CHAPTER IV
Laura and Oliver Tropenell walked across the gra.s.s in silence, and still in silence they pa.s.sed through under the great dark arch formed by the beech trees.
Laura was extraordinarily moved and excited. Her brother, her dear, dear Gillie, coming home? She had taken the surprising news very quietly, but it had stirred her to the depths of her nature. Without even telling her of what he was going to do, the man now walking by her side had brought about the thing that for years she had longed should come to pa.s.s.
In her husband Laura had become accustomed to a man who was cautious and deliberate to a fault, and who, as so often happens, carried this peculiarity even more into the affairs of his daily life than into his business. Often weeks would go by before G.o.dfrey would make up his mind to carry out some small, necessary improvement connected with the estate.
Yet here was Oliver, who, without saying a word to her about it, had decided that Gillie should come to England just to see the sister he had not seen for seven years! Laura began to think it possible that after all G.o.dfrey _would_ make it up with her brother. Oliver Tropenell had an extraordinary influence over G.o.dfrey Pavely; again and again, as regarded small matters, he had, as it were, made G.o.dfrey"s mind up for him.
A feeling of deep grat.i.tude welled up in her heart for the silent man by her side. She longed for him to speak now, as he had spoken to her, kindly, conciliatingly, but a few minutes ago, in the drawing-room.
But Oliver stalked along dumbly in the intense darkness.
And then suddenly she remembered, with a miserable feeling of discomfort, and yes, of shame, that she could hardly expect him to be as usual. And so it was she who, making a great effort, at last broke the unnatural silence.
"I"ve never thanked you for your letter," she said nervously. "But I"m very much obliged to you, Oliver, for consenting to be my trustee. And I know that G.o.dfrey will be! I hope it won"t give you much trouble--the trusteeship, I mean. I know that Mr. Blackmore, for years past, left it all to G.o.dfrey."
He answered slowly, meditatively, and to her intense relief, quite in his old way. "Yes, I think G.o.dfrey will be pleased. To tell you the truth, Laura, I thought I would take advantage of his pleasure to suggest that plan about Gillie--I mean that you and Gillie and Alice should all go abroad together."
"If only you can persuade G.o.dfrey to let me have Gillie here for a while, I shall be more than content!" She spoke with a rather piteous eagerness.
They were walking very, very slowly. Oliver had now turned on his electric torch, and it threw a bright patch of light on the path immediately before them, making all the darkness about them the blacker and the more intense.
In a hard voice he exclaimed: "Of course Gillie must come here, and stay here! His being anywhere else would be preposterous----" And then, once more, he fell into that strange, disconcerting silence.
The last time they two had walked down under the beeches at night had been some three weeks ago. Laura and G.o.dfrey had dined with the Tropenells, and then G.o.dfrey had said that he had to go home and do some work, leaving her to stay on, for nearly an hour, with the mother and son.
Oliver"s torch had gone out that evening, and he had suggested, a little diffidently, that Laura should take his arm; smiling, she had laid the tips of her fingers lightly on his sleeve. She had felt so happy then, so happy, and absolutely at her ease, with her companion....
Tears welled up in her eyes. She was grateful for the darkness, but her trembling voice betrayed her as she exclaimed, "Oliver? I do again ask you to forget what happened yesterday, and to forgive me for the things I said. I"m very sorry that I spoke as I did."
He stopped walking, and put out his torch. "Don"t be sorry," he said, in a low, constrained voice. "It"s far better that I should know exactly how you feel. Of course I was surprised, for I"d always had a notion that women regarded love from a more ideal standpoint than men seem able to do. But I see now that I was mistaken." Some of the bitterness with which his heart was still full and overflowing crept into his measured voice. "I think you will believe me when I say that I did not mean to insult you----"
He was going on, but she interrupted him.
"--I"m sorry--sorry and ashamed too, Oliver, of what I said.
Please--please forget what happened----"
He turned on her amid the dark shadows.
"If _I_ forget, will _you_?" he asked sombrely.
And she answered, "Yes, yes--indeed I will! But before we put what happened yesterday behind us forever, do let me tell you, Oliver, that I _am_ grateful, deeply grateful, for your----" she hesitated painfully, and then murmured "your affection."
But Oliver Tropenell did not meet her half-way, as she had perhaps thought he would. He was torn by conflicting feelings, cursing himself for having lost his self-control the day before, and yet, even so, deep in his subtle, storm-tossed mind, not altogether sorry for what had happened.
And so it was she who went on, speaking slowly and with difficulty: "I know that I have been to blame! I know that I ought never to have spoken of G.o.dfrey as I have sometimes allowed myself to do to you. According to his lights, he is a good husband, and I know that I have been--that I am--a bitter disappointment to him."
He muttered something--she did not hear what it was, and she hurried on: "What I have wanted--and oh, Oliver, I have wanted it so much--is a friend," almost he heard the unspoken words, "not a lover."
She put out her hand in the darkness and laid it, for a moment, on his arm. And then, suddenly, in that moment of, to him, exquisite, unhoped-for contact, Oliver Tropenell swore to himself most solemnly that he would rest satisfied with what she would, and could, grant him.
And so--
"I know that," he said in measured, restrained tones. "And I have made up my mind to be that friend, Laura. We will both forget what happened yesterday. If you are ashamed, I am a hundred times more so! And do believe me when I tell you that what you said about G.o.dfrey--why, I"ve forgotten it already--had nothing to do with my outburst. I"m a lonely man, my dear, and somehow, without in the least meaning it, I know, you crept into my heart and filled it all. But already, since yesterday, I"ve come to a more reasonable frame of mind."
He waited a moment, despising himself for uttering such lying words, and then he went on, this time honestly meaning what he said: "Henceforth, Laura, I swear that I"ll never again say a word to you that all the world might not hear. I never did, till yesterday----"
"I know, I know," she said hurriedly. "And that was why I was so surprised."
"Let"s put it all behind us and go back to "as we were"!" He was speaking now with a sort of gruff, good-humoured decision, and Laura sighed, relieved, and yet--so unreasonable a being is woman--unsatisfied.
The light from his torch flashed again, and they walked on, under the dark arch of leaves and branches, till they were close to the open road.
And there Laura said, "I wish you would leave me here, Oliver. I feel sure that Aunt Letty is waiting up for you."
He answered her at once. "It won"t make more than five minutes"
difference. I"ll only walk as far as the lodge. It"s a lonely little stretch of road."
"Lonely?" she repeated. "Why, there isn"t a bit of it that isn"t within hail of Rosedean!"
And then, determined to go back to their old easy companionship, that companionship which had lately become so easy and so intimate that when with him she had often spoken a pa.s.sing thought aloud, "Katty came home to-day. I must try and see her to-morrow. She"s a plucky creature, Oliver! I wish that Aunt Letty liked her better than she does."
He answered idly, "There"s nothing much either to like or dislike in Mrs. Winslow--at least so it always seems to me."
But she answered quickly, defensively, "There"s a great deal to like in her--when I think of Katty Winslow I feel ashamed of myself. I"ve known her do such kind things! And then she"s so good about G.o.dfrey--I don"t know what G.o.dfrey would do without her. They knew each other as children. It"s as if she was his sister. All that little Pewsbury world which bores me so, is full of interest to them both. I"m always glad when she"s at Rosedean. I only wish she didn"t go away so often--G.o.dfrey does miss her so!"
"Yes, I know he does," he said drily.
They walked on in silence till they were close to the low lodge.
Laura Pavely held out her hand, and Oliver Tropenell took it in his cool, firm grasp for a moment.
"Good-night," he said. "I suppose we shall meet some time to-morrow?"
She answered eagerly. "Yes, do come in, any time! Alice and I shall be gardening before lunch. G.o.dfrey won"t be back till late, for he"s sure to go straight to the Bank from the station. He"ll be so much obliged to you about that trusteeship, Oliver. It"s really very good of you to take so much trouble."
Oliver Tropenell answered slowly, "Yes, I think G.o.dfrey will be pleased; and as I"ve already told you, I"ll certainly take advantage of his pleasure, Laura, to suggest the plan about Gillie."
Once more she exclaimed: "If only you can persuade G.o.dfrey to let me have Gillie at The Chase for a while, I shall be more than content!"
There was a thrill of excitement, of longing, in her low voice, as, without waiting for an answer, she walked away, leaving him looking after her. The patch of whiteness formed by the hem of her gown moved swiftly along--against the moonlit background of gra.s.s, trees, and sky.
He stood and watched the moving, fluttering bit of whiteness till it vanished in the grey silvery haze. Then, slowly, he turned on his heel and made his way back home.
It was nearly a quarter of a mile from the lodge to The Chase, as the house was always called, but there was a rather shorter way across the gra.s.s, through trees; and Laura, when she came to where she knew the little path to be, left the carriage way, and stepped up on to the gra.s.s.