"What! the idea that it rested with Delamayn to set things right? and that you might bribe him to do it, by consenting to release him, so far as your claims were concerned?"
"Bear with my folly, Sir Patrick, as patiently as you can! I am always alone now; and I get into a habit of brooding over things. I have been brooding over the position in which my misfortunes have placed Mr.
Brinkworth. I have been obstinate--unreasonably obstinate--in believing that I could prevail with Geoffrey Delamayn, after I had failed with Mrs. Glenarm. I am obstinate about it still. If he would only have heard me, my madness in going to Fulham might have had its excuse." She sighed bitterly, and said no more.
Sir Patrick took her hand.
"It _has_ its excuse," he said, kindly. "Your motive is beyond reproach.
Let me add--to quiet your mind--that, even if Delamayn had been willing to hear you, and had accepted the condition, the result would still have been the same. You are quite wrong in supposing that he has only to speak, and to set this matter right. It has pa.s.sed entirely beyond his control. The mischief was done when Arnold Brinkworth spent those unlucky hours with you at Craig Fernie."
"Oh, Sir Patrick, if I had only known that, before I went to Fulham this morning!"
She shuddered as she said the words. Something was plainly a.s.sociated with her visit to Geoffrey, the bare remembrance of which shook her nerves. What was it? Sir Patrick resolved to obtain an answer to that question, before he ventured on proceeding further with the main object of the interview.
"You have told me your reason for going to Fulham," he said. "But I have not heard what happened there yet."
Anne hesitated. "Is it necessary for me to trouble you about that?" she asked--with evident reluctance to enter on the subject.
"It is absolutely necessary," answered Sir Patrick, "because Delamayn is concerned in it."
Anne summoned her resolution, and entered on her narrative in these words:
"The person who carries on the business here discovered the address for me," she began. "I had some difficulty, however, in finding the house.
It is little more than a cottage; and it is quite lost in a great garden, surrounded by high walls. I saw a carriage waiting. The coachman was walking his horses up and down--and he showed me the door. It was a high wooden door in the wall, with a grating in it. I rang the bell. A servant-girl opened the grating, and looked at me. She refused to let me in. Her mistress had ordered her to close the door on all strangers--especially strangers who were women. I contrived to pa.s.s some money to her through the grating, and asked to speak to her mistress.
After waiting some time, I saw another face behind the bars--and it struck me that I recognized it. I suppose I was nervous. It startled me.
I said, "I think we know each other." There was no answer. The door was suddenly opened--and who do you think stood before me?"
"Was it somebody I know?"
"Yes."
"Man? or woman?"
"It was Hester Dethridge."
"Hester Dethridge!"
"Yes. Dressed just as usual, and looking just as usual--with her slate hanging at her side."
"Astonishing! Where did I last see her? At the Windygates station, to be sure--going to London, after she had left my sister-in-law"s service.
Has she accepted another place--without letting me know first, as I told her?"
"She is living at Fulham."
"In service?"
"No. As mistress of her own house."
"What! Hester Dethridge in possession of a house of her own? Well! well!
why shouldn"t she have a rise in the world like other people? Did she let you in?"
"She stood for some time looking at me, in that dull strange way that she has. The servants at Windygates always said she was not in her right mind--and you will say, Sir Patrick, when you hear what happened, that the servants were not mistaken. She must be mad. I said, "Don"t you remember me?" She lifted her slate, and wrote, "I remember you, in a dead swoon at Windygates House." I was quite unaware that she had been present when I fainted in the library. The discovery startled me--or that dreadful, dead-cold look that she has in her eyes startled me--I don"t know which. I couldn"t speak to her just at first. She wrote on her slate again--the strangest question--in these words: "I said, at the time, brought to it by a man. Did I say true?" If the question had been put in the usual way, by any body else, I should have considered it too insolent to be noticed. Can you understand my answering it, Sir Patrick?
I can"t understand it myself, now--and yet I did answer. She forced me to it with her stony eyes. I said "yes.""
"Did all this take place at the door?"
"At the door."
"When did she let you in?"
"The next thing she did was to let me in. She took me by the arm, in a rough way, and drew me inside the door, and shut it. My nerves are broken; my courage is gone. I crept with cold when she touched me. She dropped my arm. I stood like a child, waiting for what it pleased her to say or do next. She rested her two hands on her sides, and took a long look at me. She made a horrid dumb sound--not as if she was angry; more, if such a thing could be, as if she was satisfied--pleased even, I should have said, if it had been any body but Hester Dethridge. Do you understand it?"
"Not yet. Let me get nearer to understanding it by asking something before you go on. Did she show any attachment to you, when you were both at Windygates?"
"Not the least. She appeared to be incapable of attachment to me, or to any body."
"Did she write any more questions on her slate?"
"Yes. She wrote another question under what she had written just before.
Her mind was still running on my fainting fit, and on the "man" who had "brought me to it." She held up the slate; and the words were these: "Tell me how he served you, did he knock you down?" Most people would have laughed at the question. _I_ was startled by it. I told her, No.
She shook her head as if she didn"t believe me. She wrote on her slate, "We are loth to own it when they up with their fists and beat us--ain"t we?" I said, "You are quite wrong." She went on obstinately with her writing. "Who is the man?"--was her next question. I had control enough over myself to decline telling her that. She opened the door, and pointed to me to go out. I made a sign entreating her to wait a little. She went back, in her impenetrable way, to the writing on the slate--still about the "man." This time, the question was plainer still.
She had evidently placed her own interpretation of my appearance at the house. She wrote, "Is it the man who lodges here?" I saw that she would close the door on me if I didn"t answer. My only chance with her was to own that she had guessed right. I said "Yes. I want to see him." She took me by the arm, as roughly as before--and led me into the house."
"I begin to understand her," said Sir Patrick. "I remember hearing, in my brother"s time, that she had been brutally ill-used by her husband.
The a.s.sociation of id eas, even in _her_ confused brain, becomes plain, if you bear that in mind. What is her last remembrance of you? It is the remembrance of a fainting woman at Windygates."
"Yes."
"She makes you acknowledge that she has guessed right, in guessing that a man was, in some way, answerable for the condition in which she found you. A swoon produced by a shock indicted on the mind, is a swoon that she doesn"t understand. She looks back into her own experience, and a.s.sociates it with the exercise of actual physical brutality on the part of the man. And she sees, in you, a reflection of her own sufferings and her own case. It"s curious--to a student of human nature. And it explains, what is otherwise unintelligible--her overlooking her own instructions to the servant, and letting you into the house. What happened next?"
"She took me into a room, which I suppose was her own room. She made signs, offering me tea. It was done in the strangest way--without the least appearance of kindness. After what you have just said to me, I think I can in some degree interpret what was going on in her mind.
I believe she felt a hard-hearted interest in seeing a woman whom she supposed to be as unfortunate as she had once been herself. I declined taking any tea, and tried to return to the subject of what I wanted in the house. She paid no heed to me. She pointed round the room; and then took me to a window, and pointed round the garden--and then made a sign indicating herself. "My house; and my garden"--that was what she meant.
There were four men in the garden--and Geoffrey Delamayn was one of them. I made another attempt to tell her that I wanted to speak to him.
But, no! She had her own idea in her mind. After beckoning to me to leave the window, she led the way to the fire-place, and showed me a sheet of paper with writing on it, framed and placed under a gla.s.s, and hung on the wall. She seemed, I thought, to feel some kind of pride in her framed ma.n.u.script. At any rate, she insisted on my reading it. It was an extract from a will."
"The will under which she had inherited the house?"
"Yes. Her brother"s will. It said, that he regretted, on his death-bed, his estrangement from his only sister, dating from the time when she had married in defiance of his wishes and against his advice. As a proof of his sincere desire to be reconciled with her, before he died, and as some compensation for the sufferings that she had endured at the hands of her deceased husband, he left her an income of two hundred pounds a year, together with the use of his house and garden, for her lifetime.
That, as well as I remember, was the substance of what it said."
"Creditable to her brother, and creditable to herself," said Sir Patrick. "Taking her odd character into consideration, I understand her liking it to be seen. What puzzles me, is her letting lodgings with an income of her own to live on."
"That was the very question which I put to her myself. I was obliged to be cautious, and to begin by asking about the lodgers first--the men being still visible out in the garden, to excuse the inquiry. The rooms to let in the house had (as I understood her) been taken by a person acting for Geoffrey Delamayn--his trainer, I presume. He had surprised Hester Dethridge by barely noticing the house, and showing the most extraordinary interest in the garden."
"That is quite intelligible, Miss Silvester. The garden you have described would be just the place he wanted for the exercises of his employer--plenty of s.p.a.ce, and well secured from observation by the high walls all round. What next?"
"Next, I got to the question of why she should let her house in lodgings at all. When I asked her that, her face turned harder than ever. She answered me on her slate in these dismal words: "I have not got a friend in the world. I dare not live alone." There was her reason! Dreary and dreadful, Sir Patrick, was it not?"