"A man has no right to lose courage and to show the white feather when he has a wife and six children depending on him," said Michael.
Some chance--or rather say some providential arrangement--had brought him across their threshold. Michael came across all sorts of people in his London life, and, though his acquaintance among City clerks was rather limited, he had known Mr. Somers slightly.
When Michael stepped up to that sick-bed with that wholesome rebuke on his tongue, but his heart very full of sympathy for the stricken man, Robert Somers" difficulties were practically over. The debts that were chafing the life out of him--debts incurred by sickness, by a hundred little disasters--were paid out of Michael"s small means; and, despite his doctor"s prophecy, Robert Somers rose from his bed a braver, stronger man.
Michael never lost interest in the family. They would always be pinched and struggling, he knew--a City clerkship is not an El Dorado of riches, and growing boys and girls have to be clothed and educated. Michael took the eldest boy, Fred, under his wing--by some means or other he got him into Christ"s Hospital. How Fred"s little sisters admired those yellow stockings!--though it may be doubted whether they were not too warm a colour for Fred"s private taste. Fred was a Grecian by this time--a big strapping fellow he looked beside Kester--with a freckled, intelligent face and a mop of dark hair. He was a great favourite of Audrey"s, and she had once induced her mother to let him spend a fortnight at Woodcote. Dr. Ross also took a kindly interest in him.
"Fred will make his mark one day. You are right, Michael," he observed.
"He has plenty of brains under that rough thatch of his. He will shoulder his way through the world. Christ"s Hospital has turned out many a fine scholar, and Fred does not mean to be behind them."
Audrey bade good-bye to Michael somewhat reluctantly.
"You will follow us in ten days, will you not?" she asked rather anxiously. "Remember that London never suits you; you are always better at Rutherford, and it will be such a pity to lose your good looks--Scotland has done wonders for you. Percival was only saying so this morning."
"I shall be sure to come as soon as I have settled this troublesome piece of business," he returned cheerfully. "Take care of yourself, my Lady Bountiful, and do not get into mischief during your Mentor"s absence."
But when the hansom had driven off, Michael did an unusual thing. He walked to a small oak-framed mirror that hung between the windows, and regarded himself with earnest scrutiny. He was alone; the two boys had started off in an omnibus to the National Gallery, and Michael had promised to lunch with a friend in Lincoln"s Inn.
"My good looks," he soliloquised. "I wonder if my health has really improved? She was right. I felt a different man in Scotland. I have not felt so well and strong since that Zulu slashed me--poor devil! I sent him to limbo. It is true the doctors were not hopeless; in time and with care, if I could only keep my nerves in order--that was what they said.
Oh, if I could only believe them--if I could only feel the power for work--any sort of work--coming back to me, I would--I would----" He stopped and broke off the thread of his thoughts abruptly. "What a fool I am! I will not let this temptation master me. If I were once to entertain such a hope, to believe it possible, I should work myself into a restless fever. Avaunt, Satanas! Sweet, subtle, most impossible of impossibilities--a sane man cannot be deluded. Good G.o.d! why must some men lead such empty lives?" For a moment the firm, resolute mouth twitched under the reddish-brown moustache, then Michael rang the bell and ordered a hansom.
It was late on a September evening when Audrey drove through Rutherford.
She leaned forward in the carriage a little eagerly as they pa.s.sed the Gray Cottage--surely Mollie would be at the window! But no! the windows were blank; no girlish face was there to greet her, and with a slight feeling of disappointment she drew back again. But nothing could long spoil the joy of returning home.
"Oh, mother, does it not all look lovely?" she exclaimed, later on that evening. She had been everywhere--to the stables, the poultry-yard, the dairy, and lastly to Mrs. Draper"s room. The twilight was creeping over the gardens of Woodcote before Audrey had finished her rambles. She had been down to the lake, she had sat on "Michael"s bench," she had looked at her favourite shrubs and flowers, and Dr. Ross smiled as he heard her gaily singing along the terraces.
"Come in, you madcap!" he said good-humouredly. "Do you know how heavy the dews are? There, I told you so; your dress is quite damp."
"What does it matter?" returned Audrey, with superb disdain. ""The rains of Marly do not wet!"--do you recollect that exquisite courtier-like speech?--so, no doubt, Woodcote dews are quite wholesome. Is it not delicious to be home again? And there is no more "Will you come ben?"
from honest Jean, and "Will you have a sup of porridge, Miss Ross, or a few broth to keep out the cold?" "Home, home, there is no place like home!"" And then they heard her singing at the top of her fresh young voice, as she roamed through the empty rooms, some old ballad Michael had taught her:
"Oh, there"s naebody hears Widow Miller complain, Oh, there"s naebody hears Widow Miller complain; Though the heart of this world"s as hard as a stane, Yet there"s naebody hears Widow Miller complain."
"Dear child!" observed her mother fondly. "I do not think anyone ever was happier than our Audrey. She is like a sunbeam in the house, John;"
and then they both paused to listen:
"Ye wealthy and wise in this fair world of ours, When your fields wave wi" gowd, your gardens wi" flowers, When ye bind up the sheaves, leave out a few grains To the heart-broken widow who never complains."
CHAPTER XX
"THE LITTLE RIFT"
"And sigh that one thing only has been lent To youth and age in common--discontent."
MATTHEW ARNOLD.
Audrey was very busy the next morning unpacking and settling a hundred things with her mother and Mrs. Draper. She had fully expected that Mollie would have made her appearance at her usual time; but when the luncheon-hour arrived, and still no Mollie, she felt a little perplexed.
Kester had entrusted her with numerous messages, and she had now no resource but to go herself to the Gray Cottage and deliver them. Audrey was never touchy, never stood on her dignity as most people do; but the thought did cross her that for once Mollie had been a little remiss.
"I would so much rather have seen her at Woodcote," she said to herself, as she walked quickly down the High Street. Mrs. Ross was going up to Hillside to look after Geraldine, and Audrey had promised to join her there in an hour"s time. "I never can talk comfortably to Mollie at the Gray Cottage; Mrs. Blake always monopolises me so."
But Audrey carefully refrained from hinting, even to herself, the real reason for her reluctance. She had a curious dread of seeing Mr. Blake, an unaccountable wish to keep out of his way as much as possible; but not for worlds would she have acknowledged this.
She opened the green gate, and Zack bounded out to meet her with his usual bark of welcome; but no Mollie followed him, only Biddy, looking more like a witch than ever, with a red silk handkerchief tied over her gray hair, hobbled across the pa.s.sage.
"The mistress and Miss Mollie are in the drawing-room," she said, fixing her bright hawk-like eyes on Audrey. "And how is it with yourself, Miss Ross?--you look as blooming as a rose before it is gathered. It is a purty compliment," as Audrey laughed; "but it is true, and others will be telling you so, Miss Ross, avick."
Audrey blushed a little, for there was a meaning look in the old woman"s eyes. Then she ran lightly upstairs; the drawing-room door was half open, and she could hear Mollie"s voice reading aloud; "Pompey and Pharsalia" caught her ear; then she gave the door a little push, and Mollie"s book dropped on the floor.
"Miss Ross! oh, Miss Ross!" she exclaimed half hysterically, but she did not move from her place.
It was Mrs. Blake who took Audrey"s hands and kissed her airily on either cheek.
"My dear Miss Ross!" she exclaimed, in her soft, impressive voice, "this is almost too good of you. I told Mollie that I knew you would come. "Do you think she will have the heart to stay away when she knows that we are perfectly famished for a sight of her?" that was what I said when Mollie was plaguing me to let her go to Woodcote this morning."
"But I was expecting her, Mrs. Blake," returned Audrey, drawing the girl to her side as she stood apart rather awkwardly. "I thought it was unkind of Mollie to desert me the first morning. Every time the door opened I said to myself, "That is Mollie." I half made up my mind to be offended at last."
"There, mamma, I told you so!" observed Mollie rather piteously; "I knew Miss Ross would be hurt; that is why I begged so hard to go."
"Poor mamma! she is always in the wrong," returned Mrs. Blake, with a touch of petulance. "I put it to you, Miss Ross: would it not have been utter want of consideration on my part to allow Mollie to hinder you with her chattering just when you were unpacking and so dreadfully busy?
"Take my advice, and stop away until you are wanted," that is what I said to Mollie, and actually the foolish child got into a regular pet about it; yes, you may look ashamed of yourself, Mollie, but you know I said I should tell Miss Ross. You can see by her eyes how she has been crying, and all because I insisted you were not to be worried."
"Mollie never worries me," returned Audrey, with a kind look at her favourite"s flushed face.
But she did not dare pursue the subject; she knew poor Mollie was often thwarted in her little plans. If her mother had a sudden caprice or whim to be gratified, Mollie was the one who must always set her own wishes aside--for whom any little disappointment was judged salutary. Perhaps the discipline did not really harm Mollie; her humility and unselfishness guarded her against any rankling bitterness.
"Mamma never likes me to do things without her," she said later on that afternoon. "I think she is a little jealous of my going to you so much, Miss Ross; she was so angry when I asked to run across this morning, because she said I wanted you all to myself. I know I was silly to cry about it, but I was so sure you would be expecting me; and last night mamma made me come out with her, and I wanted to stay at home and watch for you: we went all the way to Brail; that is quite mamma"s favourite walk now--and, oh, I was so tired."
"But you must not fret, Mollie; and of course you must do as your mother wishes: you know I shall always understand."
"Mamma says that you are her friend, and not mine," returned Mollie, with big melancholy eyes; "and that I ought not to put myself so forward: but you are my friend, too, are you not, Miss Ross?"
"Of course I am, my dear little girl, just as Michael is Kester"s friend; and now I must tell you some more about him."
But this was when she and Mollie were walking towards Hillside.
Audrey had deftly changed the subject after Mrs. Blake"s remonstrance; but as she talked she still held Mollie"s hand. She felt very happy to be sitting in that pretty shady drawing-room again, watching the pigeons fluttering among the old arches. There was a bowl of dark crimson carnations on the little work-table, and a cl.u.s.ter of the same fragrant flowers relieved the sombreness of Mrs. Blake"s black gown. She was looking handsomer than ever this afternoon; she wore a little lace kerchief over her dark glossy hair, and the delicate covering seemed to enhance her picturesque, Mary Queen of Scots beauty, and to heighten the brilliancy of her large dark eyes. Audrey had never seen her look so charming, and her soft playful manners completed the list of her fascinations. As usual, Audrey forgave her petulance and want of consideration for Mollie. It was difficult to find fault with Mrs.
Blake; she was so gay and good-humoured, she so soon forgot anything that had ruffled her, she was so childlike and irresponsible, that one seemed to judge her by a separate code.
"I must go!" exclaimed Audrey, starting up, when it had chimed the hour.
She was in the midst of a description of one of their walking expeditions--an attempt to reach a lovely tarn in the heart of the hills. "I must not wait any longer, as my mother will be expecting me.
Mollie, put on your hat; you can walk with me to Hillside;" and then she hesitated.
It was very strange that all this time Mr. Blake"s name had not been mentioned. They had talked about Kester and Michael, but for once Cyril"s name had not been on his mother"s lips.