But to this Michael would not agree. He said, with a great deal of feeling, that Audrey was not the girl to let any love-affair spoil her life; she thought too little of herself, was too considerate and unselfish, to allow any private unhappiness to get too strong a hold over her, and so spoil other people"s lives.
"You will see what sort of stuff she has in her," he said, with the enthusiasm of a lover who can find no flaw at all. "She will bear her sorrow bravely, and not allow it to interfere with others. She is far too good and n.o.ble. You need not fear for her; she has strength enough for a dozen women."
And Dr. Ross felt himself a little comforted by such words.
"Do you mind waiting up for her to-night?" he asked presently.
"Unfortunately, Emmie has sent all the servants to bed, because I said I had some writing to do. I feel very upset about all this, and she will find out from my manner that something is amiss. Would it bother you, Mike? She will just come in here and warm herself; but if you tell her you are tired, she will not detain you."
"I can have no objection to do that," replied Michael, trying to hide his reluctance; and, indeed, Dr. Ross looked so pale and jaded, that Audrey"s suspicions would have been excited. "Go to bed and get a good night"s rest; it is nearly twelve now, and they meant to be home by one."
Then Dr. Ross allowed himself to be persuaded.
"I don"t know about the good night"s rest," he replied; "but I should be glad to think over the whole thing quietly before I see either of them.
There is no hurry, as you say, and perhaps you had better get your interview over with O"Brien."
"Shall you tell Cousin Emmeline?"
"Tell Emmie!" and here the Doctor"s voice was somewhat irritable, as one disagreeable detail opened after another. "Not to-night, certainly. Why, she will be asleep. No, it would never do to tell her before Audrey; it would get round to Geraldine, and there would be the deuce of a row.
Tell the child I was tired, and bid her good-night."
And then Dr. Ross shook Michael"s hand with fervour and took himself off.
Michael spent a dreary hour by himself in the study. It was a relief to him when he heard the carriage-wheels, but as he opened the door he was quite dazzled at the scene before him. It was a brilliant moonlight night, and the terrace and wide lawn were bathed in the pure white light. A crisp frost had touched the gra.s.s and silvered each blade, and the effect against the dark background of trees and shrubs was intensely beautiful.
And the moonlight shone full on Audrey"s upturned face, as she stood talking to her lover, and the silken folds of her dress and her soft furred cloak and hood looked almost of unearthly whiteness. In Michael"s bewildered eyes she seemed invested at the present moment with some new and regal beauty; but her light musical laugh dispelled the illusion.
"Why, Michael, what has become of father?"
"He was tired, and went off to bed more than an hour ago. I hope you do not object to his deputy. I suppose you are not coming in, Blake, as it is so late?"
"Of course he is not," returned Audrey in a tone that allowed of no appeal. "He has early work to-morrow, and must get as much rest as he can. Good-night, Cyril; we have had a delightful evening, have we not?"
And to this Cyril responded gaily--for it was not possible there could be any lingering adieus before Michael; and as Cyril ran down the terrace Audrey waited until Michael had fastened the door, and then accompanied him to the study.
"How nice and warm it is!" she observed in a pleased tone. "You always keep up such a splendid fire."
"I am a chilly mortal, you know, and these March nights have a touch of December in them."
"Yes; it is quite frosty."
And Audrey threw back her hood and cloak and sat down in Dr. Ross"s favourite chair. "Had she any idea how like a picture she looked,"
Michael wondered, "with all those soft white draperies about her, and the sparkling cross upon her neck?" Then he turned away his head with a mute sensation of pain. How happy, how very happy, she looked!
"We have had such a nice evening, she began in her most animated manner; "everything was so well arranged. There was a dinner-party first, which was followed by what they called a Cinderella dance; but actually they do not mean to break up for another hour and a half. Mrs. Charrington was quite annoyed because we came home so early."
"And you enjoyed yourself?"
"Oh, immensely! I waltzed twice with Cyril. Do you know, he dances splendidly--he was certainly my best partner."
"Yes; he looks as though he would dance well. Would you believe it, Audrey, that when I was a youngster I was considered a good dancer, too?
It is rather droll to remember that now."
"I can very easily believe it--you do everything well, Michael."
"Pshaw!" And then Michael added, with a pretended yawn: "I think I could sleep well, though."
But Audrey refused to take this very broad hint.
"What a hurry you are in! And I have not warmed myself yet. Do stay a little longer, Michael. I so seldom get you to myself."
"But it is very late," he returned, unwilling to yield.
"I will only keep you a few minutes," she replied eagerly; "but I want to tell you something."
Then he was obliged to sit down again.
"What is it?" he asked a little languidly, for the spell of her presence was so strong that it threatened to subjugate him. He was never willingly alone with her now. The fear was always upon him that, in some weak moment, he might betray himself. The fear was an idle one--no man was less likely than Michael to lose his self-control; but, nevertheless, it was there.
"It is about Cyril," she returned softly. "Dr. Charrington has been so nice to him to-night. He stood out once during the Lancers, and Dr.
Charrington came up to him, and they had quite a long talk together. He said father had been speaking to him, and that he had quite made up his mind that Cyril should be in the upper school next year, when Mr.
Hanbury left. It would be a better position, and he would be able to have private pupils. And he as good as told him that he would do his best to push him, for father"s sake."
"Blake must have been very pleased at this," replied Michael; but he spoke in a dull, monotonous way.
"Yes; he is quite excited. Don"t you see," she continued a little shyly, "it will make all the difference to us if Dr. Charrington pushes Cyril; for of course it will make it possible for him to marry."
Then Michael felt as though he had accidentally touched a full-charged battery. He waited until the numb, tingling sensation had left him before he answered her.
"I did not know that you wished to shorten your engagement," he said very quietly; "I understood that there would be no talk of settling for the next two or three years; but, of course, if your father has no objection----"
"How you talk, Michael!" returned Audrey, blushing with some annoyance at this obvious misunderstanding of her meaning; "it is Cyril who is in a hurry: for myself, I should be perfectly content to go on as we are for the next five years. Do you not remember my tirade on the pleasures of freedom?"
"I think I do recall something of the kind." Alas! had he ever forgotten anything she had said to him?
"Well, I am afraid I am of the same opinion still; only I dare not let Cyril know that: he would be so hurt. I suppose," reflectively, "men are different from women; they do always seem in such a dreadful hurry about everything. When Cyril complains that he feels unsettled, and that I get between him and his work, I do not pretend to understand him. I am very matter-of-fact, am I not, Michael?"
"I should not have said so."
"Oh, but I am; and I am afraid Cyril thinks so. Well, as I have told you my good news I will not detain you any longer." And then Michael rose with a feeling of relief.
But as he followed her a few minutes later upstairs, he wondered what she must have thought of him. With all his efforts, he had been unable to bring himself to utter one word of congratulation. "It would have been a lie," he said to himself vehemently; "how could I find it in my heart to deceive her for a moment? This may be their last happy day, Heaven help them both!" and Michael went to bed in profound wretchedness.
"My roses are withered," thought Audrey, as she regarded the drooping buds and leaves; "my poor beautiful roses, and they were Cyril"s gift, too. What a pity that flowers must die, and we must grow old--that in this world there must always be decay and change! Shall I ever be happier than I am to-night, with Cyril to love me, and Michael--dear Michael--to be my friend? What makes him so grave? He is always grave now." And then she sighed and laid down her flowers, and took the glittering cross from her neck. "My poor Michael! I should like to see him happy, too," she finished, as she put it away in its case.
CHAPTER x.x.xV
"OLIVE WILL ACKNOWLEDGE ANYTHING"