The garden of Woodcote was the best in Rutherford; even the Hill houses could not compete with it: an extensive lawn lay before the house, with a shrubbery on one side, and the trees and shrubs were exceedingly rare; a little below the house the ground sloped rather steeply, and a succession of terraces and flower-beds led down to a miniature lake with a tiny island; here there were some swans and a punt, and the tall trees that bordered the water were the favourite haunt of blackbirds and thrushes.
Captain Burnett sat down on a bench facing the water, and Booty stood and barked at the swans. How sweet and peaceful everything looked this evening! The water was golden in the evening sunshine; a blue t.i.t was flashing from one tree to another; some thrushes were singing a melodious duet; the swans arched their snowy necks and looked proudly at him; some children"s voices were audible in the distance. There was a thoughtful expression in Captain Burnett"s eyes, a concentrated melancholy that was often there when he found himself utterly alone.
Captain Burnett had one confidant--his cousin John. Not that he often called him by that name, their ages were too dissimilar to permit such easy familiarity; but he had once owned to Dr. Ross, to the man who loved him as a father, that his life had been a failure.
"Only a failure in the sense that you are no longer fit for active duty," had been the reply. "You must not forget the Victoria Cross, Michael."
"Oh, that was nothing; any other man would have done the same in my place," Michael had retorted with some heat, for he hated to be reminded of his good deeds.
Perhaps he was right: hundreds of brave young Englishmen would have acted in the same way had they been placed in the same circ.u.mstances.
The English army is full of heroes, thank G.o.d! Nevertheless, Michael Burnett had earned his Victoria Cross dearly.
It was in one of the Zulu skirmishes. A detachment of the enemy had surprised them at night; but the little handful of men had repulsed them bravely. Captain Burnett knew help was at hand; they had only to hold out until a larger contingent should join them. He hoped things were going well. They had just driven the Zulus backwards, when, in the dim light of the flickering watch-fires, he saw dusky figures moving in the direction of a hut where a few sick and wounded men had been placed.
There was not a second to lose; in another moment the poor fellows would have been butchered. Calling out to some of his men to follow him, and not perceiving that he was alone, he tore through the scrub, and entered the hut by a hole that served as a window. Michael once owned that he fought like a demon that night; but the thought of the few helpless wretches writhing in terror on their pallet beds behind him seemed to give him the force of ten men. "They shall pa.s.s only over my body! G.o.d save my poor fellows!" was his inward cry, as he blocked up the narrow doorway and struck at his dusky foes like a madman.
More than one poor lad lived to look back on that day, and to bless their gallant deliverer. "No one else could have done it, sir," observed one of them; "but the Captain never knew how to give in. I was watching them, and I thought the devils would have finished him. He staggered back once, and Bob Jaggers gave a groan, for we thought it was all up with us; and though I would have made shift to fight before I would be killed like a rat in a hole, one could not do much with a broken arm.
When our men rushed in, he was pretty nearly finished; one of the savages had him by the knees. Of course they gave him the Cross. For the matter of that, he ought to have had it before.
"Did you ever hear how he saved little Tom Blatchley"s life? Well, I will tell you"; and hereupon followed one of those touching incidents which are so frequent, and which gild with glory even the b.l.o.o.d.y annals of war.
Yes, they gave him the Victoria Cross; but as he lay on his bed of suffering, disabled by cruel wounds, Michael knew that he had won it at the expense of all that men count dear. "Greater love hath no man than this, that a man lay down his life for his friends." There were times when, in his anguish, Michael could have prayed that his life--his useless, broken life--might have been taken too. How gladly, how thankfully would he have yielded it! how willingly would he have turned his face to the wall, and ended the conflict, sooner than endure the far bitterer ordeal that lay before him! for he was young, and he knew his career was ended, and that, brave soldier as he was, he could no longer follow the profession that he loved. It was doubtful for a long time how far he would recover from the effects of that terrible night; his wounds were long in healing. The princ.i.p.al injuries were in the head and thigh.
One or two of his physicians feared that he would never walk again; the limb seemed to contract, and neuralgic pains made his life a misery. To add to his troubles, his nerves were seriously affected, and though he was no coward, depression held him at times in its fell grip, and mocked him with delusive pictures of other men"s happiness. Like Bunyan"s poor tempted Christian, he, too, at times espied a foul fiend coming over the field to meet him, and had to wage a deadly combat with many a doubt and hard, despairing thought. "You are a wreck, Michael Burnett!" the grim tempter seemed to say to him. "Better be quit of it all! Before you are thirty your work is over; what will you do with the remainder of your life? You are poor--perhaps crippled; no woman will look at you. You have your Cross--a little bit of rusty iron--but does such empty glory avail? You have aches and pains in plenty; your future looks promising, my fine fellow! A hero! In truth those ten minutes have cost you dearly!
no wonder you repent of your rash gallantry!"
"I repent of nothing," Michael would rejoin, in that dumb inward argument so often renewed. "If it were to come over again, I would do just the same. "Greater love hath no man than this";" for in his semi-delirious hours those Divine words seemed to set themselves to solemn music, and to echo in his brain with ceaseless repet.i.tion. "A life given, a life laid down, a life spent in suffering--is it not all the same--a soldier"s duty? Shall I shirk my fate? Would it not be better to bear it like a man?" and Michael would set his teeth hard, and with an inward prayer for patience--for in the struggle the man was learning to pray--girded himself up again to the daily fight.
Once, when there had been a fresh outbreak of mischief, and they had brought him down to Woodcote, that he might be more carefully nursed than in the town lodgings which was all Michael Burnett called home, Audrey, who, after her usual pitiful fashion, wore herself out in her efforts to soothe and comfort the invalid, once read to him some beautiful lines out of a poem ent.i.tled "The Disciples."
Michael, who was in one of his dark moods, made no comment on the pa.s.sage which she had read in a trembling voice of deep feeling; but when she left the room on some errand, he stretched out his hand, and read it over again:
"But if, impatient, thou let slip thy cross, Thou wilt not find it in this world again, Nor in another; here, and here alone, Is given thee to suffer for G.o.d"s sake."
When Audrey returned the book was in its place, and Michael was lying with his eyes closed, and the frown of pain still knitting his temples.
He was not asleep, but she dare not disturb him by offering to go on with the poem. She sat down at a little distance and looked out of the window, rather sorrowfully. How strong she was! how full of health and enjoyment! and this poor Michael, who had acted so n.o.bly----Audrey"s eyes were full of tears. And all the time Michael was saying to himself, "After all, I am a coward. What if I must suffer? Life will not last for ever."
By and by Michael owned that even his hard lot had compensations. He became used to his semi-invalid existence. Active work of any sort was impossible--that is, continuous work. He had tried it when his friends had found an easy post for him, and had been obliged to give it up. He still suffered severely from neuralgic headaches that left him worn and exhausted. His maimed leg often troubled him; he could not walk far, and riding was impossible.
"You must make up your mind to be an idle man--at least, for the present, Captain Burnett," one of his doctors had said to him, and Michael had languidly acquiesced. To be a soldier had been his one ambition, and he cared for little else. He had enough to keep him in moderate comfort as a bachelor, and he had faint expectations from an uncle who lived in Calcutta; but when questioned on this point, Michael owned he was not sanguine.
"My Uncle Selkirk is by no means an old man," he would say. "Any insurance office would consider his the better life of the two. Besides, he might marry--he is not sixty yet; even old men make fools of themselves by taking young wives. It is ill waiting for dead men"s shoes at the best of times. In this case it would be rank stupidity."
"Then you will never be able to marry, Michael;" for it was to Mrs. Ross that this last speech was addressed.
"My dear cousin, do you think any girl would look at a sickly, ill-tempered fellow like me?" was the somewhat bitter reply; and Mrs.
Ross"s kind heart was troubled at the tone.
"You should not call yourself names, my dear. You are not ill-tempered.
No one minds a little crossness now and then. Even John can say a sharp word when he is put out. I think you are wrong, Michael. You are rather morbid on this point. They say pity is akin to love."
"But I object to be pitied," he returned somewhat haughtily; "and what is more, I will commend myself to no woman"s toleration. I will not be dominated by any weaker vessel. If I should ever have the happiness of having a wife--but there will be no Mrs. Michael Burnett, Cousin Emmeline--I should love her as well as other men love their wives, but I should distinctly insist on her keeping her proper place. Just imagine"--working himself up to nervous irritation--"being at the mercy of some healthy, high-spirited young creature, who will insult me every day with her overplus of pure animal enjoyment. The effect on me would be crushing--absolutely crushing."
"Audrey is very high-spirited, Michael, but I am sure she sympathises with you as nicely as possible."
"We were not speaking of Audrey, were we?" he replied, with a slight change of expression. "I think it is the Ross idiosyncrasy to wander hopelessly from any given subject; I imagined that we were suggesting an impossible wife for your humble servant. Far be it from me to deny myself comfort in the shape of feminine cousins or friends."
"Yes, of course; and Geraldine and Audrey are just like your sisters, Michael."
"Are they?" a little dryly. "Well, as I never had a sister, I cannot be a good judge; but from what other fellows tell me, I imagine Audrey bullies me enough to be one. Anyhow, I take the brotherly prerogative of bullying her in return."
And with this remarkable statement the conversation dropped.
Captain Burnett spent half his time with his cousins, oscillating between Woodcote and his lodgings in town. Dr. Ross wished him to live with them entirely; he had a great respect and affection for his young kinsman, and, as he often told his wife, Michael helped him in a hundred ways.
"He has the clearest head and the best common-sense I ever knew in any man. I would trust Mike"s judgment before my own. Poor fellow! he has gone through so much himself, that I think he sees deeper into things than most people. It is wonderful what knowledge of character he has.
The boys always say there is no cheating the Captain."
Michael owned himself grateful for his cousin"s kindness, but he declined to call Woodcote his home.
"I must have my own diggings," was his answer--"a burrow where I can run to earth when my pet fiend tries to have a fling at me. Seriously, there are times when I am best alone--and, then, in town one sees one"s friends. For a sick man, or whatever you like to call me, my taste is decidedly gregarious. "I would not shut me from my kind." Oh dear no!
There is no study so interesting as human nature, and I am avowedly a student of anthropology; London is the place for a man with a hobby like mine."
Nevertheless, the chief part of Captain Burnett"s time had been spent latterly at Woodcote.
CHAPTER V
THE NEW MASTER
"We agree pretty well in our tastes and habits--yet so as "with a difference." We are generally in harmony, with occasional bickerings, as it should be among near relatives."--ESSAYS OF "ELIA."
Booty grew tired of barking at the swans long before his master had roused from his abstraction; it was doubtful how much longer Captain Burnett would have sat with his eyes fixed dreamily on the water, if a tall figure in white had not suddenly appeared under the arching trees, and Audrey stood before him.
"I knew where I should find you," she said, as he rose rather slowly from his seat. "I have christened this bench Michael"s Seat. How sweet the lake looks this evening! I wish I could stay to enjoy it, but I must go back to the drawing-room. Percival has come, and, do you know, the dressing-gong sounded ten minutes ago, and you have taken no notice of it."
"I will go at once," was the answer, but to his surprise she stopped him.
"Wait one moment, Michael; I have to ask you a favour. I want you to be kind, and to take a great deal of notice of Mr. Blake. He is very young and shy, and though his mother says he is so clever--and, indeed, father says so, too--one would not find it out, because he is so quiet, and you know how formidable Percival must be to a shy person."
"And you want me to take your new _protege_ under my wing?" he returned, dissembling his surprise.
She had put her hands on his arm, and was speaking with unusual earnestness, and he knew, by a certain look in her eyes, that something had vexed her.
"He is not my _protege_," she answered quickly. "You talk as though he were a boy, a mere child, instead of being what he is--an exceedingly clever and gentlemanly young man. Michael, you generally understand me--you are always my ally when Percival is on his high horse--and I want you to stand Mr. Blake"s friend to-night."
"And I am not even to form my own opinion? Supposing the moment I shake hands with your pro--I mean your visitor--I become conscious of an inward antagonism? You see, Audrey, I am subject to likes and dislikes, in common with other people."