Luttrell Of Arran

Chapter 111

"I must pay what I owe, Harry, before I incur a new debt," said she, with a smile of deep melancholy.

"Why did I ever come here? What evil destiny ever brought me to know you!" cried he, pa.s.sionately. "A week ago--one short week--and I had courage to go anywhere, dare anything, and now the whole world is a blank to me."

"Where are you going? Don"t go away, Harry. Sit down, like a dear, kind cousin, and hear me. First of all, bear in mind people cannot always do what is pleasantest in life----"

A heavy bang of the door stopped her, and he was gone!

CHAPTER LXVI. A CHRISTMAS AT ARRAN

For two entire days Harry Luttrell wandered over the island alone and miserable, partly resolved never to see Kate again, yet he had not resolution to leave the spot. She sent frequent messages and notes to him, entreating he would come up to the Abbey, but he gave mere verbal replies, and never went.

"Here"s Miss Kate at the door, Sir, asking if you"re in the house," said the woman of the inn; "what am I to tell her?"

Harry arose, and went out.

"Come and have a walk with me, Harry," said she, holding out her hand cordially towards him. "This is Christmas-day--not a morning to remember one"s grudges. Come along; I have many things to say to you."

He drew her arm silently within his own, and walked on. After a few half-jesting reproaches for his avoidance of her, she became more serious in manner, and went on to talk of Arran and its future. She told of what she had done, and what she meant to do, not claiming as her own many of the projects, but honestly saying that the first suggestions of them she had found amongst his father"s papers.

"It is of these same papers," said she, more earnestly, "I desire to speak. I want you to read them, and to read them carefully, Harry. You will see that the struggle of a proud man against an unequal marriage marred the whole success of a life; you will see that it was this "low-lived herd"--the hard words are his own--that had stamped ruin upon him. The disappointment he had met with might have driven him for a while from the world, but, after a year or two, he would have gone back to it more eager for success, more determined to a.s.sert himself, than ever. It was the bane of a low connexion poisoned all hope of recovery.

How could he free, himself from the claims of this lawless brood? His journals are filled with this complaint. It is evident, too, from the letters of his friends, how he must have betrayed his misery to them, proud and reserved as he was. There are constant allusions through them to his stern refusal of all invitations, and to his haughty rejection of all their friendly devices to draw him back amongst them. It was in some moment of rash vengeance for an injury real or supposed," said she, "that he plunged into this marriage, and it completed his ruin. If there was a lesson he desired to teach his son, it was this one; if there was a point which he regarded as the very pivot of a man"s fortune, it was the belongings which surround and cling to him, for better or for worse, on his journey through life. I will show you not one, but fifty-ay, twice fifty--pa.s.sages in his diary that mark the deep sense he had of this misfortune. When the terrible tidings reached him that you were lost, he ceased to make entries regularly in his journal, but on your birthday recurring, there is this one: "Would have been twenty-two today. Who knows which for the best? No need of my warnings now; no need to say, Do not as I have done!" Are you listening to me, Harry?" asked she, at length, as he never by a word or sign seemed to acknowledge what she was saying.

"Yes, I hear you," said he, in a low voice.

"And you see why, my dear Harry, I tell you of these things. They are more than warnings; they are the last wishes, the dying behests, of a loving father; and he loved you, Harry--he loved you dearly. Now listen to me attentively, and mind well what I say. If these be all warnings to _you_, what are they to _me?_ Do you imagine it is only the well-born and the n.o.ble who have pride? Do you fancy that we poor creatures of the soil do not resent in our hearts the haughty contempt by which you separate your lot from ours? Do you believe it is in human nature to concede a superiority which is to extend not to mere modes of life and enjoyments, to power, and place, and influence, but to feelings, to sentiments, to affections? In one word, are you to have the whole monopoly of pride, and only leave to us so much as the honour of "pertaining" to you? Or is it to be enough for us to know that we have dragged down the man who tried to raise us? Reflect a little over this, dear cousin, and you will see that, painful as it is to stoop, it is worse--ten thousand times worse--to be stooped to! Leave me, then, to my own road in life--leave me, and forget me, and if you want to remember me, let it be in some connexion with these poor people, whom I have loved so well, and whose love will follow me; and above all, Harry, don"t shake my self-confidence as to the future. It is my only capital; if I lose it, I am penniless. Are you listening to me?"

"I hear you but too well," muttered he. "All I gather from your words is, that while accusing us of pride, _you_ confess to having ten times more yourself. Perhaps if I had not been a poor sailor, without friends or fortune, that same haughty spirit of yours had been less stubborn."

"What do you mean?" said she, disengaging herself from his arm, and staring at him with wide-opened, flashing eyes. "Of what meanness is this you dare to accuse me?"

"You have angered me, and I know not what I say."

"That is not enough, Sir. You must unsay it! After all that I have told you of my early life, such an imputation is an insult."

"I unsay it. I ask pardon that I ever said it. Oh, if you but knew the wretchedness of my heart, you would see it is my misery, not myself that speaks."

"Be as brave as I am--or as I mean to be, Harry. Don"t refuse to meet the coming struggle--whatever it be--in life; meet it like a man.

Take my word for it, had your father lived, he would have backed every syllable I have spoken to you. Come back to the Abbey now, and give me your best counsel. You can tell me about this long voyage that is before me. There are many things I want to ask you."

As they turned towards the house, she went on talking, but in short, broken sentences, endeavouring, as it were, to say something---anything that should leave no pause for thought. The old doorway was decked with holly-boughs and arbutus-twigs, in tasteful honour of the day, and she directed his attention to the graceful courtesy of the poor people, who had bethought them of this attention; and simple as the act was, it revealed to Harry the wondrous change which had come over these wild natives, now that their hearts had been touched by sympathy and kindness. In the old days of long ago there were none of these things.

Times nor seasons met no recognition. The dark shadow of melancholy brooded drearily over all; none sought to dispel it.

The little children of the school, dressed in their best, were all drawn up in the Abbey, to wish their benefactress a happy Christmas; and Kate had provided a store of little toys from Westport that was certain to render the happiness reciprocal. And there were, too, in the background, the hardy fishermen and their wives, eager to "pay their duty;" and venerable old heads, white with years, were there, to bless her who had made so many hearts light, and so many homes cheery.

"Here is your Master Harry, that you all loved so well," said Kate, as she gained the midst of them. "Here he is, come back to live with you."

And a wild cheer of joy rang through the old walls, while a tumultuous rush was made to grasp his hand, or even touch his coat. What blessings were uttered upon him! What honest praises of his handsome face and manly figure! How like he was to "his Honour," but far stronger and more upstanding than his father, in the days they knew him!

They overwhelmed him with questions about his shipwreck and his perils, and his frank, simple manner delighted them. Their own hardy natures could feel for such dangers as he told of, and knew how to prize the courage that had confronted them.

"These are all our guests to-day, Harry," said Kate. "We"ll come back and see them by-and-by. Meanwhile, come with me. It is our first Christmas dinner together; who knows what long years and time may do? It may not be our last."

With all those varied powers of pleasing she was mistress of, she made the time pa.s.s delightfully. She told little incidents of her Dalradem life, with humorous sketches of the society there; she described the old Castle itself, and the woods around it, with the feeling of a painter; and then she sang for him s.n.a.t.c.hes of Italian or Spanish romance to the guitar, till Harry, in the ecstasy of his enjoyment, almost forgot his grief.

From time to time, too, they would pa.s.s out and visit the revellers in the Abbey, where, close packed together, the hardy peasantry sat drinking to the happy Christmas that had restored to them the Luttrell of Arran.

The wild cheer with which they greeted Harry as he came amongst them sent a thrill through his heart. "Yes, this was home; these were his own!"

It was almost daybreak ere the festivities concluded, and Kate whispered in Harry"s ear: "You"ll have a commission from me to-morrow. I shall want you to go to Dublin for me. Will you go?"

"If I can leave you," muttered he, as with bent-down head he moved away.

CHAPTER LXVII. A CHRISTMAS ABROAD

Let us turn one moment to another Christmas. A far more splendid table was that around which the guests were seated. Glittering gla.s.s and silver adorned it, and the company was a courtly and distinguished one.

Sir Gervais Vyner sat surrounded with his friends, happy in the escape from late calamity, and brilliant in all the glow of recovered buoyancy and spirits. Nor were the ladies of the house less disposed to enjoyment. The world was again about to dawn upon them in rosy sunshine, and they hailed its coming with true delight.

Not one of all these was, however, happier than Mr. M"Kinlay. The occasion represented to his mind something very little short of Elysium.

To be ministered to by a French cook, in the midst of a distinguished company who paid him honour, was Paradise itself. To feel that while his baser wants were luxuriously provided for, all his intellectual sallies--small and humble as they were--were met with a hearty acceptance--was a very intoxicating sensation. Thus, as with half-closed eyes he slowly drew in his Burgundy, his ears drew in, not less ecstatically, such words: "How well said!" "How neatly put!" "Have you heard Mr. M"Kinlay"s last?" or, better than all, Sir Gervais himself "repeating him," endorsing, as it were, the little bill he was drawing on Fame!

In happiness only inferior to this, Mr. Grenfell sat opposite him.

Grenfell was at last where he had striven for years to be. The haughty "women," who used to look so coldly on him in the Park, now smiled graciously when he talked, and vouchsafed towards him a manner positively cordial. Georgina had said: "I almost feel as if we were old friends, Mr. Grenfell, hearing of you so constantly from my brother;"

and then little playful recognitions of his humour or his taste would be let fall, as "Of course _you_ will say _this_, or think _that?_" all showing how well his nature had been understood, and his very influence felt, years before he was personally known.

These are real flatteries; they are the sort of delicate incense which regale sensitive organisations long palled to grosser worship. Your thorough man of the world does not want to be "praised;" he asks to be "understood," because, in his intense self-love, he believes that such means more than praise. It is the delicate appreciation of himself he asks for, that you should know what wealth there is in him, even though he has no mind to display it.

He was an adept in the art of insinuation; besides that, he knew "every one." And these are the really amusing people of society, infinitely more so than those who know "everything." For all purposes of engaging attention there is no theme like humanity. Look at it as long and closely as you will, and you will see that in this great game we call "Life" no two players play alike. The first move or two may be the same, and then, all is different.

There was a third guest; he sat next Lady Vyner, in the place of honour.

With a wig, the last triumph of Parisian skill, and a delicate bloom upon his cheek no peach could rival, Sir Within sat glittering in diamond studs and opal b.u.t.tons, and his grand cross of the Bath. He was finer than the epergne! and the waxlights twinkled and sparkled on him as though he were frosted silver and filigree. His eyes had their l.u.s.tre too--uneasy, fitful brightness--as though the brain that ministered to them worked with moments of intermission; but more significantly painful than all was the little meaningless smile that sat upon his mouth, and never changed, whether he spoke or listened.

He had told some pointless, rambling story about an Archd.u.c.h.ess and a Court jeweller and a celebrated Jew banker, which none could follow or fathom; and simperingly finished by a.s.suring them that all other versions were incorrect. And there was a pause--a very painful silence that lasted above a minute. Very awful such moments are, when, in the midst of our laughter and our cheer, a terrible warning would seem to whisper to our hearts that all was not joy or gladness there! and that Decay, perhaps Death, was at the board amongst them.

Grenfell, with the hardihood that became him, tried to rally the company, and told the story of the last current scandal, the card-cheating adventure, in which young Ladarelle was mixed up. "They"ve given him five years at the galleys, I see, Sir Within," said he; "and, I remember, you often predicted some such finish to his career."

"Yes," smiled the old man, tapping his jewelled snuff-box--"yes, you are quite right, Mr. Grenfell--quite right."

"He goes off to Toulon this very day," resumed Grenfell.

"He was a charmant garcon," said the old man, with another smile; "and will be an acquisition to any society he enters."

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