look me in the face."

But my young lady was not to be ruffled. "Mamma was so vexed that she took him apart and gave him a scolding. And to punish ME she sent me straight to bed. She has very old-fashioned ideas--haven"t you, mamma?"

she added, looking over my head at Mrs. Pallant, who had just come in behind me.

I forget how her mother met Linda"s appeal; Louisa stood there with two letters, sealed and addressed, in her hand. She greeted me gaily and then asked her daughter if she were possessed of postage-stamps.

Linda consulted a well-worn little pocket-book and confessed herself dest.i.tute; whereupon her mother gave her the letters with the request that she would go into the hotel, buy the proper stamps at the office, carefully affix them and put the letters into the box. She was to pay for the stamps, not have them put on the bill--a preference for which Mrs. Pallant gave reasons. I had bought some at Stresa that morning and was on the point of offering them when, apparently having guessed my intention, the elder lady silenced me with a look. Linda announced without reserve that she hadn"t money and Louisa then fumbled for a franc. When she had found and bestowed it the girl kissed her before going off with the letters.

"Darling mother, you haven"t any too many of them, have you?" she murmured; and she gave me, sidelong, as she left us, the prettiest half-comical, half-pitiful smile.

"She"s amazing--she"s amazing," said Mrs. Pallant as we looked at each other.

"Does she know what you"ve done?"

"She knows I"ve done something and she"s making up her mind what it is.