Chapter 93MEI TREVOR
"… I"m not sleeping in the same bed with you!"
"Wow"
It has been hours since I"ve been arguing with Donna. She"s like a solid rock in her stance.
"Darnit"
"And what do you suggest?" I shouted back.
"Should I sleep on the cold floor?"
"… and what"s with this resort?"
"They don"t even have extra mattress!"
I could hear Donna sneered at me at that.
"And why are you complaining to me?"
"Do I own the place?"
"Gosh"
She"s really p.i.s.sing me off.
"Wether you like it or not, we are sleeping together!"
And I made Donna"s eyes round with that. I know I constructed my sentence wrongly but I won"t retract it anyway.
"Hahaha"
"In your dreams!"
She eyed me right there while hugging herself as though I"m going to ravish her.
"Wow"
"Huh, what"s this?" I smirked.
"Huh…"
"This is what most straight girls" problem is…"
"You automatically think WE WANT YOU."
"Goodness, we have taste for G.o.ddam sake!"
And with that, I know I hit a nerve.
It"s not like Donna isn"t beautiful but I"m not admitting that in her face.
"Bleh"
She snickered at me and I could tell she"s fuming in anger.
"Huh, just right back at you, you SHRIMP!"
And that … hit a nerve on me.
I surveyed my body from my toes to my busted b.r.e.a.s.t.s.
"Me?"
"A SHRIMP?"
I can"t possibly accept that.
Just as much as my body is to drool for, my face is to die for.
"Goodness"
"And you… BIPOLAR!" I snapped back.
And that enraged Donna even more. Her chest was rising and falling in anger.
"Hahaha"
And I"m enjoying that.
"What did you just say?"
"BIPOLAR."
I reached out a pillow and took a step backwards towards the door.
I could already feel the change in Donna"s energy, going darker.
"Hahaha"
But I"m not scared. I just felt like running away.
"BIPOLAR, BIPOLAR, BIPOLAR…"
"BIPOLAR!..." I shouted again before finally getting out the door.
[*******]
So here, I ended up in Erika and Andy"s room.
As much as I regretted barging in, I can"t really undo it anymore.
I was really sorry.
"And readers, forgive me, okay?"
So I was lying in bed with the both of them cuddling at my side.
"d.a.m.n"
I did not gave a thought before coming over in their room. I was so occupied of p.i.s.sing off Donna and wanting to get some sleep that I forgot the state of my heart when it comes to Andy.
And of all time, sleep did betray me.
So I was wide awake, staring at the ceiling with the two love birds at my side.
"funny"
But it wasn"t that bad after all.
I have this feeling of fear before, that I avoided meeting Andy if possible.
A lot of Erika"s invitations were bluntly rejected by me in the past months so as not to ignite the fire I have been quenching.
I was scared that if I meet Andy even once, my buried feelings would come alive.
So it took my all when I accepted Erika"s plea of getting everyone together for a drink one night.
And again, everything wasn"t really bad as I thought it would be.
Surprisingly, it didn"t hurt anymore.
Yeah, I"m not hurt anymore.
Was it just INFATUATION?
No…
I know for myself that it was LOVE and it"s real.
You know it"s real when it hurts.
And it seriously hurts at that time that it made me devastated for a couple of months.
And now…
Guess this is what it felt like of someone who has moved on.
I know now that it"s over.
Well, it never really began but in my heart I know it did.
And now it"s over.
So I guess this is "closure".
Moving on isn"t easy. I"d been sad, angry, devastated but with all my might I continued to live my life without Andy and tried to erase even the thought of her.
It was hard but then... time really heals all wound.
And here I am now, I just woke up one day… not loving Andy anymore, that way.