(I have been again compelled to lay aside my pen for many days.
Now I must try if I can finish.)
Let not the wrong I did to you, and thereby, alas, to many both in the present and in the future, be used by you as an excuse for never making further progress! You can, if you will, give free scope to whatever power there is within you, if not in one way, in another. And do this now; do it, also, because I implore you! You can make the burden of my fault less heavy for my thoughts, now in the last hours of my life.
Aye, while I write this it grows lighter. The kindness you, in spite of all, surely cherish toward me (I feel it!) sends me a greeting.
You will, so far as you can, rescue my life"s work, where it failed to complete its efforts; you will build upon and improve, Magnhild!
You will, moreover, accept this request as a consolation?
(I could proceed no farther. But to-day I am better.)
If what I have written helps to open the world once more to you, so that you can enter in and take hold of life"s duties; aye, if all that you have either neglected or only half performed can come to attain the rank of links in life"s problem, and thus become dear to you,--then it will do me good; remember this!
Farewell!
Ah, yes, farewell! I have other letters to write, and cannot do much. Farewell! HANS TANDE.
(Eight days later.)
I copy in this letter to you the following lines from a letter to another:--
"It is not true that love is for every one the portal to life.
Perchance it is not so for even half of those who attain _real life_.
"There are many whose lives are ruined by the loss of love, or by sacrificing everything to love. With some of them, perhaps, it could not have been otherwise (people are so different, circ.u.mstances excuse so much); but those whose existences I have seen thus blighted could unconditionally have gained the mastery over self and in the effort acquired a new power. Encouraged, however, by a cla.s.s of literature and art whose short-sightedness proceeds from a maimed will, they neglected all attempts at gaining strength."
CHAPTER XI.
Magnhild and Ronnaug came arm in arm out of the wood where Ronnaug had finally been obliged to seek her friend, where so many confidences had been made, so much discussed and considered. They emerged into the open plain. How blue the haze about the mountains! And this was the frame for the pine forest, the surrounding heather, and the plain with Miss Roland and the child. The latter were sitting on blue and red rugs near the carriage. From this foreground the mother"s eye wandered away more musingly than ever, and gained even stronger impressions of outline, light, color.
"The summer travels in Norway! The summer travels in Norway!" she kept saying to herself.
From the way in which she uttered these words it might be surmised that in the entire English vocabulary there was nothing which admitted of being repeated with such varied shades of meaning.
The two friends took a long ramble. Magnhild had become a new being to Ronnaug, her individuality enriched, her countenance illumined and thus transformed. For nearly five years Magnhild had been secretly brooding over her lost vocation, and her lost love, those two sisters that had lived and died together. At length she had opened her heart to another; thus something had been accomplished.
The horses were now hitched to the carriage, and the party drove on. The noonday repose of nature was not disturbed by so much as the rumbling of the wheels, for the carriage wound its way slowly over the mountain slopes.
At the next post-station the following lines were found in the register:--
"There met us croaking ravens on our way: We knew that Evil this to us did bode; We made no off"rings, though, as on we rode, To angry G.o.ds--the mild are fall of doubt.
Why should we care? One G.o.d to us feels kindly.
He is with us! And Him we follow blindly:-- We laugh at all the omens round about."
These little verses began to affect the party like a chorus of birds.
But a joy to which we are unattuned is apt to jar; and here, moreover, the verses became prophetic, for the travelers had gone but a short distance when they gained a view of the church steeple on the heights where Magnhild"s parents and brothers and sisters were buried, and of the stony ground in the mountain to the left where the home of her childhood had been situated.
This barren patch of stones always rose up distinctly in Magnhild"s mind when she thought of her own life, whose long desert wastes seemed to lay stretched out before her like just such a heap of ruins. Here it faced her once more. It was some time before the consolation she had newly grasped could find expression, for she was haunted by so much that was unsolved, so much that was doubtful. She was now approaching the starting-point of the whole; from the brow of the hill the parsonage was visible.
It had been agreed that they should stop here. The carriage rolled down toward the friendly gard through an avenue of birch-trees. Ronnaug was giving Miss Roland a most humorous description of the family at the parsonage when suddenly they were all terrified by having the carriage nearly upset. Just by the turn near the house-steps the coachman had driven against a large stone which lay with its lower side protruding into the road. Both Ronnaug and Miss Roland uttered a little shriek, but when they escaped without an accident they laughed. To their delight Magnhild joined in their laughter. Trifling as had been the occurrence, it had served to rouse her. She was surprised to find herself at the parsonage. And this stone? Ah, how many hundred vehicles had not driven over it! Would it ever be removed, though? There stood old Andreas, old Soren, old Knut? There, too, was old Ane, looking out! From the sitting-room came the sound of a dog"s bark.
"Have they a dog?" asked Magnhild.
"If they have," replied Ronnaug, "I will venture to say it came through its own enterprise."
Old Ane took the luggage, Ronnaug the child, and the whole party was ushered through the pa.s.sage into the sitting-room, where no one was found except the dog. He was a great s.h.a.ggy fellow, who at the first kind word relinquished his wrath, and in a leisurely way went from one to the other, snuffing and wagging his tail, then sauntering back to the stove, lay down, fat and comfortable.
A creaking and a grating could now be heard overhead; the priest was rising from the sofa. How well Magnhild knew the music of those springs!
The dog knew it too, and started up, ready to follow his master. But the latter, who was soon heard on the groaning wooden stairs, did not go out but came into the sitting-room, so the dog only greeted him, and wagging his tail went back to the stove, where he rolled over with a sigh after his excessive exertion.
The priest was unchanged in every possible particular. He had heard about Ronnaug, and was glad to see her; his plump hands closed with a long friendly clasp about hers and with a still longer one about Magnhild"s. He greeted Miss Roland and played with the child, who was in high glee over the unfamiliar objects in the room, especially the dog.
And when he had lighted his pipe and had seated the others and himself on the embroidered chairs and sofas, the first thing he must tell them (for it was just about a month since the matter had been successfully terminated) was that the "little girls" were provided for. There had been secured for each an annuity. It was really on the most astonishingly favorable terms. G.o.d in his inconceivable mercy had been so good to them. About the "Froken" (so the former governess was usually called), they had had greater cause for anxiety. They had, indeed, thought of doing something for her, too, although their means would scarcely have sufficed to make adequate provision for her, and she had grown too unwieldy to support herself. But G.o.d in his inscrutable mercy had not forgotten her. She no longer needed an annuity. She had gone to make a visit at the house of a relative not many miles distant, and while there G.o.d had called her to Himself; the journey had been too much for her. This intelligence had reached the parsonage a few days before, and the priest was in great uncertainty as to whether a bridal couple would postpone their wedding for a few days.
"Thus it is, dear Magnhild, in life"s vicissitudes," said he. "The one is summoned to the grave, the other to the marriage feast. Ah, yes! But what a pretty dress you have on, my child! Skarlie is truly a good husband to you. This cannot be denied."
The mistress of the house and her two daughters at length appeared. The moistened hair, the clean linen, the freshly ironed dresses, betokened newly-made toilets. They had not a word to say; the priest took charge of the conversation, they merely courtesied as they shook hands, and then, taking up their embroidery, sat down each on her own embroidered chair. One of the daughters, however, soon rose and whispered something to her mother; from the direction in which first her eyes then her mother"s wandered, it might be concluded that she had asked whether the gauze covers should be removed from the mirror, the pictures, and the few plaster figures in the room. As the girl at once took her seat again, it must have been decided that the covers should not be removed.
"Tell me about the Froken who is dead," said Magnhild.
With one accord the three ladies dropped their embroidery and raised their heads.
"She died of apoplexy," said the priest"s wife.
They all sat motionless for a moment, and then the ladies continued their embroidery.
The priest rose to let the dog out. The animal departed with the appearance of being excessively abashed, for which the priest gave him much praise. Then followed a lengthy account of the dog"s virtues. He had come to them three years ago, the Lord alone knew from where, and He alone knew why the dog had come to the parsonage; for the very next summer the animal had saved the "Froken"s" life when she was attacked on her accustomed walk to the church by Ole Bjorgan"s mad bull.
The third great event, that old Andreas had cut his foot, was next detailed at quite as great length. The priest was just telling what old Andreas had said when he, the priest, was helping him to the couch, when the narrative was interrupted by an humble scratching at the door; it came, of course, from the dog. The corpulent priest rose forthwith to admit the animal, and bestowed on him kind words of admonition, which were accepted with a timid wagging of the tail.
The dog glanced round the room; observing that the eyes of the priest"s wife manifestly rested with especial friendliness on him, he walked up to her, and licked the hand extended to him.
At this moment Magnhild rose, and abruptly crossing the floor to where the priest"s wife sat, she stroked her hair. She felt that every one was watching her, and that the mistress of the house herself was looking up in embarra.s.sed surprise,--and Magnhild was now powerless to explain what she had done. She hastened from the room. Profound silence reigned among those left behind.
What was it? What had happened? It was _this_: in the forenoon Magnhild had received a letter, as we know, and it had caused her to look with new eyes on the life at the parsonage.
The tedium seemed uplifted, and behind it she beheld a kindness and an innocence she had always overlooked. And she began to understand the character of that home.