When the little excitement of the diamonds was over, Michael relapsed again into gravity, and he was still grave when he went up to Hillside the next day. A wakeful night"s reflection had brought him no comfort; he felt as though a gulf were opening before him and those whom he loved, and that he dared not, for very dread and giddiness, look into it.
When they returned from church, and were about to sit down to the sumptuous luncheon, he took Geraldine aside and presented his offerings.
To his surprise, she was quite overcome, and would have called her husband to share her pleasure; but he begged her to say nothing just then.
"Audrey has a present, too, but she took it far more calmly," he said, in a rallying tone. But as he spoke he wondered at his cousin"s beauty.
Her complexion had always been very transparent, but now excitement had added a soft bloom. Was it motherhood, he asked himself, that deepened the expression of her eyes and lent her that new gentleness? "I never saw you look better, Gage," he said, in quite an admiring voice; but Geraldine was as unconscious as ever.
"I am very well," she returned, smiling, "only not quite as strong as usual. It is such a pity that Percival would not allow me to invite you to dinner, because he says that I ought to be quiet this evening. He and mother make such a fuss over me. Percival means to take baby and me for a change during the Easter holidays. That will be nice, will it not? I think we shall go to Bournemouth."
"Very nice," he returned absently.
"I wish Audrey would go too, but I am afraid she will not leave Cyril; he is not going away this vacation. That is the worst of a sister being engaged, she is not half so useful."
"I think Audrey would go with you if you asked her; she is very unselfish."
"Yes; but she has to think about someone else now, and I do not wish to be hard on Cyril. He is very nice, and we all like him."
"I am very glad to hear that, Gage."
"Yes; we must just make the best of it. Of course, Percival and I will always consider she is throwing herself away; but that cannot be helped now. By the bye, Michael, this is the first time I have seen you since you came into your fortune. I have never been able to tell you how delighted we both were to hear of it."
"Well, it was a pretty good haul."
"Yes; but no one will do more with it. But you must not buy any more diamonds;" and then she smiled on him. And just then Master Leonard made his appearance in his long lace robe, and, as Geraldine moved to take her boy in her arms, there was no further conversation between them.
They left soon after luncheon. Mr. Bryce had to take an early afternoon train, and Dr. Ross accompanied him to the station. Audrey drove home with her mother; they expected Michael to follow them, but he had other business on hand. There was his interview with Mrs. Blake, and on leaving Hillside he went straight to the Gray Cottage.
Mollie met him at the door. She looked disturbed and anxious.
"Yes; you are to go up to the drawing-room, Captain Burnett," she said, when he asked if Mrs. Blake were at home. "Mamma is there. I heard her tell Biddy so. Do you know"--puckering up her face as though she were ready to cry--"mamma will not speak to any of us--not even to Cyril! She says she is ill, and that only Biddy understands her. It is so odd that she is able to see a visitor."
"What makes you think she is ill, Mollie?"
"Oh, because she looked so dreadful when she came home last night; she could hardly walk upstairs, and Cyril was not there to help her. He was quite frightened when I told him, and went to her room at once; but her door was locked, and she said her head ached so that she could not talk.
Biddy was with her then; we could hear her voice distinctly, and mamma seemed moaning so."
"Has she seen your brother this morning?"
"Yes, just for a minute; but the room was darkened, and he could not see her properly. She told him that the pain had got on the nerves, and that she really could not bear us near her. But she would not let him send for a doctor, and Biddy seemed to agree with her."
"Perhaps she will be better to-morrow," he suggested; and then he left Mollie and went upstairs. "Poor little girl!" he said to himself; "I wonder what she would say if she knew her father were living!"
And then he tapped at the drawing-room door. He was not quite sure whether anyone bade him enter. Mrs. Blake was sitting in a chair drawn close to the fire; her back was towards him. She did not move or turn her head as he walked towards her, and when he put out his hand to her she took no notice of it.
"You have come," she said, in a quick, hard voice. And then she turned away from him and looked into the fire.
"Yes, I have come," he replied quietly, as he sat down on the oak settle that was drawn up near her chair. "I am sorry to see you look so ill, Mrs. Blake."
He might well say so. She had aged ten years since the previous night.
Her face was quite drawn and haggard--he had never before noticed that there were threads of gray in her dark hair--she had always looked so marvellously young; but now he could see the lines and the crows"-feet; and as his sharp eyes detected all this he felt very sorry for her.
"Ill; of course I"m ill," she answered irritably. "All night long I have been wishing I were dead. I said yesterday that I would rather kill myself than tell you my story; but to-day I have thought better of it."
"I am glad of that."
"Of course I am not a fool, and I know I am in your power--yours and that man"s." And here she shivered.
"Will you tell me this one thing first? Is he--is Matthew O"Brien your husband?"
"Yes; I suppose so. I was certainly married to him once."
"Then, why, in the name of heaven, Mrs. Blake, do you allow people to consider you a widow?"
"Because I am a widow," she returned harshly. "Because I have unmarried myself and given up my husband. Because I refused to have anything more to do with him--he brought me disgrace, and I hated him for it."
"But, pardon me, it is not possible--no woman can unmarry herself in this fashion--unless you mean----"
And here he stopped, feeling it impossible to put any such question to her. But what on earth could she mean?
"No, I have not divorced him. I suppose, in one sense, he may still be regarded as my husband; but for fourteen years he has been dead to me, and I have called myself a widow."
"But you must have known it was wrong," he returned, a little bewildered by these extraordinary statements. If she had not looked so wan and haggard, he would have accused her of talking wildly.
"No, Captain Burnett; I do not own it was wrong. Under some circ.u.mstances a woman is bound to defend herself and her children--a tigress will brave a loaded gun if her young are starving. If it were to come over again, I would do the same. But I will acknowledge to you that I did not love my husband."
"No; that is evident."
"I never loved him, though I was foolish enough to marry him. I suppose I cared for him in a sort of way. He was handsome, and had soft, pleasant ways with him; and I was young and giddy, and ready for any excitement. But I had not been his wife three months before I would have given worlds to have undone my marriage."
"Was he a bad husband to you?"
"No. Mat was always too soft for unkindness; but he was not the man for me. Besides, I had married him out of pique--there was someone I liked much better. You see, I am telling you all quite frankly. I am in your power, as I said before. If I refused to speak, you would just go to Mat, and he would tell you everything."
"I am very much relieved to find you so reasonable, Mrs. Blake. It is certainly wiser and better to tell me yourself. You have my promise that, as far as possible, I will give you my help; but at present I do not know how this may be."
"Yes; I will tell you my story," she answered. But there was a bitterness of antagonism in her tone as she said this. "I have always been afraid of you, Captain Burnett; I felt you disliked and mistrusted me, and I have never been easy with you. If it were not for Kester, and your kindness to him, I should be horribly afraid of you. But for Kester"s sake you would not be hard on his mother."
"I would not be hard on any woman," he answered quietly. "It is true I have mistrusted you. I told you so yesterday. But if you will confide in me, you shall not repent your confidence."
"You mean you will not be my enemy."
"I am no woman"s enemy," he said a little proudly. "I wish someone else had been in my place yesterday; you can understand it is not a pleasant business to ask these questions of a lady; but there are many interests involved, and I am like a son to Dr. Ross. I am bound to look into this matter more closely for his sake, and----" he paused, and, if possible, Mrs. Blake turned a little pale.
"Let me tell you quickly," she said. "Perhaps, after all, you will not blame me, and you will help me to keep it from Cyril." And here she looked at him imploringly, and he could see the muscles of her face quivering. "No, I never loved Mat. I felt it was a condescension on my part to marry him. My people were well connected. One of my uncles was a dean, and another was a barrister. My father was a clergyman."
"What was his name?"
"Stephen Carrick. He was Vicar of Bardley."