He longed for night, that he might again steal to the grave in the haunted grove. She might come again--who knew? He felt no fear, nothing but a terrible hunger to see her again. But she did not come that night--nor the next--nor the next. Two weeks went by and he had not seen her. Perhaps he would never see her again--the thought filled him with anguish not to be borne. He knew now that he loved her--Isabel Temple, dead for eighty years. This was love--this searing, torturing, intolerably sweet thing--this possession of body and soul and spirit. The poets had sung but weakly of it. He could tell them better if he could find words. Could other men have loved at all--could any man love those blowzy, common girls of earth? It seemed impossible--absurd. There was only one thing that could be loved--that white spirit. No wonder his uncle had died. He, Roger Temple, would soon die too. That would be well. Only the dead could woo Isabel.
Meanwhile he revelled in his torment and his happiness--so madly commingled that he never knew whether he was in heaven or h.e.l.l. It was beautiful--and dreadful--and wonderful--and exquisite--oh, so exquisite. Mortal love could never be so exquisite. He had never lived before--now he lived in every fibre of his being.
He was glad Aunt Catherine did not worry him with questions. He had feared she would. But she never asked any questions now and she was afraid of Roger, as she had been afraid of his uncle. She dared not ask questions. It was a thing that must not be tampered with. Who knew what she might hear if she asked him questions? She was very unhappy.
Something dreadful had happened to her poor boy--he had been bewitched by that hussy--he would die as his uncle had died.
"Mebbe it"s best," she muttered. "He"s the last of the Temples, so mebbe she"ll rest in her grave when she"s killed "em all. I dunno what she"s sich a spite at _them_ for--there"d be more sense if she"d haunt the Mortons, seein" as a Morton killed her. Well, I"m mighty old and tired and worn out. It don"t seem that it"s been much use, the way I"ve slaved and fussed to bring that b"y up and keep things together for him--and now the ghost"s got him. I might as well have let him die when he was a sickly baby."
If this had been said to Roger he would have retorted that it was worthwhile to have lived long enough to feel what he was feeling now.
He would not have missed it for a score of other men"s lives. He had drunk of some immortal wine and was as a G.o.d. Even if she never came again, he had seen her once, and she had taught him life"s great secret in that one unforgettable exchange of eyes. She was his--his in spite of his ugliness and his crooked shoulder. No man could ever take her from him.
But she did come again. One evening, when the darkening grove was full of magic in the light of the rising yellow moon shining across the level field, Roger sat on the big boulder by the grave. The evening was very still; there was no sound save the echoes of noisy laughter that seemed to come up from the bay sh.o.r.e--drunken fishermen, likely as not. Roger resented the intrusion of such a sound in such a place--it was a sacrilege. When he came here to dream of her, only the loveliest of muted sounds should be heard--the faintest whisper of trees, the half-heard, half-felt moan of surf, the airiest sigh of wind. He never read Wordsworth now or any other book. He only sat there and thought of her, his great eyes alight, his pale face flushed with the wonder of his love.
She slipped through the dark boughs like a moonbeam and stood by the stone. Again he saw her quite plainly--saw and drank her in with his eyes. He did not feel surprise--something in him had known she would come again. He would not move a muscle lest he lose her as he had lost her before. They looked at each other--for how long? He did not know; and then--a horrible thing happened. Into that place of wonder and revelation and mystery reeled a hiccoughing, laughing creature, a drunken sailor from a harbour ship, with a leering face and desecrating breath.
"Oh, you"re here, my dear--I thought I"d catch you yet," he said.
He caught hold of her. She screamed. Roger sprang forward and struck him in the face. In his fury of sudden rage the strength of ten seemed to animate his slender body and pa.s.s into his blow. The sailor reeled back and put up his hands. He was a coward--and even a brave man might have been daunted by that terrible white face and those blazing eyes.
He backed down the path.
"Shorry--shorry," he muttered. "Didn"t know she was your girl--shorry I b.u.t.ted in. Shentlemans never b.u.t.t in--shorry--shir--shorry."
He kept repeating his ridiculous "shorry" until he was out of the grove. Then he turned and ran stumblingly across the field. Roger did not follow; he went back to Isabel Temple"s grave. The girl was lying across it; he thought she was unconscious. He stooped and picked her up--she was light and small, but she was warm flesh and blood; she clung uncertainly to him for a moment and he felt her breath on his face. He did not speak--he was too sick at heart. She did not speak either. He did not think this strange until afterwards. He was incapable of thinking just then; he was dazed, wretched, lost.
Presently he became aware that she was timidly pulling his arm. It seemed that she wanted him to go with her--she was evidently frightened of that brute--he must take her to safety. And then--
She moved on down the little path and he followed. Out in the moonlit field he saw her clearly. With her drooping head, her flowing dark hair, her great brown eyes, she looked like the nymph of a wood-brook, a haunter of shadows, a creature sprung from the wild. But she was mortal maid, and he--what a fool he had been! Presently he would laugh at himself, when this dazed agony should clear away from his brain. He followed her down the long field to the bay sh.o.r.e. Now and then she paused and looked back to see if he were coming, but she never spoke.
When she reached the sh.o.r.e road she turned and went along it until they came to an old grey house fronting the calm grey harbour. At its gate she paused. Roger knew now who she was. Catherine had told him about her a month ago.
She was Lilith Barr, a girl of eighteen, who had come to live with her uncle and aunt. Her father had died some months before. She was absolutely deaf as the result of some accident in childhood, and she was, as his own eyes told him, exquisitely lovely in her white, haunting style. But she was not Isabel Temple; he had tricked himself--he had lived in a fool"s paradise--oh, he must get away and laugh at himself. He left her at her gate, disregarding the little hand she put timidly out--but he did not laugh at himself. He went back to Isabel Temple"s grave and flung himself down on it and cried like a boy. He wept his stormy, anguished soul out on it; and when he rose and went away, he believed it was forever. He thought he could never, never go there again.
Catherine looked at him curiously the next morning. He looked wretched--haggard and hollow-eyed. She knew he had not come in till the summer dawn. But he had lost the rapt, uncanny look she hated; suddenly she no longer felt afraid of him. With this, she began to ask questions again.
"What kept ye out so late again last night, b"y?" she said reproachfully.
Roger looked at her in her morning ugliness. He had not really seen her for weeks. Now she smote on his tortured senses, so long drugged with beauty, like a physical blow. He suddenly burst into a laughter that frightened her.
"Preserve"s, b"y, have ye gone mad? Or," she added, "have ye seen Isabel Temple"s ghost?"
"No," said Roger loudly and explosively. "Don"t talk any more about that d.a.m.ned ghost. n.o.body ever saw it. The whole story is balderdash."
He got up and went violently out, leaving Catherine aghast. Was it possible Roger had sworn? What on earth had come over the b"y? But come what had or come what would, he no longer looked _fey_--there was that much to be thankful for. Even an occasional oath was better than that. Catherine went stiffly about her dish-washing, resolving to have "Liza Adams to supper some night.
For a week Roger lived in agony--an agony of shame and humiliation and self-contempt. Then, when the edge of his bitter disappointment wore away, he made another dreadful discovery. He still loved her and longed for her just as keenly as before. He wanted madly to see her--her flower-like face, her great, asking eyes, the sleek, braided flow of her hair. Ghost or woman--spirit or flesh--it mattered not. He could not live without her. At last his hunger for her drew him to the old grey house on the bay sh.o.r.e. He knew he was a fool--she would never look at him; he was only feeding the flame that must consume him. But go he must and did, seeking for his lost paradise.
He did not see her when he went in, but Mrs. Barr received him kindly and talked about her in a pleasant garrulous fashion which jarred on Roger, yet he listened greedily. Lilith, her aunt told him, had been made deaf by the accidental explosion of a gun when she was eight years old. She could not hear a sound but she could talk.
"A little, that is--not much, but enough to get along with. But she don"t like talking somehow--dunno why. She"s shy--and we think maybe she don"t like to talk much because she can"t hear her own voice. She don"t ever speak except just when she has to. But she"s been trained to lip-reading something wonderful--she can understand anything that"s said when she can see the person that"s talking. Still, it"s a terrible drawback for the poor child--she"s never had any real girl-life and she"s dreadful sensitive and retiring. We can"t get her to go out anywhere, only for lonely walks along sh.o.r.e by herself.
We"re much obliged for what you did the other night. It ain"t safe for her to wander about alone as she does, but it ain"t often anybody from the harbour gets up this far. She was dreadful upset about it--hasn"t got over her scare yet."
When Lilith came in, her ivory-white face went scarlet all over at the sight of Roger. She sat down in a shadowy corner. Mrs. Barr got up and went out. Roger was mute; he could find nothing to say. He could have talked glibly enough to Isabel Temple"s ghost in some unearthly tryst by her grave, but he could not find a word to say to this slip of flesh and blood. He felt very foolish and absurd, and very conscious of his twisted shoulder. What a fool he had been to come!
Then Lilith looked up at him--and smiled. A little shy, friendly smile. Roger suddenly saw her not as the tantalizing, unreal, mystic thing of the twilit grove, but as a little human creature, exquisitely pretty in her young-moon beauty, longing for companionship. He got up, forgetting his ugliness, and went across the room to her.
"Will you come for a walk," he said eagerly. He held out his hand like a child; as a child she stood up and took it; like two children they went out and down the sunset sh.o.r.e. Roger was again incredibly happy.
It was not the same happiness as had been his in that vanished fortnight; it was a homelier happiness with its feet on the earth. The amazing thing was that he felt she was happy too--happy because she was walking with _him_, "Jarback" Temple, whom no girl had even thought about. A certain secret well-spring of fancy that had seemed dry welled up in him sparklingly again.
Through the summer weeks the odd courtship went on. Roger talked to her as he had never talked to anyone. He did not find it in the least hard to talk to her, though her necessity of watching his face so closely while he talked bothered him occasionally. He felt that her intent gaze was reading his soul as well as his lips. She never talked much herself; what she did say she spoke so low that it was hardly above a whisper, but she had a voice as lovely as her face--sweet, cadenced, haunting. Roger was quite mad about her, and he was horribly afraid that he could never get up enough courage to ask her to marry him. And he was afraid that if he did, she would never consent. In spite of her shy, eager welcomes he could not believe she could care for him--for _him_. She liked him, she was sorry for him, but it was unthinkable that she, white, exquisite Lilith, could marry him and sit at his table and his hearth. He was a fool to dream of it.
To the existence of romance and glamour in which he lived, no gossip of the countryside penetrated. Yet much gossip there was, and at last it came blundering in on Roger to destroy his fairy world a second time. He came downstairs one night in the twilight, ready to go to Lilith. His aunt and an old crony were talking in the kitchen; the crony was old, and Catherine, supposing Roger was out of the house, was talking loudly in that horrible voice of hers with still more horrible zest and satisfaction.
"Yes, I"m guessing it"ll be a match as ye say. Oh the b"y"s doing well. He ain"t for every market, as I"m bound to admit. Ef she wan"t deaf she wouldn"t look at him, no doubt. But she has scads of money--they won"t need to do a tap of work unless they like--and she"s a good housekeeper too her aunt tells me. She"s pretty enough to suit him--he"s as particular as never was--and he wan"t crooked and she wan"t deaf when they was born, so it"s likely their children will be all right. I"m that proud when I think of the match."
Roger fled out of the house, white of face and sick of heart. He went, not to the bay sh.o.r.e, but to Isabel Temple"s grave. He had never been there since the night when he had rescued Lilith, but now he rushed to it in his new agony. His aunt"s horrible practicalities had filled him with disgust--they dragged his love in the dust of sordid things. And Lilith was rich; he had never known that--never suspected it. He could never ask her to marry him now; he must never see her again. For the second time he had lost her, and this second losing could not be borne.
He sat down on the big boulder by the grave and dropped his poor grey face in his hands, moaning in anguish. Nothing was left him, not even dreams. He hoped he could soon die.
He did not know how long he sat there--he did not know when she came.
But when he lifted his miserable eyes, he saw her, sitting just a little way from him on the big stone and looking at him with something in her face that made his heart beat madly. He forgot Aunt Catherine"s sacrilege--he forgot that he was a presumptuous fool. He bent forward and kissed her lips for the first time. The wonder of it loosed his bound tongue.
"Lilith," he gasped, "I love you."
She put her hand into his and nestled closer to him.
"I thought you would have told me that long ago," she said.
Uncle Richard"s New Year"s Dinner
Prissy Baker was in Oscar Miller"s store New Year"s morning, buying matches--for New Year"s was not kept as a business holiday in Quincy--when her uncle, Richard Baker, came in. He did not look at Prissy, nor did she wish him a happy New Year; she would not have dared. Uncle Richard had not been on speaking terms with her or her father, his only brother, for eight years.
He was a big, ruddy, prosperous-looking man--an uncle to be proud of, Prissy thought wistfully, if only he were like other people"s uncles, or, indeed, like what he used to be himself. He was the only uncle Prissy had, and when she had been a little girl they had been great friends; but that was before the quarrel, in which Prissy had had no share, to be sure, although Uncle Richard seemed to include her in his rancour.
Richard Baker, so he informed Mr. Miller, was on his way to Navarre with a load of pork.
"I didn"t intend going over until the afternoon," he said, "but Joe Hemming sent word yesterday he wouldn"t be buying pork after twelve today. So I have to tote my hogs over at once. I don"t care about doing business New Year"s morning."
"Should think New Year"s would be pretty much the same as any other day to you," said Mr. Miller, for Richard Baker was a bachelor, with only old Mrs. Janeway to keep house for him.
"Well, I always like a good dinner on New Year"s," said Richard Baker.
"It"s about the only way I can celebrate. Mrs. Janeway wanted to spend the day with her son"s family over at Oriental, so I was laying out to cook my own dinner. I got everything ready in the pantry last night, "fore I got word about the pork. I won"t get back from Navarre before one o"clock, so I reckon I"ll have to put up with a cold bite."
After her Uncle Richard had driven away, Prissy walked thoughtfully home. She had planned to spend a nice, lazy holiday with the new book her father had given her at Christmas and a box of candy. She did not even mean to cook a dinner, for her father had had to go to town that morning to meet a friend and would be gone the whole day. There was n.o.body else to cook dinner for. Prissy"s mother had died when Prissy was a baby. She was her father"s housekeeper, and they had jolly times together.
But as she walked home, she could not help thinking about Uncle Richard. He would certainly have cold New Year cheer, enough to chill the whole coming year. She felt sorry for him, picturing him returning from Navarre, cold and hungry, to find a fireless house and an uncooked dinner in the pantry.