Crewes turned back, looked levelly at his publicist. "I keep thinking you"re nothing more than a flack-man. I"m wrong, aren"t I?"
Handy shrugged. "I have a thought of my own from time to time."
Crewes nodded, acquiescing. "Would you just settle for my saying she once did me a favor? Not a big favor, just a little favor, something she probably doesn"t even remember, or if she does she doesn"t think of it in relation to the big producer who"s giving her a comeback break. Would you settle for my saying I mean her nothing but good things, Fred? Would that buy it?"
Handy nodded. "It"ll do."
"So who do we get to keep her rea.s.sured that she isn"t ready for the dustbin just yet?"
Again Handy spread his hands. "I don"t know, it"s been eighteen years since she had anything to do with--hey! Wait a bit. What"s his name ... ?"
"Who?"
"Oh, h.e.l.l, you know ..." Handy said, fumbling with his memory, "... the one who got fouled up with the draft during the war, blew his career, something, I don"t remember ... aw, c"mon Arthur, you know who I mean, used to play all the bright young attorney defending the dirty-faced delinquent parts." He snapped his fingers trying to call back a name from crumbling fan magazines, from rotogravure coming attraction placards in theater windows.
Crewes suggested, "Call Sheilah Graham."
Handy came around the desk, dialed 9 to get out, and Sheilah Graham"s private number, from memory. "Sheilah? Fred Handy. Yeah, hi. Hey, who was it Valerie Lone used to go with?" He listened. "No, huh-uh, the one that was always in the columns, he was married, but they had a big thing, he does bits now, guest shots, who--"
She told him.
"Right. Right, that"s who. Okay, hey thanks, Sheilah. What? No, huh-uh, huh-uh; as soon as we get something right, it"s yours. Okay, luv. Thanks. "Bye."
He hung up and turned to Crewes. "Emery Romito."
Crewes nodded. "Jeezus, is he still alive?"
"He was on Bonanza about three weeks ago. Guest shot. Played an alcoholic veterinarian."
Crewes lifted an eyebrow. "Type casting?"
Handy was leafing through the volume of the PLAYERS DIRECTORY that listed leading men. "I don"t think so. If he"d been a stone saucehound he"d"ve been planted long before this. I think he"s just getting old, that"s the worst."
Crewes gave a sharp, short bitter laugh. "That"s enough."
Handy slammed the PLAYERS DIRECTORY closed. "He"s not in there."
"Try character males," Crewes suggested.
Handy found it, in the R"s. Emery Romito. A face out of the past, still holding a distinguished mien, but even through the badly reproduced photo that had been an 8x10 glossy, showing weariness and the indefinable certainty that this man knew he had lost his chance at picking up all the marbles.
Handy showed Crewes the photo. "Do you think this is a good idea?" Handy looked at him.
"It"s a h.e.l.luva lot better idea than yours, Arthur."
Crewes sucked on the edge of his lower lip between clenched teeth. "Okay. Go get him. But make him look like a knight on a white charger. I want her very happy."
"Knights on white chargers these days come barrel-a.s.sing down the streets of suburbia with their phalluses in hand, blasting women"s underwear whiter-than-white. Would you settle for merely mildly happy?"
5.
Cotillions could have been held in the main drawing room of the Stratford Beach Hotel. Probably had been. In the days when Richard Dix had his way with Leatrice Joy, in the days when Zanuck had his three rejected scenarios privately published as a "book" and sent them around to the studios in hopes of building his personal stock, in the days when Virginia Rappe was being introduced to the dubious s.e.xual joys of a fat kid named Arbuckle. In those days the Stratford Beach Hotel had been a showplace, set out on the lovely Santa Monica sh.o.r.e, overlooking the triumphant Pacific.
Architecturally, the hotel was a case in point for Frank Lloyd Wright"s contention that the Sunshine State looked as though "someone had tipped the United States up onits east coast, and everything that was loose went tumbling into California." Great and bulky, sunk to its hips in the earth, with rococo flutings at every possible juncture, portico"d and belfry"d, the Stratford Beach had pa.s.sed through fifty years of scuffling feet, spuming salt-spray, drunken orgies, changed bed-linen and insipid managers to end finally in this backwash eddy of a backwash suburb.
In the main drawing room of the Stratford Beach, standing on the top step of a wide, spiraling staircase of onyx that ran down into a room where the dust in the ancient carpets rose at each step to mingle with the downdrifting film of shattered memories, fractured yesterdays, mote-infested yearnings and the unmistakable stench of dead dreams, Fred Handy knew what had killed F. Scott Fitzgerald. This room, and the thousands of others like it, that held within their ordered interiors a kind of deadly magic of remembrance; a pull and tug of eras that refused to give up the ghost, that had not the common decency to pa.s.s away and let new times be born. The embalmed forevers that never came to be ... they were here, lurking in the colorless patinas of dust that covered the rubber plants, that settled in the musty odor of the velvet plush furniture, that shone dully up from inlaid hardwood floors where the Charleston had been danced as a racy new thing.
This was the terrifying end-up for all the refuse of nostalgia. Hooked on this scene had been Fitzgerald, lauding and singing of something that was dead even as it was born. And so easily hooked could anyone get on this, who chose to live after their time was pa.s.sed.
The words tarnish and mildew again formed in Handy"s mind, superimposed as subt.i.tles over a mute sequence of Valerie Lone shrieking in closeup. He shook his head, and not a moment too soon. Emery Romito came down the stairs from the second floor of the hotel, walking up behind Handy across the inlaid tiles of the front hall. He stood behind Handy, staring down into the vast living room. As Handy shook his head, fighting to come back to today.
"Elegant, isn"t it?" Emery Romito said.
The voice was cultivated, the voice was deep and warm, the voice was histrionic, the voice was filled with memory, the voice was a surprise in the silence, but none of these were the things that startled Handy. The present tense, isn"t it. Not: wasn"t it, isn"t it.
Oh my G.o.d, Handy thought.
Afraid to turn around, Fred Handy felt himself sucked into the past. This room, this terrible room, it was so help him G.o.d a portal to the past. The yesterdays that had never gone to rest were all here, crowding against a milky membrane separating them from the world of right here and now, like eyeless soulless wraiths, hungering after the warmth and presence of his corporeality. They wanted ... what? They wanted his au courant. They wanted his today, so they could hear "Nagasaki" and "Vagabond Lover" and "Please" sung freshly again. So they could rouge their knees and straighten their headache bands over their foreheads. Fred Handy, man of today, a.s.sailed by the ghosts of yesterday, and terrified to turn around and see one of those ghosts standing behind him.
"Mr. Handy? You are the man who called me, aren"t you?"
Handy turned and looked at Emery Romito.
"h.e.l.lo," he said, through the dust of decades.
HANDY.
Jefferson once said people get pretty much the kind of government they deserve, which is why I refuse to listen to any bulls.h.i.t carping by my fellow Californians about Reagan and his gubernatorial gang-banging--what I chose to call government by artificial insemination when I was arguing with Julie, a registered Republican, when we weren"t making love--because it seems to me they got just what they were asking for. The end-product of a hundred years of statewide paranoia and rampant lunacy. That philosophy--stripped of Freudian undertones--has slopped over into most areas of my opinion. Women who constantly get stomped on by s.h.i.tty guys generally have a streak of masochism in them; guys who get their hearts eaten away by rodent females are basically self-flagellants. And when you see someone who has been ravaged by life, it is a safe bet he has been a willing accomplice at his own destruction.
All of this pa.s.sed through my mind as I said h.e.l.lo to Emery Romito. The picture in the PLAYERS DIRECTORY had softened the sadness. But in living color he was a natural for one of those billboards hustling Forest Lawn pre-need cemetery plots. Don"t get caught with your life down.
He was one of the utterly destroyed. A man familiar to the point of incest with the forces that crush and maim, a man stunned by the hammer. And I could conceive of no one who would aid and abet those kind of forces in self-destruction. No. No one.
Yet no man could have done it to himself without the help of the Furies. And so, I was ambivalent. I felt both pity and cynicism for Emery Romito, and his brave foolish elegance.
Age lay like soot in the creases of what had once been a world-famous face. The kind of age that means merely growing old, without wistfulness or delight. This man had lived through all the days and nights of his life with only one thought uppermost: let me forget what has gone before.
"Would you like to sit out on the terrace?" Romito asked. "Nice breeze off the ocean today."
I smiled acquiescence, and he made a theatrical gesture in the direction of the terrace. As he preceded me down the onyx steps into the living room, I felt a clutch of nausea, and followed him. Cheyne-Stokes breathing as I walked across the threadbare carpet, among the deep restful furniture that called to me, suggested I try their womb comfort, sink into them never to rise again. Or if I did, it would be as a shriveled, mummified old man. (And with the memory of a kid who grew up on movies, I saw Margo as Capra had seen her in 1937, aging horribly, shriveling, in a matter of seconds, as she was being carried out of Shangri-La. And I shuddered. A grown man, and I shuddered.) It was like walking across the bottom of the sea; shadowed, filtered with sounds that had no names, caught by shafts of sunlight from the skylight above us that contained freshets of dust-motes rising tumbling surging upward, threading between sofas and Morris chairs like whales in shoal, finally arriving at the fogged dirty French doors that gave out onto the terrace.
Romito opened them smoothly, as if he had done it a thousand times in a thousand films--and probably had--for a thousand Anita Louises. He stepped out briskly, and drew a deep breath. In that instant I realized he was in extremely good shape for a man his age, built big across the back and shoulders, waist still trim and narrow, actually quite dapper. Then why did I think of him as a crustacean, as a pitted fossil, as a gray and wasted relic?
It was the air of fatality, of course. The superimposed chin-up-through-it-all horses.h.i.t that all Hollywood hangers-on adopted. It was an atrophied devolutionary extension of the Show Must Go On shuck; the myth that owns everyone in the Industry: that getting forty-eight minutes of hack cliche situation comedy filmed--only the barest minimally innervating--to capture the boggle-eyed interest of the Great Unwashed sucked down in the doldrum mire of The Great American Heartland, so they will squat there for twelve minutes of stench odor poison and artifact hardsell, is an occupation somehow inextricably involved with advancing the course of Western Civilization. A myth that has oozed over into all areas of modern thought, thus turning us into a "show biz culture" and sp.a.w.ning such creatures as Emery Romito. Like the cats in the empty Ziv Studios, nibbling at the leftover garbage of the film industry, but loath to leave it. (Echoes of the old saw about the carnival a.s.sistant whose job it was to shovel up elephant s.h.i.t who, when asked why he didn"t get a better job, replied, "What? And leave show biz?") Emery Romito was oneof the clingers to the underside of the rock that was show biz, that dominated like Gibraltar the landscape of Americana.
He had forfeited his humanity in order to remain "with it." He was dead, and didn"t know it. What, and leave show biz?
The terrace was half the size of the living room, which made it twice as large as the foyer of Grauman"s Chinese. Gray stone bal.u.s.trades bounded it, and earthquake tremors had performed an intricate calligraphy across the inlaid and matched flaggings. It was daylight, but that didn"t stop the shadowy images of women with bobbed hairdos and men with pomaded glossiness from weaving in and around us as we stood there, staring out at the ocean. It was ghost-time again, and secret liaisons were being effected out on the terrace by dashing sheiks (whose wives [married before their men had become nickelodeon idols] were inside slugging the spiked gin-punch) and hungry little hopefuls with waxed shins and a dab of alum in their v.a.g.i.n.as, anxious to grasp magic.
"Let"s sit down," Emery Romito said. To me, not the ghosts. He indicated a conversation grouping of cheap tubular aluminum beach chairs, their once-bright webbing now hopelessly faded by sun and sea-mist.
I sat down and he smiled ingratiatingly.
Then he sat down, careful to pull up the pants creases in the Palm Beach suit. The suit was in good shape, but perhaps fifteen years out of date.
"Well," he said.
I smiled back. I hadn"t the faintest idea what "well" was a preamble to, nor what I was required to answer. But he waited, expecting me to say something.
When I continued to smile dumbly, his expression crumpled a little, and he tried another tack. "Just what sort of part is it that Crewes has in mind?"
Oh my G.o.d, I thought. He thinks it"s an interview.
"Uh, well, it isn"t precisely a part in the film I"m here to talk to you about, Mr. Romito." It was much too intricate a syntax for a man whose heart might attack him at any moment.
"It isn"t a part," he repeated.
"No, it was something rather personal ..."
"It isn"t a part." He whispered it, barely heard, lost instantly in the overpowering sound of the Santa Monica surf not far beyond us.
"It"s about Valerie Lone," I began.
"Valerie?"
"Yes. We"ve signed her for Subterfuge and she"s back in town and--"
"Subterfuge?"
"The film Mr. Crewes is producing."
"Oh. I see."
He didn"t see at all. I was sure of that. I didn"t know how in the world I could tell this ruined sh.e.l.l that his services were needed as escort, not actor. He saved me the trouble. He ran away from me, into the past.
"I remember once, in 1936 I believe ... no, it was "37, that was the year I did Beloved Liar ..."
I let the sound of the surf swell inside me. I turned down the gain on Emery Romito and turned up the gain on nature. I knew I would be able to get him to do what needed to be done--he was a lonely, helpless man for whom any kind of return to the world of glamour was a main chance. But it would take talking, and worse ... listening.
"... Thalberg called me in, and he was smiling, it was a very unusual thing, you can be sure. And he said: "Emery, we"ve just signed a girl for your next picture," and of course it was Valerie. Except that wasn"t her name then, and he took me over to the Commissary to meet her. We had the special salad, it was little slivers of ham and cheese and turkey, cut so they were stacked one on top of the other, so you tasted the ham first, then the cheese, then the turkey, all in one bite, and the freshest green crisp lettuce, they called it the William Powell Salad ... no, that isn"t right ... the William Powell was crab meat ... I think it was the Norma Talmadge Salad ... or was it ..."
As I sat there talking to Emery Romito, what I did not know was that all the way across the city, at the Studio, Arthur was entering the lot with Valerie Lone, in a chauffeured Bentley. He told me about it that night, and it was horrible. But it served as the perfect counterpoint to the musty warm monologue being delivered to me that moment by the Ghost of Christmas Past.
How lovely, how enriching, to sit there in sumptuous, palatial Santa Monica, Showplace of the Western World, listening to the voice from beyond reminisce about tuna fish and avocado salads. I prayed for deafness.
6.
Crewes had called ahead. "I want the red carpet, do I make my meaning clear?" The studio public relations head had said yes, he understood. Crewes had emphasized the point: "I don"t want any f.u.c.kups, Barry. Not even the smallest. No gate police asking for a drive-on pa.s.s, no secretary making her wait. I want every carpenter and grip and mail boy to know we"re bringing Valerie Lone back today. And I want deference, Barry. If there"s a f.u.c.kup, even the smallest f.u.c.kup, I"ll come down on you the way Samson brought down the temple."
"Christ, Arthur, you don"t have to threaten me!"
"I"m not threatening, Barry, I"m making the point so you can"t weasel later. This isn"t some phony finger-popping rock singer, this is Valerie Lone."
"All right, Arthur! Stop now."
When they came through the gate, the guards removed their caps, and waved the Bentley on toward the sound stages. Valerie Lone sat in the rear, beside Arthur Crewes, and her face was dead white, even under the makeup she had applied in the latest manner: for 1945.
There was a receiving line outside Stage 16.
The Studio head, several members of the foreign press, the three top producers on the lot, and half a dozen "stars" of current tv series. They made much over her, and when they were finished, Valerie Lone had almost been convinced someone gave a d.a.m.n that she was not dead.
When the flashing red gumball light on its tripod went out--signifying that the shot had been completed inside the sound stage--they entered. Valerie took three steps beyond the heavy soundproof door, and stopped. Her eyes went up and up, into the dim reaches of the huge barnlike structure, to the catwalks with their rigging, the lights anch.o.r.ed to their brace boards, the cool and wonderful air from the conditioners that rose to heat up there, where the gaffers worked. Then she stepped back into the shadows as Crewes came up beside her, and he knew she was crying, and he turned to ask the others if they would come in later, to follow Miss Lone on her visit. The others did not understand, but they went back outside, and the door sighed shut on its pneumatic hinges.
Crewes went to her, and she was against the wall, the tears standing in her eyes, but not running down to ruin the makeup. In that instant Crewes knew she would be all right: she was an actress, and for an actress the only reality is the fantasy of the sound stages. She would not let her eyes get red. She was tougher than he"d imagined.
She turned to him, and when she said, "Thank you, Arthur," it was so soft, and so gentle, Crewes took her in his arms and she huddled close to him, and there was no pa.s.sion in it, no striving to reach bodies, only a fine and warm protectiveness. He silently said no one would hurt her, and silently she said my life is in your hands.
After a while, they walked past the coffee machine and Willie, who said h.e.l.lo Miss Lone it"s good to have you back; and past the a.s.sistant director"s lectern where the shooting schedule was tacked onto the sloping board, where Bruce del Vaille nodded to her, and looked awed; and past the extras slumped in their straight-backed chairs, reading Irving Wallace and knitting, waiting for their calls, and they had been told who it was, and they all called to her and waved and smiled; and past the high director"s chair which was at that moment occupied by the script supervisor, whose name was Henry, and he murmured h.e.l.lo, Miss Lone, we worked together on suchandsuch, and she went to him and kissed him on the cheek, and he looked as though he wanted to cry, too. ForArthur Crewes, in the sound stage somewhere, a bird twittered gaily. He shrugged and laughed, like a child.
Someone yelled "Okay, settle down! Settle down!"
The din fell only a decibel. James Kencannon was talking to Mitchum, to one side of the indoor set that was decorated to be an outdoor set. It was an alley in a Southwestern town, and the cyclorama in the background had been artfully rigged to simulate a carnival somewhere in the middle distance. Lights played off the canvas, and for Valerie Lone it was genuine; a real carnival erected just for her. The alley was dirty and extremely realistic. Extras lounged against the brick walls that were not brick walls, waiting for the call to roll it. The cameraman was setting the angle of the shot, the big piece of equipment on its balloon tires set on wooden tracks, ready to dolly back when the grips pulled it. The a.s.sistant cameraman with an Arriflex on his shoulder was down on one knee, gauging an up-angle for action shooting.
Del Vaille came onto the set and Kencannon nodded to him. "Okay, roll--" Kencannon stopped the preparations for the shot, and asked the first a.s.sistant director to measure off the shot once more, as Mitchum stepped into the position that had, till that moment, been held by his stand-in. The first a.s.sistant unreeled the tape measure, announced it; the cameraman gave a turn to one of the flywheels on the big camera, and nodded ready to the a.s.sistant director, who turned and bawled, "Okay! Roll it!"
A strident bell clanged in the sound stage and dead silence fell. People in mid-step stopped. No one coughed. No one spoke. Tony, the sound mixer, up on his high platform with his earphones and his console, announced, "Take thirty-three Bravo!" which resounded through the cavernous set and was picked up through the comm box by the sound truck outside the sound stage. When it was up to speed, Tony yelled, "Speed!" and the first a.s.sistant director stepped forward into the shot with his wooden clackboard bearing Kencannon"s name and the shot number. He clacked the stick to establish sound synch and get the board photographed, and there was a beat as he withdrew, as Mitchum drew in a breath for the action to come, as everyone poised hanging in limbo and Kencannon--like all directors--relished the moment of absolute power waiting for his voice to announce action.
Infinite moment.
Birth of dreams.