"Well, Bruce, what is it you have to say to me?"
"Good heavens," said Bruce, looking at his writing-desk, "if I"ve spoken of this once I"ve spoken of it forty times! The inkstand is too full!"
"Oh! I"m so dreadfully sorry," said Edith, feeling the strangeness of Bruce"s want of sense of proportion. He had, as it seemed, to speak to her about some important matter. Yet the inkstand being too full attracted his attention, roused his anger! She remembered he had said these very words the day he came back from his elopement with the art student.
Edith looked round the room, while Bruce smoked. And so she had really made up her mind! She _meant_ to leave him! Not that she intended to see Aylmer again now, except once, perhaps, to say good-bye.
But still, she really intended to change her whole life when he returned again. She felt rather conscience-stricken, but was glad when she looked at Bruce that there had never been anything as yet but Platonic affection between her and Aylmer, which she could have no cause to blush for before Bruce. And how grateful she felt to Aylmer for his wonderful self-control. Thanks to that, she could look Bruce in the face.... Bruce was speaking.
"Edith," he said with some agitation, "I wish to tell you something."
She saw he looked pale and nervous.
"What is it, Bruce?" she asked kindly.
"It"s this," he said in a somewhat pompous tone, "I am in a very strange condition of health. I find I can no longer endure to live in London; I must get away from the war. The doctor says so. If I"m to keep sane, if I"m not to commit suicide, I must give up this domestic life." She stared at him. "Yes, I"m sorry, I"ve tried to endure it," he went on. "I can"t stand the responsibility, the anxiety of the children and everything. I"m--I"m going away."
She said nothing, looking at him in silence.
"Yes. I"m going to America. I"ve taken my pa.s.sage. I"m going on Friday.... I thought of leaving without telling you, but I decided it was better to be open."
"But, Bruce, do you mean for a trip?"
He stood up and looked at her full in the face.
"No, I don"t mean for a trip. I want to live in America."
"And you don"t want me to come too?"
"No, Edith; I can"t endure married life any longer. It doesn"t suit me.
Three years ago I offered you your freedom and you refused to take it; I offer it you again now. You are older, you are perfectly fit to manage your life and the children"s without me. I must be free--free to look after my health and to get away from everything!"
"You mean to leave us altogether then?" said Edith, feeling unspeakably thankful.
"Exactly. That"s just what I do mean."
"But will you be happy--comfortable--alone in America?"
He walked across the room and came back.
"Edith, I"m sorry to pain you, but I shall not be alone."
Edith started, thinking of Madame Frabelle"s letter ... from Liverpool!
Evidently they were going away together.
"Of course I give up the Foreign Office and my salary there, but you have some money of your own, Edith; it will be enough for you and the children to live quietly. And perhaps I shall be able to afford to send you part of my income that my father left me when I get something to do over there," he added rather lamely.
"You mean to get something to do?"
"Yes; when I"m strong enough. I"m very ill--very."
There was a long pause, then Edith said kindly:
"Have you any fault to find with me, Bruce?"
"Edith, you are a perfect mother," he said in a peculiar tone which sounded to Edith like an echo of Madame Frabelle. "I"ve no fault to find with you either as a wife. But I"m not happy here. I"m miserable. I implore you not to make a scene. Don"t oppose me; forgive me--on account of my health. This will save my life."
If he only knew how little she wished to oppose him! She stood up.
"Bruce, you shall do exactly as you like!"
He looked enchanted, relieved.
"I hope you will be happy and well, and I shall try to be. May I just ask--is Madame Frabelle going to America?"
"Edith, I will not deny it. We mean to throw in our lot together! Look out! You"ll have the inkstand over!" She had moved near the writing-table.
Edith stopped herself from a hysterical laugh.
"You won"t mind if I go down to the club for an hour?"
"Certainly not."
"And, Edith--say what you can to my mother, and comfort her. Tell her it"s to save my going off my head, or committing suicide. Will you say that?"
"I will," she replied.
Five minutes later the door banged. Bruce had gone to the club. He hadn"t told her he had taken a room there, and the same evening he sent up for his luggage. He did not wish to see Edith again.
Just before he went out, as if casually for an hour at the club, Edith had said:
"Would you like to come and see Dilly asleep?"
It had occurred to her that at least he had been frank and honest, and for that he deserved to see Dilly again.
"Edith, my nerves won"t stand scenes. I"d better not. I won"t see her."
"Oh, very well!" she cried indignantly. "I offered it for your sake. I would rather you _didn"t_ see her."
"Try not to be angry, Edith. Perhaps--some day--"
"No. Never."
"You would never let me come back again to see you all?"
"Never. Never."
"Edith."