Every year since their marriage Carol had longed for a trip through the East. Every year Kennicott had talked of attending the American Medical a.s.sociation convention, "and then afterwards we could do the East up brown. I know New York clean through--spent pretty near a week there--but I would like to see New England and all these historic places and have some sea-food." He talked of it from February to May, and in May he invariably decided that coming confinement-cases or land-deals would prevent his "getting away from home-base for very long THIS year--and no sense going till we can do it right."
The weariness of dish-washing had increased her desire to go. She pictured herself looking at Emerson"s manse, bathing in a surf of jade and ivory, wearing a trottoir and a summer fur, meeting an aristocratic Stranger. In the spring Kennicott had pathetically volunteered, "S"pose you"d like to get in a good long tour this summer, but with Gould and Mac away and so many patients depending on me, don"t see how I can make it. By golly, I feel like a tightwad though, not taking you." Through all this restless July after she had tasted Bresnahan"s disturbing flavor of travel and gaiety, she wanted to go, but she said nothing.
They spoke of and postponed a trip to the Twin Cities. When she suggested, as though it were a tremendous joke, "I think baby and I might up and leave you, and run off to Cape Cod by ourselves!" his only reaction was "Golly, don"t know but what you may almost have to do that, if we don"t get in a trip next year."
Toward the end of July he proposed, "Say, the Beavers are holding a convention in Joralemon, street fair and everything. We might go down tomorrow. And I"d like to see Dr. Calibree about some business. Put in the whole day. Might help some to make up for our trip. Fine fellow, Dr.
Calibree."
Joralemon was a prairie town of the size of Gopher Prairie.
Their motor was out of order, and there was no pa.s.senger-train at an early hour. They went down by freight-train, after the weighty and conversational business of leaving Hugh with Aunt Bessie. Carol was exultant over this irregular jaunting. It was the first unusual thing, except the glance of Bresnahan, that had happened since the weaning of Hugh. They rode in the caboose, the small red cupola-topped car jerked along at the end of the train. It was a roving shanty, the cabin of a land schooner, with black oilcloth seats along the side, and for desk, a pine board to be let down on hinges. Kennicott played seven-up with the conductor and two brakemen. Carol liked the blue silk kerchiefs about the brakemen"s throats; she liked their welcome to her, and their air of friendly independence. Since there were no sweating pa.s.sengers crammed in beside her, she reveled in the train"s slowness. She was part of these lakes and tawny wheat-fields. She liked the smell of hot earth and clean grease; and the leisurely chug-a-chug, chug-a-chug of the trucks was a song of contentment in the sun.
She pretended that she was going to the Rockies. When they reached Joralemon she was radiant with holiday-making.
Her eagerness began to lessen the moment they stopped at a red frame station exactly like the one they had just left at Gopher Prairie, and Kennicott yawned, "Right on time. Just in time for dinner at the Calibrees". I "phoned the doctor from G. P. that we"d be here. "We"ll catch the freight that gets in before twelve," I told him. He said he"d meet us at the depot and take us right up to the house for dinner.
Calibree is a good man, and you"ll find his wife is a mighty brainy little woman, bright as a dollar. By golly, there he is."
Dr. Calibree was a squat, clean-shaven, conscientious-looking man of forty. He was curiously like his own brown-painted motor car, with eye-gla.s.ses for windshield. "Want you to meet my wife, doctor--Carrie, make you "quainted with Dr. Calibree," said Kennicott. Calibree bowed quietly and shook her hand, but before he had finished shaking it he was concentrating upon Kennicott with, "Nice to see you, doctor. Say, don"t let me forget to ask you about what you did in that exopthalmic goiter case--that Bohemian woman at Wahkeenyan."
The two men, on the front seat of the car, chanted goiters and ignored her. She did not know it. She was trying to feed her illusion of adventure by staring at unfamiliar houses ... drab cottages, artificial stone bungalows, square painty stolidities with immaculate clapboards and broad screened porches and tidy gra.s.s-plots.
Calibree handed her over to his wife, a thick woman who called her "dearie," and asked if she was hot and, visibly searching for conversation, produced, "Let"s see, you and the doctor have a Little One, haven"t you?" At dinner Mrs. Calibree served the corned beef and cabbage and looked steamy, looked like the steamy leaves of cabbage. The men were oblivious of their wives as they gave the social pa.s.swords of Main Street, the orthodox opinions on weather, crops, and motor cars, then flung away restraint and gyrated in the debauch of shop-talk.
Stroking his chin, drawling in the ecstasy of being erudite, Kennicott inquired, "Say, doctor, what success have you had with thyroid for treatment of pains in the legs before child-birth?"
Carol did not resent their a.s.sumption that she was too ignorant to be admitted to masculine mysteries. She was used to it. But the cabbage and Mrs. Calibree"s monotonous "I don"t know what we"re coming to with all this difficulty getting hired girls" were gumming her eyes with drowsiness. She sought to clear them by appealing to Calibree, in a manner of exaggerated liveliness, "Doctor, have the medical societies in Minnesota ever advocated legislation for help to nursing mothers?"
Calibree slowly revolved toward her. "Uh--I"ve never--uh--never looked into it. I don"t believe much in getting mixed up in politics." He turned squarely from her and, peering earnestly at Kennicott, resumed, "Doctor, what"s been your experience with unilateral pyelonephritis?
Buckburn of Baltimore advocates decapsulation and nephrotomy, but seems to me----"
Not till after two did they rise. In the lee of the stonily mature trio Carol proceeded to the street fair which added mundane gaiety to the annual rites of the United and Fraternal Order of Beavers. Beavers, human Beavers, were everywhere: thirty-second degree Beavers in gray sack suits and decent derbies, more flippant Beavers in crash summer coats and straw hats, rustic Beavers in shirt sleeves and frayed suspenders; but whatever his caste-symbols, every Beaver was distinguished by an enormous shrimp-colored ribbon lettered in silver, "Sir Knight and Brother, U. F. O. B., Annual State Convention." On the motherly shirtwaist of each of their wives was a badge "Sir Knight"s Lady." The Duluth delegation had brought their famous Beaver amateur band, in Zouave costumes of green velvet jacket, blue trousers, and scarlet fez. The strange thing was that beneath their scarlet pride the Zouaves" faces remained those of American business-men, pink, smooth, eye-gla.s.sed; and as they stood playing in a circle, at the corner of Main Street and Second, as they tootled on fifes or with swelling cheeks blew into cornets, their eyes remained as owlish as though they were sitting at desks under the sign "This Is My Busy Day."
Carol had supposed that the Beavers were average citizens organized for the purposes of getting cheap life-insurance and playing poker at the lodge-rooms every second Wednesday, but she saw a large poster which proclaimed:
BEAVERS U. F. O. B.
The greatest influence for good citizenship in the country. The jolliest aggregation of red-blooded, open-handed, hustle-em-up good fellows in the world.
Joralemon welcomes you to her hospitable city.
Kennicott read the poster and to Calibree admired, "Strong lodge, the Beavers. Never joined. Don"t know but what I will."
Calibree adumbrated, "They"re a good bunch. Good strong lodge. See that fellow there that"s playing the snare drum? He"s the smartest wholesale grocer in Duluth, they say. Guess it would be worth joining. Oh say, are you doing much insurance examining?"
They went on to the street fair.
Lining one block of Main Street were the "attractions"--two hot-dog stands, a lemonade and pop-corn stand, a merry-go-round, and booths in which b.a.l.l.s might be thrown at rag dolls, if one wished to throw b.a.l.l.s at rag dolls. The dignified delegates were shy of the booths, but country boys with brickred necks and pale-blue ties and bright-yellow shoes, who had brought sweethearts into town in somewhat dusty and listed Fords, were wolfing sandwiches, drinking strawberry pop out of bottles, and riding the revolving crimson and gold horses. They shrieked and giggled; peanut-roasters whistled; the merry-go-round pounded out monotonous music; the barkers bawled, "Here"s your chance--here"s your chance--come on here, boy--come on here--give that girl a good time--give her a swell time--here"s your chance to win a genuwine gold watch for five cents, half a dime, the twentieth part of a dollah!"
The prairie sun jabbed the unshaded street with shafts that were like poisonous thorns the tinny cornices above the brick stores were glaring; the dull breeze scattered dust on sweaty Beavers who crawled along in tight scorching new shoes, up two blocks and back, up two blocks and back, wondering what to do next, working at having a good time.
Carol"s head ached as she trailed behind the unsmiling Calibrees along the block of booths. She chirruped at Kennicott, "Let"s be wild! Let"s ride on the merry-go-round and grab a gold ring!"
Kennicott considered it, and mumbled to Calibree, "Think you folks would like to stop and try a ride on the merry-go-round?"
Calibree considered it, and mumbled to his wife, "Think you"d like to stop and try a ride on the merry-go-round?"
Mrs. Calibree smiled in a washed-out manner, and sighed, "Oh no, I don"t believe I care to much, but you folks go ahead and try it."
Calibree stated to Kennicott, "No, I don"t believe we care to a whole lot, but you folks go ahead and try it."
Kennicott summarized the whole case against wildness: "Let"s try it some other time, Carrie."
She gave it up. She looked at the town. She saw that in adventuring from Main Street, Gopher Prairie, to Main Street, Joralemon, she had not stirred. There were the same two-story brick groceries with lodge-signs above the awnings; the same one-story wooden millinery shop; the same fire-brick garages; the same prairie at the open end of the wide street; the same people wondering whether the levity of eating a hot-dog sandwich would break their taboos.
They reached Gopher Prairie at nine in the evening.
"You look kind of hot," said Kennicott.
"Yes."
"Joralemon is an enterprising town, don"t you think so?" She broke. "No!
I think it"s an ash-heap."
"Why, Carrie!"
He worried over it for a week. While he ground his plate with his knife as he energetically pursued fragments of bacon, he peeped at her.
CHAPTER XXV
"CARRIE"S all right. She"s finicky, but she"ll get over it. But I wish she"d hurry up about it! What she can"t understand is that a fellow practising medicine in a small town like this has got to cut out the highbrow stuff, and not spend all his time going to concerts and shining his shoes. (Not but what he might be just as good at all these intellectual and art things as some other folks, if he had the time for it!)" Dr. Will Kennicott was brooding in his office, during a free moment toward the end of the summer afternoon. He hunched down in his tilted desk-chair, undid a b.u.t.ton of his shirt, glanced at the state news in the back of the Journal of the American Medical a.s.sociation, dropped the magazine, leaned back with his right thumb hooked in the arm-hole of his vest and his left thumb stroking the back of his hair.
"By golly, she"s taking an awful big chance, though. You"d expect her to learn by and by that I won"t be a parlor lizard. She says we try to "make her over." Well, she"s always trying to make me over, from a perfectly good M. D. into a d.a.m.n poet with a socialist necktie! She"d have a fit if she knew how many women would be willing to cuddle up to Friend Will and comfort him, if he"d give "em the chance! There"s still a few dames that think the old man isn"t so darn unattractive! I"m glad I"ve ducked all that woman-game since I"ve been married but----Be switched if sometimes I don"t feel tempted to shine up to some girl that has sense enough to take life as it is; some frau that doesn"t want to talk Longfellow all the time, but just hold my hand and say, "You look all in, honey. Take it easy, and don"t try to talk."
"Carrie thinks she"s such a whale at a.n.a.lyzing folks. Giving the town the once-over. Telling us where we get off. Why, she"d simply turn up her toes and croak if she found out how much she doesn"t know about the high old times a wise guy could have in this burg on the Q.T., if he wasn"t faithful to his wife. But I am. At that, no matter what faults she"s got, there"s n.o.body here, no, nor in Minn"aplus either, that"s as nice-looking and square and bright as Carrie. She ought to of been an artist or a writer or one of those things. But once she took a shot at living here, she ought to stick by it. Pretty----Lord yes. But cold. She simply doesn"t know what pa.s.sion is. She simply hasn"t got an i-dea how hard it is for a full-blooded man to go on pretending to be satisfied with just being endured. It gets awful tiresome, having to feel like a criminal just because I"m normal. She"s getting so she doesn"t even care for my kissing her. Well----
"I guess I can weather it, same as I did earning my way through school and getting started in practise. But I wonder how long I can stand being an outsider in my own home?"
He sat up at the entrance of Mrs. Dave Dyer. She slumped into a chair and gasped with the heat. He chuckled, "Well, well, Maud, this is fine.
Where"s the subscription-list? What cause do I get robbed for, this trip?"
"I haven"t any subscription-list, Will. I want to see you professionally."
"And you a Christian Scientist? Have you given that up? What next? New Thought or Spiritualism?"
"No, I have not given it up!"
"Strikes me it"s kind of a knock on the sisterhood, your coming to see a doctor!"
"No, it isn"t. It"s just that my faith isn"t strong enough yet. So there now! And besides, you ARE kind of consoling, Will. I mean as a man, not just as a doctor. You"re so strong and placid."
He sat on the edge of his desk, coatless, his vest swinging open with the thick gold line of his watch-chain across the gap, his hands in his trousers pockets, his big arms bent and easy. As she purred he c.o.c.ked an interested eye. Maud Dyer was neurotic, religiocentric, faded; her emotions were moist, and her figure was unsystematic--splendid thighs and arms, with thick ankles, and a body that was bulgy in the wrong places. But her milky skin was delicious, her eyes were alive, her chestnut hair shone, and there was a tender slope from her ears to the shadowy place below her jaw.